Originally, Liang Haixing thought that his wife would be able to forgive him, or dissipate his anger, and he would understand himself in two days. However, unexpectedly, it caused great trauma to his wife's psyche, and it also deeply affected his son. And his son's words are the truth, which makes Liang Haixing embarrassed and even more difficult to answer.

Liang Haixing looked at his tearful wife and muttered to his son: "I'm sorry son, what you said is the truth, Dad doesn't blame you." Dad also knows that over the years, Dad owes you and your mother too much for that so-called career. Compared to your mother, Dad is too selfish, and I hope that in the days to come, Dad can try to make up for you. Dad sincerely hopes to get forgiveness from you and your mother. The son didn't seem to agree with Liang Haixing's words, but still said: "As a father, I will always love you." But I will never forgive you. ”

"Son, how can you talk to your dad like this, it's not easy for dad to work outside alone! It's not for you, it's for this family. You are still young, child, and you may not understand the things in the adult world, but when you grow up, you will be clear. But in any case, it's not right for you to say that about your dad. Dad, like Mom, will always love you with all his heart. ”

His son's words made Liang Haixing feel like a fish in his throat, and in an instant, he felt that his son had grown up. His wife's words made Liang Haixing's heart even more twisted. Looking at his son and wife, Liang Haixing didn't know what to say, let alone what to say, his heart felt so painful, and he burst into tears. Maybe Liang Haixing didn't want his son to discover his fragile heart, so he bowed his head and walked out of the ward silently.

The son and his wife and sister went home, and the wife also lay on the hospital bed and fell asleep, Liang Haixing sat in front of his wife's hospital bed, and the words that his son had just said echoed in Liang Haixing's ears from time to time. The past is like a shadow, and everything in the past appears in front of Liang Haixing from time to time. Liang Haixing couldn't hold back the uneasiness and beating in his heart anymore, and wrote an essay entitled "I Really Want to Be Drunk and Dream of Death" on his QQ space.

"You are gone, just like you came, quietly, but left a place of helplessness, maybe you are relieved, but it makes me worse than dead. Look at the blue sky, printed with a rainbow of blood, I want to cry without tears, I can't die, I have to look at the morning sun, my face is full of unbearable smiles, my heart is experiencing the sadness of the night, let the tears flow to my heart, bear everything that does not belong to me and her.

It is said that time flies, and with the passage of time, it can heal any wounds in the body and mind. But I seem to feel that the years are like explosions, and the sudden changes of the moment catch people off guard, dizzy, and shattered the gossip, but leave an eternal wound in my heart. So, I began to doubt life, what is long, trust is just a whisper in the moonlight, feelings are just a confession before marriage, self-confidence is just a fig leaf for failure, and the pain of the soul can only be felt by oneself.

You are gone, she fell, I was hurt, I don't know who can help me relieve the pain in my soul, I really want to drive the crane to the west, go to heaven to enjoy the happy loneliness, in that world where there is no strife, pick up the pen of the previous life, and paint the ideal colorful. But I can't, too much helplessness has bound me physically and mentally, and I can only fight hard. My favorite is still a dream.,It's not as tragic as reality.,Occasionally a little smile.,I really want to sleep forever.,The earth is barren.。 ”

After Liang Haixing finished writing, he didn't scrutinize, or even checked, and sent the written essay, which was also his own suppressed heart for a long time, or an uneasy complaint, to the space of QQ, such as fulfilling a major mission, and the soul was temporarily relieved, so he took a long breath, and then watched the news indiscriminately, so as to pass the long night.

It was already very late at night, and after reading the news, Liang Haixing felt bored, so he boarded the QQ space again. Suddenly found that under the essay he had just sent, a netizen named Dial Yun Jian Ri wrote the following message: "Time flies, the white horse light gap, everything will be in vain, only life is the most precious, and cherished." ”

Looking at the messages of strange netizens, Liang Haixing sighed in his heart: I really don't have back pain when I stand and talk. Liang Haixing didn't think about it, and wrote under the message of a strange netizen: "The ancient road is a thin horse. Who knows, as soon as Liang Haixing sent it, the strange netizen replied: "The broken intestine is in the cliff." Liang Haixing found it interesting and wrote: "The lights are dim, my heart is resolute." The netizen replied: "The rolling Yangtze River flows eastward, only life is precious." ”

Maybe Liang Haixing was in a bad mood, or tired, and no longer replied to the message of the strange netizen. However, the strange netizen may be like Liang Haixing, in order to pass the lonely night, he kept writing messages in Liang Haixing's space: "Who broke my piggy bank?" And my pink memories; Who devoured my soul and turned me into the walking dead, my ideals became dim, my fantasy was painted in darkness, and the sky was shrouded in confusion, but I couldn't say that there was too much helplessness in my heart, and even the Elysium didn't bother to think about it, like a flying duckweed, maybe it was a lost soul, I thought, is there a third choice in the world besides life and death: life is better than death, and death has no way. Suddenly, a voice from outside the sky is heard: a coward. When I woke up, it turned out to be a dream. It's good to take a look at the rising sun in the eastern sky, take a deep breath of the fresh air of the mountains and forests, and look at the relatives around you. ”

The strange netizen spent a lonely night with Liang Haixing in this way.

Early in the morning, with his wife and sister delivering food, Liang Haixing stretched his waist, and another day passed. Liang Haixing's wife and sister said to Liang Haixing, who was full of tiredness: "You haven't slept all night, hurry up and eat something, and be confused for a while while the doctor hasn't done a ward round." Liang Haixing's wife and sister said, handing the thermos flask in her hand and the lunch box to Liang Haixing.

Faced with the arrival of his wife and sister, Liang Haixing was stunned at first: "Sister, why did you come so early." Liang Haixing's wife said: "I don't want to come early, who let your baby son go to school so early." Wait for your son to go to school, and I'll come here. After Liang Haixing's wife and sister finished speaking, she asked Liang Haixing's wife about her condition, and Liang Haixing's wife said, "I slept well yesterday." After sleeping all night, it is much stronger than yesterday, and the fever may have subsided, but I feel that I am tired. Liang Haixing's wife and sister just wanted to hand the lunch box to Liang Haixing's wife, but she seemed to remember something again, and said to herself: "After a while, the doctor will go to work for consultation, and I don't know if I will let you eat." Or, you put up with it a little longer, and if the doctor asks you to eat, you eat again? ”

When Liang Haixing's wife heard this, she smiled and said, "I'm really a little hungry." Liang Haixing's wife's sister has a more straightforward personality, and when she speaks to her sister, she is more direct: "What should I do if I'm hungry?" What if the doctor asks for another blood test? You have to endure it even when you're hungry. ”

His wife chatted with his sister, but Liang Haixing didn't want to interject, so he just lowered his head to eat.

Suddenly, there was a noisy sound at the door, somewhat familiar, Liang Haixing looked at the door of the ward with puzzled eyes, and thought: Could it be him?

Sure enough, it was Huang Zhenggang, hospital leaders, doctors, and Ma Shunliang, director of the personnel department of the department, who walked in with a fruit basket.

Seeing this, Liang Haixing couldn't help but be shocked, immediately stood up, looked at Huang Zhenggang and his party, and couldn't help but say, "Director Huang ......." Seeing this, Ma Shunliang hurriedly stepped forward and introduced the director of the hospital and the attending doctor to Liang Haixing. Subsequently, Liang Haixing introduced his wife and sister, as well as his wife, to Huang Zhenggang and his entourage. Huang Zhenggang and Liang Haixing lived in the same dormitory, and Liang Haixing's wife knew Huang Zhenggang, so she wanted to get out of bed and shook hands with Huang Zhenggang and his party. Huang Zhenggang hurriedly stepped forward and said, "Don't pay attention to so much etiquette. You're a patient, we're here to visit the patient, so you'd better lie down in bed and rest. ”

The doctor who accompanied Huang Zhenggang to visit saw this and said with a smile. "It's okay, the patient can get out of bed and move." Hearing the doctor's words, Liang Haixing's wife and sister-in-law, as well as Liang Haixing, glanced at each other and looked at each other.

Faced with Huang Zhenggang's sudden appearance, Liang Haixing was a little uneasy, and said softly: "Director Huang, you are so busy with work, why do you still come to visit?" ”

Huang Zhenggang did not answer directly, but looked at Ma Shunliang. Ma Shunliang immediately understood, and said to Liang Haixing: "Yesterday, you left the Mashan Bureau, and in accordance with the relevant regulations, Director Lu reported to the provincial department in a timely manner. Director Huang felt that the incident happened suddenly, so he sent someone to your home to find out, and when he saw that there was no one in your house, he went to your wife's unit to inquire, saying that your wife had been sick for several days and was hospitalized, so he personally went to the hospital to coordinate with President Du and sent the best doctor for consultation. Originally, Director Huang wanted to come to visit, but because the doctor's consultation was already more than 12 o'clock in the evening, he felt that it was too late, so he decided to come to visit early this morning. ”

"I'm sorry, Director Huang......" Liang Haixing seemed to realize something, glanced at Huang Zhenggang apologetically, and lowered his head. Huang Zhenggang seemed to see Liang Haixing's thoughts, and pretended to be serious and said: "Yes, you left the Mashan Bureau without asking the permission of the provincial department, and you should be criticized." However, there is a reason for the incident, and there is no need to pursue responsibility. After Huang Zhenggang finished speaking, he said to Liang Haixing's wife: "It should be me as the director of the department who is sorry, our cadres work at the grassroots level and have no time to take care of their families, and I, the director of the department, don't even know about such a big thing as their family members being sick and hospitalized." It's really incompetent. Maybe Huang Zhenggang has special feelings for Liang Haixing, looking at Liang Haixing's wife with a haggard face, he felt deep self-blame, and his eyes were a little moist. Seeing this, Liang Haixing's wife hurriedly comforted: "Director Huang, don't talk about it, there is no serious illness in the first place, just rest for two days." It was my sister who insisted on me coming to the hospital for a check-up, and I didn't even tell the starfish. ”

"Nothing serious? How do you know, you're not a doctor? It is better to have a comprehensive examination, treat the disease if you are sick, and rest assured that you are not sick. Huang Zhenggang said and glanced at Dean Du and the attending doctor beside him, and couldn't help laughing, and seemed to be very relaxed.