There was a deep ideological gap between me and Andrei about what happened that day.

Andrei thought I was dissatisfied with his performance. I was physically and mentally hurt in this incident, and he wanted to help me repair it.

And my thinking is that this is an ugly thing, something that should be avoided, and since it has happened, then let the impact of this thing be minimized. We try to avoid this kind of thing when we win in the future. For the thing itself, I prefer to forget. Whether I love it or not, Andre doesn't have much to do with it. It's because I love him that I don't care about it.

Andrei always thought that the first night was a dead knot in my relationship with him, and since we have crossed this threshold, we should sublimate the relationship between me and him!

However, things did not seem to turn out as he expected. What disturbed him more than my crying after the first night was my attitude towards it. He thought that I was acting errhythmically due to excessive fright, so he was very frightened and regretful.

To be honest, I have a vague memory of what happened that night. I only think that Andre has done something, but it is all fragmented fragments. If you want to say that the memory is the deepest, it is the way he slept.

Soon it's May Day. Students celebrate the festival together. I still talk and laugh with my classmates, just like I usually do. Andrei was secretly watching me. He may have noticed that I had let go of that matter and that there should be no problem. My attitude towards André has softened, and we have even been as close to me as before. There were a few times when he wanted to talk to me. I told him not to mention it, I had forgotten! After that incident, I'm afraid everyone will know what happened between me and Andrey. But these days, it seems that no one knows about it. No one even noticed that there was any unhappiness between me and him.

At first, Andrei seemed relieved.

Tomorrow is Victory Day. He and I were talking about a German song called "Lily Marlene". I told him that the Chinese knew more about the famous Russian song "Katyusha". As for this song from the same period, there are really very few people who know it in China.

I was lying on the bed and listening to the song "Lily Marlene" with headphones, the tune was really moving, perhaps, Andre saw that I was very happy to listen to the music, he leaned down and smiled and asked me if it was good?

I smiled and nodded. Andre gently slid his fingers over my face and said:

- "Linna, can I stay tonight?" ”

I looked at him and shook my head.

- "Why. Linna, are you still angry with me? He asked, puzzled.

- "Don't be angry, I just want to forget about it." We will never have to do that again. ”

- "Linna. What are you afraid of, what am I doing that you are not satisfied with, you can tell me, I will change, you don't say how do I know? Next ......"

- "I don't want to think about it anymore!" ”

- "Linna, am I so terrified of you?" Don't you love me? ”

- "Let the past pass, and in the future, it would be good if nothing like this happened"

- "Linna, do you really think you should forget what happened between us? ”

- "No, it's that I've forgotten!" ”

- "Linna, do you know what that means? ”

- "Andrey, stop talking, that thing is not important to us. ”

- "I'm afraid that that incident has always had a shadow in your heart, so you don't accept me, it seems that it doesn't affect you anymore!" Can we start over?"

What to start over, I didn't understand what Andrei meant for a while, he kissed me and began to undress me.

- "Don't! I sat up.

- "Didn't I say it shouldn't happen again?" Don't you understand? I asked him angrily.

- "Why? Linna? Tell me why you disagree. ”

- "I just don't want to be like you!" I said!

- "You're already my man," Andrei said fiercely.

- "I belong to myself," I said angrily.

Hearing this, Andrei stood up, stared at me for a full minute, and then slammed the door and left.