The weather was fine on August 1, 2019

At three or four o'clock in the morning, my grandfather woke up in pain again.

Although he lies in the hospital bed every day, he really spends very little time asleep, and he wakes up in pain every night, and two or three hours is better.

Song Feng called the nurse and injected a tranquilizer into the analgesic, and after an hour, the grandfather fell asleep in a daze.

Seeing that he was asleep, grandma pulled Song Feng out of the ward.

Grandma also stayed in the hospital last night, and Song Feng asked Chen Hui to go home and sleep well, for fear that he would not be able to bear it.

At this time, the hospital is quiet and frightening, and there are many family members of patients in the corridor, all resting on the mattresses on the ground. Grandma pulled Song Feng to the corner of the stairs on the 11th floor.

"Is there really no way?" Song Feng sat on the steps tiredly.

"Old man, he ......" Grandma sighed and sat next to Song Feng, "You also heard what Dr. Zhang said the day before yesterday, in addition to this disease, he also has emphysema and coronary heart disease...... Either one of them can kill him......"

Grandma had a trilling voice when she spoke, Song Feng hurriedly stretched out her arm and hugged her, now everything is very pale, reality is blocked in front of them, and they can't take a single step.

"Don't you tell him?" Song Feng's voice was hoarse.

"Don't tell him," Grandma wiped the corners of her eyes, probably coughing twice with unsteady breath, and it looked empty in the corridor, "What we can do is to accompany him during this time and send him away in peace......

Life and death are not always haunting in the heart, sometimes the heart is very calm, but at a certain moment, you clearly realize that he is about to be gone, and the pain of the heart will be overwhelming.

Song Feng choked up and couldn't speak.

"He's suffering right now...... When you finish suffering the sins and dry your body, it's time to leave......" Grandma looked up at the dim light in the corridor, her eyes were hazy with tears, she grabbed Song Feng's hand, "Xiaofeng, you have to pay attention to your body, grandma is most worried about you now, I'm afraid that you will be tired again......"

"I'm fine," Song Feng's eyes were red, his lips were tightly pursed into a line, and he tightened the arm holding his grandmother, "You must tell me if you feel unwell in the future, don't wait until this step." ”

"Grandma's health is good, don't worry." Grandma's thin body leaned on Song Feng's arms, and the figure of two people snuggling was reflected on the wall, "What's wrong with you and Dongdong?" ”

Song Feng's body paused slightly, and he looked at the floor with heavy eyes: "She went to Jiangcheng." ”

"Did you go by yourself?" Grandma looked at Song Feng in surprise.

"Hmm." Song Feng's voice was low.

Grandma was about to ask why she didn't go to the station to see her off, but just as she spoke, she choked on her lips, and after a while she sighed deeply: "Dongdong is a good girl, our family doesn't have this blessing......"

I often don't know where the mobile phone is these days, Song Feng touched his pocket and took out his mobile phone, and after the screen was unlocked, he still stayed on the page of the WeChat message box, but there was no news......

"I slept for a while in the middle of the night and now I'm not sleepy, you go and sleep again." Afraid that he would be sad if she talked too much, grandma got up and dragged Song Feng back to the ward.

The ward where they were located was relatively good, and the two patients next to them only hung intravenous drips here during the day, and went home at night, and Song Feng could lie down and sleep for a while.

The sky was covered with white fish belly, and the hospital gradually became noisy.

It may be that the painkillers have relieved a little, and the grandfather's mental state after waking up is better than yesterday, he tilted his head slightly, and saw Song Feng sleeping in the hospital bed next to him, and his wife lying in front of the hospital bed......

Grandpa didn't move, didn't make a sound, and wanted them to sleep more.

As soon as seven o'clock, Chen Hui arrived at the hospital, and he used to be a person who didn't get up before eleven o'clock, but now he wakes up naturally at six o'clock in the morning.

Chen Hui took the millet porridge and gently pushed open the door of the ward.

The subtle voice Song Feng still noticed it, he frowned and opened his eyes, and in a hazy way, he saw that his grandfather seemed to be awake, and he immediately sat up from the bed.

"When did you wake up?" Song Feng looked at him with a look in his eyes, not like he had just woken up.

"Just woke up for a while......" Grandpa said with a smile.

Hearing the movement, my grandmother also woke up.

"Did you sleep well last night?" Chen Hui came to the hospital bed, saw that his grandfather's feet were exposed, and covered him.

"It's good." Grandpa propped up his body and wanted to sit up by himself, but he couldn't.

Song Feng hurriedly went over to help him up, he should have slept for four or five hours last night, and he looked very good today: "Are you hungry?" ”

Grandma opened the curtains and opened the window slightly.

"Let's eat later." Grandpa sat up and looked out the window.

After eating, Chen Hui saw that his grandfather was in good spirits today, and he didn't know where to get a wheelchair, so while the weather was not too hot in the morning, Song Feng pushed him to the garden downstairs to relax.

It's been twenty days, and grandpa has barely gotten out of bed, and when he smells the fresh air again, his whole person is bright.

"Is it hot or not?" Grandma asked him.

"It's not hot." Grandpa looked around, and when he looked out of the ward, he could only see the building opposite, and he hadn't seen the outside for a long time.

"Let's go down for a walk tomorrow, and then pester Xiaofeng to go out to play when the day is better." Grandma smiled and wiped his face with a towel.

Song Feng didn't dare to stop downstairs for too long, for fear that his grandfather's body would become serious if he couldn't bear it.

But as soon as they returned to the ward, they saw a woman standing in front of the hospital bed, well-dressed and with a beautiful face, Song Feng stopped, and the hand on the wheelchair clenched uncontrollably, and there was a burst of blueness.

"Wanzhu is here......" Grandpa looked at the person in front of him and called out with a smile.

The woman was holding up her mobile phone to make a call, and when she heard the voice, she quickly turned around, and she walked over with a smile: "Dad, I'm about to call you." ”

Then, her eyes fell on Song Feng.

And Song Feng's eyes were always lowered, he didn't look at her, and pushed his grandfather to the hospital bed with an expressionless face, and carefully put him on the bed.

"I just went down and forgot to bring my phone." Grandma said.

"I've just been here for a short time." The woman wore an over-the-knee dress, three-centimeter high heels, and her hair was coiled behind her, revealing her ability in her gentleness.

Chen Hui stood aside and glanced at Boss Song, a little worried.

"Are you feeling better today?" Xu Wanzhu sat in front of the hospital bed and thoughtfully put the pillow behind his grandfather's back.

"It's much better, don't come from afar......" Grandpa said with a smile.

"I heard that you are sick, how can I rest assured." The worry in Xu Wanzhu's eyes was very real.

"It'll be fine in a few days, you can't do without people at home......" Seeing her, grandpa was obviously happy.

"I broke the cup yesterday, I'll go down and buy one, Wanzhu, you sit first, I'll come up for a while." Grandma said.

"Mom, I'll go, is there a hospital supermarket?" Xu Wanzhu helped her grandmother to the chair.

"If there is no supermarket, there should be a store opposite the hospital, Xiaofeng should accompany your mother." Grandma looked at Song Feng.

Xu Wanzhu turned around slowly, and the gaze that fell on Song Feng was a little complicated, expectant, self-blame, and fear......

Song Feng always stood against the wall, stopped for a long time and didn't look at her, and finally walked out of the ward by himself.

Xu Wanzhu hurriedly followed.

Walking out of the inpatient department, the two men did not go directly to the supermarket and sat down in a shaded place in the corridor.

Song Feng lit a cigarette.

"Don't smoke it, it's not good for your health." Xu Wanzhu sat beside Song Feng, ready to take off the cigarette in his hand.

Song Feng dodged and glanced at her impatiently.

Xu Wanzhu's hand froze instantly, and his eyes ...... It's cold, with an undisguised hatred, isn't it expected when you come? Why is it still sad.

After that, the two fell silent.

Song Feng didn't care about many things, including sometimes thinking of her at night, but he didn't feel much, but at this moment, he knew very well that he hated her.

In front of Grandpa's hospital bed, at this moment when everything is powerless.

He hated her, the woman who brought him into the world.

His father didn't marry when he was eight years old, and the next year, she remarried.

Song Feng was nine years old that year, and he remembered many things, and he also understood human feelings. Since then, Song Feng has become irritable, irritable, and rebellious and does not go home, and it is his grandmother who goes to him every day......

But it only lasted for two or three months, because he found out that she was not coming back, she already had another home, she had become a member of someone else's family.

After that, Song Feng stopped making trouble, studied hard, and became taciturn and gloomy.

Song Feng had her contact information and address, but he never called her once, nor did he go to her house...... Song Feng is quite ruthless, ruthless to others, and even more ruthless to himself.

"Isn't it growing taller again, I didn't feel so tall during the Chinese New Year." Xu Wanzhu had tears in the corners of her eyes, she knew that some things could not be made up, but she was a little overwhelmed by the alienation between her biological mother and son.

Song Feng didn't speak, he was so tired these days that he didn't want to say a word.

She would come to the house once a year, on the third day of the Lunar New Year.

In a sense, she is very good, she has grandparents in her heart, and she will call every New Year's holiday, even if the current family is unwilling, she will go to her father's grave to see it during the Qingming Festival......

It's just that she loves herself more.

If she had stayed in this home back then, the burden of raising children and supporting the elderly would have fallen on her alone, so she left all of this to Song Feng......

A nine-year-old child.

I don't know if it's smoked, Song Feng's eyes are so swollen that he can't open them......

If she hadn't left back then, he would have been able to study well.

In this world, there is no one who is not for herself, she is not wrong, so Song Feng is not so indignant, as long as he doesn't take her too seriously at first, he doesn't care who comes and who leaves.

Song Feng slowly stood up and extinguished the cigarette: "Let's stay in a hotel at night." ”

She didn't have the right to go into that home.

In the corridor of the hospital, Song Feng sat alone on the chair opposite the elevator, and he didn't want to go in with her.

Since eight o'clock in the evening, he can't help but look at his phone all the time, and it is ten o'clock now.

"I just called Brother Dong and said it."

I don't know if Chen Hui's footsteps are too soft, or if Song Feng is too focused on looking at his phone, Song Feng doesn't know when he sat next to him.

"Hmm." Song Feng replied in a low voice.

"Have you been in touch?" Chen Hui turned his head.

"Nope." Song Feng said.

"Let's give us a call." Chen Hui knew that he was more worried than anyone else.

Looking at the photo in the phone in a distraction, it was taken secretly by Song Feng when she was playing a game, and after watching it for a long time, as if she was about to immerse herself in it, Song Feng was about to put the phone away, and the phone rang......

Shu Dong.

Surprises, surprises, hesitations, struggles...... Song Feng was stunned.

"Pick it up!" Chen Hui watched anxiously from the side.

With a hunch that it was almost time for the last call, Song Feng slid lightly and connected.

On the other end of the "......" phone, Shu Dong's originally dim eyes suddenly lit up, she thought that she would hang up automatically as usual, but she didn't expect to be connected.

So suddenly she didn't even think about what to say.

On both ends of the phone, the two men were silent, listening quietly to each other's breathing for three thousand miles.

Chen Hui quietly walked away.

"Have you arrived?" Song Feng knew she had arrived.

"Arrived, in the guest house." Shu Dong got out of the car and someone came to pick her up, it was the police in Jiangcheng, and then arranged her here.

She thought that she would be very nervous to come here, facing an unknown family and results, but she found that all her thoughts were left in Tsurucheng.

"I'm going to do the appraisal tomorrow and some other procedures." Shu Dong tried to find some topics, wanted to listen to his voice, wanted to hear him speak.

"Well, pay attention to safety, call ...... if you have something" Song Feng paused, his throat seemed to be stuck, "If you have something, ask the police for help in time." ”

Some habitual words will have to be slowly changed in the future, Jiang Cheng is too far away, he is not by her side, there is no way to see her downstairs as soon as he looks down, and there is no way to fight for her when he is unhappy......

"Is Grandpa feeling better?" Not wanting to hear him push her away again, Shu Dong pursed his lips tightly to keep his voice from trembling.

"Much better."

After asking and answering, the atmosphere was not harmonious, and they fell silent again, but no one hung up the phone while listening to each other's breathing.

"Rest early, there's business to do tomorrow." Finally, it was Song Feng who said it first.

On the other end of the phone, Shu Dong's eyes were red, and he didn't understand why he suddenly became so decisive?

"Song Feng." Shu Dong had a gentle and sour nasal voice.

"Huh?"

"I miss you."

The gentle evening breeze whistled from three thousand miles away, Song Feng held the phone with more and more strength, and his Adam's apple couldn't help scrolling up and down, but there was only a hung up silence left in the phone, and he raised his sour eyes......

It turns out that I miss you, and it's also a goodbye.