Chapter 155: Slave of Time
On Victory Day on May 9, busy students can finally get together for a barbecue again.
On the shores of the lake with a pleasant view, everyone laughed as always. Mary wanted to sketch here, and I joined in the fun. I got a drawing board and pretended to draw on the side.
Andrei insisted on going swimming again, and I didn't force him not to go this time. I watched him splash in the water while drawing.
I saw Andrei come ashore, he changed into a pair of beach pants and lay on a bath towel and soaked in the sun. I noticed that after a winter, Andrei's skin began to turn white and dazzling again.
The afternoon sun is warm, but the temperature is not high after all. I walked over and sat down next to Andre, looked at him and asked, "Aren't you cold like this?" Andrei looked at me and smiled and said, "If you just come out of the water, you will feel that the air is hot."
I thought to myself, the two of us have always had different standards for hot and cold, and I feel that I am afraid of cold in most cases, and Andre seems to be more afraid of heat.
Andrei asked me if I had finished drawing? I said, I don't think it's boring, I'll paint it later. AndrΓ© said that he really didn't want me to paint anything over there, and that it would be better to spend some time with him. I said, when haven't the two of us been together, why do we need to find time to stay together!
I suddenly remembered that on Victory Day last year, I went to look for Andrei in his bedroom, and he was drunk and babbling nonsense, and I didn't understand what he wanted to say at first.
Time flies, it feels like it happened yesterday. I asked Andrei if he remembered what nonsense he was talking about on Victory Day last year?
Andrei turned around and looked at me on the bath towel and said:
- "I can't remember what I said that day, but, Lina, I'll always remember the day you said: You love me!" β
- "Think about it, it was all a year ago, time flies! I said
- "What has it really been?" I feel like it happened yesterday! I still remember the look and tone of your voice clearly! Andrei looked up at me intently and said.
- "I think this year has gone by very quickly, Andre, do you feel that way?" β
- "I think it's very fast, too!" Isn't it that we were all too busy this year, I think I was just the first year in Moscow, and it felt like three years was a long time!"
- "I feel this way, why does the same time give people so different feelings?" β
- "I feel that the time we spend together goes too fast, and when we don't get together, it goes very slowly, is it that we are too happy together?" Haha" Andrei laughed
- "Maybe! My mom said that a good life would go by quickly. β
- "Linna, will you love me more and more, or will you start to get tired of me one day?" Andrei said.
To be honest, I was a little surprised to hear Andre ask me that.
It is said that time changes everything, but I never seem to have thought about whether I will not love Andre one day?
Andre and I were together, and we really never swore an oath. I don't know why, maybe I don't think I need those words!
Andre seemed to be emotional, and he said everything, but I seemed to feel like drunken talk, and I really didn't pay much attention to it.
I seem to care more about whether Andre really loves me now, and I don't seem to care if he will change his mind in the future.
Qiu Si said that Daric swore that he would only love her alone in his life!
This behavior may be necessary for some women, but it seems to me that it is redundant and ridiculous.
Is love something that needs to be said? Is saying it the same as cashing in? It really doesn't matter if you say it or not, right?
People's vows are always related to time, and most of the vows are about perseverance and change in eternal time. So what is time? Why does behavior change over time?
Philosophy professors say that time is change.
That classic movie is called "Eternal Love". In other words, their love will not change!
What can make love change?
All sorts of temptations and difficult trials? Or just because of the time! Andrei asked me "Will you love me more and more, or will you start to get tired of me one day?" γγ
It's also about time!
But how did the real name of "Change" develop? The ever-changing nature is really unpredictable and uncontrollable, and that feeling is really helpless and terrifying.
The relationship between me and Andrey. What he thinks is: more and more love and weariness.
Wouldn't there be other variations? Only time knows!
Only time will tell. We are all slaves of time.
We are all changing, and it is desperating that this change is not only unstoppable, but also not even felt, like the air we naturally breathe, but is always present but ignored.
The feeling of these changes in our hearts is so numb. Until one day we find that everything has changed, just like the gray hair on the sideburns and the wrinkles on the face, but it is too late.
No one can reverse time and change the trajectory of change.
Sadly, we will eventually find ourselves having to endure these changes.
I looked up at my classmates who were laughing and happy. I saw Marie Sauer, who was concentrating on painting, and Figor and Basha, who were playing with beer bottles. Zimei, who saw Yong baking potatoes together, saw the clear lake under the blue sky, and saw the vibrant grass and trees around her......
I looked down at Andre and saw his well-developed pectorals and eyes looking at me. Andre seemed to be expressionless against the sun, but his eyes were so focused and even a little sharp when he looked at me.
I know that the scene before my eyes will soon pass away, but isn't it all a gift from time? What I want to do right is to cherish the right thing in front of me. Don't be presumptuous about perfection. What we are asking for may not be reasonable.
Whether Andre and I can love each other forever is not as important as whether we love each other now.
I leaned down and looked into Andre's eyes and said.
- "I don't care about the future, and I don't know how much I will love more and more?" All I know is that you are now the person I love most in the world. Andre! β