I'm a Spartan mentally tortured and tempered person. It's not innocent, it's just that it can stand the beating. The chest was dissected, and the wounds were numerous. (Spartan spirit: freedom, brave, love, wisdom, equality), when you are tired, lie quietly in the moonlight for a while, bathe in blood, and live to death in the dark.

I am accustomed to this normality, I am used to enjoying the pain, reminiscing about the pain, I can confidently say that I am made up of entanglement, torture, pain, grief, despair, maybe I know that I will be defeated next time, I know that the status quo is difficult to change, and the pain is unbearable, but I still yearn for it, yearning for not only success, but also destruction. That's it, step by step, as long as I live, as long as I still exist, I can praise myself, it's amazing, and the road below will go on like this.

"Xue Jie, get up and eat breakfast." Mom knocked on Xue Jie's door and said loudly, "We'll have a meeting later, you can get up early and learn how to do business." You are now in the internship period, but you should perform well, exercise more and polish more, and prove your ability to work. ”

"Okay." Xue Jie replied to her mother in a daze, alas, adults are like this, hoping that their sons will become dragons, and their daughters will become phoenixes, and they wish that their children would be invincible in the world.

"Well, you move quickly, go to the third floor after dinner, see the opportunity, study more," Mom continued, "I'll go change my clothes and apply makeup first, and you won't be sloppy." ”

"Okay." Xue Jie opened her eyes vigorously and struggled to get up,

I'm still young, and I'm going through a lot of hardships, but I'm still long. I have made thorns like a field covered with flowers, and nothing in the world can torment me. At the end of the long days, I stand before you, and you will see my scars, and know that I have been wounded, and I have been healed. My father said, "Life is a pick-up." In my eyes, my father was always silent. It's just that I can't forget, when I joked about Dad I love you, it would also make him turn his head and stare at me in a daze.

"What are you doing? Little baby," Xue Jie was eating the buns that her mother bought, and she sent a message when she was depressed, "Are you up?" ”

"Up, I'm having breakfast, and my mother told me to go to her shop to study later," Xue Jie replied to depression,

"Oh, you just came home, why doesn't Auntie let you rest and rest," said depressedly and distressedly, "but it's also an exercise for you, hate iron and don't make steel,"

"Damn, I'm such a smart and lovely person, you're the rotten iron." Xue Jieqi gritted her teeth, whatever, can you speak,

"Haha, I'll just joke with you, why are you still angry," depressed and helpless, "You have to listen to your mother, study more, and make yourself stronger." ”

"Ah, why are you as verbose as my mother, don't talk nonsense, I'm back, when will you come to our house?" Xue Jie sent a message angrily,

"Let's talk about this then, I'll do my best." There seems to be something unspeakable about the depression, "My friend got married on the 15th, and it is estimated that it will be very busy, and it may be delayed." ”

"I'll go, it's the New Year's Eve, what do you think? Is your friend important or me, this is a major event in your life, is this your attitude? Xue Jie became angry, "You obviously promised me, you won't break your word, you told me today that you want to delay, if you don't come, you just give a good time, long-winded, you are still not a man, if you don't come, we will break up." ”

"Why do you always talk about breaking up, if you really want to break up, then break up." The depressed and ruthless information made Xue Jie explode in an instant,

"Please make it clear, the person who speaks doesn't count is you, not me, and the good thing I promised is that you have changed, your family has changed, not me. My parents also took out 120,000 sincerity for this matter, booked a hotel for your family, marinated bacon to give to your family, and arranged for you to eat, play and drink, I didn't expect that you and your family would have such an attitude? Your conscience has been eaten by dogs. Tears slid down Xue Jie's face, "Just now I said that I was just angry about breaking up, I just said it, I want you to cherish me and cherish this relationship, you are good, I want to break up, since you have said so, between us, let's stop here, goodbye." After sending the last message, Xue Jie deleted the depressed WeChat and blocked his phone. Respect is mutual, our family has done so, if you and your family feel that it is not worth mentioning, then, the twisted melon is not sweet.

Xue Jie wiped the tears from her face, changed her clothes, and went to her mother's shop to study seriously. Life has to go on, and people have to look forward. I'm not so inseparable from you, I'll learn to forget. A day is a day, and even if nothing happens, no matter how clear it is after a few days, it will be blurred. Occasionally, when I remember it, like the recurrence of an old illness, the rain of sorrow will drown out the sorrow. As long as you avoid violent liking, there will naturally be no grief.

After the meeting, Xue Jie went home and lay on her small bed. Really, it's nothing, when I think of you, it's just a rain, but it just happens to be in time for the rainy season. Yes, he blended into the world, but there was always a girl who remembered his youthful appearance.

"Xuejie, what do you want to eat?" Nana's message arrived as scheduled,

"I don't want to eat anything, I want to drink." Xue Jie replied weakly,

"Huh? What's wrong, isn't the mood beautiful? Nana asked, confused,

"If you break up, you can't let yourself break your heart once?" Xue Jie's tears began to burst the embankment,

"Isn't your boyfriend very nice to you? What's the difference? What's going on? "Nana's second uncle can't touch his head, aren't the two of them good, why are they separated?

"What is a man who can't give you results? I'm a serious girl, and I can't afford to play. Let's meet and talk later, I can't say a word or two now. Xue Jie sent a message helplessly,

"I have your boyfriend's WeChat, I sent a message to ask him, what's going on, it's too hateful, it must be that he's wrong, I know you're not a vexatious person, Xue Jie, I'll set a place to drink first, and then settle accounts with your boyfriend, let's have a good chat later, men are really not things." Nana was indignant, she knew that Xue Jie must have been wronged, and this tone must come out.

"No, I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore, you can just have a few drinks with me later." Xue Jie was full of scars, and she didn't want to procrastinate any longer and let herself be wronged.

"Okay, we'll see you later." Nana didn't know what to say.

I don't want to look at the topic of sadness anymore, love is probably the greatest thing in the world, but I now prefer to see the spur to try to live and keep moving forward. It is possible to live a very sad life without love, but life itself is the greatest meaning! Suppressing emotions is a relapse of addiction......