My name is Song Que, and I was born in the ardent expectations of my parents and grandfather.

Song Que is the name that my grandfather personally chose for me.

I hope that I can inherit his literary talent and have some attainments in poetry.

The memories of my childhood are so long ago that I can't remember them clearly. I only remember that my grandfather loved me very much, and when he returned to the house, he often hugged me and played.

I was just over four years old when the Prime Minister had an accident.

On that day, a large number of guards suddenly appeared outside the Prime Minister's Mansion, and my grandfather became seriously ill after returning from outside.

Then, he passed away very quickly.

My father took my mother and me overnight and left Kyoto.

After that, I traveled all over the country and went to Xiashui Village.

After that, we settled at the foot of the village of Xiashui.

My mother told me to forget about the past in Kyoto. Integrate into Xiashui Village and become a part of this village.

I did.

As time passed, as the memories of Kyoto faded away, I almost thought that everything in Kyoto was just a dream.

But despite this, because of the incompatibility of appearance, it was difficult for our family to integrate into Xiashui Village.

The young children in the village who were my age would look at me strangely and even bully me. Look at me like a girl.

I've been patient.

But in exchange, they have to make inches, and even make jokes.

So, that time I finally made a move.

I didn't let go of anyone who bullied and offended me.

Some of them were framed by me, destroying the crops in the field, and being beaten by the adults of the family.

Some of them were picked up by me and fought with other children.

There is also one who bullied me the most, and I secretly plotted into the Huanshui River.

At that time, I was standing on the edge of the river around the water, watching him splash in the water, falling to the bottom again and again.

At my feet, there is actually a bamboo pole.

I can save him whenever I want.

But I didn't want to save it.

Seeing him tossing in the water made me feel very enjoyable.

If I hadn't noticed that someone had seen me, I think I might have ended up watching him drown.

Yes, I saved the kid in the end. He also became a great benefactor to him and their family.

The kid never bothered me again, but became my bodyguard.

As for the child who saw me hurt the child and witnessed the whole process, he was also frightened by me.

He didn't dare to tell me what he saw that day, and he didn't dare to come near me again.

Actually, even if the kid told me about it, I wasn't afraid.

After all, I am a "good boy" in the eyes of my neighbors, how can I do such a cruel thing?

As long as I don't admit it, and then cry my nose, how will the adults believe him?

After that incident, under the "protection" of that child, I finally lived a safe and smooth life.

Until my father suddenly decided to send me to the academy in the town.

Yes, until I was fifteen years old, I studied with my father in the village. Even, almost never left the village.

Father and mother rarely left the village to go to the town.

After going to Lingyun Academy, because of my good talent and my father's careful teaching, I quickly won the favor of gentlemen.

And, my more beautiful appearance has also attracted the attention of many women. ….

My fame soon spread throughout Lingquan Town.

At that time, I received gifts almost every day.

When you go out, it will also attract a lot of onlookers.

Among them, the one that impressed me the most was an extremely obese woman.

The woman was so bold that she professed her love for me in public.

Even, shoot at the rest of the women who like me.

On the one hand, I was disgusted with her.

On the other hand, I'm happy for her to help me get rid of those women.

But I didn't expect her to have her eyes on my family.

Moreover, when my father was seriously ill, while I was not at home, I joined forces with the traveling doctor to calculate my mother.

By the time I learned about the situation, my mother had already taken her money and bought medicine for my father.

After that, my father was not rescued.

Then, as I expected, the woman came to the door with her family.

They asked me to marry the fat woman.

For the sake of my mother, as well as my younger siblings, I had to compromise.

Qin Sanya, that damn woman, turned out to be the only one who had calculated me successfully in the past eighteen years.

Of course, how could I possibly make her better?

After getting married, I thought of dozens of ways to kill her.

It's a pity that before she could start acting, she became a demon in her original form.

That vicious woman actually wanted to sell Yun'er and Ye'er.

On that day, I was forced to go up the mountain in a hurry.

Unexpectedly, he ran into a group of wolves.

If it weren't for the yellow hunters in the village who came to the rescue, I'm afraid I would have confessed to the mountains.

But even though I didn't die, I hurt my leg.

My leg injury was so bad, my family didn't have the money to treat me.

In such a situation, the woman was still making trouble. I even had to hang myself in my room.

I didn't believe it, but she just wanted me to soften again and coax her a few words.

But my tolerance for her has reached the limit, how can I still coax her?

As a result, she literally hanged herself.

Although she didn't really want to hang herself, she had an accident.

When he fell, he hit his head on the stool and died.

I was amazed at the time, but then I felt relieved.

This woman, even if I don't kill myself that day, I will think of killing her.

But after the relief, trouble soon came.

The woman's father and brother soon came to the door and clamoured to kill me to fill the woman's life.

Thanks to being stopped by her stepmother and having the help of people in the village, our family didn't have an accident.

But despite this, I also went to the Yamen.

In the Yamen investigation, it was clear that the woman had indeed died of injuries from a fall.

And after I told them that they were to blame for the woman's death, they didn't continue to pester me.

After that, the woman's matter was settled.

But my life was ruined.

My leg is useless, and I no longer have any hope of the imperial examination, so I have become a waste.

In the past, I was so proud and sought after. At that time, I was so embarrassed, how disgusted, and pitiful.

I...... I hate it when people look at me pitifully.

But I, like a person stuck in a quagmire, couldn't struggle out at all.

After a few months of decadence, a drought began to break out in Zhao County.

Even if Xiashui Village is on the edge of the Huanshui River, it has not been spared.

The drying up of the river around the water has caused every household to fail to harvest food.

In the end, everyone didn't even have enough water to drink.

Mother and Yun'er happened at that time.

The two went to the Huanshui River to fetch water and lost their lives.

After the accident, I was very sad and regretted not doing it at the beginning.

It was my self-abandonment that hurt my mother and sister.

My mother was already in poor health, and she had to do embroidery work to support the three of us.

If she hadn't eaten enough and had no strength, she and Yun'er wouldn't have fallen into the water and couldn't get up.

I'm missing a leg, but my hands are still good! I can obviously make money copying books!.

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