"The first time I saw him, I carefully held him in my arms, but unfortunately this child was destined to be unpeaceful at birth."

"In order to save my life, I took him to many places, often ate the last meal but did not eat the next, and fell into grabbing food with beggars. He was born without a mother, and in order to survive, he ate almost everything, no matter what illness he was over. Every time I thought he was going to die, he always survived and miraculously grew up in the end. ”

"But for various reasons, we can't settle down, because once we settle down, it's easy to be discovered by those eyes and ears, and I can't take him to live like this for the rest of my life."

"Later, when he was six years old, I met a man who was very kind to me, which gave me renewed hope for life, and I began to fantasize about a stable life with him. Unfortunately, he didn't like the boy and persuaded me to send him to the temple. ”

"I was hesitant at first, but it wasn't long before I started vomiting and couldn't eat, and that's when I realized I was pregnant with his baby. At that time, I couldn't take care of two children, so between him and my unborn child, I chose the latter. ”

Speaking of this, Lin Shanyu showed a painful look: "That is the most regrettable decision I have ever made in my life, I shouldn't have been fooled, I believed that man's words, and left the six-year-old child in the temple to become a monk, I didn't even ask his opinion." ”

"But sometimes I'm glad I didn't drag him into the water in the wrong decision, and I live this dark life with me. He is now in the temple, at least he can eat well, and he doesn't have to worry about being hungry and having no place to live, and he doesn't have to worry about being chased and killed all the time. ”

Lin Shanyu looked at Lu Tanzhi, there was a rare tenderness in her eyes, she stretched out her hand and gestured: "If I can still see him, he should be as old as you." And the boy was also good-looking, and there was a small red mole in the corner of his eye like his mother, and when I first saw you, I saw the mole in the corner of your eye, and I thought it was him, and I was shocked. ”

She pulled her hand down in a dejected manner: "I'm sorry, I didn't have a chance to say these words to him, you look very similar to him, and I always unconsciously treat you as him." ”

Lu Tanzhi quietly listened to Lin Shanyu's speech, and then asked, "Who are you hiding, and why are people chasing and killing you?" ”

He looked at Lin Shanyu's gaze very sharp and calm, as if he was not affected by her emotions at all: "What is the identity of that child?" ”

Lin Shanyu shook his head: "I can't say, even if I die, I will take this matter to the coffin, and I must not tell anyone." ”

"Including him?"

Lin Shanyu was stunned: "What? ”

"The kid you're talking about, will you tell him? Are you willing for him to be kept in the dark and live his life in vain? ”

Lin Shanyu was silent for a long time, and said: "I may never see him in my life, let alone say these words to him personally, besides, living his life in such a stable and plain way may not be a good thing for him, he doesn't need to know these things to increase his troubles." ”

Lu Tanzhi sneered: "How do you decide his life, how do you know what kind of life he wants?" ”

Lu Tanzhi's words were rarely stained with a hint of anger, Lin Shanyu involuntarily looked up at him, and frowned slightly: "You ......"

But before she could finish the rest of the words, her pupils shrank suddenly when her eyes touched the thing in Lu Tanzhi's hand, and her face was shocked.

In Lu Tanzhi's hand is a very ordinary strip of cloth, which looks like it has been many years old, but even so, you can still see the preciousness of the cloth and the three words embroidered with gold thread on it.

"Lu Tanzhi."

It is impossible for Lin Shanyu not to know this thing.

At that time, Lu Tanzhi was still very young, but he was smarter and more mature than his peers, and once he didn't know where to turn out a piece of cloth, pointed to the name on it and asked him why his surname was Lu.

That piece of fabric was the swaddling cloth that Concubine Ling prepared for Lu Tanzhi when he was born, and the words on it were the names she had chosen before the child was born, and she personally embroidered them on the swaddling clothes little by little with gold thread.

She panicked, not knowing how to explain it, but repeatedly warned him not to say it, and turned to throw the piece of cloth into the fire.

But what she didn't know was that Lu Tan later picked up the piece of fabric that had not burned out from the fire, cut off the name on it, and put it close to her chest.

Every day after that, he never gave up looking for his own origins, looking for the culprit who caused his unfortunate life.

He will surely redouble his pain on that man.

Lin Shanyu's expression was completely devoid of calm, just like Lu Tanzhi imagined at the door, her panicked emotions erupted like a torrent, pouring out of her eyes and mouth.

She stood up suddenly, propped up the table with her hands and asked Lu Tanzhi, "Why do you have this thing?"

Lu Tanzhi raised his eyes and looked at her faintly, although there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, there was no smile in his eyes: "The female donor, I haven't told you my name yet."

”

He looked at her and said word by word: "My name is Lu-Tan-Zhi." ”

After Lin Shanyu said this, he was stunned for a long time, and then suddenly collapsed on the chair as if he had drained all his strength.

She closed her eyes, as if she refused to accept the established reality.

"You're really ......"

Her voice trembled, and she reluctantly wanted to confirm it again.

"Lin Niang, I want to know everything about me, you'd better tell me fifteen and ten, don't hide it from me." The corners of Lu Tanzhi's mouth curled slightly, and he said to Lin Shanyu.

This "Lin Niang" recalled Lin Shanyu's memory, and she didn't continue to ask.

At that time, when he was still by her side, he always called her Lin Niang, only he would call her that, and only he knew what to call her.

She stretched out her hand tremblingly, wanting to touch Lu Tanzhi's face, but he easily dodged it, so she retracted her hand and lowered her head.

She felt guilty about him, so when she saw him again, her feelings were complicated, mixed with disbelief mixed with joy, and more guilt at a loss.

All this became submissive humility before him.

Lin Shanyu didn't look at Lu Tanzhi, his eyes fell to a place not far away, his eyes were empty and weak, and he seemed to be extremely helpless: "Tanzhi...... Have you really figured it out, do you have to know your life experience? ”