Ji Weiliang leaned back in the chair, and the cat in her arms also looked at her with a pair of vertical pupils, "Look at ***? He thought too much about himself, and I didn't do anything."

The cat meowed, lowered its head and licked its fur, but the look was a little strange.

"I tell you, don't look at me with such eyes, people like me, memory is like a USB, everyone comes to wash my memory, how can I have the slightest affection for such a person." Ji Weiliang rubbed the cat's head vigorously, "For people like me, the last thing I need is feelings."

This world is so ridiculous, when a person needs affection the most, he can't get affection, but when she doesn't care, what she wants will appear around her.

Ji Weiliang took the cat into his arms, "I once had a friend whose cats and dogs ate better than me, but I was still distressed and worried about her, which is not ridiculous, and later proved that every time I really needed someone to pay for help, it was my other friend who paid for it, and she would ask me to borrow money instead."

Do you understand?

The more people who have more, the more unwilling they are to lose, and the same is true in the relationship, the more people who have, the more reluctant they are to give their feelings, and the easier it is to look down on the feelings that others give with all their might.

In my relationship, I have nothing for a long time, ruminating the painful and ugly life again and again, forgetting and remembering again and again, I have to see through, I have to see through, otherwise I can't live at all......

You see, he's the male protagonist, he will be favored by the world no matter what, from the first time I saw him in Yuezhou, what he wanted, I was good, and everyone else would be sent to him, and the sky green wood staff was given to him, and half of my life was given to him.

I even saw him as someone I could be with for the rest of my life.

It's like a rabbit that wants to be with a tiger for the rest of its life.

However, rabbits can smell their own blood relatives in the feces of predators...... I'm finally sober.

I am nothing more than an insignificant backdrop, I am just an embellishment, a tool, a stepping stone for someone else's legendary life.

is like an embroidery girl, obviously the splendid beauty in that room is my hard work, but I am not qualified to have even a single silk thread, I was erased in the plot......

People can have dreams, but they can't be delusional, and the difference is whether they can do it themselves.

I can't have both and want, I have to rebel against the plot, I have to have everything, and I have to wait for someone to give it away, and I don't want to give anything - I'm not the heroine, I can believe, and the only one I can rely on is myself.

You don't have to worry that I'll be shaken, I can like anyone, except for the male protagonist, I invaded his memories and dreams, and I didn't want to get his love."

"Meow~" The cat barked, arching Ji Ji's slightly cool chest, dependent and soft.

"In the future, you will take these to integrate into his dreams, I naturally have to make a promise to you, you want to protect the Demon Realm, I want to protect Yuezhou, we are all the same people, I can promise you, I will never break my promise, I will definitely try my best to prevent the male and female protagonists from destroying the world!"

"Meow~" Another cat meowed, and the beautiful tortoiseshell cat lay in Ji Weiliang's arms.

"Now I have the advantage that I know more than he does, and we can weave what he thinks is his life, so that you can slowly integrate it into his heart." Ji Weiliang's cheeks were pressed against the cat's fur, "I want to integrate my attitude and methods into his subconscious little by little, even if I still lose to the plot at that time, he will be our backhand!"

The gray spiritual power is burning, it is useless to say anything, Ji Weiliang is originally a madman.

In Ling Jinxi's dream, he completed all the training step by step, he knew very well what he was doing, he enjoyed sports, he completed tasks, he earned money, he plundered love, he trampled on arrogance.

Such a young man is like a silent rhinoceros, he is the abyss - people who can resolve to end love and hate cannot be ordinary people at all.

He hadn't been able to contact Ji Weiliang for two months, and in his opinion, this was her rejection again.

In fact, Ling Jinxi is a very realistic person, and he is also sad for a while, but he has his own goals, he is too busy, and he is even too busy to be sad.

It doesn't matter if it ends like this, those impulsive, just happen to like the snow, happen to like the gust of wind, and happen to meet.

If you don't think about it, you won't think about it, and if you think about it, you will keep recalling.

It was only now that Ling Jinxi thought of calling lawyer Wang Defa.

"Xiaoxi, that matter has already ended, don't worry."

"What about the person who beat her? How many years have you been sentenced?" Ling Jinxi was a little panicked.

"Her father didn't care, so he lost three thousand in this matter."

"Three Thousand ......" At that moment, Ling Jinxi's heart ached, "Do you know? She's more than three thousand!"

"Xiaoxi, that's what her family meant...... Am I not following her family?" Lawyer Wang Defa began to shirk.

"Did you ask her?"

「…… She was sick and didn't talk to anyone, I had to listen to her family."

"What's wrong with her?"

「……」

Ling Jinxi took a deep breath, and he waited for Wang De to send a reply.

The next moment, a beep sounded.

Ling Jinxi didn't hesitate and called Jiang Mingming.

"Sister, do you have any news about Ji Weiliang?"

"Ji Weiliang? Who?" Jiang Mingming has forgotten the woman who helped her, Jiang Mingming has a lot of money, some are people who please her, both men and women, what is Ji Weiliang?

Ling Jinxi didn't speak.

Jiang Mingming said that Ji Weiliang was very special before, and the so-called special was nothing more than that.

It turns out that people's hearts are so cold.

Thinking of this, Ling Jinxi smiled, there were many things he didn't understand, but there was no need to understand.

A smart person doesn't make himself too smart.

A sensible person will not be willing to be too sensible.

Letting yourself see through is cruel to yourself, that kind of person is the weak who will not protect themselves, because they need to understand the rules of others.

And Ling Jinxi has his own rules, he knows how to control his own world.

Ling Jinxi put away his phone, he still has training, he still has a lot to do.

The coach stood aside and looked at Ling Jinxi, looking at the lonely shadow that kept wandering on the training ground, and felt the change again.

"Xi, your basic skills have always been very good." The coach smiled, "But I know your grades won't be too good."

Ling Jinxi gasped slightly, he just looked at the coach and waited for the coach to continue.

"Because you don't have a strong desire to win, you don't have the heart to believe that you are a champion, and you don't always challenge your limits, you always do what you are sure of." The coach narrowed his eyes slightly, "Your personality is not in line with the true spirit of sportsmanship."

Ling Jinxi smiled, still not speaking.

"Your talent allows you to keep going, but competitive sports require more things, and now, you seem to have touched a little bit." The coach concluded, "Perhaps, you don't feel it yourself, but I want you to stay like this, with anger, and go and plunder the arena, plunder the victory and glory."

Ling Jinxi still didn't speak, just said goodbye and left as before.

Many people think that if they have depression, they will only sleep and be in a daze, but when Ji Weiliang got sick, she found that it was not like that.

Everyone has depression, and as for depression, it should last at least three days.

Zhang Yang sat aside and watched Ji Weiliang take notes, "What are you doing? Do you want to be a psychiatrist?"

Yes, Ji Weiliang engaged in a lot of psychology-related electronic materials, and then bought a stack of notebooks to record his condition and emotional changes by himself every day.

"I don't think my personality is going to get depressed." Ji Weiliang stopped writing, "I actually figured out everything."

"Neuropathy doesn't admit to having neuropathy." Zhang Yang rolled his eyes, "The doctor said that accepting his condition is the first step to recovery."

"I know that I am understanding myself, I am accepting myself, and I am taking my medicine on time." season

Wei Liang's tolerance is not so bad, "I started a QQ group."

"You're crazy!" Zhang Yang scolded angrily, "Have you forgotten how you got sick? Would you like to do it again? Have you ever thought that if you engage in a group of patients, mourn every day, and one crooked person wants to die, then you can affect a group of people, what do you want to do?"

"I just don't want others to go through what I've been through." Ji Weiliang put down the pen, "It's not shameful to be sick, people's bodies can be injured, why should the spirit be indestructible?"

"It's really not your fault that you're sick, but it's all your fault in the end." Zhang Yang sighed, "You don't need money for treatment? It doesn't take time to take care of you? In all fairness, who else can do this to you but me? Even if it's a blood relative, there are a few who can put up with you like me."

"So I'm lucky." Of course, Ji Weiliang knew that Zhang Yang was good, she spent almost all her savings to see a doctor, and Ji Weiliang, who did not want to be hospitalized and had no money to be hospitalized, could only sleep on the streets if it weren't for Zhang Yang's help.

And then what?

Ji Weiliang exhaled a breath of turbidity, "I'm going to see all beings."

「？」

"I want to make sure that I really understand the world I've lived in."

"You live your life first, and don't look at what you are like now!" Zhang Yang turned his face away in disgust.

"I've decided."

"Then you just do it." Zhang Yang is always like this, after getting angry, she will still connive at Ji Weiliang, "Don't do any public accounts, it's too troublesome, you will be irritable, I'll help you register a Wenbo account."

Soon, Ji Weiliang received the first privacy.

"Mo-chan, have you ever been bullied at school?"

Ji Weiliang thought about it, there really was, so he honestly admitted, "Yes, elementary school is often chased and beaten by boys."

"And do you hate them?"

Of course hate, no one likes someone who bullies them.

"Has Mo-chan ever been bullied by a girl?"

"Yes." Ji Weiliang was bullied in junior high school, to be honest, the kind of bullying of girls makes people even more uncomfortable, those who whisper and laugh out loud, and those who toss people's careful thoughts, are endless.

"So, Mo-chan, how did you do that?"

"To be clear, I don't like it." Ji Weiliang knows very well that the so-called school also has a class, a first-class school, no one has time to engage in those tricks, and even if there is, it will be quickly curbed.

"I said it...... But it doesn't seem to work."

"Then make it for them to see." Ji Weiliang frowned slightly, "If you can resist, do what you should do."

「……」

There is no doubt that Ji Weiliang is a person who will not comfort others, she is actually very sensitive to other people's emotions, and such sensitivity comes from her weakness.

It's just a small problem, Ji Weiliang clearly understands that he is not suitable for these things.

Sister Bosom will never be like her.

Ji Weiliang sighed, "Alas, sure enough, you shouldn't have told Zhang Yang first, you will definitely be laughed at by her when the time comes."

Rubbing his face, Ji Weiliang began to think about what he should do.

After a serious illness, she became less interested in money and less interested in people.

Just when Ji Weiliang was thinking about it, Ling Jinxi also made a decision.

He flipped through the things that Ji Weiliang had written before, and then checked Ji Weiliang's QQ number, and added her with the mentality of giving it a try.

After a moment's hesitation, Ling Jinxi asked, "Madam, I'm your reader."

To Ling Jinxi's surprise, Ji Weiliang replied quickly, "But I haven't written for a long time."

"That's a shame."

"I'm sorry."

Ling Jinxi looked at the word sorry, and for some reason, she was suddenly stunned, "Do you always apologize to people so often?"

「？」

"I mean, you don't have to feel sorry, you're not wrong." Ling Jinxi was a little excited, and the keyboard was tapping loudly.

"But after all, I failed to live up to your expectations, and I didn't either

I thought about it, and what was written frivolously by my youth, some people still remember." Ji Weiliang replied with a slight smile.

"I heard that you are sick, are you okay now?" Ling Jinxi asked cautiously.

"Not really, but I should say it's okay."

"Is there anything I can do then?"

「……」

Ling Jinxi also knew that he had overstepped, and Ji Weiliang might delete himself in the next moment.

"Be happy." Ji Weiliang typed down the characters, "The people around me are happy, and I will feel happy."

"Actually, I don't know what happiness looks like." Ling Jinxi still wanted to tell her, or rather, Ling Jinxi always hoped that she could understand him.

Ji Weiliang pouted with some disgust, she actually doesn't like negative energy things, she doesn't like people with negative energy, even if she herself is full of negative energy, but she still likes the sun.

"Why do you think that?" Ji Weiliang is perfunctory in his heart, but he will still pretend.

"I guess it's because I don't think anything makes enough sense." I don't know when it began, Ling Jinxi felt that the world was becoming more and more alienated from herself.

"You are the meaning." Ji Weiliang said it as a matter of course, "If you like it, you like it, if you hate it, you hate it, if you want it, you chase it, and if you don't want it, you will discard it decisively."

"It's so free." Ling Jinxi was a little surprised, her worldview was so simple and rude, like the rays of the sun, unobstructed.

"What if it weren't? Perfunctory to others, perfunctory to yourself, a waste of time, a waste of feelings?" Ji Weiliang scoffed at this.

"There are a lot of things that can't be said all at once." Ling Jinxi hesitated for a moment, "I like someone, probably, I like it."

"And then?"

"She doesn't seem to like me."

"Oh." Ji Weiliang also had a crush, "I used to have a crush too."

"So how do you do it?" Ling Jinxi was curious.

"I'm an Aries, I like someone, it's a blatant crush, everyone knows it except myself, it's a shame." Ji Weiliang admitted that he is the kind of person who has no way to disguise his feelings at all, likes and dislikes, pretending for three days at most.

"I think I was rejected." Ling Jinxi was very disappointed, he had never seen Ji Weiliang's warm appearance towards people, presumably she didn't like it.

"Hahaha, so this is also a very beautiful thing, perfect things, there is no such thing, and it is beautiful to have regrets." Ji Weiliang thought very openly, she did a lot of stupid things, every time she got sick, those embarrassing, embarrassing, painful and tangled past would loop indefinitely, if she couldn't see it, it was estimated that she would not be able to stand it for a long time.

"What the hell are you ......" Ling Jinxi still wanted to ask.

"You're trying to ask me what's wrong, aren't you?" Ji Weiliang did not shy away from his condition, "I used to say that it was hypothesis, but now I say it is depression, but I don't think I am, the latest examination is severe depression and moderate bipolar disorder."

"It's hard, isn't it?" Ling Jinxi actually doesn't understand what mental illness is.

"For chronic diseases, take medicine on time, and it's the same as normal people." Ji Weiliang said with a big grin, "Just like controlling blood pressure and blood sugar, mental illness is just about controlling hormones in the body."

"You're so optimistic." Ling Jinxi smiled slightly, he was sure, this was what he liked.

"Do you know what reality points to?" Ji Weiliang began to pretend to be X again, "The so-called reality orientation is that everything is based on realistic conditions, I am sick, this is reality, and all plans that ignore this realistic conditions are all castles in the air."

"Understood." Ling Jinxi couldn't keep up with Ji Weiliang.

"In fact, true self-control is an emotional cost from beginning to end, but as a human being, how can we endure? How can you endure all the time?" Ji Weiliang was a little excited, this is bipolar disorder, he will be depressed, he will be excited, and his emotions will be like riding a roller coaster, "I am actually very painful when I lose control of my emotions."

Ling Jinxi looked at Ji Weiliang's reply on this side, and hurriedly used his mobile phone to check bipolar disorder on the other side, "It is said that Churchill is a typical bipolar

handicap, many geniuses have this disease."

"So the British don't thank Churchill, he took LinkedIn through those five years, and then died alone in slander." Ji Weiliang was suddenly very emotional, "But his painstaking and stubborn resistance is to let his people retain the right to choose, even if the people choose to abandon him in the end."

"He was Britain's finest statesman, historian, painter, orator, writer, journalist, and one of the greatest Englishmen recognized by the British." Ling Jinxi's knowledge only kept him from not knowing Churchill, and he regretted a little why he mentioned this controversial old man.

"Yes, if you have fulfilled each other, there will be nothing to worry about." Ji Weiliang smiled, "Isn't it the same between people? There's love and hate there."

"Hmm." Ling Jinxi didn't know how to answer for a while, in fact, he wasn't very good at chatting, but he still wanted to talk to her, saying anything, "By the way, you said that you are an Aries, are Aries as free and easy as you?"

"What kind of zodiac sign are you?" Ji Weiliang was a little uninterested, what he said was so stupid, they are all from the same country, are they all the same personality and cultural level?

"Scorpio."

"The most unworthy zodiac sign with Aries, it is said that Aries died at the hands of Scorpio."

"Why do you say that?" Ling Jinxi didn't understand.

"Because the scorpio is stuffy, and the Aries is cold when it is cold, although they attract each other, they cannot last long." Ji Weiliang was ready to part, and at the beginning of the meeting, he began to prepare for a good farewell.

"Obviously attracted to each other, why can't it last long? Don't you like Scorpio?" Ling Jinxi knew that he was stupid like this, this was something he had never cared about in the past, but he was anxious to ask now.

"Me? I don't care if I like it or not." Ji Weiliang said calmly, "Because Scorpio and Aries are both Mars guardians, Scorpio is feminine, Aries is masculine, and they have common shortcomings, ego."

"Maybe I can try to be less egotistical." Ling Jinxi was entangled.

"Then there is no charm, for Aries, the sense of conquest and being tamed is the most interesting thing in love." Ji Weiliang smiled, "The person you like is also an Aries? Then you have to learn to seduce, learn to indulge when the time is right, and absolutely suppress when you should suppress."

"I'll study hard." Ling Jinxi was sure.

"I don't believe it." Ji Weiliang is also very sure.

"Liking is a feeling, that feeling is very fragile and easy to change, like I said, no one can endure it all the time," Ji Weiliang sighed with some emotion, "Pretending to love and being loved, in the end, you have to tear off the disguise in the end, so that you can last a lifetime, there is no need to exhaust each other."

"What about your true self and not being loved?" When Ling Jinxi typed that word, he felt very ashamed, love, it seemed to be a shameful word for him.

"That's fine, don't waste your time." Ji Weiliang said bluntly, "Of course, everyone wants different things, you don't have to care too much about my words, that's just my opinion."

"Thank you." Ling Jinxi is very serious, he really likes that kind of complete truth, so real that it is almost ugly, but it is reassuring.

"Just kidding, in this world, it's hard to have someone who is worthy of your truth, people always have to perform, it's no shame."

"I still want to try, maybe she'll like me." Ling Jinxi has been looking for her for more than a month, from being rejected on the phone at the beginning, to directly becoming an empty number, he stopped his torture, he thought about giving up, and he also planned to end here.

But now, he knew that she was sick, and he was still worried, and he couldn't tell the difference between liking, love, and pity.

But he remembered her words, the world is his, and he wants to fulfill his own world.

The gray light slowly melted into the cat's body, Ji Weiliang was covered in cold sweat, she gritted her teeth, and didn't let herself bite her tongue because of trembling.

The cat neighed violently, and then disappeared little by little in Ji Weiliang's arms.

In this game, the odds are already there, and you can consider preparing for the battlefield.