Looking at the sleeping Andre, looking at his thick tawny eyelashes, my heart was unusually peaceful.

Recall that Andrei said that I was very dismissive when I said that he was flirting. I guess that's for sure.

I know why watching Andre sleep soundly calms me. Because, I feel that Andrei's gaze is a little too sharp, whether it is gentle, happy or always noisy, not as quiet as when he is asleep.

Am I scared of the eyes? I asked myself, not that I was afraid, but that I felt that there were a lot of eyes in the world that made me feel uneasy. Some of them make me feel tired, even tired.

I laughed at Andre for saying the word eyebrows, and I said that it was eyebrows, and Andrei seemed to agree with it.

To be honest, I don't know the girl named Simone, I think she's about my age, but I really can't understand why she likes to make eye contacts.

Wouldn't she be upset by the overly curious eyes of strangers?

Anyway, I would! I didn't even want to find out what those eyes were for, and even if I did, I felt very uncomfortable.

Maybe I'm such a freak, and I probably lack a lot of emotions that humans have.

André is right, the things I focus on are indeed a little different from everyone else in a certain degree.

Even if it's the same Andrei, I really wouldn't discharge him like Simone.

I would indeed be like Andre said, he couldn't even power me...... I won't even give him a chance to look at him!

Hehe, it seems that I am quite unexpected!

I know I'm never going to fall in love with anyone in my life, and not only do I seem to have no such ability, but I hate it.

Human beings have different demands.

It's like Andre asked me just now why I love him, and I can't tell. It seems self-evident why Simone loves Andrea. Similarly, as Andre's lover, our demands for Andre are sometimes diametrically opposed.

Andrei didn't say, and I can't imagine either. If André had seen the look in Simone's eyes from his gymmate, how would he have reacted, would he have pretended to be calm or smug? I can't judge. It's like I can't understand why Simone is in front of Andre and is "eyebrows" with others.

I wonder if Andre didn't expect that in the face of an alternative lover like me, he would need to change his perception of his lover's inner appeal to a great extent.

But Andrei seems to be upset by the way others look at me today, otherwise, there would be no future situation. Whether he just wanted to teach those three presumptuous Russian lads a lesson, or did he also want to give his friends some warning, I have no way of knowing all of Andrei's motives, and he doesn't necessarily want to tell me.

I don't know if it was my rejection of strangers' eyes that affected Andre that he felt this way.

I reflected on how I felt about other people's eyes, and found that I didn't dislike everyone's eyes, I just hated those ambiguous and unreasonable and greedy eyes.

I've been impolitely stared at on a few occasions to the point of breaking down, even though they're just looking at you, but I think anyone who has ever felt that way will understand the feeling of a thorn in the back.

I'm really thinking about staring at people rudely: isn't that a well-known truth? Why do so many people not comply?

I also hated the kind of ambiguous look that Andrei had in his Russian class. I've been through it in schools in my country, and that's the kind of look I want to avoid the most.

On the other hand, I like those open and sincere eyes, which are common in the faces of innocent children, but I have also seen them in the eyes of adults.

I remember when I first arrived in Moscow, it was very late, and I was sitting in the floor, and there was almost no one in the carriage. I sat opposite this middle-aged Russian lady, dressed and looked very ordinary, I think she was smiling but her eyes seemed to look at me and a little confused, I didn't pay much attention, she arrived at the station, before getting off the bus, she smiled and said to me: You are a beautiful girl! I saw a pair of sincere eyes, and before I could say thank you, she got out of the car.

I thought back to her eyes, and I seemed to read her expression. She may have thought it was a pleasure to see me, but her eyes were misty because she thought it was rude to stare at me. It's that simple!

More honest than this lady is the taxi I took when I applied for a visa in Beijing. The driver was a middle-aged man, and when he saw me, he smiled and said, I am lucky today, the first passenger is a beautiful girl, looking at my eyes honest and friendly. To this day, when I think back to those honest and enthusiastic eyes, I feel warm!

Because of my strange appearance, I have actually become very accustomed to the curious eyes of others, perhaps because of this, I have learned to try to block the feeling of other people's eyes, I am too lazy to explore why others look at me, I have even learned not to care what others think of me, this may be the reason why I make people feel that no one is looking.

I can avoid the eyes, but I really can't help but respond to other people's curious inquiries, but fortunately, in this world, as Andre said, people are - eyebrows and affection. Ha ha

In China, I accompanied my girlfriend to buy shoes at Seth. She went to pick out shoes, I sat there to rest, the young saleswoman, standing three meters away from me, staring at me, and after a while another saleswoman came over, and the two of them looked at me together and muttered, I was a little amused, and was about to ask what are you muttering? The two of them finally couldn't help but ask me - are you half-blooded?

- "Yes! I replied, thinking to myself that if you had asked, I would have told you, and there would be no need to murmur there.

Seeing that I replied with a smile, two girls came up to me and looked at me carefully, talking about the color of my eyes and hair. But their curious, innocent eyes always made me find it particularly interesting.

Maybe Andrei's friends were just curious about me, like the two saleswomen.

I've always ignored the curiosity of others and looked at me with all my attention. What about Andrey's approach??

I wanted to tell him that it would make him tired if he looked into it. However, it seems that I have no way to communicate these thoughts with Andre at all.