Even though Fang Jinyan remembered those times and thought that this kind of fate was actually a bit wonderful, she still didn't want to step into it. She can give Qin Moru the best wishes, but she won't choose to step into the emotion of love again, it's too hard; I don't want to have any bad relationship with Guan Xiaoxian because of this, it's too complicated. And this kind of hard and complicated feelings, she doesn't want to experience anymore.

So, I silently blessed him in my heart, but the actions I did still seemed to be evading.

Every day, I still go to the office building café early, sit there to read a book or swipe my mobile phone, and walk into the elevator after breakfast.

But today, she was sitting in a chair, about to take a sip of coffee, and when she unintentionally looked up, a familiar person appeared in her sight. She suddenly didn't know whether it was better to say hello or ignore it when she couldn't see it. While thinking, she noticed that the other party's eyes were also drifting to her, she quickly lowered her head, pretending to be nothing, and when she didn't see anything just now, she turned back to look at her phone in a panic and a little unnaturally.

However, this scene was fully watched by the familiar people in the sight just now, his face turned dark, and Qin Moru didn't approach, he left directly after buying coffee.

Fang Jinyan raised her head again, she couldn't see him anymore, and found that she was a little nervous for no reason, and when she raised her head again, she found that he had already left.

Jin Yan smiled silently, but at the same time she breathed a sigh of relief. Everything is just classmates' feelings, even if you are lost, you can only say that Yin can't control your heart. Suddenly, I realized that I had very little interaction with Qin Moru in the past two weeks, and I had almost no contact, only nodded and said hello when I met occasionally. It seems that he was in Xi'an before, as if he had come back from the United States to find her directly, and these things disappeared like a cloud of smoke, and there were no longer any ripples.

But for Qin Moru, it seems that he can't see Fang Jinyan recently. Sometimes when I met her, it was just when she stepped into her own company, even if she did, she said hello, and sometimes she wore headphones and ignored the front, and no one looked at her. Is she hiding from herself?

Jinyan didn't write a slight loss on her face, she took her headphones, and planned to ignore what was going on beside her, but the mobile phone in her hand suddenly rang, and Fang Jinyan picked up the unfamiliar number and heard:

"Hey, hello. Here's a courier for you, please come downstairs to sign for it. ”

Jin Yan was a little suspicious, thinking that she hadn't bought anything recently, but she still walked into the building with a strange heart and asked the security guard to get the courier.

When she took the courier and walked into the company, she opened the courier box and saw that it was a very delicate packaging box. Jin Yan was even more suspicious, and she was sure that she hadn't bought this thing, so she opened it curiously and saw a very delicate wishing bottle, a silver bottle, with "Daniel &Ethel" engraved on the outside and "Daniel &Ethel" engraved on the inside, as if it was an enlarged version of the one she had thrown away.

Really! Because it was still early at this time, there were not many people in the company, and she was a little surprised to open the greeting card in the wishing bottle, which was written in a familiar font in English: "May your life fullfill with hope. For D&E”

Although he and Mo Xuyan have been together for so many years, he once gave a lighter engraved with her Daniel Mo, and he no longer knows where she put it, and the wishing bottle before was also thrown away after she fell. But Mo Xuyan had rarely sent something to her so suddenly.

But what does this mean? So Fang Jinyan put away the box, put it in her office drawer, picked up her mobile phone and sent a message to ask, "What's your gift for?"

“Hi. Good morning. I just want to send you coz you said you like it badly.“

Jin Yan remembered that she had told him that she liked this kind of wishing bottle very much, but at that time she was really naïve when she was young. Before experiencing the injuries that Mo Xuyan had brought him, she really liked this kind of seemingly useless, but very interesting and romantic little thing. So at that time, I went to a specialty store with Mo Xuyan, and when I saw this, I told him that I actually liked it very much.

At that time, Mo Xuyan bought this for her. Saying hope brings her hope.

However, after they broke up, her hopes were to reconcile with Mo Xuyan, but it was never realized at that time, one year, two years...... Until now, Mo Xuyan suddenly appeared. continued to send her a bigger wishing bottle, but her mood was already different.

“Are you too busy lately?“ Mo Xuyan seemed to see that she didn't reply, and continued to ask.

“Yes. kind of.“ Jin Yan remembered that he hadn't replied to his last message.

“Do you have time to have a dinner together ? Of course， only if you're free.“

“Because I have something want to tell you.“

Jin Yan looked at him like this, and suddenly felt a little unbearable. In the past, although he was also a more active person, he always felt that he was not too distracted, but now he makes him feel that he seems to be a little cautious, which she has never seen.

Perhaps, there are some things that can only be explained clearly in person.

“Ok. Maybe this Friday?”

“Sure.“

After making an appointment with him, Jinyan put this matter behind her and continued her work. It seems that now, except for occasionally eating and chatting with colleagues at noon, she rarely talks about other things, and everyone always feels that Jinyan has broken her nerves very tightly recently, as if she has no other life except for work. But the nature of her work hasn't changed, it's just that she's put more pressure on herself lately.

So, on Thursday afternoon, near the end of work, Cindy asked Jinyan, "Jinyan, let's all go to dinner together on a cloudy night?" ”

Jin Yan, who was tapping on the keyboard on the computer, turned her head to look at her: "Cloudy, Friday?" ”

"That's right. You see you've been so busy lately, you don't even know how to relax. ”

"I made an appointment for dinner on a cloudy day, next time. I'll do it next time. Jin Yan said as she looked at the computer.

"Who did you date?" Cindy asked.

"Old friend." Jin Yan said nonchalantly.

"Who, Qin Moru?" Cindy asked with a gossip on her face.

"......" Jin Yan didn't know why she was involved with Qin Moru, so she asked, "Huh?" Why him. ”

"I heard you're classmates?"

"Then I also know Mo Xuyan, why don't you guess?" Fang Jinyan was helpless, so she asked slyly.

"Hey, it's better to see that you and Qin Moru have a better relationship." Cindy said honestly.

Where can you see the "......"?? Isn't it good at all now? Fang Jinyan was silent in her heart.

"However, is it really going out to eat with Mo Xuyan?" Cindy's eyes lit up at this point, as if she had heard something terrible.

“…… Any questions? Jinyan looked at her with some confusion when she heard her reaction.

"Can I go with you?" Cindy asked.

"Yes." Jin Yan was amused by her appearance, even if she really invited her, she wouldn't dare to go.

Yang Nan, who was listening on the side, interjected at this time: "When old friends get together, what are you doing to make a scene?" Cindy？ ”

Cindy listened and muttered, "Aren't you just kidding, don't let it go." As he spoke, he went to fight with Yang Nan.

Xin Yu was on the side, looking at it and smiling: "Cindy is really a nymphomaniac. ”

Yang Nan looked at her and nodded. Jin Yan was amused by her.

On Friday, she had actually finished a small stage of work, and finally wanted to take a break, so she walked to the corridor outside the office, thinking about resting her eyes and looking into the distance to relax. Unexpectedly, as soon as she walked to the side of the corridor, she saw Qin Moru standing in the old place not far away, which surprised her and didn't know if she should move forward. She silently glanced at his back, feeling as if she hadn't spoken to him properly in a long time, and hadn't taken a good look at him. remembered that the last time we chatted was half a month ago, he suddenly appeared downstairs from the sky as if from the sky, and since then, she has begun to deliberately keep a distance from him. Thinking of this, Jin Yan silently turned around and returned to the office. But she didn't realize that at the moment she turned around, Qin Moru also turned around and was about to go back to the office, and saw the back of her leaving, but he didn't stop her.

Sometimes, Jin Yan feels that the world is actually very small. Otherwise, why was it just in this small office building, she not only met Qin Moru, but also met Mo Xuyan. And in this small office building, what happened was enough for her to sigh, the world is very dramatic and good at jokes.

When she loved Mo Xuyan the most, he proposed to break up and walked away.

Just when she thought she was still in love with Mo Xuyan, Qin Moru suddenly appeared in her life.

After Mo Xuyan told her that he still loved her, she found that the person she had been in love with when they broke up was no longer what he is now.

And Qin Moru, when she found out that he was a little different to herself, he got back together with his ex-girlfriend.

The mistakes in the world really never stop.

Sometimes the timing of falling in love is far more important than the love itself, and this sentence comes to mind again.

When she and Mo Xuyan were sitting in a quiet restaurant, Fang Jinyan also carried the wishing bottle given by Mo Xuyan.

Mo Xuyan said: "Jinyan, it seems that it is the first time I have seen you so serious and busy at work, and you are really a little haggard. ”

Jin Yan just smiled suddenly: "When I was a student in the past, I always had more free time. That's why I think about him a lot, I think I can't help myself, and I think he can always take care of her when she needs it, if then...... Maybe it won't be like that now.

"Hmm. Time flies, I didn't expect that we have known each other for almost 7 years. Over the years, you've really matured a lot. ”

Jin Yan didn't chat much, just took out the exquisite gift box she put in her bag, put it on the table, and handed it back to Mo Xuyan: "Xu Yan, I didn't see it originally, but then I saw that this bottle was engraved with your and my name, and I knew that you really wanted to do it, but I couldn't accept it." ”

"...... are you?" Mo Xuyan was a little confused, his expression looked very hurt, he opened the box, took out the wishing bottle, and continued: "This is a small shop I saw in Seattle's Chinatown one time, I used to give you a small wishing bottle, and at that time you said that the glass bottle looked too fragile, so I thought about buying this for you." The store said that it was possible to engrave the name of the beloved. I thought about carving the names of both of us. ”

Jin Yan listened and felt a moment of trance. But she remembered that she had given a lighter, and for a while, she would cry when she looked at it. These things that once only added to the sadness, and I didn't want to pick them up again, and I haven't been remembered for a long time.

Jin Yan looked at the silver wishing bottle in front of her, indeed, compared to the glass bottle, it was much stronger, and smiled: "Xu Yan, I didn't expect you to have not changed much over the years." I still like to give away a wishing bottle. ”

“…… I just remembered you as soon as I saw this thing. Xu Yan explained quietly.

Jin Yan just smiled and said with a firm look in her eyes, "Thank you." Xu Yan, but I really can't accept it. ”

"Why?" Mo Xuyan's eyes darkened.

“…… I still have the lighter you gave me, but I haven't taken it out again. The glass bottle of wishing that you once gave me, I actually kept it all the time, but when I met you again and saw you under the office building, I threw it away. When Jinyan said this, she was very calm, as if she was just telling an ordinary little thing in the past, and continued: "I couldn't cry that day, and the years I had been attached to you collapsed that day. After the collapse, I was pale. Fragile things, even if I wanted to stick them, were already broken. Whether it is reinforced or not, what is broken can no longer be put back. ”

Mo Xuyan listened to these words, and his eyes became desolate: "I told you that I just made it clear to her at the beginning, maybe I really treated her, but when I was with her, I always remembered your appearance." With that, he looked at the silver bottle in front of him again and asked, "So...... Don't you even want what I gave you now? ”

Jin Yan looked at his appearance at this time, and her tone was a little unbearable and too hard, so she said gently: "Xu Yan, you and I are no longer us back then, aren't we?" ”

When Mo Xuyan heard this, he retorted a little eagerly: "No, I'm still the same person I was back then." I still love you. ”

"Nope." When Jin Yan heard his words, she smiled and said, "No, as early as when you chose to be with Jocelin, you were no longer the same person who loved me back then. Or, if I put it a little ugly, does she count as a junior? To put it a little harder, do you count as swinging between two women now? Fang Jinyan said her inner thoughts bluntly, no longer caring whether he would be hurt because of this.

"......" Mo Xuyan's eyes were a little red, and he carried a trace of guilt and helplessness: "I...... When I knew I was suffering from depression, I thought I wouldn't get better, I didn't want to...... I really don't want to hurt you. ”

"It doesn't matter if she's a junior or not, whether she's waiting for you when we're still together, but you've accepted her, you shouldn't hurt two people at the same time." Fang Jinyan was very calm, she turned out that she could say these words.

Jinyan listened to his voice with a slight cry at this time, just stretched out her hand and patted him lightly on the shoulder, and her eyes were a little sour: "Xu Yan, when you told me that you were depressed, I actually felt a little guilty that I was not by your side at that time. But actually, what's wrong with me? It was you who didn't choose to let me accompany you, but rather let me misunderstand that you didn't love me, and then you chose another girl who loved you to accompany you. You see, we're all like that. The more you think about what you can't get, the more perfect your image becomes, as if you have to get it. You were like that to me in those years, and I am not like that to you now? At this time, Jin Yan suddenly remembered this sentence mentioned by Jiacheng in the past, and suddenly felt that this sentence was not only right for herself, perhaps, everyone is like this, it is easy to be blinded by their own crankiness, thinking that what they can't get is the best.

"No, it's not ...... It's not like this......" Mo Xuyan lowered his head and couldn't speak.

Jin Yan's eyes were slightly red, looking at Xu Yan's appearance at this time, she was even more helpless, how have they gone through these years, Jin Yan thought about it and said, "Xu Yan, do you know? I looked for you after you left. I've looked for you on Facebook and Twitter, but I can't find you. I've messaged you, but you can't see it. Because I can't find you, you ignore me. Because I was afraid of losing you from now on, I imagined that you would come back to me again, and my account was never cancelled, but you didn't come back to me. Do you know why I went back to China back then? Do you really know what kind of gap you had in your heart after returning to China because I couldn't let you go? The fact that I came back before graduating has tormented me for a long, long time. Do you know when I was in the subway, I looked at the speeding car and had the urge to jump? I feel that memory is black, I feel that life is boring, and I even want to sleep like this one day until I die, and I won't wake up again......" Speaking of this, Jin Yan's eyes seemed to be a little hazy, and her voice was a little choked, and she continued: "You are not good, how can I be better?" I was scared by my desire to jump off the rails. I've also seen a psychiatrist, and after a year, I really accepted that I had lost you, but now you come back and tell me that you are depressed, do you want me to go back to the way I was? ”

Mo Xuyan listened to Jin Yan's words, and his pupils became more and more dilated: "How can it be ......?" You didn't ......" Mo Xuyan suddenly felt that no matter what he said at this time, he couldn't make up for the damage caused by the other party's Jinyan over the years, looking at Jinyan's slightly red eyes at this time, he subconsciously: "Jinyan...... Yes, I'm sorry. I do not know...... You ......"

Jin Yan listened to his apology, tears finally burst out of her eyes, but she still maintained a smile on her face, and said, "So, not only are you no longer the same person you used to be, but I am no longer the same person I used to be." She reached out to wipe the tears from her face and continued, "Xu Yan, I am grateful for your confession to me. Before I met you, I thought I would be waiting for you to come back, and I always thought that I could last longer in the matter of loving you. But every time I see you, I always unconsciously think of how hard and hard I have been in the process of loving you, and only then do I know that we can't go back. After Jin Yan finished speaking, a line of tears crossed her cheeks.

She finally let go.

When Xu Yan heard this, tears began to roll in his eyes, even though he was reluctant, he didn't seem to have a position to say anything at this time, just apologized: "Jinyan, I know." I really...... I'm so sorry I hurt you like that in the past. I really wanted to make up for ......"

Jin Yan interrupted him with a smile: "No need. Those things, since I tell you, mean that they are already in the past. Maybe we'll be friends too. ”

Mo Xuyan didn't say anything for a long time, and it was only when Jin Yan thought that their conversation was over that he heard his somewhat hoarse voice: "Hmm." I'm white. Maybe they'll become friends too. As he spoke, he smiled self-deprecatingly: "Maybe we were really too young at the time, and I thought it would be better for you to see me again who has recovered." But I didn't expect that it actually hurt you. ”

After hearing this, Jin Yan smiled with tears in her eyes and said, "Believe me, I still hope you will be happy." But it has nothing to do with me, if you find your happiness, I will be happy. ”

"Thank you, so do I. Actually, I'll be back in the U.S. in a few months after I'm done with your project. I'm not sure if I'll come back, I wanted to take you back with me. Speaking of this, Xu Yan lowered his head and smiled as if he was self-deprecating again: "If you don't return to China in the future, you will play with me when you go back to the United States, and you will be fed and housed." ”

Jin Yan looked at him, smiling, with a hint of reluctance in her eyes, but she sincerely hoped that everything was okay for him, and said, "Okay." Hope you go well when you go back. Wherever you are, I will bless you. ”。

Sometimes, just a wayward turn is a lifetime. Perhaps this is the ending that Mo Xuyan has to accept at this time, and it is also a result that Fang Jinyan thinks about this relationship will make her no longer sad.