"What's it called...... Social fear, yes, social fear, now many people say that they are social fear, it's not a big deal. ”

Ren Xuxing comforted her: "Yingying, no one is perfect, everyone will have good and bad; What's more, there is no good or bad personality, is it true that introverts will never be as good as cheerful and introverts? It's just a ridiculous thing. ”

"Introverted?" Yu Yingying walked slowly, "Actually, a few years ago, I would still be a very lively and active girl in my family. ”

"And now?"

"And now, too. My mother told people that I had a big heart and a cheerful heart since I was a child, and she never had to worry much about me. ”

Ren Xu Xing remembered the things he had heard in junior high school, and looked at Yu Yingying's eyes with more compassion.

"But you're not, aren't you?"

"Perhaps, I don't know what kind of person I am. Occasionally, I feel that there is nothing in this world that can be difficult for me, and occasionally I feel that everything is against me. Isn't it a little abnormal for you to think I'm like this? ”

"No, that's normal. I do that a lot. ”

For some reason, Yu Yingying didn't say anything more, and was silent like someone from another world.

"Ren Xuxing, how is the relationship between your parents going?"

Ren Xu Xing was stunned for a moment, and then he knew that Yu Yingying remembered the sad things in the past.

"It's okay, but ordinary couples always quarrel with each other."

"I used to feel upset and irritable when I heard them arguing, and when they fought, I really wanted to stand in the middle of them and let them beat me to death first."

Ren Xu Xing's eyes widened, and there was a sudden cramp in his heart.

"Yingying, it's okay, there will always be a day when it gets better."

"But what if there's no chance of getting better?"

"Even then, it's not your problem. You're now in your second year of high school, and if you stay up for another two years, you can go outside and study, and come back twice a year. When the time comes, if they can't think of what you think, where will they have the opportunity to quarrel? ”

Ren Xu Xing touched Yu Yingying's head and helped her tie the scarf tighter.

In the late autumn in the north, the heating has come in the classroom, but it is still cold in the morning and evening, and the ears of people who are still cold have a sore ear.

Yu Yingying watched Ren Xu Xing's hand flexibly knot under his eyes, and the cold wind pouring down his neck was instantly blocked.

Her heart was hot, and her eyes were red.

"Yingying, what are you crying about? Is there something wrong with you? ”

Yu Yingying's tears were menacing, and they quickly flooded her eyes.

Ren Xu Xing panicked, and hurriedly took out a tissue from his pocket to gently wipe her tears for her.

"Yingying...... Welcome ......"

Ren Xuxing kept asking her why she was crying, but she gritted her teeth and refused to say a word.

She cried silently, even though it was just the two of them, her lips closed and her chest rose and fell.

"If you want to cry, cry out, I'm the only one here, and no one will see it."

He was really distressed to look at, and wanted to hold her in his arms but didn't have the guts.

Yu Yingying seemed to see through his thoughts, or maybe she was so sad that she forgot what she didn't have, and she opened her arms around Ren Xuxing's waist.

Her head was buried in Ren Xuxing's chest, and there was a rapid heartbeat in her ears.

Ren Xu Xing...... I don't have a chance to listen to them quarrel anymore......"

"What do you mean? They...... Divorced? ”

Ren Xu Xing immediately hugged her, and his fingertips rubbed her back.

"Not ......"

Yu Yingying finally cried.

"I don't have a dad anymore, he ...... He's dead......"

At this time last year, he had been gone for nearly four or five months, and Yu Yingying still didn't feel anything special, but the more she went on, the more the sense of loss in her heart became deeper and deeper.

It wasn't until last night that she had seen the man she didn't want to talk about in her dreams for the first time.

The dream scene still happened in the rental house where they used to live, and he still ran a renovation shop downstairs that didn't do very well.

She walked on the empty street with her schoolbag on her back, and everything around her was so illusory, but she felt that she still lived here.

Yu Yingying saw him sitting in the store from a distance, without yellow pupils and swollen legs, just sitting there as peacefully as he had been a long, long time ago.

In the dream, she seemed to forget the fact that he was no longer there, and they sat together and talked a lot.

"Yingying, are you having a good time now?"

"Yingying, when you find a boyfriend in the future, you must tell me as soon as possible, and Dad will check for you."

"Yingying, is your mother's temper a little better now, it was all my fault before, can you help me apologize to her."

"Yingying...... Yingying, you remember to get married later in the future, so that you can stay with your mother for two more years. ”

At the end of the dream, she stood alone in the store, running around and not being able to find him.

She kept running, shuttling through all the places she had been with him, shouting as she went, knowing that she had woken up from her dreams when she had finally come back to the store.

When Yu Yingying woke up, his chest was panting like a stone, his pillow had been soaked a lot, and his heart was empty.

At that time, she suddenly realized that the person who had given her life had only existed for more than ten years in her long life. And in the long years to come, she will meet many people, but she will never have him again.

He had disappeared from her life forever, as she had hoped.

"Welcoming ......"

A deep voice came from overhead, a response from Ren Xuxing's pity.

"It's okay, everything will be fine. He has now been given a new lease of life and is living happily in places you can't see. ”

Yu Yingying's cry was much quieter, turning into an intermittent chok, and she suddenly raised her hand to a forest not far away.

"He's buried there, and I know he's been watching me all the time, so I used to feel very little scared when I came home alone."

"I'm obviously a very timid person, but every time I walk home alone at night, I feel that someone is protecting me."

"Ren Xuxing, you say, has he always been by my side and never left?"