Loki admits that he has always resented Odin's partiality, but when the subject of the partiality becomes himself, he has a sense of guilt in his fear, and now, this fear has turned into a deep confusion, because an alien medical examination machine tells him that he is not even the Aesir.

Odin's prestige is not born on the throne, he conquered the universe, leveled the Nine Realms, walked on every branch of the World Tree, all enemies trembled under his thunder, if you look at the perspective of those conquered tribes, Odin is definitely a tyrant.

Odin can also be described as a racist, showing no mercy to those outside of the Aesir Protoss, at least in Loki's mind.

So the question is, he is not Odin's own son, and he is not even the Asa Protoss, so why is Odin suddenly so good to him?

Loki leaned against the head of the bed, one arm on his forehead, and he himself felt that his question was ridiculous, and he would one day question why Odin would be so kind to him.

In the living room of the apartment, Thor finally figured out the electric hanger and successfully hung up his overalls, when he heard a knock on the door of Loki's bedroom, and looked back to see Loki standing under the frame of his bedroom door.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Thor asked, confused.

"I want to ask you a question." Loki looked at Thor and said, "I have obtained the priesthood of the righteous god before you, and I can enter and leave Asgard freely, without being deprived of my divine powers, nor by having my weapons taken away, and I can even have the strength to laugh at you......"

"When you learned of this fact, did you feel that Odin was biased?"

"Of course!" Thor glared at Loki and said, "I really can't figure it out, how can you be the first to get the priesthood of the righteous god, do you have any combat exploits?" ”

He grabbed the collar of the overalls in his hand and shook it violently, as if he was angry, and said with some indignation: "Whether it is divine power or military exploits, I am stronger than you, how can the father of the gods ......"

He exhaled through his nose fiercely, paused for a moment, and then suddenly said as if deflated, "Okay, actually, I figured it out, I got in trouble, right?" He was very angry, so he exiled me here, and then he gave you the priesthood of the righteous god, so that you could come and laugh at me......"

Thor raised his arm and said, "Very well, he succeeded, and now the question I think about every day is, can I buy an extra case of beer with my salary next week?" I'm no different from these ordinary mortals, even more depressed than them, and I dare to order only small portions of fried chicken......"

"You've won, okay?"

Loki stood by the door, looking at Thor's expression, speechless.

"Why hasn't your rather intelligent brain succeeded in convincing you for so many years that he's really just a one-tendon idiot?" Venom asked him.

"The medical report shows that there is something wrong with your brain." Venom's tone suddenly became a little lighter, and he said, "It just so happens that I know a very good psychiatrist, who may be able to solve your entanglements and questions, and if you are idle, you will be idle anyway......"

"Psychiatrist?" Loki's tone was a little confused, "Asgard doesn't have that kind of profession. ”

"Trust me, it must be effective."

Half an hour later, Schiller took a new medical record from a nearby shelf and asked, "Name?" ”

Loki was a little distracted, and Schiller asked again before he replied, "Loki." ”

"What about the last name?"

Loki hesitated for a moment and said, "Odinson." ”

"You have a peculiar pronunciation of this surname, based on your current level of English, it should not be a mispronunciation, do you have any opinion on this surname?"

"So you so-called psychologists are constantly asking questions for me to answer?"

"If you feel like you need treatment, try to cooperate with me instead of trying to turn against me." Schiller wrote and drew on his medical record, and said without raising his head: "This is not a business negotiation, you don't need to fight for any initiative, I am not your enemy, you don't have to use words to interfere with me." ”

"It's a novelty." Loki put his hands on the table and leaned forward slightly, making a confident gesture.

"You seem to have gotten used to this way of talking, and you want to take the initiative no matter who you're talking to, which is beneficial in most cases, but there may be exceptions."

Loki opened his mouth and said, "No, not all, at least in the face of ......"

He shook his head, as if he didn't want to say the name.

"Why won't you say your father's name?"

Schiller saw that Loki's fingertips moved slightly when he heard the word father, and then he heard Loki say, "Because it may not be ........."

"What's not?"

"He may not be my father." Loki's tone was pretending to be relaxed, but the muscles in his neck twitched, and even his entire shoulders stiffened, and Schiller glanced up at him.

"How did you feel when you said that?" Schiller looked at him: "Maybe there's the answer you want." ”

The tremor of Loki's fingertips began to spread to the back of his hand, followed by his wrist and forearm, but disappeared in an instant.

"You don't seem to want to admit it, but you don't feel like you have any reason not to admit it, but you just don't want to admit it, why?"

"I don't know." Loki's voice was a little hoarse.

"While I don't need you to tell all your secrets, you can't say nothing, especially at this moment, when you should have a lot to say and a lot of questions to ask."

"What, are you still fantasizing about a better listener than me? Then maybe I can call Strange and ask him to ask if Odin is awake or not......"

"No, no......" Loki denied.

"Every time you mention Odin, you seem to be a little afraid, why?" Schiller tilted his head and looked at him.

"There is no man who does not fear the Father of the gods."

"Listen, this isn't an exam, I'm not asking you to find a perfect answer to my question." Schiller said helplessly.

"When I ask you a question, you can use that question to ask yourself and then give yourself the answer in your mind, and if you are willing to tell me the real answer, then the treatment will be more effective, and if you don't want to, that's okay."

Loki was silent for a long time, but he sank his shoulders, exhaled, and said, "I am indeed afraid of him, because of his majesty, his might, and more importantly...... I'm not Thor. ”

"Of course Thor can not be afraid of him, no matter what he does, the Father of the Gods will clean up the mess for him, and this time is the same,"

“…… But I can't. Loki's fingertips pressed against the table, leaving a shallow reflection, and he looked at his fingers and said, "I can't make mistakes like Thor, and especially, I can't make such stupid mistakes." ”

His lips moved, then he said, "He won't tolerate me." ”

"I have to be in awe." Loki's voice began to break free from that mixed emotion, and his mind seemed to get back on track and he began to become more engaged.

"I'm not special to the Father of the Gods, and I'm not even sure if I'm as important to him as the brave Asgardian warriors."

Schiller took the pen in his hand, changed his posture, and said: "Because the relatives you value are not willing to give you solid feedback, you can only keep lowering your own expectations and convince yourself that as long as he is not overtly hostile to you, you can get by." ”

"But this is not the solution, especially in the case of a comparative example, self-deception cannot last,"

Loki held the edge of his eyebrow arch with one hand, and said in a trance: "But the problem now is that during this time, I became the object of eccentricity, and then I just found out that maybe he did the right thing because I was not his biological ......"

Schiller shook his head and said: "There is a concept that has caused some confusion, whether there is a blood relationship or not, and whether he is eccentric or not, may not be directly related. ”

Schiller explains: "The logic on the surface is that if you are not his biological son, then it is natural that he treats you badly, but the question is, if you are not his biological son, how did you become his son? ”

"The backstory may be complicated, but one thing must be the same, that is, your father should have picked you up from somewhere, and we don't know what kind of mood he was in to pick you up, but there is a fact that he raised you to such a big age, knowing that you were not his own."

"If he raised you to ignore you in order to favor your brother, then why did he pick you up?"

"Okay, I'm assuming that there is a certain interest in this, such as what will be the benefit of raising you, so as to drive him to pick you up and raise you, and he doesn't want to have another son in his heart, so he is deliberately biased and ignores you."

"If that's the case, then you don't need to dwell on it, as long as you find out what conspiracy is behind this, and then find a way to get revenge on them."

Schiller propped up his cheekbone with one hand, then looked at Loki and said, "You should have thought of this possibility the moment you learned about this fact, so ask yourself, what are you still struggling with?" ”

Loki was silent.

His gaze began to calm down, and he said, "I tried to convince myself that he had been kind to me during this time and was just a small favor, I speculated a lot of possible conspiracies, and even had several plans to investigate my true origins, and now, I should have appeared on the Rainbow Bridge......"

Loki's eyes moved down for a moment, as if thinking about something, and he said, "But the reason I'm here is because when I was about to put these plans into practice, and when I wanted to take that step in the opposite direction, I found ......"

His voice was already low to the extreme, like a stone blown down by the wind to the edge of a cliff, his fists clenched slowly, and then he said in disbelief...... I don't seem to want to do that. ”

"Why do you think that?"

Loki shook his head, looked at Schiller and said, "You're the doctor, aren't you?" ”

Schiller took the pen and turned it in his hand and said, "This is the misconception that most people have about psychiatrists, most of the time, we are a listener, not responsible for giving answers." ”

"Or, in fact, many people already have the answer in their hearts, but they don't want to admit it, so they come to the doctor, hoping to get a different result, and sometimes, we see this, but we don't debunk it, just because not everyone can withstand this kind of stimulation."

"Do you think you can?"

"I'm ......" Loki tilted his head and muttered, "I think, of course I can ......"

"Well, maybe you should have found out." Schiller looked at Loki and said, "Your resentment at Odin's injustice and your jealousy of Thor can't hide your desire for affection. ”

"Whether family affection really exists or not, you have been deceiving yourself for so many years, and blood relationship is precisely an important pillar in this self-deception."

"Today, after this pillar is shattered, you find that your instinctive action is not to uncover the truth and take revenge on these people, but to find another pillar in a panic......"

"You suddenly find that you are weaker than you think, easier to compromise, indulge in some illusions woven for yourself and do not want to wake up, not as smart, decisive, vicious as you think, even the possibility of earth-shattering conspiracy and hatred, does not make you make up your mind."

"As long as those relatives in your name give you a little sweetness, you are willing to desperately look for some reason to deceive yourself and get by......"

"You find that you are more like the ordinary people you have always looked down on than a god who never makes mistakes."

"Or rather, you're more like a dog chasing a little bit of minced meat than an ordinary person......"

"That's enough."

------Off topic------

The protagonist finally goes to work.

If only I could go to work at this frequency.

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