Author: Tang Tang (Le Yun)

We are never afraid of falling in love with anyone, we are only afraid of not being worth it. Offering a heart reverently, afraid of being thrown into the dirt and trampled to pieces. I hated myself for having no choice but to take the risk and trust you. How much courage it should have to love someone without hesitation, but this kind of love is the least cherished. The heart of sincerity is broken and cannot be restored, but it is undeniable that the joy of the past is real, deep in the heart, unwilling to be broken, unwilling to become a bubble...

Nana is Xuejie's high school classmate, and she basically doesn't contact her when she has nothing to do, and she comes out to sit together and drink two glasses to relieve her boredom. Today, Nana suddenly contacted Xue Jie, Xue Jie was a little confused, but thinking about being depressed, she also knew Nana, and Nana also knew that she was depressed, but the two hadn't met yet, so Xue Jie called Nana, "Nana, my boyfriend and I are at the Old Boy Bar in Lao Haiting, come and play." ”

"Okay." Nana readily agreed.

You share a song with an ambiguous title, repost an article with a meaningful title, and post a picture text that you want to say and stop. You didn't say it yourself, but those who understand know it. Everyone else is pretending not to understand, and those who like it are also pretending not to see it. At one or two o'clock in the middle of the night, it was as if nothing had happened. She thought she had glimpsed the fire in his heart, and mistakenly thought that they had a good heart. And he extinguished the fire.

"Hello hello, nice to meet you, I always thought Xue Jie and you broke up, but I didn't expect it to be a misunderstanding." As soon as she sat down, Nana popped out this paragraph inexplicably, "Depressed, let's add a WeChat, I'm sorry, I deleted you last time, and we will still be good friends in the future,"

"Okay, okay, it's okay, they're all good friends." After finishing speaking, he took out his mobile phone and added Nana's WeChat, "You just came, if you want to eat something, I'll give you some." ”

"You don't need to eat, just drink, come, I'll toast you." Nana got up, picked up her glass, and drank with depression.

Xue Jie silently listened to the conversation between Nana and the depressed, couldn't interject, and had nothing to say, thinking about what her mother said to her just now, her heart was sour, and she poured herself full of wine and drank it all. Nana saw Xue Jie drinking by herself, patted Xue Jie's shoulder and asked, "Are you okay?" ”

Xue Jie turned her head to look at Nana, and said incorrectly, "If you come out to drink, it's over." ”

depressed knew that Xue Jie was unhappy, so he didn't say anything. Nana didn't know why, so she asked Xue Jie again, "What's wrong with you?" Xue Jie didn't even think about it, as if she was drunk, she shook a sentence, "My mother disagrees." ”

This is the third time that Xue Jie has grown so big and is afraid. The first time was when the house was raided; The second time was the divorce of my parents; The third time was when her mother got married, and later, her father also got married, but Xue Jie was paralyzed. After coming to Sichuan from depression, Xue Jie never thought that depression would leave. Xue Jie felt that depression was her supreme treasure, her Monkey King, and he was here to save herself. Therefore, Xue Jie collapsed directly the moment she heard that she was depressed and said that she was leaving. I'm afraid, I'm afraid of my love, it doesn't work out. I was too cowardly to express myself until dawn broke, I was afraid, abandoned; I'm afraid, if you're gone, you won't come back.

"Xuejie, don't hold it in your heart, you can tell me, I will always support you." As soon as she got out of the bar, Nana leaned on Xue Jie's ear and said to Xue Jie,

"I'm fine, don't think about it. How are you doing? I'm so busy that I haven't even gone to play with you. Xue Jie muttered,

"I'm looking for my ex to get back together, and I don't know the final outcome yet." Nana said to Xue Jie worriedly,

"Good luck, it seems that you really like him. If you can reconcile, you must pay attention in the future and don't make him jealous again. Xue Jie explained the precautions to Nana.

Nana and her ex's affairs, Xue Jie knows too well. It's not that Xue Jie is nosy, but as soon as there is a stir, Nana will find Xue Jie to complain. Over time, the grievances and grievances of the two of her were divided and merged, and Xue Jie was clear. However, Xue Jie is not a person with a big mouth, and Xue Jie will keep her mouth shut about other people's affairs, which is also an important reason why Nana likes Xue Jie.

"Whoever loves the most is destined to be the weak." I want to continue this sentence and say, I am not afraid of loving more, I am not afraid of being weak, I am afraid of losing the ability to love in order to avoid becoming weak. The first person to be emotional, was stripped of his blade and reduced to a vassal. I love carefully, but there are always people who break everything in me and fail. It is said that if you don't hit the south wall, you won't look back, but you still don't want to turn back after hitting the south wall.

"Xuejie, I'm sorry, I didn't know that you would be so sad as soon as I said to leave." After sending Nana to the car and leaving, Xue Jie and depressed also took a taxi to go back, and as soon as they got in the car, depressed said to Xue Jie emotionally.

"It's okay, you have to go and go, I'll convince myself to accept it." Xue Jie's heart is still sad,

"No, no, please believe that I am sincere to you, even if I leave this time, I will come back in the future." depressed held Xue Jie's hand, "Xue Jie, don't be sad, okay." ”

"I thought you would fall in love with this city because of me and not leave." Xue Jie lowered her head,

Depressed, he hugged Xue Jie and said firmly, "Next time I come, I won't leave, baby." I still have work to take care of, and I also need to explain my family. Please believe that I mean it to you. ”

"Hmm." Xue Jie nodded.

I've found that sane approach only works when you make small decisions, and when it comes to life-changing things, you have to take risks. Suddenly I remembered, "You sentenced me to death without even asking." "..., above death, every day of life is a flower. Then use such a mood to sacrifice your life to the things you like. To be gloriously wounded, to be courageously healed. I would like to look forward to my life in this way until the end of my life, and I would like to be a scarred man, martyred in the love of the world.

"Cousin, we want to come to your house today, is it okay?" The next morning, as soon as Xue Jie woke up, she saw a message from Ai Xin.

"Yes." Xue Jie replied to Ai Xin.

I like to live a neat, orderly life, daily routine, do things, recognize an oracle bone, identify a plant, read a new book, and take notes. When you go to bed at night, you feel like you're getting thicker and thicker, as if you've grown a new leaf. In the same way, I also like this sense of meaning that has accumulated steadily for friendship and love. It's that as time goes by, you know what has become heavier and grown.

"Cousin, you and your boyfriend go buy some food, I'll come over and cook for you. You buy another deck of poker by the way, and we'll play cards later. Ai Xin began her ultra vires again.

Because of some similar experiences, Xue Jie never got angry with her, spoiled her very much, and tried her best to meet her requirements, "Okay, little spicy envoy." After sending the message, Xue Jie and depressed went to the vegetable market.

You're not a barb, you're the beautiful back of my life. No matter how rich or powerful you are, at the end of your life, everything will remain in the world, and only the soul will follow you on the next journey. Life is not a material feast, but a cultivation of the soul, making it more noble at the end of the curtain than at the beginning.

It's like I'm waiting for the story to end; Like a blank sheet of paper waiting to be written; Like a sunset waiting for the evening breeze; like withered branches waiting for nectar; Like night waiting for day; Like a galaxy waiting for the passing years; Like a wasteland waiting for the rain to pass the season; It's like the sea waiting for the wind to return...