3.30 Wednesday

admitted, I still can't let her go. My heart is still tangled and sad. Now I just don't want to meet me, and I don't want to meet it once. Familiarity with strangeness, such fickleness, so uncomfortable. I really can't stand it, and I don't want to be tormented.

When I came to study at night, I was in a good mood. I met her at the school gate, pretending to be strangers to each other, and I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. The smile of the first few seconds turned into a depressed face, and I couldn't laugh at all. I know that it is very difficult to think of something happy and get rid of this pain. I can't think of ordinary laughing activities, and it's even more painful to think about happy things. Knowing you, all joy and happiness mutate into pain and sorrow. Memories that I can't forget always burn my heart, maybe time can heal the wounded heart. It's just wishful thinking, the truth, I don't want to run away from anything, I don't want to deceive myself.

The people tried their best not to think about it, but they couldn't control it, and it disturbed people. Messy as silk, I bear the pain that I can't escape. I told myself to be brave and pick yin, but I still lack self-confidence, and I still refuse to accept the result and deserve to suffer. I doubt it's a trick from above. What a mistake! It's not beautiful yet!

I wish I had graduated sooner so we wouldn't have met again. After a long time, it will be forgotten, and the occasional memory will only be beautiful, not painful. But I have to admit that I hope to be with her all the time, sharing each other's bits and pieces, each other's joys and pains. The more beautiful the fantasy, the more cruel the reality. The heart is tormented, but there is nothing to be done.

"I can't give you the happiness I want, so I choose to quit, because I love you, so I let you choose a better home" This may be the reason I can give myself comfort. But it's not "please don't call me too cruel", because I'm wishful thinking. It is indeed "who can be willing to admit defeat" and "who can understand this heart-wrenching suffering". If there is such a chance, I will take advantage of the wine to confess to you, and even if you refuse, I can smile well. After that, laugh at life.

Once, I laughed at other people's affection too deeply, but now I am caught in a web that can't tell whether it is love or not. is undoubtedly self-deprecating, and I remembered that sentence: Asking what the world is like, only makes life and death promise. Truth, maybe I haven't been involved in the world and don't know what love is, maybe it's just a friendship that I have distorted, and now I need to correct it with a good heart. Be good to each other.,Can't mistake others and yourself because of this.。。

Well, when we meet in the future, we will do the same as usual, take the initiative to say hello, no longer evade, no longer pretending. Don't make yourself unhappy, but add to your troubles. The former "Little Sun" has passed, and now I don't sing "Eleven Years" anymore, I think I should sing "I Believe". The past is gone, I still have to go, the wind and rain don't matter anymore, I will have some baggage, very relaxed.

Everything is still the same, what can be done is to be as happy and happy as possible.