Grandpa's sudden appearance was not a surprise to Sakakihara Raku.

In other words, when he came to see the snow of the sky and the sea, he was already mentally prepared to face his grandfather.

So after seeing his grandfather appear at the door of the ward, Sakakihara didn't look particularly flustered like his sister.

Soichiro Amami, who walked into the ward, walked calmly and looked calm.

His wrinkled face left traces of time, his eyes were flat and serious, and he stood quietly in front of Sakakihara Raku, silently staring at the young man standing next to the hospital bed in front of him.

Sakakihara stood up straight, his posture straight, and his gaze looked back at the past without any evasion.

Although silent, Soichiro Amami's scrutiny lasted for quite some time.

The two of them just looked at each other.

atmosphere

Suddenly it became so quiet that it revealed weirdness everywhere.

Sakakihara Suzu hid behind her brother and quietly probed, her eyes roaming back and forth between the two, as if she was between her brother and her grandfather, and she found an invisible line

This wordless gaze is like the calm before a storm.

It's kind of scary.

Sneaking a look at Yuki should make Grandpa angry!

I haven't seen the old man angry

"Looks like you know I'm going to come at this time."

In the quiet atmosphere of this room, Soichiro Amami was the first to speak.

On the contrary, it was not as angry as Suzu Sakakihara imagined.

The old man's attitude was very bland.

Sakakihara Le: "I just think that if I come to see the snow secretly, sooner or later my grandfather will know about it." It's just that I didn't expect to be arrested immediately. ”

Soichiro Amami found Sakakihara's reaction at this time interesting.

He obviously did something that he couldn't let himself know, but at this time, he didn't show any weakness.

"You still know that you came to visit the snow behind my back?"

Soichiro Amami glanced at his little daughter, who was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed and observing the two, and then immediately returned his gaze to Sakakihara's face.

The young man was much taller than himself.

"Why are you here?"

“.”

This question is not easy to answer Sakakihara Raku, because essentially-

"It's me—" Suzu Sakakihara raised her hand like a child who had made a mistake and stepped out from behind Sakakihara, "I called my brother to come along." ”

Sakakihara Suzuhara thought that the old man would be angry because of this, and even said that he was beaten.

However, no, the old man just slowly turned his gaze back to the old brother's face.

"So, you came to visit Zhixue this time, but it was actually because of Suzu's urging?"

"That's the cause."

"Hmph," Soichiro Amami snorted coldly, his expression immediately sharpened and displeased, "If you are willing to come to visit the snow, it is reasonable in terms of motives, but you are only coming here now because of your sister's thoughts." Don't you think that's ridiculous?! ”

"It's ridiculous."

"And why do you have a reason to stand here?"

Sakakihara closes his eyes. What I thought about was the memories of the snow phantoms I had seen everywhere in my life in the past two weeks

"There's no reason."

Soichiro Amami's expression was even more displeased: "You yourself know in your heart that you don't have any reason to stand here. ”

"Yes."

Just when Sakakihara thought that Soichiro Amami would blast himself out, he put his hands behind his back again and walked to the window, facing the vast high-rise buildings in the rainy night outside.

"Don't you and Qi Mingyue like to reason with me? Why are you standing here now? If you understand, let me out yourself. ”

"Fun!"

Amami no Yuki suddenly shouted, and Soichiro Amami's attention was immediately attracted to her.

The girl sat quietly on the edge of the bed, took Sakakihara Raku's right hand, and took the initiative to meet Soichiro Amami's gaze.

"Joy came to visit me"

Sakakihara looked at the snow of the sky and the sea that was holding his hand by his side.

Soichiro Amami sighed at his youngest daughter and said, "He's just forced to come here." ”

"No, Uncle is a liar. Since taking medicine, Uncle has always said that Le will not come, but Le is still coming now. ”

"What does Snow mean to go home with him?"

"Well, I only know Le, as long as I go home with Le, although you are all very good to me, I don't know you in the first place."

I don't know.

The words of the snow in the sky and the sea made everyone present silent.

Soichiro Amami choked even more for a long time.

unfamiliar

From the eyes and expressions of the snow in the sky, Sakakihara felt the strangeness of her and her father.

Compared with the distance of age, this kind of emotional distance is more distant.

Obviously, there is still a blood relationship in her body, but she is so strange that she only wants to call her father "uncle".

She protects herself as a family member and rejects her biological father as an outsider

Although the old man must have known about this a week ago.

But Sakakihara Le, as a bystander, still had an indescribable feeling in his heart when he heard this.

Seeing his youngest daughter's actions and hearing his youngest daughter's words, Soichiro Amami didn't say anything, just closed his eyes, was silent for a moment, and then said to Sakakihara Raku:

"How many times have you known how many times this has happened to Zhixue?"

"Probably from childhood to adulthood."

"Zero times, it's the first time that I've forgotten everything like this!"

Sakakihara Raku: "."

"Who do you think is causing this?"

"Me."

Soichiro Amami shook his hand, and his expression suddenly became calm.

It's like trying to suppress anger.

"Forget it. You and Qi Mingyue like to be reasonable, so I'll reason with you, this kid. After all, you kid has the same right to 'free choice' as that guy from Maodian. I'm tired of arguing with that stinky boy, and I don't bother to do it again with you.

"I won't blame you entirely for the current state of the snow. The reason was that I had not been able to do my duty before she was ten years old. Your contact with her was also my own initiative to send her to you in the first place.

"Since I am the cause of this, then this is the situation now, and naturally I need to bear a part of it."

Pause for a moment.

"However, if you have your own choice in emotional decision-making, you should not come to her at all. I remember I said before that if you kid can't deal with her own emotional problems, coming to Zhixue's side again will only make her uncomfortable.

"Why, your selfishness wants to let her suffer after you for the rest of your life?"

“.” Sakakihara closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Leave her alone, and then you kid go home and live your life. I'll look elsewhere and try to give her a good place to live. Don't see each other again. ”

Makes sense

There is no way to refute it

Completely irrefutable

I really can't give Zhixue anything now.

Now I came to visit her, but I just had a memory of her, but Ah Ling was behind her.

Sakakihara Suzu was nervous, and suddenly whispered a sentence:

"Really. Do you really want Yuki to leave? ”

Soichiro Amami didn't answer, and Sakura replied euphemistically:

"Miss Ling, Miss Zhixue can only choose this way with her current situation. Even Miss Zhixue will be uncomfortable. There's no way around it, but for a while, Miss Zhixue will one day forget the past. ”

“.”

Suzu Sakakihara hung her head.

She really wanted the snow to stay.

But she also understands that in this situation, it seems that it is better to let Zhixue leave.

Although she doesn't mind her relationship with her brother at all, the scumbag brother also has something he is embarrassed about. He has given Qijiu a promise, how can he be embarrassed to disobey what he has said in the past?

Don't think about it, even you know what the consequences of doing that are.

Sister July and Sister Ruri will all leave

At that time, not only Yuki will be gone, but Sister July and Sister Ruri will all disappear.

Although the life of the two with someone is quite good, after experiencing so many things, the two foxes are quite reluctant to leave suddenly

Compared to the silence of several people.

The snow of the sea didn't pay any attention to what the few people had just said.

He just asked Sakakihara Raku, "Can you go home today?" ”

Ying Gui was loyal and couldn't bear to see this scene, and deliberately reminded him: "Miss Zhixue, have you forgotten? It's you who said it yourself, you want to go home. ”

"I said I was going home.?"

"That's right! Miss Zhixue, when you went home that day, you also said to the master that you will not go to see the little master again in the future, miss, have you forgotten? ”

After hearing these words, Tianhai Zhixue lowered his head and muttered.

She first went to look at Sakakihara Le on her side, and looked at his side face for a while before bowing her head again:

"Yes, I can't see music again."

The snow of the sky and the sea seemed to slowly remember something, and his eyes wandered over the faces of everyone in this room. I saw Ah Ling, I saw my father, and I saw Le standing in front of my father.

Suddenly I felt guilty.

Even though she didn't remember it clearly, she found that she seemed to be embarrassed in front of her father again.

Let Le come to visit him again.

The girl looked at Sakakihara Raku's side face, and suddenly said in a hurry:

"I'm sorry, Le. It's a problem for Le again. I. I shouldn't have said to be happy to make fried ice cream all the time. I've been in trouble all the time and I'm sorry to let Le take care of me all the time. Le, I'm really sorry. I make it difficult for me to be happy and make it fun again. If I'm not around Le, I won't trouble Le, but I'm sorry for Le. I'm sorry—"

Tianhai Zhixue said anxiously to the back, something was not quite right.

She was short of breath, like asthma.

“yuyuki?” Suzu Sakakihara looked concerned and held out a hand to her.

Sakakihara also wanted to hurry up to see what was going on with Yuki, but he didn't expect Sakura to call the doctor who was hurrying.

Before they could ask more, the two siblings were temporarily asked out by the doctor who came.

Sakakihara Suzu waited at the door and asked anxiously, "Brother, what is the situation with Yuki?" ”

"I don't know, maybe it's a complication?"

"Yuki just forgot something, yes, is it that serious?!"

Zhixue is congenital amnesia, essentially because she was born prematurely or because of a brain defect that caused her amnesia. When Yuki was hospitalized before, I learned a little about her. ”

"What do you mean?"

Sakakihara turned his head and said to his sister, "In other words, if Zhixue is sick for too long, it may induce other things, didn't the doctor in Hawaii also say it before?" Snow of Necessity to keep the mood stable."

After listening to this, Suzu Sakakihara was unwilling to accept this reality.

He looked anxiously at Zhixue's ward.

Thankfully, only a few minutes later, the doctor left.

Sakura then walked out.

Sakakiwara Suzu asked eagerly, "How is Yuki?" ”

"It's not a big deal, it's just that the old symptoms are doing it again."

"Symptoms before, wasn't Yuki just forgetting things before?"

Ying Guizhong replied: "Miss's illness is not a serious illness, but after a long time, there is a possibility of aggravation. I was just a little anxious. Just take some alprazolam. ”

"Yuki, she has an anxiety disorder?"

"No, Miss Suzu doesn't have to worry too much. The anxiety caused by Miss Zhixue exerting too much psychological pressure on herself just now is not that Miss Zhixue herself has an anxiety disorder. ”

Suzu Sakakihara was relieved, "That's fine"

Sakura Guizhong looked at Sakakihara again:

"Little master, Miss Zhixue has always forgotten everything since she was a child, which causes her to always be suspicious of the relationship between others. This suspicion is that Miss Choi Jiu Zhixue has never had a real relationship with someone before she was ten years old.

"The young master has tried, but no matter how much he interacts with Miss Zhixue, she will forget about it, not to mention that the relationship between Miss Zhixue and the other young ladies is particularly delicate

"Because of the above reasons, Miss Zhixue never had a deep friend until the time when Miss Ling came to Tianhai's house on her birthday. I have never experienced a real family and real care

"I heard Miss Jiuliuli talk about your daily life, little master, there is no doubt that it is your daily care, young master, that has stabilized Miss Zhixue's mental state, made her condition improve, and even showed signs of healing.

There is no doubt about that. Whether it's me or the master, thank you, little master.

"So Miss Zhixue's current illness, he won't blame you, master.

"You didn't do anything wrong, you just had your choice.

"Sir, he originally wanted to embarrass you, but after knowing your attitude towards Miss Zhixue, he changed his mind.

"Miss Zhixue's illness is her own illness, and she needs to go through it by herself.

"Thank you for your concern for Miss Zhixue these days. But the matter has come to this point, and it is also a helpless fact. I can only mourn that Miss Xue's wish will not be fulfilled."

Speaking of this, Sakura suddenly became official.

He put his hand on his chest and made a standard deacon salute to Sakakihara.

"Little master, thank you for accompanying Miss Zhixue through the happiest time in her life, but you still have your own life, the next road, please let Miss Zhixue go alone."

Sakakihara stared at Sakura, who was moving very solemnly in front of him.

Because of his words, I remembered that in the past, Yuki used to shout his voice of "music" at home again and again.

Suddenly I didn't know what to say.

Go down alone.

The soft and weak girl. Can you really go on alone?

Her heart is longing for affection, longing for sincere treatment.

She's a little lonely herself. Is it really good to give it to her sister who once disliked her?

Sakakihara Suzu couldn't speak, she just watched inexplicably as Sakura returned to the ward just now after saluting and saying goodbye.

It was nearly eight o'clock in the evening.

Sakakihara knew that Qijiu had already asked him and Suzu where he and Suzu had gone on the line.

"Brother" Sakakihara Suzu turned her head and stared at Sakakihara Le's side face, her tone was very lost, "It seems that this is the only way to go, and I can only say goodbye to Yuki." ”

"Bell."

"Huh?"

"Suzu, I don't want to lose this friend, do you?"

"Of course."

"What do you think of my recent performance?"

Very bad. Although I understand that you have your own hardships and reasons, brother, I still feel that you are too hesitant, brother."

"yes. Too hesitant. What am I lacking now? ”

I don't know. Don't ask me. ”

"Suzu" Sakakihara took a deep breath and closed his eyes, "I suddenly remembered the snowy night I spent in our hometown with July."

"Oh, the time when Sister July came with me inexplicably."

"I was thinking about it that day, and I was also suffering and struggling. Obviously agreed to Jiu Liuli, but he still felt sad and sad for Qi Mingyue's past. sympathize and want to cherish her. I knew I shouldn't be like this, and I was resisting my inner thoughts. ”

"I don't understand what you're trying to say, brother."

Sakakihara took a deep breath, "I mean. I've been resisting my heart because of something that I can't disobey at all. ”

"Isn't that normal? What cannot be violated is that it cannot be violated. ”

Indeed, this is normal. But it's also against my own heart. Where does sadness come from, and where does nostalgia for the past come from? Where does sympathy come from? I'm a scumbag, and I don't understand it well enough."

Sakakihara Suzu heard her brother say this about herself.

It's actually a little uncomfortable in my heart

Because in her mind, the elder brother will always be the elder brother who can't write a diary when he was a child and can ask for help from him

He is great and secure in his own mind.

As he said, he was a little rotten but in his own eyes, not really rotten

It's really hateful, why does everyone he meets treat him with the most sincere feelings?

The most unbearable thing for him, a rotten person, is that someone is sincere to him.

Suzu Sakakihara was sad herself, but suddenly realized that Sakakihara Le's expression was wrong.

"What, what? Dude, what do you want to do? ”

"Hesitation comes from the uncertainty of one's own heart, because of constraints and commitments, and everywhere denies the idea that you dare not think. Of course, there is nothing wrong with this, but it clearly exists, but I don't dare to confirm it at all. Really, I've had enough of this feeling. ”

Sakakihara suddenly slapped himself hard, and then said with a full sense of energy:

"Excellent! It's cool! ”

？

"Dude! Are you going to be- crazy?! ”

Sakakihara turned abruptly and walked towards the place he had come from.

"What are you doing! He didn't speak again, and he was about to leave without saying a word. ”

Sakakihara Suzu immediately grabbed his hand, but saw that he touched the back of his hand with an extremely serious expression, and the temperature of his palm even made Sakakihara Suzu blush a little.

"You, you guy! Say it clearly, what kind of trouble is it to go back without saying a word! ”

"Ah Ling." Sakakihara turned his head.

"What the hell, what are you doing?" Suzu Sakakiwara's gaze became evasive.

"What do you think I've been in a trance for the past few days?"

"Aren't you talking nonsense, don't you just miss Yuki for the fact that she used to sit in the back of the gym and watch you play basketball every day. Yuki is gone, and you've been going to see that place these days. ”

"Yes, that's nostalgia. There is no doubt that this is nostalgia. Even when I go to her room and see the doll I gave her, I will miss it. Needless to say, this is feelings."

"So.?"

"So, I'm going back and telling Qijiu that I have to bring the snow back!"

Sakakihara Suzu blinked: "You guy, crazy? ”

"I'm not crazy, I'm sober." After Sakakihara finished speaking, he dragged Sakakihara Suzu to the place where he went back.

"Hey, hey, hey. Absolutely absolutely insane! You're going to go back and die, don't take me with you!" ”

(End of chapter)