Chen Qian was born with a difficult sense of emotion, she didn't know when to be sad and happy.

The sudden excitement is always linked to bloodlust.

When Chen Qian was so young, she tried to disguise herself as a normal person, but did she give up her disguise from that day?

Oh, remembered.

It was a spring outing, and because of the teacher's negligence, a child fell into a small river and drowned.

On that day, the children's parents cried heartbreakingly, and the children also cried, and there was a sad atmosphere around them, and everyone was sad, except for Chen Qian.

The vague excitement slowly spread to Chen Qian, no! It can't be like this!

At that time, Chen Qian forced himself to try to blend in with the crowd.

The drowned child is Chen Qian's friend, a friend who often tries to make Chen Qian happy.

Chen Qian said to himself frantically in his heart, "Cry! Cry! She tried to force herself to be sad.

But why not be sad?

Ye Qian slowly covered his face with his hand, blocking the corners of his mouth that were slightly hooked because of the pleasure from the heart.

That day, Chen Qian understood herself, she Chen Qian, is a neurotic...

Back to the empty home, Chen Qian kicked off his shoes when he entered the door, and walked barefoot on the cold floor, Chen Qian came back temporarily, the weather was very cold in February, but Ye Qian was so thin that he couldn't be thinner as if he was masochistic.

Chen Qian never celebrates her birthday, because the day of her birthday is also the day of her mother's death.

Chen Qian's father gave Chen Qian enough pocket money, but he never cared about Chen Qian, and in his impression, Chen Qian would not see Chen's father more than three times a year.

The villa is very large and empty, and when Chen Qian is not there, the entire villa is handed over to Aunt Xie for management. But the huge house is handed over to an elderly aunt, and it will always be overwhelmed, and Aunt Xie has not found out that Chen Qian has come back until now.

Chen Qian went to bed, curled himself up, and was in a slight daze, how can he be happy?

Chen Qian turned on his mobile phone, boringly searching for how to die peacefully and comfortably, the search was unsuccessful, Chen Qian pursed his lips, threw away his mobile phone and looked at the ceiling in a daze.

I wondered what it was like to be dead, to be conscious when I was dead, to be able to feel my surroundings when I couldn't move...

There was a knock on the door, and Aunt Xie's voice rang.

Of course, Chen Qian's matter from the hospital must be agreed by Chen Qian's father. Chen Qian's father called Chen Qian and hired a private psychotherapist for her, Chen Qian felt that it didn't matter, in short, just don't lock her up in that place again.

Aunt Xie knew that she was back, and it should be that therapist who came.

Aunt Xie has worked in the Chen family for more than 40 years, and is the most satisfactory nanny next to Chen Qian's father, and she is also an old woman who watched Chen Qian's father grow up and took care of Chen Qian, Aunt Xie has been working for the Chen family for half her life.

"Xiao Qian, look at you, you won't be notified when you come back, I only found out when Dr. Zhou came."

The kind Aunt Xie opened the door while muttering, turned on the light in the room, brought a pair of fluffy white cotton slippers, and put away Ye Qian's shoes.

Chen Qian finally got up, put on cotton slippers, hugged Aunt Xie, and went downstairs together.

"Oh, Xiaoqian, it's only been February, you see what you're wearing..."

Chen Qian finally put on a smile, Chen Qian didn't know if this emotion was called happy, at least at this moment she didn't think about how to commit suicide.