Later, I thought about it, I gave everything to Liu Dake, and I didn't expect to marry him, and it was impossible for someone with status like him to want me. Then get some compensation for your career.

On the big tree of Liu Dake, he will not treat me badly in the future. More importantly, the promotion of me to an official position is also a gesture within the scope of his authority. But then I found out that I was wrong. In other words, in front of Liu Dake, I was too naïve.

Liu Dake is even more greedy than Lu Jun, and his life will not end well. In the end, I will be ruined. As a result, I gradually alienated Liu Dake.

Later, when I suffered a blow in my life that I had never experienced before, Zhao Liang appeared and pursued me hard. I know very well in my heart that Zhao Liang is not my ideal man, but I always feel that with him, I can barely survive. Men are the sky, women are the earth, how can there be no earth without heaven? Men are mountains, women are water, water has always revolved around mountains, I am a woman, and women cannot do without men. I threw myself into Zhao Liang's arms again.

You smell what is in the air right now, don't you think it's full of patina? The smog air not only pollutes the environment, but also people's minds. I don't know if there is true love yet, but in my eyes, love has become an impulsive temptation, even an adventure, that drives people crazy. Of course, I don't know much about what love is, and some of it has caused people to lose their self-esteem. Some things that seem to be heart-wrenching on the surface, and our hearts don't want to get them, even more despicable methods, more dirty behaviors, the difference is more hidden, and the methods are more so-called sophisticated. I don't deny that there are noble people in the world, but I think it may be human nature to be mean.

Do you know why I went to the prairie during the most difficult time of my life?

Gao Yan said and glanced at Liang Haixing. At this time, Liang Haixing was already immersed in Gao Yan's life, and he was a little dazed in the face of Gao Yan's sudden question, and he didn't know or want to answer.

Gao Yan didn't seem to be expecting Liang Haixing's answer, just asked casually. Gao Yan seemed to be saying to herself: Because in the depths of my soul, it is a magical place. There is not only the vast nature, but also many beautiful legends, which inspire the ignorant soul all the time.

There was such a poignant story that has been hidden in my heart for a long time. There was a herdsman's child, and the child's child, who had been growing up on the milk of a female camel. The children are getting older, and the she-camels are getting older. However, the old man let the camel go and let it go back to nature. After the old camel left its owner, it walked alone on the grassland, chewing the grass with difficulty. Sometimes I go to the master's house to see and enjoy the master's gifts, but soon I appear lonely on the grassland.

Some people were puzzled, and even thought that the master was too stingy, so they asked the master, the old camel was the wet nurse of his children and grandchildren, and used his own milk to feed his family for two generations, why did he bear to let go of the old camel who was almost unable to take care of himself? Can't you give the old camel a pension? The owner was also very sad, and did have feelings for the mother camel. But he knew better about the habits of camels. Camels are very dignified creatures and love to live in groups, but when they are old, the situation changes, and camels will see the charity of others, even old age, as an injury to their dignity, and choose to leave the herd and leave this world in loneliness. I sometimes wonder, aren't we humans as dignified as a camel?

Thinking of the innocent love in the past, in the face of the betrayal of Lu Jun's feelings, I was full of extreme resentment, but when Lu Jun had an accident, I was the only one in the empty room, especially at night, lying in bed, tossing and turning, difficult to sleep, I felt particularly lonely, there was a feeling of suffocation, every minute and second was an unbearable torment, many times I wanted to leave this world, but I remembered the grief of my parents who lost their daughter, and remembered that there were many unfinished things, and under Zhao Liang's repeated comforting care, my mood improved.

I don't know why, at this time, I think of Liu Dake, especially in the dead of night, the scenes of the past have surfaced in front of my eyes more than once. At this time, how I wish he could pull me along, as the head of the department, he is well-informed, he has power in his hands that ordinary people can't match, only he can save me from the sea of helpless suffering, I regard him as a lifesaver in my life, I called him, I want to ask for his help. However, instead of answering the phone, he saw me like a plague, lest he could dodge and burn myself, and in his eyes I was just a plaything, and the sweet words of the past turned into cold eyes, and even bad words. I have thoroughly seen the true face of Liu Dake's human face and beast heart, he is a hypocrite who is very interested in the power in his hands, everything revolves around power, on the contrary, if it affects his power, he will kick you away without even blinking an eyelid. In fact, I know him very well, and I don't have much hope for him, let alone reciprocate, but I just hope that he can comfort me or enlighten me, and in the chaos and gloom, he can show me the way forward, and I will be satisfied.

Everything Liu Dake did made me very sad, and at the same time, I also understood a truth: there is no savior in the world, and I can only rely on myself to change my fate. In this world, there is no free lunch in the world, and you always have to pay it back if you owe it. You can suffer, but you can't regret it. In desperation, I sent a text message to Liu Dake: You can forget me, but you can't erase the days and nights in Mashan; You can skip my calls, but you can't destroy the evidence of the past. After Liu Dake received my text message, he quickly called me and invited me to eat alone.

As soon as we met, I said to Liu Dake: You don't have to avoid me, and you don't have to worry about me telling all the things in the past, and I won't report everything that happened in the past to the discipline inspection department. After listening to my heartfelt words, Liu Dake seemed to let go of the heart that had been hanging and showed a smiling face. I was thinking about how disgusting the behavior of a little woman was to be humiliated in front of a little woman as the head of the hall, and I really blushed for him.

Liu Dake kept explaining to me that he had always been very concerned about my situation, he was too busy with work recently, and he didn't bother to contact me, and asked me how I was doing? In the face of Liu Dake's explanations, I thought to myself: I'm lying to children, it's all. It seems that Liu Dake feels that the matter has passed for a while and gradually subsided, and I don't have too many requirements for him, as usual, asking me what I think about in the future, is there anything I need his help with?

Maybe even Liu Dake didn't expect that his words were in my arms, and I proposed on the spot that I was no longer suitable to work in the personnel department, and I asked him to adjust my work. To my surprise, Liu Dake did not object, and asked for my opinion in a tentative tone: I was transferred to the office he was in charge of, I understood his intentions, and I knew better the consequences of private interaction with him. He is different from Zhao Liang, he is the leader of the department, once the matter is revealed, he will do whatever it takes to protect himself, and my end will be very miserable, so I proposed to him to stay away from the provincial department and serve at the grassroots level.

Maybe Liu Dake categorically didn't expect me to make such a request. At first, Liu Dake's face was full of astonishment, and then I told him my thoughts. I said that if I want to change the environment, it will be good not only for me, but also for everyone. Liu Dake thought about it, and seemed to think that my words were reasonable, so he said to me, maybe that mood will be better, but you can't level it down, the cadres of the provincial department must always be promoted to the grassroots level, this is not only about your personal working environment, but also about the authority of the provincial department. Otherwise, the grassroots will misunderstand you and think that you have made a mistake and decentralized.

In fact, I know that the conditions at the grassroots level are far from being comparable to the provincial department, I insist on serving at the grassroots level, the real idea is to stay away from the provincial department, this is the right place, as people gradually forget and then return to the provincial department, and then stay away from Liu Dake, for a long time, Liu Dake will definitely look for me, there is no impermeable wall in the world, if you continue to linger with Liu Dake, the last unlucky will be me, worse than the current ending, and even ruin.

Also, I don't want much progress at this point, I just want to live a free life, if I really love me as Zhao Liang confessed, I will choose to be with him forever, and I don't want to make a storm in the city because of this, let alone hurt Zhao Liang's wife because of me, which can only be done at the grassroots level. Therefore, as for whether it is promoted or not, I don't care. Of course, if you can get promoted, why not?

My request seems to have given Liu Dake a problem. Liu Dake was silent for a while. Later, he told me that he would try it. He also told me that if it was done, he would often visit me through the guidance work. I understood Liu Dake's thoughts, so I didn't say anything. I thought: Just leave the office as soon as possible, and talk about it later. In the middle, I urged Liu Dake several times, and he either prevaricated me on the grounds that there were no research cadres in the department, or that the power of cadre personnel was in the hands of Director Huang. I also understood his difficulties, so I didn't push him again.

Yesterday, I suddenly received a phone call from Liu Dake, saying that the party group of the department had studied my appointment, and since I passed the inspection procedure last time, it was enough to confirm it again. Of course, Liu Dake can't forget his self-confession. I don't really care about Liu Dake's words, as long as the goal is achieved.

Suddenly, Liang Haixing seemed to remember something, looked at Gao Yan with puzzled eyes, and asked, "These are all what Liu Dake told you on the phone?" ”

Gao Yan was stunned at first, but immediately understood Liang Haixing's intentions, his face was a little blushing, and he said in a low voice: "He told me that it is not easy to fight to this level, and he should celebrate it, and it can be regarded as seeing me off." At the dinner table, he told me. After eating, he said to send me home, and I understood what he meant, so I didn't refuse. ”