As the sun sets, the sky is orange and yellow. The neon lights of the city are lit up, and the streets under the high-rise buildings are gradually covered by the afterglow of the sunset. In the golden light veil, people, cars, come and go, together intertwined with the prosperity and hustle and bustle of the international city

"The infirmary of the school is still exquisite, and the location of the windows is a good view."

Hearing the voice behind her, the girl on the hospital bed closed her eyes, and the setting sun outside the window reflected her outward-facing face softly and brightly.

"The scenery is a good scenery, but the people are not good people."

"But you were unconscious in the afternoon, and it was the bad guy in front of you who carried you back here." Sakakihara Raku handed the freshly peeled green apple in his hand to the girl.

Tianhai Qi Mingyue's gaze only stayed on this apple within reach for a second, "It's just a backstairs, as if it was a great favor that must be repaid in this life." ”

Sakakihara's hand hovered in mid-air for more than ten seconds, and finally could only be withdrawn.

He sliced the apple with a fruit knife and put it in his mouth, and as he ate it, he said:

"Indeed, it is an inconsequential trifle, and such a trifle does not prove anything. The school doctor said that you didn't have a good rest and had heat stroke, so you suddenly passed out. Just now, Ruri, Zhixue and Suzu all came to see you, and the apple was bought by Zhixue, and she didn't dare to face you. ”

"Sakakihara-san."

"I'm listening."

"In the past month, you have also cared for me like this many times, including but not limited to the sudden arrival of water when I was thirsty, and the fact that I learned from my sister that I could not eat and cooked for me alone. But alas, it seems to me that these are meaningless entanglements at all. Whether it was coming to me for no reason last night, or carrying me to the infirmary without my permission at noon today. ”

Tianhai Qimingyue's voice was not cold.

It's more like bland. There are no ups and downs.

She closed her eyes again.

"I know you want to apologize to me, but unfortunately, your apology seems to me to be only hard work, not sincerity."

"Sincerity is to send Zhixue back to Tianhai's house?"

"Or else?"

"That's a pity, in July, I won't send the snow back. Send her back in her current state, what state do you think she will be? Will she be happy and happy? ”

"At least—"

Sakakihara Le's face was serious, and he immediately interrupted her:

"At least better than being by my side? On this note, July you can ask Snow what she really thinks, does she want to stay with me, or does she want to go back to that home? If Zhixue said that she wanted to go back, she was really voluntary, and she didn't say that she wanted to leave without any hesitation, why didn't I let her go? ”

"And it doesn't depend on who-"

"See who did it? July, I don't want to discuss too much at this point. When Zhixue first moved in, did you really care about her? I know you're all busy with things and busy with your own business, but as far as the facts are concerned, which of you really cares about Zhixue when he is facing difficulties?

"I remember that Sakura said to us when he sent Yukiyuki over, and we agreed to treat Yuki as family. But in fact? Do you have someone who teaches her to live? Did one of you start out to offer her condolences in terms of food and clothing?

"I always do these things at home, and only Liuli is willing to help me.

"I know you can blame this on 'she'll do it herself,' but don't forget, Zhixue is a naturally flawed child, and she can't do much."

"That's what you're talking about?" The seven bright moons of the sky and the sea do not change color.

"It's not a rhetoric, it's just an explanation of what you just said in July. July. Don't you know these things? What about this? ”

Tianhai Qi Mingyue lowered her head, her head was still a little groggy, she didn't know why she said those inexplicable words just now, she knew that she really couldn't refute this.

Zhixue likes someone, and several people in the family have a certain responsibility.

But it's one thing for Zhixue to like someone, and it's another thing for someone to choose to respond and break their promises.

Tianhai Qi Mingyue took a deep breath, "I never care if Zhixue likes you or not. It's someone right now, who doesn't have integrity at all. ”

"I'm trying to apologize."

"Heh, I said it, your apology is only hard work, not any sincerity."

"I won't agree to the sincerity you said in July."

"Then you think your apology is an apology?"

The exchange between the two fell into a long silence at the same time.

Sakakihara stared at the shadows stretched by the setting sun outside the window, and felt that time was passing so slowly

"Sakakihara-san."

Hearing the voice of the Seven Bright Moons, Sakakihara did not look up.

"Don't you think you're annoying now?"

"Yes." Sakakihara continued to bow his head.

"It's annoying, it's annoying to apologize, it's annoying to give gifts, it's annoying to come to me pretending to be funny, it's annoying to forcibly carry me here. No matter how you look at it, you're just an irresponsible scumbag right now. ”

Sakakihara lowered his head and listened to the voice of Qimingyue, which was not salty or light.

He wondered, what caused the current situation?

What makes July say such things to herself

At first, I just liked that after Liuli was entangled in July, I inexplicably remembered what happened to her in the past.

Because I had a promise to July in the past, I am sorry for her now, so I have to take responsibility for her. And during this period, I felt July's dedication to myself, so I fell in love with her

But there is no doubt about it. This is in conflict with the glass that is completely on its own.

The two sisters began to quarrel with each other and got into a fight over relationship issues.

They have been arguing with each other for a long, long, long time.

As for himself, he is sandwiched between the two sisters.

On the one hand, you have to face the support that Liuli asks for, and on the other hand, you have to face July's infinite love for herself.

I didn't want them to get hurt, I didn't want them to hide in the corner in the future and be sad one by one, so I wanted to take full responsibility and let them get hurt again and again.

And themselves. It is also necessary to run back and forth between the two of them and take care of their feelings.

Why not let them voluntarily rely on themselves, like a strong man?

Sakakihara can only answer. What they ask for in themselves is never "strong", what they need is always just a single emotional sustenance.

And emotional sustenance, even if Sakakihara Le completely controls the Tianhai family, it has no effect.

What they care about is whether a person will understand and take care of their feelings. And then they respond more and more.

There is no doubt that they are all good girls.

They are all worth entrusting for a lifetime.

But why?

Sakakihara suddenly felt as if he was living between them, and he needed to be responsible for this, and he needed to be responsible for that. I seem to have given them too many unrealistic feelings.

On the one hand, they are allowed to fall in love with themselves infinitely, but they can't give them all the feelings they want.

"I want to hear what you have to say, why do you want to accept the snow?"

Sakakihara tried to capture some information from Nanachi's face, but unfortunately, it was only pale after waking up from a coma.

"As you said in July, be responsible."

"Then you don't have to be responsible for me and my sister?"

"Of course, it has to be."

"And then?" Tianhai Qimingyue looked out the window at the distant floating clouds, "And then you said that to my sister and me a month ago?" ”

"It's all responsible, July Snow needs someone to sympathize, you can think about it as a snow-"

Tianhai Qi Mingyue sighed, "I'm fed up with your kind of rhetoric, 'empathy'. Why do I have to empathize with my position? ”

"July, I don't think you would say anything like that." Sakakihara smiled at her and grabbed another apple from his plate, "Would you like an apple?" I'll cut it for you, it's delicious. ”

"Why? Sakakihara-san, now I just feel like you're taking advantage of our feelings and kidnapping me. Also, I think now that you always come to me with a smile after doing those things, which is very fake. ”

Qi Mingyue's tone became more and more flat.

It's so bland that Sakakihara is full of exhaustion in his heart

Even the sunset that falls on the palm of your hand feels so dim.

"Are you dissatisfied with me?" The half-sliced apple stops in his hand.

"yes, I don't see a bit of trust." Tianhai Qimingyue stroked his forehead, frowned tightly, and pinched his eyebrows.

Sakakihara looked at the half-peeled apple in his hand, and the fruit knife hovering above:

You shouldn't have heard clearly when you were unconscious before, so I'll say it again, while I accepted Xuexue's confession, I also rejected her. I asked, 'Knowing that I won't promise you in the future, are you still willing to follow me?' Zhixue replied unexpectedly, she agreed, and she didn't care about these at all, she didn't mind who I liked or not, as long as I could still be by her side, as a family member, a sister, she didn't care. ”

After Tianhai Qi Mingyue heard this, her original uncomfortable expression disappeared instantly, she opened her eyes, paused for a second, and closed them again after changing back to her usual cold expression:

"What? Do you think that's not a betrayal? ”

You think it's okay. But I want to make it clear.,I've never wanted Zhixue to do anything.,I just watched her live in pain.,I want to give her a place that suits her life.,It turns out that Zhixue also needs my care.,Even like you and Liuli and Suzu.,She's a good boy.,After knowing that she made people hurt and embarrassed.,Choose to quit by yourself.

"I'm like seeing you and Ruri on Zhixue. Just as I couldn't give up on you, I couldn't give up the snow. Unlike treating you, I understand that I can't really accept Xuexue's feelings, and I've never treated Zhixue as a lover, what I like is always your feelings for me."

Tianhai Qi Mingyue understood what she meant, "So, I want you to give up Xue completely now, which is equivalent to you giving up my sister and me?" ”

"That's it."

"Then you go."

"What?"

"Since the contradiction cannot be reconciled, you can go. You don't have to apologize to me or anything in the future, I don't need to. ”

Sakakihara Le's voice suddenly became smaller, and he raised his head to look at the seven bright moons of the sky sea that were frowning tightly and pinching their eyebrows:

"I hope you're talking nonsense."

I don't need to."

“.”

Sakakihara was silent again for quite some time.

He closed his eyes, and the setting sun shone on his face, creating a layer of warmth.

What I remember in my heart is what July looked like.

The first time we met、Teasing myself with black words in the literature department、On the day of the fireworks festival, I watched the fireworks alone、I came to myself with a head full of hoarfrost in a snowstorm

Scenes of memories, like a marquee, are recalled in my heart.

Sakakihara feels that all of this is a manifestation of July's liking for himself. I am also willing to respond to her liking and want to be responsible for her.

But with his own character, he can't see anyone's sad character.

Let the situation become what it is now, and no one wants to meet it.

Sakakihara stood up suddenly, "It's my fault. July: Maybe I shouldn't have had so much compassion. ”

“.”

Tianhai Qi Mingyue didn't respond, maybe she didn't want to talk anymore.

"In this matter, it's me who is sorry for you, so if you want to be less sympathetic, I can do it, if you want."

"You want to apologize, that's the most basic requirement."

"yes. The most basic request, what can not be agreed to? ”

"You promised?" Tianhai Qimingyue held his headache and looked at Sakakihara Le, who was standing beside the bed.

I don't know if it's because of the darkness, but she feels someone's figure become a little dark.

"Agreed, since it's July, why can't I agree to your request?"

“.”

Tianhai Qi Mingyue didn't know why his head was so uncomfortable today, so that his head was a mess.

She pinched her eyebrows again, and turned to look at Sakakihara who she didn't know when she stood up.

He didn't smile anymore, but looked at himself with the same cold eyes as he usually did

"The last thing I want in my life is to quarrel with you in July, and I always think that I can laugh and coax you cheekily, but, July, you seem to have forgotten what our first relationship was. I remember discussing countless times that I had more sympathy for than just your affection, but also the affection you had for me

"That's good. In July, I said yes. As you asked, perhaps, it was my mistake that I chose to take you home in the past, I should have left you alone at the bus stop that day, why should I sympathize with you? Why did you come up and talk to you? Why apply unnecessary compassion to you?

"In my hometown of Songshan City, the time I accompanied you to ride the Ferris wheel, I should have ignored your confession again, why do you want me to sympathize with your uncomfortable mood again and again?

"Because you have persisted for more than ten years, you have to sympathize with your plight? What do you think you rely on? Isn't it just my bad character?

"Have fun because you're so happy? Of course you can think so, but I only have endless regrets for Liuli after that, but because I sympathize with you, I have to continue to hide Liuli. It's not that I can't live without you, isn't it you who insert my life?

"In the back, and because of you, I had to wander back and forth between the two of you, sandwiched between you, taking care of your feelings back and forth, and making you happy.

"Really, July, as you said, I shouldn't have sympathized with people, and I shouldn't have sympathized with you, I shouldn't have sympathized with you.

"Now. That's it, you must hate me being by your side when you're sick, and you don't need me to sympathize with you and take care of you. If you want to stab me with a knife, take revenge, and welcome me at will, I won't hide from that. ”

Sakakihara neither got angry nor smashed any movements, only plain words

"That's it, let Liuli continue to take care of you, I'm gone, goodbye."

He walked away quickly, neatly.

The green apple that had been cut in half on the bedside table and was still shaking slightly in the bowl

Tianhai Qimingyue looked at it with some disbelief

(End of chapter)