I liked him so much in my heart that when he showed me tenderness, I became very agitated and stupid, and the saddest thing for me was not being able to express myself to him accurately: your beauty and purity were thick clouds in my sky, making me naïve to think that I would never fall when I stepped on it.

"Xuejie, men are like this, they desperately want to get it when they can't get it, and they don't cherish it when they get it. Fortunately, you have been in contact for a short time, so you won't get too deep. Nana and Xuejie opened a private room in the song city and ordered two beers.

"I thought he really loved me." Xue Jie muttered to herself, yes, every one of his poems is written for me, if there is one that is not, he will desperately explain to me, this is written to his friend, a very good friend, my friend is also your friend, you must not be angry. Xue Jie suddenly wanted to cry,

"Xue Jie, you have to be strong, look at me, I have paid a lot, what is the final result? Actually lost to his predecessor. Nana said indignantly, "Men are cheap, the more you care about him, the better you treat him, the more indifferent he is, the more he thinks you are not worthy." Xue Jie, you have to stand up, only if you stand up yourself, you will not be harmed. ”

Nana paused and continued, "Xue Jie, I contacted your boyfriend in the afternoon and asked him why he was sorry for you, he said it was all his fault, his family was messy, he said that you blocked him, he wanted to explain to you, at least, it shouldn't end so sloppily, after all, you have had too many good things before." ”

"If you don't believe in your words, you don't know what to do." Xue Jie was helpless, "I don't know what he is like, what his family is like, to be honest, I don't know anything about it." But what else can be believed by people whose words do not count. ”

couldn't help but get closer, and fled in embarrassment. I love the midsummer and the rainy season, but what I like is not the rainy day, but the you I met at that time. Walking on the road to happiness is the greatest happiness, just like rice baked in butter, the warmth of anticipation. It is a pity that this excessive lack of warmth is as contradictory as the redundancy of words and the wrong program of the machine.

I often think of those days when it rains endlessly, and I feel that the whole sky is gray. But when I listened to these voices, I felt inexplicably calm. It was the first time I felt like time was really slowly flowing into my heart. I miss the days when the rain fell, washed away all the gloom of my life, and the stars twinkled in the night after the rain. Even now, when it rains, it's easy to recall the days when I stood under the porch and watched the rain fall, and I always thought you were the unavoidable rain in my life. It was many years later that I realized that I was the pouring rain, with a roar of wind and lightning and thunder, splashing out of your eighteen-year-old window in such a crushing manner. You are never a downpour, you are the flowing cherry blossoms in April, the lake and mountains that are opened by willow branches, and the rare spring in my life.

"Xuejie, no matter what, you should also listen to what he has to say, after all, it is not easy to love someone without reservation." Nana picked up a glass of wine and poured it down, my life is a never-ending rainstorm.

"Okay, I'll hear what he has to say." Xue Jie knows that even if you let it go, everyone should get together and disperse, there is no need to become enemies, there is nothing lacking in this world, but there is no shortage of enemies.

I remembered myself standing alone under the street sign of the station on a rainy night with my schoolbag on my back to observe the rain in the lights; I remembered myself gazing at the last touch of sunset in front of the window; I remembered leaving the high school campus and coming to the university, there would be endless rain every spring and summer, the dormitory was full of damp clothes, and the air conditioner was turned on at 16 degrees to dry, and the next morning I couldn't tell whether it was dry or not. On that rainy day, a long rain-sheltered corridor can run through all my life. The glass is always leaking, and when you are caught off guard, there is a disgusting splash on the book. Walking alone with my head down, I don't know when the boring and dull college life will have a head.

"Nana talked to me, what do you have to say, say it," Xue Jie pulled depression out of the WeChat blacklist and sent a message to depression.

"Xue Jie, things are not what you think, so let's do it, no matter if my family can't come over on the 16th, I will definitely come." depressed and solemnly promised to Xue Jie, "I'm not a scumbag, I'm not an irresponsible person, we're fine." Xue Jie, you must believe me, I didn't say anything and didn't count, I was serious about you. ”

"As long as you keep your promise and come over on January 16th, it doesn't matter if your family comes or not, they can spend the New Year." Xue Jie replied depressed, "I don't have any requirements, I just don't like to be deceived." In order to welcome the arrival of your family, my family has prepared a lot of delicious food, and they are all thinking about how to make your family eat and drink well. ”

"I know I know, I'm sorry, Xuejie, my family has a problem with their thinking, I need to communicate with them well, you give me a little time, even if they don't come, I will definitely come on the 16th." It's hard to feel depressed. It happened to be raining today, but the people holding the umbrellas were still wet, some people could feel the rain, while others were just wet.

"Okay, that's a deal." Xue Jie chose to believe.

I want to see everything clearly, but I still remain tolerant; Everyone's attention, but still independent; Inadvertently getting better; live bravely in the midst of melancholy; Feel your own joy in the happiness of others; not subordinate to others, but growing in others; Love the best, comfort the worst; Never hate yourself. "Never hate yourself." Sometimes when the emotions pass, I will be startled by the malice I just consciously felt towards myself: "It's useless", "It's too cowardly", "It's better to die", "Why can't you do it", "What's the point of a person like you", these words are never said to others, but they are said so clearly to themselves in their hearts. Yes, never hate yourself.

"Nana, let's go home, I'm not drinking well, I'm a little drunk." Xue Jie looked down and saw that the two pieces of wine had been almost drunk.

"Well, okay, let's go, I'm almost drunk," Nana said with a smile and went to get her bag, "The happiest thing today is that you and your boyfriend have reconciled." ”

"No, it depends on what he does in the end, action is the most important, okay, I'll go check out." After Xue Jie finished speaking, she opened the door and went out, walking to the bar to check out.

When I fell in love with the forgotten world, I realized that I too could shine uniquely. Cultivating the truth through falsehood, cultivating people through things, limited life, infinite possibilities, although I can't see the road ahead, I still have to move forward. In life, if you want to get love, the most important thing is to learn self-love. I can talk with my friends until late at night, and I can be enlightened in the trough and hardship, but I hope that in the future, my life will continue to be renewed, sober and independent, and the world will be wide.

Such a blessing is given to you and to myself.