In the morning, I went to the kitchen and saw Xiaoshi preparing lunch there

- "Sister Lin has to wait for a while, I was afraid of disturbing your rest in the morning, so I didn't call you, I see that you look much better, I'll give you a hot glass of milk first!" Xiao Shi said

- "Thanks, Little Stone. I'm sorry I choked everyone yesterday. I didn't expect the ambulances to come. I said to Xiaoshi as I walked around the kitchen.

- "It's good that you're okay, I really thought the ambulance was going to take you away when I saw you yesterday!" ”

- "Was I so scary yesterday?" However, I feel like I don't have anything to do now, hehe......" I said as I stood behind Xiao Shi, ashamed of my performance yesterday.

- "The milk is ready." Xiao Shi took a cup out of the microwave and handed it to me.

I saw that this is a milk cup that is especially common in Russia. It's exactly the same as what I used in my dorm when I was in Moscow.

I took the cup, the same cup, the same milk, the same temperature, the same smell. I remembered that time with Andrei, and the glass of milk that Andrei handed me when I went out.

Suddenly, I felt a twitch in my stomach again, and I subconsciously covered my mouth with one hand, afraid that I would vomit.

- "Sister Lin, are you still disgusting? It doesn't really look like "Nothing" you said. Xiao Shi said with a smile

I put the milk cup aside and said to Xiao Shi:

- "This milk makes me sick to my stomach a little, Xiao Shi, I see that the millet porridge you make is particularly appetizing." Can I eat that? ”

- "That's right, Sister Lin, my mother said that millet porridge is the most nourishing for the stomach, so you should eat this." Dr. Maozi is really good, he knows how to make people drink milk! You said that I usually feel a smell when I drink milk, but it's strange that you don't feel sick to your stomach when you drink this now! Does this old hairy man's stomach look different from ours? Xiao Shi said and gave me a small bowl of millet porridge and put it on the table.

Smelling the fragrance of millet porridge, I felt that I was really hungry.

Actually, I knew I didn't have gastroenteritis at all. My vomiting was purely psychological, whether it was cherries or milk, they were all scapegoats, and it was Andre who really made me sick to my stomach!

I didn't want to let myself think about Andre, so I asked Director Xiaoshi Zhu where they went?

I wanted to say hello to my leaders in the morning and tell them that I was okay, but I found that they were not in the office.

Xiao Shi said that Mr. Wang and Ms. Wang from the lumber mill came this morning, as if something had happened to their lumber mill, and asked our company to help them solve it.

- "What's going on?" I asked.

- "I don't know the specifics, but when they left, Deputy Director Cheng told me that they might not come back for dinner at noon, and told me not to wait for them, but I looked at Deputy Director Cheng's expression, which didn't seem to be a good thing. I didn't ask much. Xiao Shi said.

Back in my room, I turned on my computer and looked at the video of the apple blossom I had sent Andrei, feeling particularly silly and ridiculous.

I stared at Andrei's profile picture on Facebook and thought that I had been looking forward to receiving Andre's message for most of the year, but I had never received a word from him, and I had deceived myself by giving him so many excuses not to contact me, I was so stupid! How can a person not even have time to write a sentence in half a year? How can I be so stupid to believe that Andrei is still the same as before?

Yesterday, Andre didn't want to contact me at all, he was out of love and drunk again, and he called me by accident.

Half a year, this is really the standard cycle of Andre's love in the past!

Andrei's words reminded me of Darik's weeping face. I persuaded Qiu Si to give Darik a chance, on the one hand, I did think that Darik was truly remorseful, but more importantly, I thought that Qiu Si really couldn't live without Daric, and I persuaded them to reconcile more for Qiu Si's sake.

Speaking from the bottom of my mind, I thought it was debatable whether Darik's actions should be forgiven, but if I didn't forgive Darrick Tyus, could I bear it?

I think back to the painful state of seeing Qiu near collapse in the garden, and I was even worried that Qiu Si would not agree with Daric's proposal to break up and do something undignified!

At that time, I said to myself that if Andre was in love, I would definitely break up with him as soon as possible, but when the black swan really appeared, I realized that I couldn't do it at all!

Emotions were praying to me: I said to myself over and over again, give Andrei a chance! For the sake of your emotions for so many years, for the sake of his love for you so much, and for the sake of his sincere dedication to me......

But reason is also reminding me: stop deceiving yourself, when you think that Andre is working hard for your future, he is looking for pleasure with other women, and save yourself some dignity!

The real breakup turned out to be really different from our decision on April Fool's Day. We were an April Fool's joke.

It turns out that the real breakup is a tearing heart, a feeling of failure that is difficult to describe, and a feeling that makes life loveless.

I thought of Qiu Si, and now, I really understand her feelings, I shouldn't underestimate Qiu Si, because it's really not easy!

At the same time, I would be reminded of my expectations for Qiusi at that time. I hope Qiu Si is arrogant, self-respecting, and backbone! Daric's betrayal should not be Qiusi's loss, but Darik's own, because he no longer deserves Qiusi's pure and selfless love!

Looking at the video of the apple blossom sent to Andrei a month ago, I remembered that Andrei was online but ignored me at that time, he may have seen this video! Looking at the image of myself occasionally flashing in the apple blossom, I feel like a clown.

I deleted the video. Looking at Andrei's avatar, I asked myself, is it still necessary to contact him? Doesn't the absence of news for more than half a year prove everything? I sneered self-deprecatingly and logged out of my Facebook account.

The sun was already setting in the west, I put on a sweatshirt and walked out of the door of my apartment, the streets were sparsely populated, the evening breeze was blowing, and the crisp air made me feel a little more relaxed.

As I walked along the boulevard, thinking about what had happened around me in the past few days, a voice suddenly said to me - love is a dangerous game, and your input, output and risk are all proportional.

As the saying goes, you are willing to gamble and lose! Linna, don't make yourself look like the whole world is sorry! If you do that, you won't change anything but be embarrassed. You don't need anyone's sympathy! You have to be strong for that!

From now on, don't think about Andrei, he has long since left your life, and you should be glad that you have lived without him for too long, and his departure should have no effect on your current life at all.

Just as everyone thinks that I got sick because I ate cherries, Andre should not exist for the people around me at the moment! You have to force yourself to forget about Andrei, Linna, you have to do it!