Chapter 92: I don't know how to face it, and I don't know how to say goodbye

Ye Yao, who was on the side, just heard the old man's description at this moment, and she felt an inexplicable sadness rising from her.

It was also the first time she had begun to really sympathize with the man.

Yes, his life is indeed too difficult....

At this moment, countless pictures flashed in Chen Yuwei's mind.

She remembered the images in the memory fragments.

She remembered that day Lin Yi was about to swallow the medicine used to commit suicide, and then threw the medicine away, constantly telling herself that she couldn't die....

And then Chen Yuwei thought of the picture of Lin Yi's collapse that day after seeing the letter her daughter wrote to him.

At this moment, Chen Yuwei still doesn't understand the full meaning of Lin Yi's life.

So.... After arranging the aftermath.

He sees death as a relief....

The old man said as if he suddenly remembered something, and he said to Chen Yuwei: "Wait a minute, we also took a photo that day, I'll show it to you." ”

With that, the old man turned and entered the house.

I rummaged through a drawer, and then pulled out a relatively new photo from the middle.

The old man took out the photo and walked out of the house, and then handed the photo to Chen Yuwei.

Then the old man said, "The picture you just showed me is when he was young." ”

"So I didn't recognize him at the first time, and he was the most special customer I've ever met."

"He is a very peaceful and very talkative man, and when I asked him for a photo that day, he quickly agreed, and after we took the photo, he actually told me that the photo was so ugly, and he was old."

After the old man said this, he was obviously a little unconvinced, and there was a trace of unconvincing on his face.

Then he continued to say to himself: "I studied photography for a few years before I did this! How can you make a person ugly, I have eaten by this craft! ”

"You could say I didn't use that kind of beauty, but let's be real, right? You see that I am not much different from me in the photo, right? People, it's time to face each other when you're going to get old, right, you see I'm old, and I won't dislike myself when I'm old. ”

Because the old man's thoughts at the moment were immersed in the memories of that day, he kept talking with his head down.

So he didn't notice that Chen Yuwei, who was holding the photo, was crying so much that he couldn't stop crying.

Chen Yuwei's face became much paler, and her hand holding the photo was shaking.

In the photo, Lin Yi is full of gray hair, and all parts of his body seem to have traces of old age left after the baptism of time, especially the hands he exposed are full of wrinkles.... There are also some scars from unknown things.

His eyes were also full of fatigue, and he didn't see any vitality at all.

This is something that Chen Yuwei never expected, in her impression, Lin Yi's image is still stuck at the press conference a few days ago.

When Chen Yuwei thought of this, her vision became blurred because of the gathering of mist.

He didn't think about it at the time....

He must have been helpless....

I never imagined that after going through all this suffering, I would age like this....

And that's why he said those words....

There was a voice in Chen Yuwei's head that did not dissipate until this moment.

Will they forget me.... Will they forget me....

For a man who is not afraid of everything and has never bowed to fate in his life, he is afraid that he will forget him.

Tears fell down Chen Yuwei's cheeks one by one.

Why couldn't I be by his side that day....

Just as Ye Yao took out a tissue on the side and was about to hand it over.

Chen Yuwei suddenly turned around and shouted at the lake: "I will not forget you, never!" ”

After that, Chen Yuwei turned to the old man and said, "That person is my husband, I am a very incompetent wife, and I can't even be by his side when he chooses his own grave..."

"Can you take me to see it? Look at him.... A grave chosen for yourself...."

When she said this, Chen Yuwei's voice trembled.

After the old man heard this, he looked up at Chen Yuwei again, and there was still a trace of doubt in his eyes at first.

He didn't suspect that Chen Yuwei knew the most special customer he had ever met.

Because Chen Yuwei even took out the photos, it proves that there must be a relationship between the two.

But when the other party said that it was his wife, the old man felt a little strange.

Because in his opinion, the woman in front of him looks like those big stars on TV, and she looks like she is in her twenties.

No matter how well it is maintained, it looks young, and at most it is in his early thirties.

But the man he saw that day, the old man only thought that he was probably one round younger than himself.

So when Chen Yuwei said that she and the man were husband and wife, he hesitated.

However, after the old man thought of some details, he quickly dispelled this doubt.

After he took a photo with the customer that day, when he looked back at the photo, he also found that Lin Yi had some unknown wounds on his hand.

And when the old man followed behind Lin Yi that day, he also smelled a smell similar to alcohol, and a little similar to washing powder.

So when the old man recalled those points at this moment, it all matched.

It's no wonder that the man said that day that he was too old to take a picture of him, disgusted that he was so old....

It turns out that this sentence was not addressed to him ....

The old man also knows that there are some diseases that can make people turn white overnight and make people age quickly.

It seems that the man is suffering from such a disease....

And because the speed of aging is too fast, he has a trace of trance about his current self.

After thinking of this, the old man also believed Chen Yuwei's words.

Anyway, at least the two of them know each other, so take it with you if you do a good deed.

So the old man nodded, took a key from his jacket pocket, opened the door, and entered the cemetery first.

Then he turned around and said, "Then you come with me." ”

"He also talked to me a lot that day, and asked someone to mail me a few bottles of good wine afterwards, so I think he and I can be regarded as a one-sided friend."

"Follow me, I'll show you."

Chen Yuwei immediately thanked her when she heard this, and then followed behind the old man.

Ye Yao followed closely behind.

After walking for a while, the three of them saw one tombstone after another.

Some of them are luxurious, some are simple, and some are dilapidated.

These tombstones are inscribed with words.

In this way, I show that I have come to this world.

And this is also the last expression of a person's life.

There are also some flowers and fruits in front of the tombstones, apparently someone came to pay their respects not long ago.

When Chen Yuwei passes by each tombstone, she pays attention to the words engraved on it.

Some of the tombstones have many words on them, and they write his ups and downs of life into solemn documents and impassioned.

And most of them are very short, and some only write one word.

It seems that this is also compared to the lives of most people in the vast number of living beings, which are ordinary and ordinary.

When the old man led the two forward, he seemed to be afraid that the two of them would feel bored on the road, or maybe this was one of his habits.

The old man didn't care and no one talked, and he kept looking for topics and saying, "In fact, you have to have a strong heart to do what we do, or you are simply a staunch atheist, otherwise you will definitely not be able to do it for long." ”

"It's like a few of my colleagues have changed round after round, and they all said that they were panicked after a short time, and they often had nightmares so they couldn't do it anymore."

"Also, the placement of this tombstone is actually very particular..."

After walking some distance, Chen Yuwei noticed that the tombstone next to her seemed to be starting to get old.

Some of them are even covered in moss.

It wasn't as neat as the tombstones they had looked at before.

At this time, the old man said: "The area in front is a new area, that is, a newly planned area. ”

"We're in the old neighborhood now, so the tombstones there don't look as new and neat as they used to be because they're in disrepair."

"Your husband said he was going to choose a grave on the edge closest to the lake, so I took him straight to the old district."

"Well, it's just ahead."

When they heard this, they looked up almost at the same time and looked together at the place where the old man was pointing.

Then they saw a very ordinary tombstone.

And there wasn't even a word on that tombstone, it was blank.

After sighing at this time, the old man said, "I remember that day the wind was quite strong, and the air around me was quite cold. ”

"I asked him then? What are you going to carve on your own tombstone when you die? ”

"And the man shrank back and suddenly said something a little crepe to me, but I think it really makes sense."

Hearing this, Chen Yuwei hurriedly asked, "What did the old man say to you at that time?" Can you tell me?! ”

The old man looked down for a while and said, "I'm not sure if I didn't miss a word, but that's probably what it means." ”

"He said at the time that death is fair for everyone, and this is probably the fairest thing in the world, everyone is trapped in time, and it is impossible to escape, no matter how hard you try, you can't escape."

"He also said something that touched me very much at the time, he said that he had spent his whole life thinking about how to live, thinking about how to take care of his family, so he barely had any time to think about death."

"So when faced with this tomb I bought, I didn't know how to greet death or say goodbye for a while."

"So he thought about it for a long time that day, and he didn't come up with a single word that was left on his tombstone."

"But he seemed to feel the oppression of the atmosphere at the time, and then he smiled and said to me that after all, this was the last word that a person left in this world, so he had to be cautious."

"He said that the next time he came, he would have someone help him engrave what he wanted to say on the tombstone."

Chen Yuwei was stunned when she heard this, and she thought of the most critical question at this moment.

She said, "That.... He, he is buried here .... Is it so? ”

When she asked this sentence, Chen Yuwei's heart was terrified.

She also knew that she would have to face this end sooner or later.

But the heart still hung in the air.

When the old man heard this, he paused for a while, and then he said, "You are really an incompetent wife, and it seems that what you said earlier really did not wrong you at all. ”

"Don't you even know if your husband died or was buried? That's too much to say. ”

But the old man complained and complained, and he still said the answer that Chen Yuwei wanted to hear: "After he left that day, he never came back." ”

"Hey, I don't know if I can see him again, such a person is too rare..."

"But I don't think there's a chance, because what he told me was that next time he would ask someone else to engrave his tombstone."

Chen Yuwei only listened to the first sentence, and she couldn't listen to any of the next words.

At this moment, her face unconsciously showed a hint of surprise.

Isn't he dead?

Right! He must not be dead, he must be alive!

The old man on the side naturally didn't know what happened between Chen Yuwei and Lin Yi.

However, he still saw a clue with his experience.

So the old man persuaded on the side: "You must have been working outside all the year round and busy making money to treat your husband, and you haven't seen him for a long time, and then there have been some misunderstandings between you." ”

"That's why it's like this."

"Actually, I think you should spend more time with him in his last period, at least don't be ignorant of his situation like you are now, and come to me to ask me this kind of ridiculous question."

"Besides, don't you see that the traces around here are very neat, where are the traces of burial?"

is different from Chen Yuwei, who is completely immersed in beautiful imagination.

After Ye Yao heard this, her whole mind was confused.

Because she just read the suicide note with Chen Yuwei.

also saw these things that Lin Yi left for Chen Yuwei.

Lin Yi also personally selected the grave for himself.

But now it seems that Lin Yi is not dead, he seems to be alive....

Ye Yao thought about it for a long time and found that there was indeed such a possibility, if Lin Yi was not buried elsewhere.

Then there is a real chance that he is alive now.

After all, he wrote in the letter that he would be buried after death, after all, this is the grave he personally selected.

So Ye Yao reminded softly on the side: "Yuwei, didn't you still have the last paragraph of the suicide note that Lin Yi left you?" ”

"Look at what is written on it!"

......

The other side.

Chen Chuxue, who was surrounded by a wave of guilt rising from the bottom of her heart, had returned to her home at this moment.

She locked herself in her room.

I closed the curtain that blocked out the light very well.

left her whole body in total darkness.

And just when Chen Chuxue was about to turn off his mobile phone.

Suddenly, she received a text message.

It shows that the delivery has been placed in a locker for her to pick up.

And Chen Chuxue is pretty sure that she hasn't bought anything on the Internet recently.

Other words....

Chen Chuxue hurriedly got up when she thought of this.

This package is most likely the letter that Zero One wrote to her!

His own father is still alive?!

? There is only one change today.... The fever is too uncomfortable....

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(End of chapter)

Lewen