Author: Tang Tang (Le Yun)

A person can observe fallen leaves, flowers, and appreciate everything from the subtleties, and life cannot do anything to him. I am often negative but I also feel that life is good, because romance and pessimism do not conflict. Maybe I'm too impatient, too focused on others, and forget to pay attention to myself.

Xue Jie was still crying, and suddenly, Chen Shuai called. Chen Shuai and Xue Jie are very strong, but when they are fine, Chen Shuai never makes a phone call or sends a message to Xue Jie. It seems that good friends are like this, you don't bother me, I don't bother you, but once something happens, everyone will twist into a rope and unite as one.

"Hey, Chen Shuai." Xue Jie held back her tears, answered the phone, and tried her best to talk to Chen Shuai in a normal voice.

"Xue Jie, what's going on with you and that little brother on the Internet? Why have you been Aite for the past two days, you have a boyfriend, what do you think about making people depressed? Chen Shuai said to Xue Jie straight to the point, "You also pay attention to your influence, during this time, the Internet is full of people who hack you, and they are worried that they can't catch your handle, you must not make a mess of yourself, look at what you have become now." Chen Shuai said angrily to Xue Jie.

Xue Jie listened to Chen Shuai's words, wow, couldn't control her emotions anymore, and cried loudly. The grievances, anger, incomprehension, and confusion in my heart all collapsed. Yes, my life has been messed up, my routine, my emotions, my friendships, my cognition, all messed up. I was in the midst of a mess, feeling pain and pleasure at the same time, anxious and insecure at the same time. If you really have to be let down, what else can you trust in this world?

"Xue Jie, don't cry, I'm sorry, I'm talking too much, okay, okay, don't cry, I'm just in a hurry, I'm afraid that something will go wrong with you, so I said this to you." As soon as he heard Xue Jie's cry, Chen Shuai panicked, what the boy was most afraid of was hearing the girl crying, who could withstand this, "Xue Jie, you have been particularly absent recently, is something happening, you tell me, I will help you." ”

Xue Jie didn't answer Chen Shuai, hung up the phone directly, let go of her voice, and cried happily. My ideals sustain me alive, even as I am knocked down by life again and again. Seeing some helpless reality, I will become a pessimistic self. I wish I knew that life was subtle, in the bits and pieces, and in the essence of beauty. Tears bring nourishment to flowers, not emptiness. Carrying the wind on his shoulders, and on the wind are twinkling constellations. The starlight spreads along the way, and there are lights at the end of the long road, even if the world is a thousand sails, there will be gentle light ahead.

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After Xue Jie finished crying, she dragged her tired body and silently returned to the dormitory. How should we live our lives? The mountains are all dreams, and the water is in vain. The dead soul can only lie on the backbone of others, sucking a wisp of life from others. And I have a pair of beautiful eyes, and I can't feel the beauty of all things in the world.

"Xuejie, what's wrong with you?" Xue Jie was still sad, and suddenly heard the gentle voice of her friend Ma Zhen. It turned out that Ma Zhen found out that something was wrong with Xuejie and hurriedly chased back to the dormitory.

"I'm fine, you go to dinner, eat and study, don't worry about me. I just want to get some good sleep right now. By the way, you remember to ask me for a leave of absence. Xue Jie choked up and finished speaking, then pulled the quilt over her head and covered her head, no matter how Ma Zhen asked, she didn't say a word.

Who knows the grievances and pain in Xue Jie's heart. The inexplicable messages sent by my aunt were like a boulder, pressing on Xue Jie's heart, making Xue Jie's heart cry. Xue Jie really didn't want to have anything to do with those people, and after replying to her aunt's message, Xue Jie blocked her aunt's WeChat. And the little brother on Chen Shuai's phone just now is just a good friend of Xue Jie, that little brother has fallen out of love, and he has been in a bad mood for the past two days, because he is very familiar with Xue Jie, so he talked about his own affairs with Xue Jie. The reason why Xue Jie is that little brother is out of concern and encouragement.

Xue Jie lay on the bed weakly, and the bits and pieces of the past came to her heart together. I was curious about the leaves after the rain, the plants that had just sprouted, the texture of the crevices behind the rocks, the internal structure and texture of the conch on the beach washed into various beautiful patterns by the waves, the nesting of the birds in the trees, and the sight of the birds looking for food in the grass on the side of the road, and the ten-minute video of it with my mobile phone without feeling tired. But I can't stand the slightest grievance. The world is so big, it's not easy to get to know it, why hurt it. It's so uncomfortable, I've lost my mind, in the world I love.

"Come on, Bao'er, I'm off work." Xue Jie slept in a daze, and when she woke up, a message that happened to be depressed was sent. Xue Jie looked at the time, it was already more than ten o'clock in the evening, and she slept for a long time.

"Yes, handsome." Xue Jie returned to depression.

"Uh-huh, okay. By the way, Xue Jie, you are okay today, right? Depressed as if he knew something, he asked Xue Jie.

"It's okay, it's just that Chen Shuai called and scolded me, and I cried." Xue Jie said to depression.

"I know, he told me, let me comfort and comfort you, don't be angry with him." Depression sent a message to Xue Jie.

I carried a book I liked to climb the mountain, and after climbing to the top of the mountain, I rested for a while, played music, drank saliva, washed my hands again, and carefully took out the book and read it softly. What a beautiful day like this!