The first day of script reading ended smoothly, and after leaving the crew in the evening, Qu Mingming asked Yushuangyan whether he wanted to go home or go back to the south of the city.

She hesitated for a long time, and Qu Mingming, who thought she could make a quick decision, stared at her for a long time, and finally only waited for a sentence: "You open first." ”

After leaving the film and television city, she ran around the ring city at high speed, and it was getting dark, and she made up her mind - send me back to the apartment.

She ...... for the time being It's better to stay away from Fu Liangchuan.

She needs time and space to sort out her relationship with Fu Liangchuan, she needs to calm down completely, face their past, face her inner voice, and then make a choice.

What Director Bai said today made her more and more aware of how much the pain of three years ago had affected her, even if it seems to have passed now, it seems to have been deeply rooted in her soul, and it can't be erased, and it will follow her for the rest of her life.

All she can do is to alleviate it as much as possible, she can't be completely relieved, so she can't see what it will be like to completely get rid of it in the visible or invisible future.

She can't do it now......

Until the official start of work the next day, the sticky Fu Lianqing did not call, but just sent a voice message to ask her if she was busy with work.

Yushuangyan called back, listened to the sound of the urn after the child got up, and talked to him for a long time, until she finally hung up the phone, she suddenly felt as if she had forgotten something.

But what is forgotten? She knew it in her heart...... It's Fu Liangchuan.

Suddenly she couldn't hear his voice or his name for a day, and she felt a heavy sense of self-righteous relief in her heart.

I feel like I should be relaxed, but ...... But her heart is always like pressing a huge stone, and she can't speak a little hard.

"Sister Frost Smoke? Did you not sleep well yesterday? "The new assistant is a little girl with a round face, her squinted eyes are like crescent moons, and her name is cute, called Xiaoxiao, Yushuangyan thinks that she will be in a much better mood when she calls her name.

She smiled at the little girl, then shook her head and said, "I'm fine." ”

"If you're uncomfortable, I'll go to the director first and say it, anyway, I won't have your role today." Xiaoxiao's first day at work was inevitably a little cautious.

After Yushuangyan explained once, the little girl continued persistently: "Why don't you go and rest for a while, when the time is up, I'll call you." ”

"Smile, don't make me say it a third time." Yushuang smoked her face, and her cold expression finally made the little girl shut up.

However, this is not counting, for the next whole day, as long as Yushuangyan is standing, she will never sit down, she shush and ask for warmth before and after running, she takes care of everything, and even thoughtful that Yushuangyan is a lot more restrained when facing her.

"Take a break." Yushuangyan took her arm and sat down, and handed her the mineral water that she hadn't touched yet, "What are the girls doing so hard?" ”

"Isn't Sister Frost Smoke like this?" Smiled and was stunned, wiped his sweat, and his eyes were full of smiles.

Yushuangyan looked at her stunned, smiled lightly, and the hand holding the script tightened slightly, she knew that she was working hard and working hard, but many times, she almost forgot what she was fighting for.

At first, it was to get out of that painful life, and then it was to live a wonderful life.

Throughout the day, Yushuangyan felt that she was in a trance, and she never left her smile, Bai Dao passed her twice, opened her mouth to say something, but finally sighed and turned away.

As a person who has come over, he knows that this kind of thing needs to be thought of by the person concerned, otherwise no one can help her.

At the same time, there is also Fu Liangchuan, who asks for himself, although listening to his words seems to be able to analyze anything, but what is his heart, who knows?

But what does it matter to him?

Bai Yishan felt inexplicable, and agreeing to Fu Liangchuan's request was nothing more than to return the favor, and he was not an expert in solving emotional problems between young people.

Emotional matters, to put it bluntly, have to be overcome by themselves.

In the evening, Yushuangyan, who had made up and filmed her first scene, took off her makeup, looked at her obviously unenergetic face in the mirror, sighed and took out her mobile phone, wanting to change her mood.

"Comfortable?"

"Hmm." The comfortable voice was still wilting, and she didn't have much energy like her.

"How's your friend?" Yushuangyan was a little puzzled, how could she know about the friend who could make Shu Xin care so much, why didn't she have any news around her?

“…… That's it. ”

"I ...... I'd better check it out. ”

"No, you don't." Shu Xin suddenly shouted, and his sudden high-pitched tone startled Yushuangyan.

"What's wrong?" Yushuangyan straightened up, lowered her voice, and asked cautiously.

Shu Xin paused, as if he was sniffing, and as if sorting out his emotions, Yu Shuangyan's heart was about to jump out of his throat, and Shu Xin slowly replied: "Shuangyan, I've been too busy lately, when I have nothing to do here, let's get together again." ”

“…… All right. Yushuangyan replied in a daze, and the brain that stopped functioning couldn't react at all, what is the deep meaning of this sentence.

The people in the crew had already walked in twos and threes, Qu Mingming came in, looked at Yu Shuangyan who was sitting on the chair, frowned and walked over, and asked in a low voice: "Sister Shuangyan?" Are you okay? ”

"It's okay, send me back."

Yushuangyan lowered her eyes and shook her head, grabbing her clothes and draping them over her body, regardless of how low the temperature was outside the room.

"By the way, Wanyi has been receiving invitations from other brokerage companies during this time." Qu Mingming looked at Yushuangyan's expression, and hesitated to say the words that were pressed in his heart.

Yushuangyan glanced up at him with slightly confused eyes, and her voice was slightly hoarse: "If there is a better choice, she can try it, there is no need to wait for the studio to come next year." ”

"No, that's not what it meant." Qu Ming panicked, and hurriedly waved his hand to explain: "I want to sign her under Mr. Qiu's name first, and wait until the studio is established next year, and then sign the studio's contract again. ”

Qu Mingming pursed his lips and looked at Yushuangyan's face expectantly.

"Yes, too." Qiu Lianyu's refusal to answer the call attracted Yushuangyan's attention, she looked up at Qu Mingming, and saw that he was extremely serious, so she had to take the lead in agreeing.

He didn't know about Qiu Lianyu's home situation, and she didn't plan to explain it to him.

It's just that it's too abnormal to not answer the phone all day, even if his grandfather gets angry again, he won't be put under house arrest and won't be allowed to answer the phone, right?

Let Qu Mingming send herself home, Yushuangyan dialed Qiu Lianyu's phone as soon as she entered the door, and the person who was always behind her on weekdays suddenly had no news at all, even if she understood it rationally, she always felt lost emotionally.

I thought about the phone for a long time, and when I was about to hang up automatically, a familiar voice came from the other side.

"Lian Yu, is something happening?" She got straight to the point, her tone was hurried, and her heart, which had no landing point at all, almost flew into the sky with wings.

"What can I do, it's just that the situation at home is not easy to handle." Qiu Lianyu chuckled, unimpressed.

"Then why didn't you answer the call?"

Yushuangyan felt that her tone was wrong, and she was eager to question, and the complicated emotions in her heart made her completely control herself.

“…… Slim? ”

"I'm sorry, I ...... I'm not in a good mood today. Qiu Lianyu's gentle voice made Yushuangyan suddenly expose her inner panic, in front of Qiu Lianyu, she has never been able to disguise herself.

"Is there something wrong with the crew?"

"It's not." Yushuangyan shook her head, her eyes sour and almost ready to cry.

"That's Fu Liangchuan's business?" The tone was slightly bitter, but he hid it well as always.

Yushuangyan stopped talking this time, because Qiu Lianyu was right, she still can't let go of Director Bai's words yesterday, but it's not right, because what makes her flustered is herself in the final analysis.

She didn't know how to let go of what happened three years ago, and she didn't know how to face Fu Liangchuan next.

She didn't even know if she still hated him, she felt that she should hate, but just like Director Bai said, blindly hating would only make her stagnate.

She said again and again that she wanted to ask for Fu Liangchuan's influence, but she was still immersed in it and couldn't extricate herself.

She...... I really don't know what to do anymore.

"Miao, I'm not by your side now, you have to be strong, since you can't hide, why don't you muster up the courage to face your heart, give yourself some time, ask yourself, what kind of future you have imagined, there are some things I can't empathize with, but you have to know, I will always be behind you, and comfortable." Qiu Lianyu said a lot in one breath, although the words were unknown, but Yushuangyan knew what he was talking about.

But this did not comfort her, she resisted from the bottom of her heart what happened three years ago, and wanted to make her relieved...... Impossible.

She couldn't.

"I have something...... Hang up first, Miao, I don't say this for Fu Liangchuan, you also understand what happened three years ago, it was not caused by Fu Liangchuan, and there is a hidden secret, I hope you are happy, do you understand? ”

"Lian Yu ......"

Without waiting for Yushuangyan to ask anything more, the phone suddenly hung up, Yushuangyan threw the mobile phone that had no movement on the bed, and the whole person seemed to have no strength, and lay straight down, staring at the ceiling in confusion with misty eyes, and even crying without a sound.

Who doesn't want to be happy in this world? Who wants to dwell on terrible and painful memories that they can't come from?

But she was afraid, afraid that once she released her previous suspicions, she would repeat the mistakes of the past, how could the nightmare rooted in the bone marrow be so easily removed?