Chapter 289: Hindsight
Even if Jiang Miao really didn't do anything, just staying by his side, it was also a way of redemption for Yuan Yanqi, but Jiang Miao had to leave, she had to force Yuan Yanqi to tear apart her false self, and she had to force Yuan Yanqi to be stimulated and hurt her uncontrollably.
Perhaps it was precisely because he realized that he was uncontrollable and realized that he might hurt Jiang Miao, so Yuan Yanqi finally chose to let go of Jiang Miao and then sink himself.
Because between her and Jiang Miao, there is destined to be a person who will not be good, if he has to pull Jiang Miao to save him, Jiang Miao may be hurt and scarred, on the contrary, if he lets go of Jiang Miao, maybe Jiang Miao will have a better future, and he is the only one who goes to hell.
He may suddenly wake up at the end of the day that if he has to go to hell, there is really no need to pull the person he loves the most.
When he still had extravagant hopes, he hoped that his lover would accompany him, and when he was completely disappointed and felt that he couldn't get better, he resolutely let go of the hand that was holding his lover to hell.
Maybe Yuan Yanqi is really not a good person, maybe all the wrong things Yuan Yanqi has done are worthy of spitting, but no matter what, at the last moment, he let go, he gave the person he loves the most a way to live, this may be his last way to express his love.
But when he gave up Jiang Miao, it also meant that he gave up on himself.
He let go of his only salvation, and then he no longer had any straw to grasp, as if there was no room for struggle.
Without Jiang Miao, who he is, what will be the result, and how crazy he will become, it seems that there is no point anymore.
Yuan Yanqi has always felt that he is attracted by a whirlpool, which is a completely strange world that makes him extremely excited, colorful and imaginative, has been attracting him to go inside, but he clearly understands that once he enters, he may never come back.
He didn't enter because all the attractions in it still couldn't withstand the old age with Jiang Miao, Jiang Miao was on this side of the world, so he wanted to stay on Jiang Miao's side.
It's a pity that when he was trying to pull Jiang Miao and hoping that Jiang Miao could pull him back to reality with a little force, Jiang Miao didn't use force, but tried to let go of his hand again and again, trying to escape from him.
Yuan Yanqi refused to let go, but he had already been pulled into that opening, if he didn't let go, the black hole would sweep him and his lover away, so Yuan Yanqi let go and returned Jiang Miao to her normal world.
In fact, now Jiang Miao knows everything, and he can't drag anything for Yuan Yanqi, Yuan Yanqi's fault is still wrong, and all the hurtful things he has done still exist.
It's just that now that she knows the truth, Jiang Miao is only sure of one thing, that is, Yuan Yanqi actually really loves her, and she loves her very much.
By now, there is no right or wrong, this way really has to distinguish between right and wrong, there is really no way to tell, and it is impossible to say who owes more to whom, now it is purely a matter of love and non-love.
Whether Jiang Miao loves Yuan Yanqi or not, whether her love can forgive Yuan Yanqi for all the mistakes she made when she was either sober or not, whether her love can bear the transformation of Yuan Yanqi, and whether she really has the courage to accompany Yuan Yanqi through a very long and difficult process, and the result is unknown.
Jiang Miao felt that her reaction was a little sluggish, whether it was happy or sad, it seemed very slow.
At the beginning, Yuan Yanqi finally let go of her hand and gave her freedom, which was what she wanted with all her heart.
When she was by Yuan Yanqi's side, she wanted to escape, and then Yuan Yanqi fulfilled her, she didn't feel very happy, or didn't have time to be happy, and then she fell into the truth that Yuan Yanqi was all hiding.
Knowing these truths, she doesn't seem to know how to express her sadness, she doesn't even know if she is sad or not, but her heart is empty.
After Yuan Yanqi left, the old mansion has always seemed empty, and Jiang Miao's heart has always been empty, she doesn't seem to have digested it, and she doesn't fully understand what she is thinking in her heart.
She's even
didn't really react, they divorced, what did it mean for Yuan Yanqi to disappear.
It means that she may never see Yuan Yanqi again, and what it feels like to never see Yuan Yanqi again, Jiang Miao has not reacted yet, because now is not the future, and now is just a few days after Yuan Yanqi disappeared.
I haven't seen you for a few days, but there are some things that are stamina, and you need to slowly feel it in time.
Jiang Miao has been looking for an answer, looking for Yuan Yanqi's deception and concealment, and she hates Yuan Yanqi's non-confession.
But now that all the truth was presented before her eyes, she found that she was completely powerless to know what to do.
In fact, maybe Yuan Yanqi himself also knows, Jiang Miao knows these things and can't do anything, in fact, what Jiang Miao really wants to do is very simple, really simple, it is love, don't care, don't ask, don't doubt, she just loves Yuan Yanqi with all her heart.
That Hara Yanqi can defeat all the monsters in her love.
As Yuan Yanqi's former wife, she didn't even have the most basic love, just love.
Jiang Miao was indeed very late to realize that she only felt the real parting after Yuan Yanqi had been away for more than a month.
The previous feelings have been very vague, in the rest of the life after finally getting rid of the original Yanqi, on the road of pursuing what the original Yanqi deceived her, and then I felt that the original Yanqi was a long difference, just a short disappearance.
It wasn't until Yuan Yanqi disappeared for more than a month that the feeling that this person was really gone slowly became clearer, and finally knew that he was not leaving for a short time, and he would not come back.
Jiang Miao's free days were not as comfortable and happy as she wished.
There were many times when she would think of Yuan Yanqi, and what would have been like if Yuan Yanqi was still there.
Jiang Miao's days have become busy and thin, her itinerary has become very simple, only work and home, occasionally she will go to see Yuan Yanqi's mother, and she can also learn that Yuan Yanqi did not just cut off contact with her, Yuan Yanqi really put everyone down.
Jiang Miao actually thinks many times, if Yuan Yanqi has really given up on himself completely, then he really can't think about it? Jiang Miao would think more and more often of the time when Yuan Yanqi was holding the medicine bottle, at that time she only saw the cruelty and horror in his eyes, and the despair that she ignored was slowly and clearly emerging now.