Chapter 192: I Can Wait
In a word, Li Beichen's hand holding the steering wheel was slightly stiff, and the car that was moving was also a little biased. But for the safety of the two of them, he quickly calmed down and adjusted the direction of the car without a trace.
"It could be my parents. They didn't dare to ask me, so they handed it over to my sister. Li Beichen pretended to be relaxed and said, "Xiao Chu, you don't have to be affected by them. Let's just come at our own pace, it doesn't matter if you don't think about it, anyway, we haven't been in love for long, you can take your time, I'm not in a hurry, I can wait. You, don't be stressed. ”
Li Beichen said a lot of things, as if he was trying his best to hide his lost emotions, and he also wanted to explain to Lin Nanchu that this was not his intention. He didn't have the idea of forcing her to decide, and he respected her ideas about getting engaged or getting married.
"So, you don't have to say I'm sorry. It's just the two of us. Finally, Li Beichen said, his tone had gradually returned to normal.
Lin Nanchu nodded slightly, "I'll sort out my language and talk to you later." But one thing I know for sure is that in this life, as long as you are by my side, it is enough. ”
Her tone was calm and determined. Li Beichen could hear that Lin Nanchu was also serious about the relationship between the two. It's just that there is still confusion in her heart, and she can't make a decision.
Now that the two have opened their mouths on this topic, they will surely continue to discuss it soon.
Li Beichen knew that he couldn't be in a hurry, and it didn't matter if he waited.
In fact, Lin Nanchu did not let Li Beichen wait too long, she always felt that when two people get along, some ideas should be exchanged earlier, if the longer the time drags on, there will be unexpected incidents.
In fact, the contradiction in her heart is very simple, that is, the influence of her parents' marriage.
Lin Nanchu knew that Li Beichen would certainly not be a person like Lin Sen. But the failed marriage of her parents, and even after that, the influence that Lin Sen brought to her was not so easy to erase.
"Mr. Li, I know that you have always been in a relationship with me on the premise of marriage, and I am the same. But when I think about getting married, I'm still scared. Lin Nanchu looked at Li Beichen and said in a sincere tone, "I believe in you, but I don't believe in myself, I'm not sure if I can be a good wife, manage a good marriage, and form a qualified family." In my mind, there are no examples of these. ”
These words made Li Beichen understand that this should be Lin Sen and Bai Ruonan's matter, which gave Lin Nanchu a bad impression.
"Xiao Chu, I'm not Lin Sen, and you're not your mother." Li Beichen wanted to understand, in his opinion, if she believed in him enough, it could be solved, "Since you believe me, none of this should be a problem." ”
"I know, but I'm scared." Lin Nanchu held his mouth, with sorrow between his eyebrows, "When I used to talk about getting married, I always felt that I was still far away, but now when I really want to think about this step, I have to admit that I really haven't thought about it yet." ”
"So, you don't believe me." Li Beichen looked at Lin Nanchu and frowned the same, "You don't believe that I can give you a happy marriage, you don't worry about entrusting yourself completely to me." At the end of the day, it's me who doesn't give you this sense of security, and makes you have no confidence in me. Isn't it? When he said this, Li Beichen's tone had already changed slightly.
He thought about many possibilities that Lin Nanchu was not prepared for, such as the two of them had been dating for too short a time and did not know each other well enough, or she still wanted to fight for her career and complete her dreams, and for example, she and her parents had not yet made peace, and the time was not yet ......
These reasons, but if Lin Nanchu said one of them, he could understand it.
But Lin Nanchu's reason is that he believes him, but in fact, he is still afraid of marriage, and he is afraid of marriage because of the failed union of her parents.
From Li Beichen's point of view, he still doesn't trust his performance.
He couldn't accept that to this day, Lin Nanchu's feelings for them still have such distrust. Then what does he have to do to make Lin Nanchu let go of the mustard in his heart.
"Xiao Chu, I don't understand." Li Beichen frowned, because Lin Nanchu's words really made him unable to figure it out.
Lin Nanchu looked at Li Beichen's tangled appearance, and her heart became anxious, her explanation sounded like she didn't believe Li Beichen, but in fact, she was a little afraid of marriage now.
She is afraid of the source of marriage, because of the old things of her parents.
She knew that Li Beichen would not become such a person, what she was afraid of was not Li Beichen, what she was afraid of was the marriage itself.
But it was difficult for her to explain clearly and express what she meant.
Because no matter what you say, it will make people feel that she is hypocritical, evading, and distrusting Li Beichen.
"The day we were together, you said you wanted me to be the boyfriend you could marry, is it true?" Seeing that Lin Nanchu didn't answer, Li Beichen asked.
"Of course it's true." Lin Nanchu immediately replied, "I never fooled you. ”
"But when it comes to getting married, that's how you react?" Li Beichen's expression did not become relaxed and clear because of Lin Nanchu's second answer, but became heavier and heavier, "I'm not asking you to marry me tomorrow, and I won't let anyone force you to give an answer." But your attitude towards marriage is incomprehensible to me. In my opinion, your resistance is questioning our feelings, questioning my feelings for you. But Xiao Chu, do you still question my feelings for you? ”
After saying this, Li Beichen took a deep breath and tried his best to suppress his emotions, he didn't want to quarrel with Lin Nanchu, he needed an independent space to sort out Lin Nanchu's words.
"I haven't questioned your feelings for me." Lin Nanchu hurriedly denied it and grabbed Li Beichen's arm, "Mr. Li, I don't know how to explain it to you." But I promise you, I know your feelings for me, and I never doubted it. From the day I agreed to be with you, I decided on you. At the same time as the words came out, Lin Nanchu's eyes turned red, as if he was about to cry in the next second.
Li Beichen looked away, afraid that he would soften his heart when he saw Lin Nanchu crying, forget what he wanted to say, and just want to coax her. But then, the problem was not solved.
"You identified me, but you were afraid to marry me?" Li Beichen said with a slight sadness, "Is that so?" So you tell me, what do you need me to do so that you don't get scared? ”
"I don't, it's not like that." Lin Nan saw Li Beichen's eyes with a hurt look at the first time, and she became even more anxious, "I, I ......" But now, she couldn't say a word of explanation.
Li Beichen took a deep breath, pushed Lin Nanchu's arm away, and walked towards the guest room. Lin Nanchu chased after him, but he was closed, and the next second there was the sound of the door locking.