Chapter 43: It's that I'm not worthy of her, you're different
(As of 21 o'clock in the evening of November 15th, this chapter on the website says that it is 13:8 and the group vote is 24:16 Lao Sao will enter the senior sister line according to the promise.) )
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"You're wrong, my daily routine is not boring at all, why should I seek those unnecessary thrills and give up the current state of life that I have worked so hard for? You say life is boring, but this is life!"
Listening to the rebuttal of the young man in his heart after thinking about it, He Tianran smiled noncommittally:
"So, you chose the second option? So how do you answer the three questions I asked you earlier? ”
"I do feel guilty about Wen Liang, and I did run away, but now that the situation is different, since we are doing it again, there will definitely be a better way to solve this problem, instead of doing a multiple-choice question here!"
"And my method is to get in touch with the senior sister~"
The more anxious he listened to the voice in his heart, the stronger the smile on He Tiantian's face became, he was like a cat, teasing a mouse that couldn't go home.
"You said you'd ask for my opinion!!"
"Yes, I asked, but I was the one who made the final decision."
He Tianran responded very scoundrelly, decisively erasing the boy's own hopes, but obviously, the other self did not want to give up:
"As for Wen Liang, haven't you ever thought that Wen Liang was reborn to make He Tianran better and get out of a shadow caused by her, what you do now is equivalent to living up to everything she has done for us!!
As for Ai Qing, she is my girlfriend, my love, I suspect that she is already very sorry for her, I just ask you to meet as soon as possible, let everything fall into place, no matter what the outcome is, I will face it calmly.
I beg you, I've always been the one who protects her, and I don't want to be the one who hurts her......
He Tianran sneered after hearing this: "What a lot of upright words, but you said so much, have you solved any problems?!" ”
"But the way you solve the problem, do you have to hurt others?!"
Two rhetorical questions, two different positions at this moment have been hedged, which may be the biggest difference between the two stages of He Tianran, between teenagers and youths.
"You think your previous actions didn't hurt Wen Liang? Admit it, no matter what you come up with, there will always be one between the two of them that will hurt. Don't forget, I'm helping you, you already know everything that happened to Wen Liang, let her be disappointed in you, disappointed in the person 'He Tianran', then this 'ambiguous' relationship between us will end earlier, isn't this what you want?
Now you tell me not to hurt her, heh, it's ridiculous, you must leave a good impression in the hearts of others, and you will never forget it, right? What is good to get together and disperse, if you can really make up your mind, you will simply die and never get along, so happy.
Let me tell you, don't think that if Ai Qing is really not the little white flower in your memory, you want to come to Wen Liang to make up for it, it is because you have doubts about your lover, it has nothing to do with her, you now know that Wen Liang has always been a person and has pity for her? Don't, it's not fair to Ai Qing, isn't it?
So, let's treat everyone equally, if you want to break it, just break it together, don't leave yourself any way out, is it hypocritical? ”
The young man He Tiantian said cynically, but his expression was silently ruthless.
In the future, Cao Aiqing's evaluation of him is that he is a person who can really be ruthless to himself, and now it seems that this is really the case.
These words, sentence by sentence, hit the key point of the young man, pointing directly to his heart, but this time, when the other self really wanted to go against his will, the young man did not have the previous panic, after several arguments and questions, the young man understood that the young He Tianran would stand on his own position every time to overturn the inherent conclusion.
They are one, and if a person is shaken in the face of his inner questioning, then all his beliefs will collapse and disintegrate.
But this time is different, the young man He Tianran can feel it very clearly, this time, it is different!
He, unwillingly!
The young man's He Tiantian, he is the one who stands in the light and has been seriously loved, because he has experienced the taste of being surrounded by indifference, so he will love others in the same serious or even more fiery way.
Therefore, even if you want to redeem something and make up for it, you should solve it in a reciprocal way, rather than making a mistake as another self proposes!
Is the young man's self really as invulnerable as he appears? He didn't seem to care about anything, even if he faced the warmth of the entangled world again, he didn't show too much emotion.
He is like a reasonable guest, like an outsider, Wen Liang once said that this He is naturally as stubborn as a weed, and he is used to disguising himself as if he is alive and well in front of outsiders, but as long as he is loved, he will take out a little more love from his already barren life to you.
But where is the love he pulls out?
What the hell is he going to do?
The young man in his heart fell into deep thought, if they were all He Tianran, then he should not be invisible.
Yes, they are all He Tianran.
"Last night, you said you were going to tell the truth for me, but you actually ...... You lied to Wen Liang too, didn't you?"
After a long time, the young man in his heart slowly groaned.
"Huh?" Young He Tianran's expression was rare to condense, but this was only in a blink of an eye: "Isn't what I said to Wen Liang yesterday straightforward enough?" ”
"Actually, you love her, and in September of that year, when you couldn't help but confess to her on stage, you should be very sure that you love her."
"Are you being funny? This is the ...... of all evils."
"Then you should also love out of hate, not out of hate! You can't know your love before you hate!"
Before He Tianran could finish speaking, the young man in his heart immediately interrupted his words and continued:
"On the day of the orientation party, I remember that I confessed to Ai Qing, and my inner thought at that time was that I hoped that she would reject me, even though we had no relationship at that time, but I still hoped that her rejection could bring an end to my three-year high school crush.
And when I made this move, I already understood that I fell in love with Wen Liang, and I was very sure of my heart, even if Xue Yong and Ye Jiaqi told me that this was a prank, and Wen Liang was playing tricks on me! You're lying to me! Everyone is waiting to see my jokes!
However, when I see her on stage, I will still confess without hesitation.
You always say that you are also He Tianran, but the results we get are different.
So before this result, you tell me, was the feeling we had at that time, was it love?"
The young man He Tianran's eyes darkened, he smiled to himself, and said calmly:
"Even if I lied to her, so what? Does this have anything to do with what we're doing now? ”
"You pretend to be cynical and don't care about anyone, but in fact, you care to death, and the reason why you choose to get close to your senior sister is because of the relationship that 'me' exists."
He Tianran laughed: "Yes, that's right, I said it, don't leave a good impression in the hearts of others, so that others will not be happy to let go if they want to." ”
"It's not like that."
"Hehe, what do you think?"
"Because you know that if Ai Qing is still the same as before, then it is impossible for 'I' to accept the warm love, even if she recovers all her memories, even if she is the one in September, we can't ...... Together!"
“……”
"You are me, you have been in my heart for seventy-two months, and I have rejected her seventy-two times, you know what kind of attitude this young man He Tiantian has towards love, but you love to be warm and cool, what are you going to do in the face of this situation?
So, you came up with a way, you pretend not to love her, and even want to deliberately snub her, you act absurdly and do something misleading, in order not to affect Wen Liang's impression of 'He Tianran', but mine.
You know I'm going to feel guilty for you doing this to her, especially when I know everything, and I admit I'm confused right now, and you're trying to take advantage of that of me to make me ......."
Speaking of this, the young man in his heart was stunned, and he didn't seem to have the courage to continue.
The whistle for the start of military training in the afternoon had already sounded, and the students in the cafeteria gradually dispersed, except for He Tianran, who was left alone, sitting on a chair, and the sun was shining outside the cafeteria.
"You want me to ...... Love her more, I'm sorry for her more, let me ...... Or let her, have a chance to get back together, this is your plan, this is ...... Your appearance."
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"Smack, smack, slap......"
In the huge space, lonely applause rang out, and He Tianran laughed silently, he smiled very happily, but very bitterly.
"I thought you wouldn't think of this until after it happened."
"If I hadn't called He Tianran, I might never have thought of your purpose for the rest of my life...... Ai Qing is right, you can even calculate yourself, you are indeed a ruthless person."
"Each other, if you replace the 'you' in the subject of your words just now with 'me', then when it comes to ruthlessness, 'He Tianran' is not far behind."
"Even now, you still don't think you're worthy of her?"
Time passed minute by minute, and this He Tianran must have had a lot of things to say to his lover in the seventy-two reincarnations, but until this time, when that person asked him if he had ever liked himself, he still said lightly-
I do not know.
He knew, he knew everything, but in the face of his inner questioning, he just sighed and said sadly:
"It's that I'm not worthy of her, you're different."
「…… You said we are one."
"Then you give her a chance, okay?"
「…… I've got Ai Qing."
He Tianran stood up and said with a wry smile:
"You see, you've said so much, but it still hasn't solved the problem, so you have to use my method."
"I already know your purpose, why do you do this?!!
"I've never been afraid of being known for my purpose......"
He walked towards the door, his body exposed to the blazing sun, the view slightly distorted by the heat.
"I told you, some words are said to the core, and they are in the picture. There's one more thing I haven't told you, but you've heard it, and that is that a person who knows too much often suffers more. ”
Big and small nature is really a wall breaker for each other, and big nature is really the most twisted character I wrote (this sentence was kept before Ai Qing appeared)
The correct solution to the puzzle selected in the last issue:
1. Twist
2. Sugar
(End of chapter)