"Okay, okay, you should be sleepy too, go to bed quickly" Su He pulled the quilt on Chen Jiao, he didn't want her to tear down the stage again, fortunately she had a big heart, otherwise she would have to be depressed.

After pulling the quilt on Chen Jiao, Su He also lay down, although his body could withstand it this day, his heart couldn't stand it, and he was too tired.

Because Chen Jiao didn't want to be gossiped by the outside world, she chose to take a leave, although she took a leave, but Chen Jiao was not leisurely, as a student of Huaqing University, the pressure is still very great, because as long as you don't move, you are regressing.

Su He didn't choose to ask for leave, she still continued to take classes, she didn't have anything else, all her energy was put into studying, and she would occasionally come back to see Chen Jiao after class and bring her notes.

"You really work hard," Chen Jiao looked at Su He with a sigh.

"If you want to learn something well, don't you need to be diligent" Su He didn't even raise his head, and took the time to reply to Chen Jiao between reading.

"No, no, no, people have inertia, but I haven't seen it in you, I've always studied when I have time, I'm curious, don't you feel tired" Chen Jiao looked at Su He and asked curiously.

Even if she was admitted to Huaqing University, she didn't study so hard, she always felt that it was almost enough, and then she came over like this, although her grades have never been top-notch, but she has always belonged to the middle stubble.

Before, Su He studied without sleep or food, and she thought that Su He was stimulated, but now, she can clearly feel that Su He has forgotten Ye Zhe, so it can only be Su He's normal state to study like this now.

Can anyone really like to study like this, there are so many people in the class, and there are not only Su He in the dormitory, they are all working hard, but there are still few like Su He, is they not as involuted as Su He.

"No, I'll rest when I'm tired, I don't feel tired" Su He chatted with Chen Jiao with a pair, she is now using her heart and soul very well.

"What are you studying so hard for?" is what Chen Jiao is most curious about.

Chen Jiao doesn't know if there are other people, but she is really confused sometimes, she doesn't understand the meaning of life's entanglements, and what is the meaning of learning.

No matter how you live this day, life is only so many years, and it may not be more than others, and money, in fact, is one thing if you have more, and then you spend it.

She has never restricted her consumption now, her family can support her consumption in the future, or even higher, she doesn't seem to have the need to work hard, no matter how hard she works, she doesn't feel as much as her family gives.

So she doesn't know what the meaning of her efforts is, even if she doesn't do some things, there are still people who do them, and her father also has a hospital under his hands, and there are many people in it.

Unless she is extremely talented, takes the postgraduate entrance examination and then studies hard, otherwise she doesn't seem to be able to bring anything, but the meaning, it doesn't seem to be meaningful, her father can spend money to invite such a person, so she can't bring anything at all.

"People always have their own self-worth, and I am now realizing my self-worth" Su He still didn't look up, she was fascinated.

"But even if there is no one, there will always be someone who can do it," Chen Jiao continued.

At this time, Su He felt that something was wrong, she put down the book in her hand and turned her head to look at Chen Jiao, "Are you in a period of confusion?" ”

"Well, a little," Chen Jiao said with her head down.

"Actually, I've had periods like yours, but I've passed it, so I'm still passionate about life" Su He couldn't help but laugh when she thought of the funny things that happened to her before.

"Then how did you get through it" Chen Jiao asked urgently, she felt that this state was very dangerous now, but she really couldn't find a way to solve it.

"I want to open it myself, but speaking of which, people generally doubt life until middle age, why did you start to doubt the meaning of life at such a young age, you spend a lot of time squandering, playing, what's there to doubt" Su He quipped.

"Hehe, you're only middle-aged, didn't you doubt life earlier than me" Chen Jiao rolled her eyes.

"Uh" Su He was stunned, she didn't think of herself, but she said that she was almost middle-aged, more than 20 years in her previous life, nearly 20 years in this life, she was indeed middle-aged, but she couldn't say this so unconfidently, "Do you still want to know?"

"Okay, I was wrong, you just say it" Chen Jiao approached Su He and hugged Su He's arm and coaxed her.

"Philosophers say that experiencing the process of things and deriving pleasure from them is the meaning of life"

"Existential psychologists say that rational ability determines the value of existence, if a person's life is only birth, old age, sickness and death, reproduction, it is indeed not fundamentally different from animals, the ultimate meaning of life is self-realization, establish influence"

"But no matter what people say, I think it's the most important thing, and the meaning of my life is a sense of achievement, I like that sense of achievement, it will make me feel that my existence is also meaningful, I can help others, I can bring good influence to others, I am not useless, so I chose this course"

"But this course is not so simple, it is different from other subjects, it requires zero mistakes, and there is zero tolerance for mistakes, so I read books when I have nothing to do, just so that I will not be at a loss when I really encounter things in the future."

Su He said with a smile, "I really like this subject, not because it is my task, so I don't feel tired of learning it."

Listening to Su He's long words, Chen Jiao was deeply shocked, she was really like what Su He said, she regarded it as a task, and she would do it where she was asked, but other than that, she had no passion at all.

Maybe this is the reason why Su He can be at the top of every exam, and she is also in a class and a dormitory, but her grades are far behind.

"But what is the meaning of my life" Chen Jiao was even more confused about her life.

"It's up to you to find it yourself, if you really find it, it's not this subject, it's still a freshman, you still have time to change" Su He sincerely planned for Chen Jiao, "If you can find something you like, then it won't be so tiring to do, and it will feel meaningful."

"Like?" Chen Jiao was stunned, it has always been the choice given to her by the family, her mother gave her the choice, she doesn't seem to have a favorite to do, Liu Hu is the first time she feels like it, but in the end, it is solved like this, so what else does she like.

"That's right" Su He nodded, "It's like I feel a sense of accomplishment to save lives and help the wounded, and learning a knowledge point makes me feel a sense of accomplishment, I like this profession, and I'm willing to work hard for it, so this makes me feel very meaningful."

"I don't seem to have a favorite," Chen Jiao said cowardly.

"How come, it's just that you haven't found it yet, and you will find it after all, even if you don't find it in college, you can work hard for it in the future, it's just a little late, but it won't be delayed" Su He said with a smile, comforting Chen Jiao.

"Is it" Chen Jiao asked suspiciously, she never felt that she liked any industry, she didn't care about anything, she went with the flow, and she did whatever her family asked her to do.

Just like this time, my mother said that doctors save lives and help the wounded, and their profession is very high, so she came to study medicine, but she didn't have any feelings about saving lives and helping the wounded, just following her mother's wishes.

She thinks that what does other people's affairs have to do with her, doctors have always been doctors who do not treat themselves, and studying medicine cannot cure their own diseases at all, so what is the point of her studying medicine, other people's affairs have their own worries.

"Yes, I believe that I can find the target at a point, and when I don't find it now, just have a good time" Su He patted Chen Jiao's shoulder, "Don't be confused, everything will be known when the time comes"

"Hmm" Chen Jiao nodded, but she was already confused about her future, and she didn't even think she could find what she liked to do.

"Be happy, there is nothing in life that is not confused, just think clearly" Su He persuaded a few more words, and then lowered his head and continued to read, this subject is like this, the more she learns, the more she feels that the knowledge is not enough, and she can only devote more time to it.

Although learning can't make her happy, it has a sense of achievement, and with a sense of accomplishment, she will be very satisfied, and she will naturally be in a good mood.

Looking at Su He, who was then reading, Chen Jiao stood up and didn't bother, Su He has always been involved in it and rarely cares about other things, this time it is rare to be able to listen to her talk a bunch of nonsense and talk to her a bunch of things, and she doesn't want to get up and make people unhappy.

She was thinking, what did she like, did she really not have something she liked, no, it seemed to be.

She seems to have something she likes in her memory, she was very fond of drawing when she was in elementary school, and she liked it so much that she didn't like to do anything else, and she forgot about her studies, and her academic performance declined.

Originally, there was a painting interest class for her at home, but since then, other interest classes can be attended, only painting, at that time she also made trouble for a while, but it didn't work.

Later, she learned that she could learn anything, but she couldn't waste her studies because of one thing, and the culprit of her abandonment of her studies would definitely be unable to study.

Then she forgot that she hadn't touched painting for a long time, and she didn't feel anything anymore, so now, when she can make decisions for herself, does she still like to paint, can she still hold a paintbrush?

Chen Jiao looked at her hands and fell into deep thought, these hands can play the piano, play the violin, and write, but she has forgotten how to draw, can she really start again.