I didn't want to go home with Ding Ning at first.

It's just that I'm too curious later, how her parents raised her so warm, like a little sun.

Ding Ning told me that after all these years, her parents have also been looking for me, and I don't believe it.

But when she struggled to find evidence that she didn't lie to me, I relented.

She said she was going to take me home, and although I said I didn't want to, I was looking forward to it.

So I went home with her.

And as she said, her mom and dad welcomed me home.

It's just that in this family, except for Ding Ning, everyone knows that I am not her own brother.

I didn't think it was strange at first that they didn't tell Ding Ning the truth.

Later, it was Ding Ning's mother who asked me out to talk alone.

She said that she knew about me in the hospital, both good and bad.

But that didn't stop me from continuing to be part of their family, because she promised me that she was going to raise me as her own child, but then I lost it, she didn't do it, and she felt very guilty about me.

If she could, she still hoped that she would continue to be my mother and that I would treat her home as my own.

Of course, if I don't want to return to the family, that's okay, just let them know that I'm doing well.

But there is one thing that she especially begged me for, that is, not to let Ding Ning know that I am not related to her.

Just let her treat me like my own brother.

I was puzzled, "Why?" ”

"Ning Ning is my only daughter," she said...... Xiaofeng, I hope you can understand the feelings of being a parent. She is very simple, and we want her life to be simpler and not too complicated. In the future, whether it is a good study or a good life, it will be a little smoother. ”

Although the words were very tactful, I could still hear the meaning.

She said that if I had an emotional entanglement with Ding Ning, it would add trouble to Ding Ning's life, make her originally simple life not simple, and the foul language on my body would also affect her.

Compared with the identity of "girlfriend", "sister" will allow her to escape the catastrophe even more.

To be honest, my heart hurts a little.

Not because of Ding Ning's mother's words, but because of my previous past.

I thought that as long as my heart was hard enough to survive this difficult day of gossip, time would wear it all.

But I didn't expect that the impact and backlash of my previous abuse would be long-lasting.

I have no intention of hurting Ding Ning, and I have to admit that I have different feelings for her.

However, in the end, this emotion could not be accepted by Ding Ning's family.

They only accept me as Ding Ning's "real brother", and it is impossible to accept me as her "boyfriend".

It was my fault in the past that led to the current situation.

If I hadn't been abusive before, I was a self-disciplined and rigorous person, and I wanted to come to Ding Ning's parents, I wouldn't dislike me like this.

And now, I have made a stink of my reputation, and Ding Ning's parents still tolerate me like their own children, which is already their kindness, but letting their baby daughter fall in love with me is unacceptable to them.

After talking to Ding Ning's mother, I couldn't calm down for a long time.

It turns out that I will regret what I did before.

However, it was too late.

Starting from my own feelings, I don't want Ding Ning to follow me and endure gossip.

Walking close to me, even just having a meal with you like a friend, will attract strange glances.

I have long been accustomed to that kind of gaze, and I am immune.

But Ding Ning is different, she is still a girl who has not come out of the ivory tower, and she can't stand such a strange gaze.

My feelings are at odds with my reason.

I can't deny that I like Ding Ning and want to be close to her, but reason tells me that I shouldn't get close to her and bring her trouble and hurt again.

So I agreed to Ding Ning's mother's suggestion.

I won't tell her that I'm not her brother.

I don't know if it was influenced by Ding Ning or what the reason is, I gradually don't have the same strong heart as before, and when I am ridiculed by others, why Ding Ning didn't come to me, I will be flustered and at a loss.

It's not as easy to deal with as it used to be, even if the teasing and questions are not mocking.

I was often distracted from duty and had a lot of thoughts in my head.

I have a lot of things I want to say, but I don't know who to talk to.

I don't have many friends.

There is only one Qitan who can be named.

However, Qi Tan is also at a low point in his career.

He refused to tell me about his previous relationship with Yan Yiyi, so how could I be willing to tell him about me and Ding Ning.

There are some things that you can't necessarily share if you are good friends.

At least we can't.

After much deliberation, I decided to leave Dongjiang.

Leaving the city where I have been for more than 10 years.

Maybe that's the real relief for me.

The world is big, go to a city where no one knows me, start over, and live seriously in the future, no longer like the glamorous life before.

I want to be a normal person again.

Instead of excusing my absurdity, and not joining the worldly crowd to spread fun, I want to be clean again and be myself again.

I left.

Went to Haicheng.

The hospital over there heard that I was already an associate professor and welcomed me.

The medical level of Haicheng is not as high as that of Dongjiang, but it is an emerging city with the development of the pharmaceutical industry, and it has a great future in the future.

Promotion is not as crowded and competitive as the first courtyard of the University of Tokyo.

No one over there knew about me in the First Courtyard of Tokyo University.

I can start a whole new life.

Of course, that's how I planned it.

When I left Dongjiang, Ding Ning was still graduating in one academic year.

She still didn't know I wasn't his brother.

But she asked me curiously, how is the employment here in Haicheng?

I know the subtext of her words, she wants to come to me after graduation.

Maybe she really thinks of me as an older brother, but I know exactly how excited I am when I see the message from her.

That kind of excitement is not at all out of happiness for the arrival of my sister.

It's about a man's thoughts about a woman.

In the past, I believed that desire and affection could not be unified.

Now, it seems that I can't hold that idea anymore.

My desires and feelings are tied to the same woman.

And I couldn't be with her.

This is my sin, and I deserve it.

All the advantages that belonged to men that I had been proud of became stumbling blocks in my future emotional path.

There are some people who have unforgivable sins and die innocently.

I am.

Maybe in the future, I would like to see Ding Ning's growth.

She is still young, she has not yet left school, her future career is still long, and there are many things to experience.

I can teach her to discern the faces of people in the workplace like a teacher, and I can also teach her how to tell if a man really likes her.

All I could do for her was that.