Nan Yu's voice had already rushed out of the headphones and fell into Xu Yanqing's ears.

It's very noisy.

Xu Yanqing ripped off Chen Nian's headphones, let her go, and reminded: "Don't turn up the volume so high." ”

"Got it."

Chen Nian put down his bag, wiped his mouth, picked up his mobile phone, re-focused on the camera, and put on his headphones, "The phone just fell off." ”

Nan Yu looked at her carefully, and only then did she notice that she seemed to be in the car, the light was not very good, but a pair of eyes looked at the sparkling water, "I have already bought a ticket, the ticket at nine o'clock in the morning, and it will be almost half past eleven in Beicheng." Call you when the time comes. ”

Nan Yu has too many things to ask and want to say, but it's hard to say on the phone, so she has to meet and talk.

Chen Nian: "Okay, I'll pick you up at the airport tomorrow." ”

Chen Nian also wanted to see her.

Nan Yu: "Where are you going?" Have you had dinner? ”

"I'm going to eat."

"What are you eating?"

"Hot pot."

Nan Yu seemed to think of something, and went to call Tuan Tuan over, so that he would not be able to hang up for a while.

When Tuan Tuan saw Chen Nian, a small face slapped directly on the screen of his mobile phone, as if he wanted to hug her.

Before Chen Nian disappeared, the last thing he saw was Tuan Tuan.

Tuan Tuan has always missed Chen Nian, and at the beginning, he was not very well, he had a fever and nightmares for several days, and he kept crying when he woke up.

Later, Nan Yu also specially found a children's psychiatrist to appease Tuan Tuan.

Recently, it has only been a little better, and when I took him to kindergarten in the previous paragraph, I had to be accompanied by someone and take special care of him.

The smile on Tuan Tuan's face never fell, he didn't talk much, but his eyes were firmly fixed on the screen.

When he was about to arrive at the hot pot restaurant, the phone happened to run out of battery automatically, and Chen Nian didn't have time to say goodbye, so he jumped directly to the black screen.

All the way, Xu Yanqing didn't quarrel with her, only propped up one hand on the car window, pulled her hand over, put it on her lap, played with her fingers, and didn't play with her mobile phone.

It's going to be a meal.

This hot pot restaurant has a good reputation, and there are a lot of people in line.

Xu Yanqing went to get a number.

The store is also intimate, there is a special place to be comfortable, etc., and there are free snacks to fill your stomach.

The two of them found a place to sit.

Chen Nian took two candies on the plate, she was a little hungry.

She put one of them in Xu Yanqing's hand, she glanced at the number plate, there were more than a dozen tables in front of her, and she didn't know how long she would have to wait.

Chen Nian suddenly thought of what Nan Yu said that Xu Yanqing smashed her grave, "Why did you go to smash the grave?" ”

"It's not that I want to smash it on purpose, I took a look at it, and I wasn't very satisfied, so I let people smash it. By the way, I took a look at the contents inside. ”

Nan Yu didn't say anything to Xu Hanyi, he suddenly mentioned it, but it aroused Chen Nian's interest, "What did your grandfather put in it?" Gang Nan Yu hasn't told me yet. ”

Xu Yanqing: "Your favorite." ”

Chen Nian couldn't think of her favorite thing for a while, because she didn't have a favorite thing for a long time, "What? ”

"Bear doll."

When the words fell, the expression on Chen Nian's face paused, and she thought of what she had stuffed inside, and her eyes stared straight into his eyes.

Xu Yanqing's eyes were deep, and a dark color flashed under his eyes, as if there was an undercurrent.

The mint in the mouth melted, and it was cool, until it reached the head.

Chen Nian coughed and said, "Nan Yu is really good at choosing." ”

"Does she know?"

The noisy and lively environment around Chen Nian was a little distracted, and the sadness that came up in his heart was not so bad.

From Xu Yanqing's eyes, she could guess that he should have found out.

Chen Nian: "You found out?" ”

"Hmm."

"Nan Yu didn't know, or already knew, so he deliberately chose this little bear." She looked away, "It seems to be quite appropriate, though it is unformed and has no name." ”

Xu Yanqing: "So, you like it?" ”

Chen Nian nodded and shook her head again, the situation at that time did not allow her to think about anything at all.

Maybe she will be happy, but that happiness must be short-lived, and she didn't catch it herself.

How can you be happy?

Only when I had a miscarriage, the pain I still remember deeply.

She still remembers the nightmares she had in those days.

To this day, the poor little girl is still hidden in her dreams.

When she slept in the shabby inn in the Triangle, when she thought she was going to die, the little girl appeared once.

Chen Nian seemed to see her face, a very beautiful face, very similar to Xu Yanqing.

She wore two small pigtails, a white and tender little face, holding Chen Nian's favorite bear in her hand, looking at her with clear eyes, tears on her face, and calling her mother.

Then he threw himself into her arms, and the cheek rubbed against her.

Chen Nian didn't dare to hug it.

Then, she heard the little girl's childish voice, "Daddy is waiting for you." ”

That dream was so real that she really felt like she had gone to the ghost gate and walked around.

Chen Nian turned his face, looked at Xu Yanqing, and said, "It's more pain." I didn't have a painless abortion, I want to remember this pain, it's too painful, remember it, and I won't have any more entanglements with you. ”

She said that it hurt, but her eyes were already calm after experiencing too much.

Xu Yanqing stretched out his hand and touched her eyes lightly, such a look, as if in the softest place in his heart, fell a thin needle, at first it was not so painful, gently, but gradually, as the fine needle entered the flesh and heart, the pain became obvious.

If you don't have a painless abortion, you will naturally know the pain you have to endure as a doctor.

"It won't hurt you again in the future," he said. ”

Chen Nian didn't seem to hear this, his eyes turned to look at him, and asked, "Then have you thought about it?" ”

The first pain Xu Yanqing tasted was when Chen Nian rubbed off the tattoos on her body.

The second time, she easily beat the child, obviously he didn't want the child, but at that time he inexplicably bred a desire for the lost child.

But this desire soon disappeared.

He didn't think about it, because Chen Nian hated it, so he didn't want to think about it either.

He was silent for a moment, never speaking.

Coincidentally, there was a little girl of three or four years old, playing and playing, and accidentally fell in front of the two.

The little girl didn't cry, but grabbed Chen Nian's leg with her little hand, stood up, and then called Chen Nian's sister with a grin, "Sister, I'm sorry." ”

Chen Nian smiled and shook her head, the little girl looked cute, Chen Nian couldn't help but get started and touched her head.

She didn't recognize her life at all, and soon went to play with the other children.

After the little girl walked away, Chen Nian said, "It's a girl, it looks like you." ”

She said it very lightly, even if it was noisy around, it still fell on Xu Yanqing's ears and heart, causing layers of ripples

Chen Nian continued: "She always appears in my dreams, sometimes scaring me, and sometimes saving me. She's a good baby, but I'm not a good mother. ”

Chen Nian smiled at Xu Yanqing, the smile fell in her eyes, it was very warm, and she said, "I think she likes you too." ”