Picked it up, but she was a little hesitant, she didn't have the courage to open the bag, she didn't even know what was inside, she didn't know what those cases would have written, but she just subconsciously felt scared.

She was suddenly afraid to know the truth, suddenly afraid of why Yuan Yanqi left, afraid to know how he felt before leaving.

If Yuan Yanqi told her again and again that not to leave her was a kind of asking for help, then what Jiang Miao gave him every time was the determination to leave.

She now thinks back to every time she was about to leave Yuan Yanqi, the sadness in the corners of Yuan Yanqi's eyes seemed to become clearer and clearer.

After taking a big breath, she still opened the file bag, it was a very thick medical record book, Jiang Miao turned over it page by page, and there were even some words she didn't recognize, and even some words she didn't know what they meant in medicine.

But she can still feel the hardships of Yuan Yanqi's process from the words she can see clearly, and she can feel the despair in his heart at that time.

Maybe Ah Feng is right, she may still not love Yuan Yanqi enough, at least, she can't make Yuan Yanqi feel this love, Yuan Yanqi wants to show Jiang Miao the most unbearable side of herself, but she is afraid that Jiang Miao will give up on him more quickly and completely after seeing that side, this is insecure.

Yuan Yanqi is very strong, but he really has no sense of security, he can't get a sense of security in Jiang Miao, but he loves her desperately.

Yuan Yanqi resolutely married Jiang Miao when he knew that the relationship between them was extremely unequal, and he knew that he loved Jiang Miao more deeply than Jiang Miao.

Maybe Yuan Yanqi is really ready, ready to indulge Jiang Miao for the rest of his life, and to pamper her as a child, and he doesn't care that Jiang Miao loves less than himself.

Yuan Yanqi was ready to do that, but the changes that happened in the body and the uncontrollable emotions in the psychology made them fall into an impasse and changed all the original intentions of Yuan Yanqi.

His uncontrollable changes later made him even lose the opportunity to pamper Jiang Miao for a lifetime.

Jiang Miao was able to piece together everything that happened to Yuan Yanqi one after another, Yuan Yanqi had a strong possessiveness of her from the beginning, treating her as a private property, trying all kinds of ways, exhausting all means, and even thinking of all the ways out, the purpose was to let Jiang Miao stay by his side as he wished.

So Yuan Yanqi's methods of controlling the strong to the point of perversion, Jiang Miao couldn't defend him, she just didn't know that at that time, when Yuan Yanqi was thinking about those things, he was thinking with a normal mind, or if he had been slightly affected.

Maybe he was born with more paranoia, but he disguised himself well, but it was precisely because he knew his paranoia that he would cover himself up, he knew that his paranoia was not quite in line with the world, and he also knew that his paranoia might have some problems.

A person must know that there is something wrong with his true self before he wears that perfect and invulnerable mask.

What really made him admit that there was something wrong with him was the Chinese New Year, when he hallucinated for the first time in the orphanage and saw his childhood friend.

It was a deep blow to him who was materialistic.

Since then, it has always been a state of coexistence, Yuan Yanqi doesn't believe in evil, and the existence of those things can't really hurt him, so Yuan Yanqi will just talk to a psychiatrist every other time, which is a kind of confiding, and he hasn't really done too much treatment.

Yuan Yanqi has always believed that he can win and overcome.

He never thought that fantasy could defeat reality, but later, he still collapsed.

Because later, he began to inquire about his origins, and after he learned about his origins, he learned the story between his parents.

He suddenly realized that willpower is empty in many cases, and no matter how strong you are, you can't defeat it.

At that time, Yuan Yanqi's heart fluctuated, and then Jiang Miao's disappearance made him suddenly aggravate all his symptoms.

His hallucinations began to become more frequent and varied, as if someone had stuffed something into his mind

Resisting things, he will be led away by strange emotions, he feels that he is no longer himself.

He felt that he was becoming more and more alien, and often even felt that he no longer belonged to the world.

He can continue to love Jiang Miao, continue to work, and continue to be an impeccable good man in that situation.

All the painful hallucinations, as well as all the side effects brought by the drug, Yuan Yanqi did not change his face and bear it together.

All along, it was Jiang Miao who kept him sane, Jiang Miao liked the original Yanqi, so he has been trying to maintain the original Yanqi, and has been trying to resist in his heart, not wanting the familiar Yuanyanqi to disappear completely.

To a certain extent, Jiang Miao is indeed his salvation, or he regards Jiang Miao as his salvation, but Jiang Miao has not fulfilled the obligation of redemption, many times, when Yuan Yanqi stretched out her hand for help, she pushed that hand away.

She pushed away Yuan Yanqi, who may have made countless determinations, and may have mustered up the courage to stretch out his hand to her.

When Yuan Yanqi begged her again and again not to leave, Jiang Miao was a little soft, a little weak to him, and even if she nodded with a clear conscience and said that she would not leave, it may be a great salvation for Yuan Yanqi at that time. But Jiang Miao didn't say anything, if she said or did something, it must be expressing her determination to leave.

No wonder Yuan Yanqi will be scared and can't say his true thoughts and distress information, because he can't get Jiang Miao's feedback, because all the feedback Jiang Miao gave him was resistance.

Before he completely cut himself open, Jiang Miao had already shown full resistance, and if he showed all his unbearability, in exchange for Jiang Miao's greater resistance.

Yuan Yanqi didn't say anything, he was just afraid that he would be given up, he struggled by himself, redeemed himself, and wanted to give Jiang Miao a Yuan Yanqi he knew and liked.

Even if Jiang Miao didn't stretch out his hand to pull him, he still hoped that he could find the familiar and perfect Yuan Yanqi back to Jiang Miao, so that they could really continue to walk together.

He really, really hopes to go back to the past, and really, really hopes that he and Jiang Miao can have a result.

But the result was not as he wished, everything became more and more intense, and the road became more and more deviant, and in the end there was no turning back.