Chapter 11: Falling into Grey
In the early morning, the cool breeze blew a little cool, and a figure was standing quietly in a corner of the mountain, not knowing what to think.
Today is the fourth day of Satsuki's disappearance, and Lone Star knows that Satsuki is really angry this time, for her own incompetence, for her own lack of progress.
After being with her for so long, it was the first time I saw her so disappointed, and I didn't even want to look at myself again.
Lone Star stood in place stunned, he had long been used to the days when Xiao Yue was by his side, but now......
He had never been so scared of something, and Satsuki's departure scared him.
"Are you going back to being alone? Actually, it's pretty good, no one cares, no one asks......"
He tried to say something to prove that he didn't care much, but his red eyes betrayed him.
He suddenly longed to see Satsuki again more than usual, even if he would be beaten and scolded by her, as long as she could come back, he was willing.
From the initial indifference to the amazement to the pity and the final dependence, his feelings for her seem to be undergoing a step by step transformation, Lone Star doesn't know what this relationship will become in the end, but no matter what, it is so much to look forward to. But now......
She seemed to be gone, quietly, without even saying a word of goodbye.
And his expectations are about to be stifled here, and he is gradually losing his vitality.
"It's just that right now, I'm disappointed in you. ”
I don't know when this sentence has been lingering in Lone Star's mind, making him regretful.
He went crazy, looking for all the places that Satsuki might go, he prayed like a devout believer to see Satsuki's figure in the next second, but Satsuki evaporated from the world, disappearing silently, as if it had never appeared.
"It turned out that everything was just a false dream. ”
Lone Star muttered, suddenly hysterical.
"I'll just say, how can someone like me be good to me, it's all fake, haha...... Woohoo......"
He still cried after all, he once swore in front of his grandfather that he would not cry again, he was crying at this moment, he had always been pretending to be strong, in the final analysis, he was still a child. It doesn't matter how mature he is, how different he is.
Looking back on the bits and pieces of the past few months, he faintly felt unreal.
He raised his head and looked at the sky, his eyes were full of gray, and he couldn't help grinning: "If you give me hope, why do you despair and don't invite you like this?"
Waiting made him lose his mind, and his heart became as gloomy as the weather.
The rain began to fall the day after Satsuki left, and it rained for two days in a row, giving the mountains like a mist, and it was difficult to see it in a fog.
He just stood motionless in the rain. He wanted to wait until Satsuki came back, and then said to her personally, "I'm sorry!"
It's just that he can't seem to wait, Satsuki is already gone and will never come back.
He stood there, letting the rain fall on him, and he couldn't feel it.
This feeling of despair, he only had it once when the old man left, it turned out that unconsciously, in his heart, Sister Xiaoyue had occupied such a big position.
Man is not a creature worthy of sympathy, because only when he loses, he will know how to cherish it.
He didn't want to think about it anymore, he vaguely felt that his body had become colder and colder, and even the smile froze on his face, and some were just cold.
"Is this the time again? If my grandfather sees it, I will be scolded again, he wants me to live so much, but why am I always not angry. ”
Forget it, I don't care, it's good to end like this, you don't have to think about chasing answers, you don't have to think about becoming stronger, that's it, it's over without worry.
Thinking of this, Lone Star could no longer hold it and fell headlong.
And at the moment when he fell, he seemed to see a familiar figure rushing towards him, as if trying to catch him, but it passed through his body.
"Hehe, is it a hallucination?" he smiled self-deprecatingly, for the image was very human.
"Bastard!"
It was Xiao Yue, she had disappeared for a few days because of Lone Star's indisputability, just to let Lone Star understand that cultivation is a person's business, and she can never be dependent on others, including the Dao Realm, but also herself, but she was far from expecting that Lone Star would be so persistent in waiting for herself in the rain for three days.
"You're stupid!"
Guilty, uneasy, she tried to hug the young man in front of her with her arms, but she couldn't, she had never been so helpless as she was now, lying on Lone Star's side in a panic.
She kept calling Lone Star's name, hysterical.
Finally, Lone Star opened his eyes slightly, but his eyes were gloomy: "Sister Xiaoyue, is it you?"
Hearing Lone Star speak, she suddenly grabbed the last life-saving straw like a drowning person, and was excited: "It's me, it's me." I'm back!"
"It's really you, you're really willing to come back. ”
Lone Star's eyes were a little brighter, but his face was still weak.
Xiao Yue nodded with tears in her eyes, and then touched Lone Star's face with her hand without giving up, grabbed it empty, and looked at the haggard Lone Star, she couldn't help but tremble: "I'm back, I'm back, I'm not leaving, I'm not scolding you anymore, don't sleep, okay?"
But Lone Star didn't seem to hear it, opened his eyes, and quickly closed them again: "Sister Xiaoyue, I was wrong, don't go......"
"You're right, it's my sister's mistake, don't sleep, my sister will promise you everything!"
Satsuki's voice was crying, a little hoarse in the rain.
Only this time Lone Star didn't speak again, his eyes closed, lying on the ground as if he was asleep, and the rain kept beating on his face, and he didn't realize it.
Until......
"Sister Xiaoyue, I'm sorry, I'm so sleepy, let me sleep, just sleep for a while......"
Lone Star's breath became weaker and weaker, and his muttered apology made Satsuki cry uncontrollably, and the huge guilt brought by guilt pressed on her heart like a boulder, and she blamed herself, if she hadn't been willful for a while, Lone Star wouldn't have become what she is now, he was still just a child! She swore that as long as the boy could wake up, she would be willing to pay any price.
Unfortunately, it was all in vain, Lone Star's eyes never opened again, and she could only watch helplessly from the sidelines the whole time.
The rain still kept falling, pouring on Lone Star's body through her body, Xiao Yue hated Rainy Day more than ever, she couldn't even use her body to resist some damage for Lone Star, she hated herself even more, she didn't even have a chance to atone for her sins.
Until she couldn't cry anymore, she couldn't remember Edgeworth.
The sword lost control and fell from the air to the ground, humming and seeming to be wailing for its master.
Xiao Yue looked at the lone star lying on the ground in a daze, and suddenly, this scene coincided with another fragment in her mind.
In the clip, a woman in battle armor is sitting on the ground like her, but her eyes are always looking at something.
"Who is she......"
Satsuki tried to control her consciousness, trying to see the woman's appearance clearly, but found that she couldn't see clearly, so she had to follow the woman's gaze and look down, only to see a figure lying on the ground, the appearance of the figure......
"Ah...... Yes...... My head... It hurts......"
Suddenly, she felt an inexplicable pain in her head, as if it was about to explode, as if something was churning in her mind and trying to come out.
This made her suffer even more, and she was half-kneeling on the ground, her expression hideous and terrifying.
......
Lone Star only felt that he was plunged into boundless darkness, and there was no light around him, and the silence was terrifying.
This feeling is not unfamiliar to him, it is a kind of loneliness that is quiet to the extreme, and the reason why he is very familiar with this feeling is because the only thing he has not lacked since he was a child is loneliness.
Is this what death feels like?
Lone Star scoffed, if death was just that, but it was nothing more than that.
"When I was alive, I was a person, but now that I'm dead, I'm still so lonely around me. Haha......"
Thinking that he was born alone, and now he died alone, it is in line with his fate.
He laughed, but it was indescribably melancholy.
At this time, there was also a voice in his heart that kept calling him: "Stay, this place belongs to you alone, no one will force you anymore, and no one will dislike you anymore, just here, stay forever." ”
The voice seems to have a kind of magic, so faint that it is impossible to refuse.
"Yes, this is my own world, my own ......"
He muttered the phrase over and over again, his mind gradually swallowed up by something.
At the same time, he felt like he was falling into the abyss, as if it had been a long, long time, until his consciousness was blurred.
In his impression, he seemed to see his grandfather's figure, standing in the distance and looking at the boy with a smile.
"Grandpa!"
"Grandpa"
He shouted desperately, but the figure of the old man was getting farther and farther away, and he tried hard to chase it, but found that he couldn't catch up.
"Stay, in this world, there is everything you want. "That voice is like nothing, as if it has come from eternity, and it is addictive.
"Stay, I'm going to stay......"
Finally, Lone Star completely lost his clarity, and in a daze, he saw that the old man had come to him, and he was smiling kindly.
"Son, come with me, let's go to a place where no one can find it, and live well. ”
"It's Grandpa..."
Lone Star put his hand in the old man's hand and smiled innocently, at that moment, he suddenly saw a vermilion gate slowly emerging behind the old man, and behind the gate, there were two figures standing faintly with unclear appearances.
Faintly, Lone Star saw that the two figures seemed to be a man and a woman, standing there, waving to himself outside the door......
"Kid, come here, come here, hehe... Hehe......"
The laughter was as crisp and beautiful as a silver bell, and he suddenly forgot everything and subconsciously walked towards the door.
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Two-step ......