Chapter 4: Goodbye
Xiao not only chose to forgive and bless, but also apologized to him.
When they broke up that year, several of Xiaoxiao's female colleagues heard about it and were very angry, and asked Xiaoxiao for his number to scold him for making Xiaoxiao angry. Xiao thought they were just talking and wanted to comfort Xiao Xiao.
Later, Xiao Xiao received a call from him angrily, saying that Xiao Xiao didn't need to use such a way, which made him very disappointed in Xiao Xiao and that he had to learn to keep his eyes open and choose friends. Xiao Xiao cried, how Xiao Xiao didn't want to disappoint him, how he hoped that he would always be that beautiful Xiao Xiao in his heart.
Xiao Xiao asked his colleague to find out that there was a phone call, and his sister answered, and the colleague heard that it was a girl, so he said something very ugly. A colleague also went to his space to leave a message and scolded him.
Xiao Xiao was speechless and blamed herself, what could she say, she could only blame herself for the number she gave.
That day, Xiao Xiao went to the Internet café and boarded his space, and his space did not change the password, but changed the homepage. Xiao Xiao deleted the message that scolded him, Xiao Xiao thought, this may be the last thing he can do for him, other than that, just leave quietly.
This departure is ten years, Xiao Xiao said, this is the last time to call him, he said he didn't believe it, he thought Xiao Xiao would still pester him, but he underestimated Xiao Xiao's forbearance, also underestimated Xiao Xiao's self-esteem, and underestimated Xiao Xiao's pride.
Maybe he never really understood Xiao Xiao, and during the time they were together, he said a lot of things. What he wants to do, what he dreams, what he plays, what he does, what he likes. And Xiao Xiao hasn't had a chance to tell him about Xiao Xiao's dreams, has not had a chance to describe Xiao Xiao's future to him, hasn't had time to write him a poem, hasn't had time to sing him a song written by Xiao Xiao, and has not had a chance to say goodbye seriously.
Maybe he doesn't care about all this, he doesn't care, he doesn't care, it doesn't matter. After all, in his heart, he doesn't know what kind of position he put Xiao Xiao, he doesn't know what kind of evaluation Xiao Xiao is, he may think that Xiao Xiao is a silly white sweet who knows how to laugh, except for giggling, he doesn't know anything else, no talent, no ability, no background, no family status, no charm, no idea, no pursuit, no goal, nothing worth his life to love, nothing worth his life to protect, nothing worth his life to understand, to apologize, to believe, to explain, to care, to give, to bother, to stren, To spend money, to prepare, to be attentive, to listen, to work hard, to build, to complete. It's mediocre and not cute enough, it's stupid, it's ordinary, it's going to be strong, and the little little who doesn't change is annoying. So he left, very simply, without dragging mud and water, fleeing at speed, running towards true love, entering marriage, and stepping into happiness.
Xiao once told him that he hoped he wouldn't regret it.
Not necessarily, he said, people are not frivolous teenagers, but it is also possible to regret it.
Xiao said, don't regret it.
Xiao Xiao thinks the same way to this day, I hope he will never regret it in the past ten years, and he must not regret it for many, many years to come, don't regret that he once broke Xiao Xiao's hand and grabbed him fiercely, don't regret that he once abandoned Xiao Xiao and turned around to marry someone else, don't regret feeding Xiao Xiao to drink that cup of poisonous wine, don't regret not even breaking up and saying it, don't regret never giving Xiao Xiao a proper apology, don't regret not listening carefully to Xiao Xiao's words in her heart, don't regret not looking Xiao Xiao, Don't regret your wrong decision, don't regret your wrong insistence, don't regret what you said badly about Xiaoxiao, don't regret that you didn't admit that you are a scumbag, don't regret it, don't regret everything related to Xiaoxiao.
Because if he regrets it, then what is Xiaoxiao's injury for more than ten years? Worthless.
If Xiaoxiao's ten years of poisonous hair can be exchanged for his bright future, in exchange for his happy life, in exchange for his children and grandchildren, in exchange for his bright future, in exchange for his great wealth, in exchange for his steady progress, in exchange for his peace and health, in exchange for his no regrets, in exchange for his high morality, in exchange for his high friends, in exchange for his clear conscience, in exchange for his chic and wanton happiness, in exchange for his flat river, in exchange for his infinite scenery, in exchange for his call for wind and rain, in exchange for his favorite players to come back to life, In exchange for the games he loves to play, subvert his life, if he can exchange these, what if Xiao Xiao is poisoned for another ten years?
It's a pity that no one knows what anyone thinks, no one knows how to write life, no one knows how many stops they need to change when they are by their side, and no one thought that they could meet again after ten years of breakup.
A few days after the failure to "kill" him, Xiao Xiao contacted him again and wanted to see him again, but he still pushed and procrastinated, he didn't understand the good intentions of "killing", maybe he was afraid that Xiao Xiao was really crazy and killed him.
Xiao Xiao said that he had some real thoughts and wanted to tell him not to "kill" him, don't be afraid.
They met again, in the lobby of a gymnasium, and he said that he would forgive him for these two arrangements, and that it was better to meet in a crowded place, so as not to tell the truth. What a hypocritical statement.
He kept asking Xiao Xiao if he had encountered any difficulties, and he really changed, he didn't believe that there were such simple and pure people in the world, not for revenge, not for profit, but to help him and apologize.
What he thought in his heart may be that his ex-girlfriend many years ago had encountered difficulties in her life, and she asked him to borrow money or find a relationship to do something, so he was afraid, and he shirked it, after all, such a thing, maybe for so many years, he was commonplace, but he really didn't understand Xiaoxiao, but who could understand Xiaoxiao? Xiao Xiao, who doesn't play cards according to common sense, came to apologize this time.
Xiao Xiao said that she hated him a few years ago, she was very angry, she hated it, and she won't hate it in a few years, and her memories are all good, thank him very much, and she once accompanied her through this process. Xiao Xiao believes that he used to be attentive to her and tried his best. After a few years, I regretted it all, regretted telling my colleague number at the time, and regretted that because of Xiaoxiao, he and his family were hurt by their colleagues. Xiao apologizes to him for hating him in the past, and Xiao Xiao apologizes to him for the hurt of his former colleague.
Others' harm to Xiao Xiao will fade and disappear after a long time, but Xiao Xiao's hurt to others will become more and more profound the longer it lasts, like a nail in his heart, piercing himself from time to time, so Xiao Xiao apologized to him and pulled out the nail in his heart.
Writing this, I feel a little sorry for Xiao Xiao, I know this shouldn't be, Xiao Xiao is very strong, I don't need to feel distressed, but I just want to feel distressed, everyone allows me to feel sorry for her for a while, just a little while.
What kind of girl do you have, what kind of mood do you have to apologize to him? I don't understand, if it were me, I might have to ask him, why did they break up back then? Is it because of her who got engaged shortly after? Why do you do this to me? Why hurt me... Something like that.
But Xiao Xiao didn't do this, after apologizing, Xiao Xiao felt a lot more comfortable, Xiao Xiao left, but it caught him off guard, he may have just understood a little bit of Xiao Xiao's difference.
Xiao Xiao got into the car and didn't start the car to leave immediately, she cried fiercely, and the tears kept sliding down, one by one, drawing a successful end to this story of more than ten years.
In the evening, he sent a long message to Xiao Xiao, and Xiao Xiao forgot the specific Xiao Xiao, and only remembered two sentences. The first sentence is that the story of their past is the best memory of his youth, and the second sentence is to wish Xiao Xiao to become her ideal appearance.
Xiao Xiao cried again, he still remembered the story of the past, he said that it was the best memory, isn't that enough? It's already satisfied, it's very good.
Xiao Xiao deleted all his contact information again, the love story is really coming to an end, don't worry about Xiao Xiao's poison, I have used the exclusive secret recipe I brought over to dispense an antidote to her, the poison has been resolved, Xiao Xiao is healed and safe. And Xiao Xiao will definitely be what she wants to be, oh no, even better than what she wants to be.
Although I'm a little reluctant, I'm going to say goodbye to everyone in this 12th novel, so if you're still a little dissatisfied, then reread it again. Trust me, you'll read pink, you'll read and cry, because I'm a writer who never tells lies.
This one is over, and the next one will be seen again!