Lu Tanzhi didn't speak, just looked at her silently.

“...... Forget it, I don't have a few years to live in this world, since you insist on wanting to know, then I'll tell you. ”

His meaning was very clear, Lin Shanyu let out a long sigh, as if resigned to his fate, and began to slowly tell Lu Tanzhi about the things of the year.

"You once asked me if Lu is the surname of the country, why do you have the surname Lu, I think you should know by now."

"Your biological mother was the concubine who was favored in the palace back then, and I was her personal maid. The emperor is very fond of Concubine Ling, and she is in her prime, and she happens to be pregnant with you. She has not experienced the bloody storm in the palace, and of course she does not know that she is on the cusp, and everyone in the palace wants her and the child's life. ”

"The emperor knew about the storms in the harem, so he sent someone to protect Concubine Ling well until the day she gave birth."

"It rained a lot that day, lightning and thunder, your mother was afraid of lightning, and she was a little panicked during childbirth, and she fainted directly after giving birth to you. And I took her out while she fainted. ”

Speaking of this, Lu Tanzhi raised his eyes to look at her.

Lin Shanyu's eyes were a little evasive, and she pursed her lips: "Although I am your mother's personal maidservant, before this, I was Cheng Guifei's maid." She gave me to Concubine Lingfei when she first entered the palace as her eyeliner placed next to Concubine Ling. ”

"She gave me a special medicine and fed it to the newborn baby, and the baby would die quickly without crying, covered with blue spots, as if it were born stillborn."

"I was going to feed you, but the medicine stopped when it came to your mouth. Although you are only a newborn baby, you seem to sense the danger coming, and you are constantly struggling to resist before you even open your eyes. The little fingers didn't know where the strength came from, and they clenched my hand tightly and refused to let go, as if grasping the only straw. ”

"Your desire to survive is so strong, coupled with the spirit concubine's kindness to me, in an instant, I was moved by compassion and decided to save you, the only flesh and blood of the spirit concubine."

"I took you another medicine that would put you in a coma but not have many side effects, and I painted blue spots on you with cyan paint to make you look like a stillborn. That night, the emperor, the empress, the concubine and other concubines all gathered in the Lingfei Palace, and the emperor sent the imperial doctor to diagnose it, but the imperial doctor had already been bought by Cheng Guifei, no matter what the true condition of the child was, it was said to be stillborn. ”

"In all dynasties, the birth of stillborn concubines was regarded as an ominous symbol, and the emperor was furious, and immediately ordered the child to be thrown away, and demoted the status of the concubine. And I was assigned to throw the 'stillborn' in my arms out of the palace and dispose of it as soon as possible. ”

"I originally thought that I would hide your identity and give you to a well-wisher family for adoption, but I didn't expect that as soon as I left the palace, a group of people in black chased me from behind! Even if I knew, Concubine Cheng would not allow anyone who knew about this matter to stay in this world, whether it was the Imperial Doctor or me, she would kill people and kill people. ”

"I panicked, and I ran forward with you in my arms, ran to a river, tied you to my back, and jumped without thinking. I just have better water skills, and I don't know how long I swam before I escaped the pursuit of the man in black. ”

"You should know what happened after that, we have almost nowhere to go, and every day we are either in the ruined temple or fighting with beggars for food, and we rarely have a stable life. I'm really physically and mentally exhausted with you, and I don't think we can live like this for the rest of our lives. ”

"Then when you were six years old I met the man who promised me the peace of life I wanted and offered to send you to the monastery. I admit that it was my selfish motives to send you to the monastery at that time, but on the other hand, I think that if you become a monk in the monastery and live your life in peace away from the hustle and bustle of the world, it will probably be a good thing for you. So I agreed. ”

Lin Shanyu said as she spoke, tears overflowed from the corners of her eyes, she wiped the moist corners of her eyes, and looked at Lu Tanzhi: "I'm sorry, Tanzhi...... I know I'm not in a position to ask for your forgiveness, but I still hope you don't hate me......"

Lu Tanzhi lowered his head and listened to Lin Shanyu's speech silently, and when he heard the words, he also raised his eyes carelessly, and a chuckle overflowed from the corners of his mouth: "Don't hate you?" ”

"If the mistakes I have made can be resolved with a simple sentence, I don't think there will be so much hatred in the world." He looked at the cold tea on the table and said lightly.

"The ...... of the Pond I ......" Lin Shanyu opened his mouth, and then was interrupted by Lu Tanzhi, he asked her: "The Lingfei you said, my mother, how is it now?" ”

She ...... Not long after she gave birth to you, she was diagnosed with madness and imprisoned in the cold palace. Lin Shanyu paused, and her voice revealed some sentimentality: "I don't know how she is doing in the cold palace now." ”

Lu Tanzhi nodded, as if he understood the beginning and end of a stranger, and continued to ask without the slightest emotion: "...... that Cheng Guifei"

"She's now a queen." Lin Shanyu added: "Now she should be called Queen Cheng." ”

"She is from the Cheng family in the capital?"

"Of course, there is only one Cheng family in the capital, and it is inseparable from the help of the Cheng family to sit in the position of queen."

Lin Shanyu told Lu Tanzhi what he knew: "She is the only daughter born to Prime Minister Cheng Ye's first wife, and later her mother died after giving birth to her, and Cheng Ye married a new lady within two years." ”

The road is clear.

The richly dressed man who defended the second lady of the He family and was the only son of the Cheng family last time I met in Lanzhao Temple was the only son of the Cheng family, and it must have been the child born to this new lady. He also has an older sister who is weak and often goes to Lanzhao Temple to worship the Buddha, who should also be the child of this new lady.

Thinking of the last time he had a conflict with him in Lanzhao Temple, no, to be exact, it should be the son of the Cheng family who had a conflict with He Jiaojiao, so he gently twisted his fingers unhappily, and silently thought about it in his heart.

Cheng Family...... Queen Cheng, Cheng Gongzi...... He doesn't seem to like it very much.

He doesn't want people he doesn't like to exist in this world.

Thinking of this, Lu Tanzhi raised his eyes and looked at Lin Shanyu.

Although she is not very old, because of the torture of life and illness, she looks like she is already in the twilight, her face is wrinkled, and her hair is all gray.