"Then may I take the liberty of asking, what is the matter with your personality in this broken state?" Charles asked cautiously.

Schiller sighed and said, "The lack of control of private resources in my childhood, which you analyzed earlier, does exist, but not in the orphanage, but in the laboratory of the foreign organization that took me. ”

"The vast majority of the children in the orphanage I am in are children with congenital diseases, and the few able-bodied children, especially boys, will be adopted away quickly."

Charles immediately noticed a certain key point in his words, he raised an eyebrow and said, "Eastern countries? ”

Schiller nodded, and continued: "It takes a lot of patience to care for children with birth defects, and the pay is very meager, and most of the teachers who end up staying there for a long time are very caring. ”

"Except for some naughty children with bad personalities, most of the remaining children get along well, although the material conditions are not very good, but they are barely passable."

"Children have very few toys, and orphanages can't afford disposable or fragile toys, so the most common type of toy there is wood building blocks because they're cheap enough to even be handmade, but there's endless ways to play with them."

"At that time, there was a popular way for children to make the blocks as high as possible."

"The teachers seem to think that this kind of competition and praise for the winner encourages them to socialize, so they often lead the children to play this game, but because of the social barrier of autism, I almost never participate in it."

"But watching this game repeatedly also had a certain impact on me, and when I was immersed in my own world, I also began to copy the form of this game, and I began to build a building block tower in my own spiritual world."

"Later, the teachers seemed to think that simply building towers was not enough to develop the children's intelligence, so they began to color the blocks, telling them that they represented something in daily life, and the teachers said the names and the children put the designated blocks on top of them, so that the children with intellectual disabilities could build up their knowledge of everyday objects as much as possible."

"After observing for a while, I also began to give meaning to the blocks in my head, such as this block represents arithmetic, that piece of memory represents the words that have been memorized, and the piece next to it is the method of talking to people."

"Because I have repeated it many times, it seems that these abilities I have have have really become building blocks that have been built up by me, and gradually become a tower in my spiritual world."

Charles listened so intriguedly that it wasn't until Schiller stopped talking, and after a long time he reacted, saying, "It's amazing, and it's the first time I've heard of such a thing." ”

"But it didn't last long." Schiller pursed his lips, and for the first time Charles saw some kind of strong mood swing on his face, which could be sadness or regret.

"When the foreigner was going to take me away, I had a premonition, so I cried and screamed and refused to go with him, and the teacher really had no choice but to persuade the foreigner to leave first."

"But they weren't going to give up, and the second time they came, I hid, and I didn't know at the time that it wasn't the inspectors who came this time."

Charles frowned fiercely, as if he had anticipated what was going to happen next.

"They found a group of people, maybe they bought them before, or maybe they were the downline after they became interested in me, but anyway, the group of people rushed into the orphanage, saying that the director of the orphanage had abducted the child of one of their relatives - that is, me."

"They wanted to take me away through this method, but the teachers and deans who got along with me day and night had already noticed that I had some special ability, and I was reluctant to leave, so they stopped the group of people, and a big conflict broke out between the two parties."

"You were taken away in the end?"

Schiller nodded and said, "The foreigners gave them guns, and the teacher and dean who had been taking care of me died, and I don't know what happened after that, because I was quickly taken out of the country from the border." ”

Schiller took a deep breath and said, "Witnessing all this has given me great irritation, and the tower I have built in my spiritual world has completely collapsed. ”

Schiller rolled his eyes to the side and added: "For a long time after that, my mind was very confused, and I only remember one thing, if I had not cried, made a fuss, or talked as usual, and left with that foreigner, perhaps none of this would have happened." ”

"So I couldn't speak for a long time after I arrived at the lab, which led to my own self not being able to speak as well."

Charles was silent for a long time before he said, "...... I'm sorry. ”

Schiller shook his head, indicating that everything was over, and he sighed softly and said: "That organization lifted a stone and shot myself in the foot, I tied all my abilities to the building block tower, the tower collapsed, I did not respond to any stimuli from the outside world, and their control methods left nothing but a memory of my methods of manipulating others." ”

"Some of my violent actions were only because I didn't have a rational mind at the time, but they felt that it was time to send me back and that I could cause a bloody case with a big impact at a critical juncture."

Charles narrowed his eyes, raised the corners of his mouth a little uncontrollably, and said, "The result must be tragic, right?" ”

Schiller nodded and said, "I'm under tight control in the lab, so they don't even notice my violent enemies. ”

"They wanted me to interfere with the development of a major incident, simply put, they wanted to frame the official massacre of civilians who were protesting, but because I killed them, I delayed some time and missed the best time, and the intelligence organization of that country found out about their plot and also discovered me."

"At that time, my abilities were not controlled, and anomalies were easily visible, so I was captured and sent to a place called the Ninth Institute."

"Another lab?"

"Pretty much." What Charles didn't expect was that Schiller nodded, and he said, "It's more like a combination of a laboratory, a nursing home, and a prison for heavy offenders." ”

"I was subjected to very strict investigation and interrogation, but at that time my mind was not clear at all, and after several rounds of investigation that were not answered, they also found out that I was mentally distressed."

"They put me to the test and determined that if I was a madman, I'd probably have to spend the rest of my life here, because if I let it out, there would be a lot of mass casualties."

"Originally, the matter ended here, but it happened that the organization that captured me was caught and uprooted because of this incident, and the officials of that country finally discovered that the other party's use of psychology as a weapon may cause much more harm than a real weapon."

"They weren't very interested in my personal abilities, because they weren't very interested in individual heroism, but they wanted to know how that organization controlled me, so they sent a group of psychologists at the time to study me."

"But because the building block tower, which represented all my sanity, completely collapsed, I couldn't answer even a single question, and most of the experts, after a year-long tug-of-war with me to answer the wrong question, came to the conclusion that I was completely insane."

Schiller tilted his head to the side and said, "Originally, this research project dragged on and did not produce much results, but then another case similar to mine really caused serious consequences, and they finally found that they could not delay any longer, so they brought in a professional psychiatrist—a really good doctor." ”

"He's not here to study, he's here to heal." Schiller rubbed his fingers against the corners of his mouth and said, "He thinks that I should first find out the cause of my madness and find a way to treat this madness, and then it is possible to achieve results." ”

"He shouldn't be approved by a lot of people, right?" Charles asked.

Schiller nodded and said: "In that country, psychology started to develop late, and the vast majority of experts at that time were more inclined to psychiatric pathology than psychology, let alone pedagogy. ”

"They couldn't find anything wrong with the pathology, so they thought it was probably hopeless, although they didn't completely deny it, but most of them were pessimistic, and only the doctor kept insisting."

"With his perseverance, I was first diagnosed with autism, and after a period of treatment for autism, I found that the treatment effect was not obvious, because the doctor thought it might be something else."

"After a few conversations I can't remember, he finally figured out some clues from my crazy words, and he began to study the blocks."

"Later, after a long period of fumbling for an unknown amount of time, he finally realized the root cause of my broken mind, and everyone thought it was a fantasy at the time, and they thought that this doctor might have gone crazy with me."

"They can't be blamed entirely for that." Charles bowed his head and said, "Even to me this is a bit ridiculous, if I encounter this case for the first time, I'm not even sure if my mutant abilities can figure it out, it seems that the doctor is much better than me." ”

"He's just more patient...... He's the most patient I've ever met. For some reason, Schiller's last sentence was a bit of a gnashing of teeth.

"However, he was also a genius in psychology, and he began to guide me to rebuild my tower."

"It's been a long time, and I've basically come to my senses, and the new tower, although it has a lot of ugly splicing seams, is still working, but at this time, my project is no longer very important."

"The Ninth Institute has become a dispensable research institution, the dean is here to care for the elderly, the staff is here to mess around, and most people don't know my background, they just think that I am a mentally ill person in recovery."

"Most people sympathize with me, thinking that it is good for me to be able to live independently, and the dean's wish is only to hope that I can use my high-level intelligence to get into a university, only the doctor still does not give up and makes me a normal person."

"Actually, after the rebuilding of the tower's personality and being reassigned, I am infinitely closer to an ordinary person." Schiller shook his head and said, "It's just that his requirements are ridiculously high, and I tortured each other with him for more than a year before I asked the dean to take the college entrance examination and completely left this institute." ”

Hearing this, Charles finally smiled, as if relieved, but Schiller crossed his arms and said, "This sounds like an inspirational story of indignation, right?" But in fact, I didn't study hard at all after I went to college, but that's all for later. ”

"Now I'm sure he's a much better doctor than I am." Charles looked up into Schiller's eyes and said, "The greatest thing about it is that it dares not to give up on the patient I want to give up when I hear it."

Schiller was silent for a while and then said, "Every Schiller is chasing his footsteps, and so is arrogance." ”

After saying that, Schiller raised his eyes again to look like Charles's, and his gaze was a little overfocused.

Charles couldn't help but ask with some doubts: "Do you think I look like him?" Why do you look at me with nostalgia? ”

"It may be a bit offensive to say that, but you two do have similarities, and both of you are good doctors."

"I'm afraid it's more than that, right?"

Schiller was silent for a long time before he finally spoke: "You two eyes are too similar, especially the colors. ”

Charles's eyes widened slightly and asked, "He's not from the East?" ”

"No, he's a Slav, a psychologist from the Soviet Union."

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