Chapter 41: White Lies
Not long after Xiaojing and Zhang Qi got together, Yu Yang finally returned to the United States after sitting in the dust for more than ten hours. He has lived in this city for so many years, but after getting off the plane, he still feels strange.
"Yu Yang, here!" Qin Xue saw Yu Yang coming out of the airport, and rushed up to hug him excitedly: "Are you tired, if you don't change jobs, I'm really going to your company to sue your boss!" ”
"Didn't you have a meeting today? Why did you get here? ”
"People want to surprise you. Let's go, I'll send you to the company. ”
"It's okay, I'm jet lag in the car."
Qin Xue heard that he came back early to deal with the work, not to mention how happy he was. In the past few nights, she has not been able to be at peace for a day, because on the day of Yangfei's flight to Shanghai, she chatted with her classmates at G University, and only then did she know that Lu Xiaojing was also in Shanghai and was still with Chen Ling.
Although she knew that she was already Chen Ling's girlfriend, Qin Xue was still tossing and turning. They have also been together for several years, but Yu Yang never took the initiative to mention marriage, and before this matter was settled, her heart would inevitably hang there.
While she was driving, she looked at the person who was sleeping next to her from time to time, and when he slept, he always seemed to be thinking about something, and his brows were slightly furrowed.
Since he came to the United States, he has been like a different person, taciturn, unsmiling, calm like an old cadre, like a stagnant water, no matter how much she tosses, she can't be shocked by any waves.
"Arrived?" Yu Yang woke up and found that he was already downstairs in the company, and Qin Xue was looking at him.
"It's a minute."
"Then why don't you call me?"
"Seeing that you are sleeping deeply, I am afraid that you are too tired, and I want to call you after ten minutes."
"No, I still have to rush to get things done. You go back first. Yu Yang rubbed his eyebrows, wanting to drive away the tiredness, and then reached out to open the car door and prepare to get out of the car.
"Yu Yang!"
"What's wrong?"
"You didn't even hug me."
"I'm in a hurry."
"Just for a moment."
He stepped back into the car and hugged her sideways. And she hugged the man she had loved for nearly ten years with all her might, and she lay on his shoulder and said to him: "I love you!" ”
"Well, I know, go back, be careful on the road, send me a message when it's time." His love for her is always faint, she never heard him say "I love you" from the bottom of his heart, once on Valentine's Day she was forced to have no choice, he just said like a process: "I love you".
After so many years, how smart she was, how could she not feel his attitude. It's just that she always wants to give him a little more time, just a piece of ice, and she can cover him up. But later I found out that he was simply a thousand-year-old iceberg, and after covering it for a long time, she often felt a chill.
In the blink of an eye, it is the full moon night of the Mid-Autumn Festival of the year.
When people are eating mooncakes and enjoying the moonlight, Xiaojing is still sitting at her desk and busy. Since she came to Shanghai, she has never had the habit of celebrating the Mid-Autumn Festival, and even she doesn't understand why she is still doing this ridiculous insistence now.
And Chen Ling didn't know anything about it, he always thought that this was because Xiaojing was too devoted to her work, and he always felt that no matter what she did, he would support her unconditionally.
"Mr. Chen, what about working overtime again? Don't you reunite with your family during the Mid-Autumn Festival? The colleagues around him all went home for the festival one after another, and the last person to leave saw that Chen Ling was still in his position, so he came to say hello.
"yes." Chen Ling responded.
"Are you a workaholic or your girlfriend? I think you also worked overtime in the Mid-Autumn Festival last year. ”
"Really?" It wasn't until his colleague said this that Chen Ling suddenly realized.
"Of course, I still have two mooncakes here, but they are delicious, you can take them and eat them with your girlfriend." I've got to go on a date, see you tomorrow. ”
"Thanks, see you tomorrow."
Looking at the box of moon cakes given by his colleagues, Chen Ling remembered that Xiaojing didn't eat moon cakes, didn't like to admire the moon, and was only the Mid-Autumn Festival. He looked at the moonlight outside the window, the moon was so round and beautiful, but the person he loved never wanted to look at it more, which was too inconsistent with her character.
Just as he was wondering, he suddenly remembered that Xiaojing had worn a crescent-shaped necklace...... He didn't want to make more associations, but immediately stopped what he was doing and went to Xiaojing with mooncakes.
"Why did you get here?" Chen Ling, who was working overtime an hour ago, suddenly appeared downstairs to her, and Xiaojing was a little puzzled
"Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, don't work overtime, come down."
"I've got a little more left in my hands than I finished."
"Are you in a hurry tomorrow?"
"Not really, it's just that the customer is in a hurry."
"Then add it tomorrow, I'll wait for you downstairs."
"Oh, well, you wait for me to clean up."
"Let's go, there's a good place to admire the moon, I'll take you there."
"I'm a little tired, so I'm not going, right?"
"Then you can sleep in the car for a while." Xiaojing doesn't understand, Chen Ling, who is usually empathetic, is so intolerant today, what's wrong?
Chen Ling drove the car to the top of a hill in the city, which was open everywhere and was indeed an excellent place to admire the moon.
This is many years later, Xiaojing once again looked up like this and looked at a bright moon hanging high in the sky. Its light is surrounded by a layer of moon halo, looming, revealing a hazy beauty.
Under the moonlight, Xiaojing's face was also covered with a faint halo, she just looked at the moon like that, and her heart seemed to float into the distance. Chen Ling stood beside him and observed his beloved's face, at this moment, he felt so close, yet so far away.
He stepped forward with emotion and hugged her waist tightly with both hands, and his face was pressed against her cheeks, only this real touch made him feel comforted in his heart: "Xiaojing, let's get married." ”
"Why do you say this all of a sudden?"
"It's nothing, I just want to be able to hold you like this every day."
"We're together a lot."
"You know what, I really love you."
"Well, so am I." After saying that, she looked at the moon again, it was still the same as before, after all, it was never it, but the one who looked at it.
Xiaojing's answer was not "I love you too", but "Me too". Even so, Chen Ling felt that it was good, as long as she was always in her arms.
Yu Yang's Mid-Autumn Festival, as usual, is to accompany his family to have a reunion dinner, which is the eighth Mid-Autumn Festival they have spent in the United States. From having no money to buy mooncakes for his family, to now allowing his family to eat the best mooncakes, only he knows that he has made unimaginable efforts over the years.
At this year's reunion dinner, his parents began to urge Yu Yang to settle the marriage with Qin Xue by inertia, but Yu Yang had to excuse himself and say that he was too busy and would arrange it after a while. He understands that his parents are also old and idle at home, and he always hopes that they can quickly hold their grandchildren and enjoy the joy of family. So it probably won't take long to be busy, and it's time to say goodbye to some things.
After the family finished eating, Yu Yang drove out under the pretext of an excuse. Tonight the wind was strong, the clouds were blown away, and the golden light shone on the sea in front of him, and the sea shimmered with golden waves under the action of the tide.
Yes, he came to the beach, like their first Mid-Autumn Night, and he even wanted to say goodbye to the past here as tacitly as she did. After so many years, he knew that no matter how much he persisted, the past would eventually pass, and they would never go back.
This year's moon is as bright and round as they first looked, it was their beautiful pure love time, and now he wants to say goodbye to his first love: "Goodbye, Xiaojing, may you be happy!" ”
He thought that after so many years, he could say goodbye calmly, but his heart was still dull, it turned out that she had been so deep in his heart, as if he was one with his youth and his life. Lu Xun said: "For the sake of forgetting the commemoration", he really doesn't know whether he wants to forget or commemorate.
At first, Yu Yang went out on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, and Qin Xue didn't pay much attention to it. But later she found out that on this night every year, Yu Yang would always take the opportunity to go out. A year before this, Qin Xue finally couldn't help but want to find out, so she secretly followed behind him and quietly observed his every move.
He was hiding in some quiet corner, staring at the moon stupidly, with a faint sadness on his face. From his expression, she could know that where he was looking at the moon, she was afraid that he was looking at things and thinking about people.
Today he went out again, still driving alone, saying that he was going to work overtime, even if she knew the real reason, she could only pretend that she didn't notice anything. After Yu Yang left, her heart was full of sourness, and she couldn't help but hide in Yu Yang's room and secretly wipe her tears.
It's been 8 years, and she can't believe his persistence. That "she" still lived in his heart and never left. She was really tired sometimes, and she thought that time would fade away from their memories and that she would become a guest in her life. But it wasn't until today that she realized that she was the outsider, an intruder between them.
Just when she was secretly sad for her love, the fax machine made a sound, and then some information came, and the words "Dingxin Electronics" on the information attracted her attention, and she picked up the stack of materials suspiciously.
When she sees the contents, she may regret her curiosity. With a "snap", the data fell to the ground one after another.
She was frightened by the contents of the information, she couldn't believe her eyes, her hands kept shaking, and the information clearly wrote about the disaster facing Yu Yang's father's company 8 years ago, and the initiator was actually her father, she sat on the ground, her head buzzing.
Until Yu Yang's mother called her out to eat moon cakes, she seemed to wake up from a nightmare, but her heart was difficult to calm down for a long time.
Seeing that she didn't move, Yu Yang's mother was about to go upstairs to call her, but she hurriedly responded, picked up the paper on the ground in a panic, and subconsciously stuffed it into the shredder. Then she wiped the tears from her face, sorted out her thoughts, and reluctantly walked out on her own.
After going downstairs, she didn't dare to look at Yu Yang's parents at all. casually found a reason, and left in a hurry under the suspicious gaze and retention of Yang's parents.
She rushed home, locked her door, and sat down on the couch, trembling uncontrollably.
At this moment, she wanted to call her father, but she was afraid to get a positive reply from him; She wanted to call Yu Yang and ask for their forgiveness, but she understood that this result was unbearable for his family.
What if Yu Yang leaves himself because of this? How much should their parents hate themselves and their families? She didn't dare to imagine the result, her heart was occupied by fear.
She thought about it all night, and she didn't have a clue, her heart was in turmoil, but she didn't dare to confide in anyone. In the end, she chose to escape, which may be the best option for her at the moment.
How she wished she could be like an ostrich and bury her head in the sand, so as to avoid all the troubles outside!