Liang Haixing understood Gao Yan's mood at this time, and seemed to disagree with Gao Yan's words, but he didn't know what to say, so he sighed and shook his head helplessly.

Gao Yan didn't understand Liang Haixing's thoughts at this time, and looked at Liang Haixing with confused eyes. Liang Haixing said: "You misunderstood Lu Jun, he is apologizing to you in a special way and leaving the last love to you." Gao Yan was even more puzzled, and looked at Liang Haixing with unfamiliar eyes. Liang Haixing explained: "I don't understand the law, but I heard that actively compensating and seeking the forgiveness of the victim's family can reduce the punishment." I think Lu Jun also knows this, but Lu Jun didn't do it, in order not to affect you, and to make your life better in the future, he would rather be sentenced heavily. ”

Gao Yan seemed to understand some truth from Liang Haixing's words, and felt a little guilty in her heart, so she couldn't help sighing and muttering to herself: "Okay, accompany me to old age, but you secretly baked oil; said okay, hand in hand at the end of life, but you let go halfway. Gao Yan said, with a wry smile.

I don't know why, at this time, Liang Haixing suddenly remembered a sentence that Confucius said more than 2,500 years ago: chromophobia. Liang Haixing thought: If greed is human nature, then the simple and kind genes will also be inherited.

"Forget it, don't mention Lu Jun, anyway, it's already divorced, no matter how advanced science and technology are, except for poison that can kill people, the world has not been able to produce a pill that can make people reborn."

From Gao Yan's sigh, Liang Haixing felt Gao Yan's melancholy heart. Gao Yan glanced at Liang Haixing, as if she was embarrassed, but she felt that something was wrong, so she didn't say anything more. Gao Yan picked up the wine glass in front of him, touched the wine glass in front of Liang Haixing, didn't say anything, and before Liang Haixing could react, he tilted his neck and drank all the liquor in the cup.

After a glass of white wine, Gao Yan's face changed significantly, Gao Yan took a deep breath, glanced at Liang Haixing, who was full of doubts, and said indifferently: "I'm with Zhao Liang, you didn't expect it, right?" Do you want to hear what I'm thinking? ”

When friends gathered in the provincial capital and heard that Gao Yan and Zhao Haohao were on the same page, Liang Haixing was shocked and couldn't figure it out, and he really couldn't think of a reason for the two to be together. However, when Gao Yan personally said his relationship with Zhao Liang, Liang Haixing felt very calm.

Liang Haixing's actions greatly surprised Gao Yan's expectations, and Gao Yan said, "You didn't expect it, right? Liang Haixing smiled slightly and said nothing. Gao Yan glanced at Liang Haixing, thought for a while, and seemed to have too many things to say in his heart, but he didn't know how to say it, so he snorted a few times and said, "To be honest, I sometimes don't understand why I can walk with Zhao Liang." Even, I myself sometimes feel like a dream, a nightmare. I know Zhao Liang, he is the kind of person who sees through the bone marrow, and he is not even as good as the Lu Army. I used to look down on Zhao Liang. There was a time when I thought of Zhao Liang, I felt disgusted, and I always felt like a hooligan and a little gangster, and I was despised by others. After a long time, I have a new understanding of Zhao Liang, and the image in my heart is gradually changing, he is very real, although he likes women, but he is much stronger than those sanctimonious hypocrites...... Gao Yan seems to be worried about hurting Liang Haixing, after all, she really likes it, and she still loves Liang Haixing deeply.

Liang Haixing's expressionless face seemed to be thinking about something.

Gao Yan said again: "Heroes love beauties. I'm not a beauty, and Zhao Liang is not a hero. But Zhao Liang has a quality shared by heroes, that is, blood. I'll never forget that scene in Baidu. Facing the security guard, Zhao Liang's eyes were red, and his fists clenched 'bar'. That's in the capital of the capital. At that moment, my heart shook, that was the real Zhao Liang. Women are always weak, and women's nature determines that they need strong men to protect them. Zhao Liang can do it. ”

Maybe there are too many words, or Gao Yan's heart is experiencing great pain, Gao Yan paused for a while, took a sip of tea, and said: "It is said that men are lustful, but women are also inseparable from men, especially in the dead of night, lying alone in bed, longing for a man by her side The mood can only be experienced by herself." I am a woman, I also need a man, I need the warmth of home, I want to live with Zhao Liang. He has a taste for sex and understands women better. That's enough for a woman who wants nothing and especially has a failed marriage. ”

As a good friend, Liang Haixing was a little worried about Gao Yan's future life, and didn't want an unfortunate woman to taste the bitter fruit of misfortune again, he felt that he knew more about Zhao Liang than Gao Yan, or rather, there were some situations that Gao Yan didn't necessarily understand, except for Zhao Liang's character. Liang Haixing heard that Zhao Liang fell in love with Gao Yan, in addition to pursuing Gao Yan's beauty, another important reason was that Zhao Liang's traditional concept was very strong, and Zhao Liang wanted Gao Yan, who had never had children, to give him a son. Liang Haixing reminded Gao Yan: "Do you really want to marry Zhao Liang?" Do you know anything about Zhao Liang? ”

In the face of Liang Haixing's sudden question, Gao Yan didn't seem to be mentally prepared at all, maybe it was the pain in Gao Yan's heart, and he didn't want to think about it too much, Gao Yan lowered his head and sighed, his face was dazed. At this time, another woman couldn't help jumping into Liang Haixing's eyes, that person was Zhao Liang's wife who loved Zhao Liang from the bone marrow. Liang Haixing remembered what Zhao Liang's wife had said to him not long ago, on the car back to the provincial capital, and her face was full of joy, that was a woman who regarded Zhao Liang as a part of her life. Liang Haixing seemed to see the figure of a down-and-out woman begging along the street, and a pair of helpless eyes.

Liang Haixing just wanted to say something, but he seemed to feel that something was wrong, his mouth snorted twice, he glanced at Gao Yan, who had been looking down and seemed to be thinking deeply, and said softly; "Do you think you and Zhao Liang will be happy together?"

"Happiness?! Ha ha. Don't you think it's too extravagant for you to talk about happiness with a woman like me? Gao Yan smiled slightly, and Liang Haixing clearly found that there were tears in the corners of Gao Yan's eyes. Gao Yan took a deep breath and said: "For a woman like me, what happiness and misfortune are there, no matter how gloomy the days have passed, are you still afraid of ushering in the twilight?" Maybe there won't be any happiness with Zhao Liang, but it's better than having a different dream in the same bed with Lu Jun, right? Besides, what is happiness? ”

Without waiting for Liang Haixing to answer, Gao Yan said to herself: "Isn't happiness a feeling of self-comparison? Gao Yan seemed to have unspeakable sadness and melancholy in her heart. After a while, Gao Yan raised her head slightly, stroked her forehead bangs, and said in a low voice, "I'm not a good woman." Gao Yan said and glanced up at Liang Haixing.

"Although you entered the hall earlier than me, I have known you since I joined the work, and today I want to ask you a ......." Gao Yan looked at Liang Haixing with a pair of dull eyes, as if she wanted to see through Liang Haixing's "fluttering" heart, and Liang Haixing was not allowed to think too much. Liang Haixing also seemed to understand Gao Yan's mood at this time, so he nodded lightly. Gao Yan continued: "Do you know me? ”

As the saying goes: it is difficult to know the heart when you know the face, and it is a lifelong thing to know a person. Especially nowadays, sometimes I don't even know myself, I doubt what I do, and I often can't stop asking myself: How am I such a person, what kind of person am I? Not to mention to others. Gao Yan's words made Liang Haixing fall into deep thought, and he didn't know how to answer for a while. Liang Haixing knew very well in his heart that Gao Yan's soul was suffering from a huge trauma at this time, and he needed the comfort of his soul the most, so he smiled slightly and said: "I have always had a good impression of you, you are angry, reasonable, helpful, and kind-hearted. ”

Listening to Liang Haixing's praise, Gao Yan couldn't help but smile and said, "Really? I have so many advantages. If you say so, am I not a perfect man? Liang Haixing couldn't see through Gao Yan's mind at this time, and was worried that he would hurt Gao Yan again due to inappropriate language, so he also smiled slightly. Gao Yan didn't seem to be satisfied with Liang Haixing's answer, so she said: "This is the difference between you and Zhao Liang, Zhao Liang can say that he dares to love and hate, and he never detours when he speaks. ”

Seeing that Gao Yan seemed to be a little dissatisfied with herself, but it was difficult to justify, she looked at Gao Yan with puzzled eyes. Gao Yan seemed to see Liang Haixing's thoughts, looked at Liang Haixing with two eyes, and said; "Since you think I'm so good, then why have you been running away from my hard pursuits, am I not good enough, or do you dislike me for being dirty?" Gao Yan's gaze was like a short knife, piercing Liang Haixing's heart. Liang Haixing felt that his chest was very dull, and he didn't dare to look directly at Gao Yan's gaze that seemed to be glowing with coldness, so he lowered his head and muttered, "You think too much." Friends and lovers are two different things, and you don't have to get it. Besides, good friends don't necessarily make good couples. Gao Yan didn't seem to be satisfied with Liang Haixing's answer, and said with a smile: "Have you read too many novels?" Liang Haixing knew that Gao Yan was a little angry, drank some wine, and didn't want to annoy Gao Yan, so he lowered his head and said nothing, but Gao Yan didn't seem to give up, looked at Liang Haixing and said, "You looked into my eyes and said to me, do you believe what you say?" ”

Liang Haixing saw that it was no longer possible to avoid it, so he secretly glanced at Gao Yan and said, "I'm afraid I can't afford that heavy responsibility." ”

Before Liang Haixing's words landed, two sneers from Gao Yan's nose were heard. Then, Gao Yan couldn't help laughing. Gao Yan's actions made Liang Haixing feel stunned, and he looked at Gao Yan with uneasy eyes. Gao Yan didn't seem to care about Liang Haixing's thoughts at this time, and said: "Deputy Director Liang, you are afraid of a lot, you are afraid of your reputation, you are afraid of being sorry for your wife, you are afraid of losing a good future, and you are afraid that I will bring you endless trouble." Gao Yan said, picked up the wine glass in front of him, and swallowed the wine in the cup in one gulp.

"Which teenager doesn't love, which girl doesn't have spring, I also used to have gorgeous dreams, but today, even I feel strange. I often wonder what happened to me, how I became such a garbage woman. Gao Yan said and raised the wine glass in front of him with a trembling hand again, Liang Haixing was worried that Gao Yan had drunk too much, so he hurriedly stepped forward to stop him, but Gao Yan said: "There are fewer glasses of wine for a thousand confidants." Besides, you can only spit out the truth after drinking, I'm fine, you can sit on the sofa honestly and listen to me tell you a story, okay? Gao Yan said, stepped forward sideways, and gently stroked Liang Haixing's face with two jade hands, and said softly: "Little friend, be obedient and behaved." Looking at Gao Yan's actions, Liang Haixing's heart was very sour, but he didn't seem to know what to do, so he sat on the sofa and quietly listened to Gao Yan's confession and catharsis.