You dream again, that strange dream.

Time, time.

You slow down, don't rush to go.

I can dance for you on the grass at night.

I will write a poem for you.

Stop and take a look.

There is a boy who sings softly for you.

Stop and take a look.

There was a boy who was secretly crying.

The neon of the night, flashing with colorful light and shadow, the pedestrians on the street are also in twos and threes, the hot summer day, to this night there are finally a few wisps of cool breeze passing my ears, I look at the reflection on the car window, familiar and unfamiliar, I put two fingers holding the cigarette out of the window, the ash was forcibly ripped away by the wind, watching it slowly burn out, the rows of street lights began to flicker with the speed of the car, the vision gradually blurred, tears filled my face at some point.

"Hey, has Zihan been busy lately? I'm going to go on a business trip to your place in a few days, and I'll come and pick up my eldest brother when the time comes. "Okay, got it, you're almost there, call me, and as soon as I fell asleep, you woke me up." The other end of the phone replied lazily. "Okay, then you can go back to sleep," I hung up. After washing my face, I looked in the mirror and saw that I was looking fine, and I didn't look like a terminally ill person. Let's go back to meet my parents now, and go home for the last time. I immediately used my mobile phone to buy a high-speed rail ticket for the next day, it's time to go home, it's time to go back.

This small city, without the hustle and bustle of a big city, has its own tranquility and serenity. For the wanderer who returned from afar, he selflessly provided the gentleness and peace that belonged to everyone.

Normally, I only go home every year during the Chinese New Year, but the sudden return made my mother really excited. The moment I opened the door, I was stunned for a moment, and then jumped on the spot like a child, hurriedly took the luggage in my hand, and kept saying, "Why don't you say in advance when you come back, this kid will prepare some food for you, this will be over." Hungry, aren't you? I didn't answer directly, but went straight to the toilet, and after closing the door, I shouted out, "Mom, I've eaten, I ate a lot at noon, my stomach hurts, I'll go to the toilet first." I heard my mother outside muttering to herself, "Look at me, I'll say, the food outside is not clean at all."

"I smiled in the mirror and paused for a long time with my hand on the doorknob before pushing the door open." Mom, I happened to be on a business trip in the next city, and I just happened to have a few days of free time after I was busy, so I said to come back to see you and Dad. I sat down on the couch, took a grape, threw it in my mouth, and said vaguely. Okay, stay at home and your mother will cook you a few good meals, you see you have lost weight again. "Her eyes saw me from head to tail and back to head.

"Can you bring a girlfriend home to show your mother for the Chinese New Year this year?" Mom asked, peeling an orange and handing it to me. "Let's talk about the New Year, it's not certain whether we can come back for the New Year this year, the company is going to open a branch again, and it is estimated that some of them will be busy." I looked down at the orange in my hand. "If you don't come back, you can show me the video." "Okay, well, let your old man see a beautiful daughter-in-law during the Chinese New Year this year." I shoved the orange into my mother's mouth again.

I walked to the small world that used to be, everything in the bedroom was still the same, clean and spotless, I could see that my mother often cleaned this perennial vacant bedroom, I walked to the desk and took out my treasure box from the drawer, which contained an iron car model, which I bought with my pocket money when I was in elementary school, and an old Nokia mobile phone, the first mobile phone in my life, and the Longines watch whose dial was broken and could not work properly, I tried to put the watch back on my wrist and reunite the two old friends. I saw the graduation photo of college since elementary school, looking at myself at all ages, and those familiar and unfamiliar faces, I stared at the girl smiling a flower next to me in the graduation photo for a long time.

Time seems to really stand still at this moment, I stand in front of the table, the photo is lying quietly on the table, the sunlight outside the window quietly pokes out from a few pots of flowers and leaves, as if guessing my heart, shining on the smiling face that has almost merged with my heart, my fingertips gently rubbed on the photo, I closed my eyes, extracted the touch from the memory, painted a circle, nostalgic for your beauty, lingering in the ear of the gentle call, like a dream. Suddenly my soul was drained, and my body collapsed on the chair.

Is this world the world that belongs to us, if it belongs to us, why can't we see the people we once met, planes can fly from the north to the south for a few hours, why do some people live in the same city, but never see each other again, childhood playmates, at that time there was no mobile phone and no contact information, but they often get together in the community, and they will not deliberately agree to meet the next time, because you can always meet that group of people the next day. When we grew up, we had mobile phones and WeChat, and we had more convenient means of transportation, but many people still seemed to be drowned in the sea of people and never saw each other again.

The dinner was indeed sumptuous, and my mother once again showed me her mastery of cooking, and she pointed to a plate of dishes that looked very much like chicken, and said to me that it was yellow braised mutton, and I tried to tell it by my palate, but it was bound to fail. Dad frowned and observed for a long time after picking up a piece next to him, maybe he had a new understanding of the yellow braised mutton, and hesitated for a moment before making up his mind to put the black meat in his mouth.

"I'll get off work early tomorrow, what does my son want to eat? How about Dad make you a fish? Dad swallowed hard and said to me. Dad, I can do it, how convenient it is. "I picked up a piece of greens and put it in my mouth in the hope that it would dilute the previous piece of meat.

Since my dad basically cooks at home, and I have been away all the year round, my mother cooks very few times, and she sometimes tells me on the phone that when my dad is not at home, she is too lazy to cook and eat casually, even if it is over. I often tell her to go out and buy something to eat, and she always says that the food outside is not delicious, but I know that she feels too lonely when she goes out to eat alone.

For Chinese families, a reunion dinner, even if the dishes are not as exquisite as those in the restaurant, must also achieve the beautiful meaning of reunion from the quantity, the children return home, obviously there are only three people for dinner, but there are always seven or eight dishes, I eat a few bites and I say full. My mother said with a melancholy face, "Eat this and you're full?" After eating some more, the food cooked by my mother was not delicious and cleaner than the food outside. "Mom, you don't know my appetite, it's so full, you see that your belly is round," I said, touching my stomach, and then excused myself to drink water, so I escaped from the table.

I wanted to help my mom clean up and she pushed me to sit on the couch and let me watch TV with my dad. The top of Daddy's head began to be covered in silver and white. "Whether it's smooth at work or not, you have to pay attention to it emotionally." Dad said with a little seriousness. I didn't answer any further.

I made an excuse to go out, I walked aimlessly on the street, wanting to go to my former alma mater to see, in the trance of the street lamp, I saw a teenager riding a bicycle, one hand in his pocket, one hand holding the handlebar, the wind blowing his hair should have blocked his vision, he shook it hard, and the bangs on his forehead also moved backwards. With a smile on his green face, he also saw me under the street lamp, took out his hand in his pocket and waved it at me from afar. After swinging, he grabbed the handle with both hands, kicked the pedal hard, and rode into the distance. Looking at his back that was getting smaller and smaller until it became a black spot, he was really carefree at that time.

As the bell rang for the end of the evening self-study class, a gradually clear face of black pressure flocked to the school gate. The sound of laughter filled my ears, and the parents waiting for their children at the door hurriedly took the schoolbags on their children's shoulders, and the cars waiting on the road started one after another. It didn't take long for the noisy school gate to fall silent again. I walked along the side of the street for a long time, and came to the overpass where I used to chase my classmates, and I leaned my back against the railing, looking at the flickering stars. Whether I will become one of them in the future, I have pondered for a long time, life is really boring, and I will not come to this world in the next life. After going around and around, I returned to the original point, and the memories here will always stay in that moment.

At the age of 17, I never thought that my life would end so hastily, nor did I think about the people and things I would encounter in the future that I would never forget. At that time, I had endless imaginations about what to expect in the future. Will you become a big boss? Or to become a leader in the industry, every day suits and leather shoes become the focus of people in the spotlight. I don't seem to have done it, I don't know how disappointed I am when I am 17 years old. Thinking about it, I'm sorry for him, I disappointed him, like most ordinary people, I was also drowned in the waves of the times, not even a wave. Moving forward with difficulty, living for the sake of life. Working overtime, renting a house, and earning enough wages for me to squander, barely making ends meet, but still insisting that I would come out one day.

Every time I call home, I just say that everything is fine, no one cares about how you are doing in a strange city, everyone is busy and trying to live. I don't know when my dream started from standing on the top of the mountain, slowly descending to the center, and then to the bottom of the mountain. I spent the past few years insensitively, and I didn't feel anything wrong.

What is the most important thing in this life, family affection? Love? An unattainable dream? For me now, only time is the most precious. I wandered like a geist in the middle of the night, looking for an unlucky man to ride on his back, watching his every move and rubbing his life.

I came to the familiar bar, the name of the bar is Tinghai, the year of his opening dates back to when I was in junior high school, and it has undergone several renovations without letting him sink in the torrent of the times. I sat down in a corner and ordered a beer, I didn't think my stomach could take a sip right now. In order to live a few more days, I still suppressed the idea of getting drunk. The shouting of playing cards at the next table caught my attention, and the man whose laughter was enough to burst through my eardrums made me pop up in my mind a name I hadn't seen in a few years, Zhang Zhi.

The man also seemed to notice that there was a gaze staring at him, his eyes looking at me, and the initial displeasure turned into surprise, and a pair of powerful hands almost crushed my shoulders, which was not enough, and slapped me hard twice.

"Zhang Zhi, can you be light, why are you still so reckless." I frowned and rubbed my almost unconscious shoulder. Zhang Zhi smiled innocently, "It's not that I'm too excited to see you, why didn't you tell me when you came back, buddy went to pick you up." "I just came back today, and I haven't had time to tell you yet, isn't this just a bump?" I said with a smile. Come on, come on, drink one. So saying, he took the glass, poured two glasses, and handed me one.

"There's something I want to tell you, I ordered the wine and remembered that I drank cephalosporin today, I drink water, you drink wine." I poured myself a glass of water and touched the glass he was holding. "Hahaha, what's the matter, I've been in the south for a few years, and the amount of alcohol has become smaller? Afraid dude will drink you under the table tonight and find an excuse to fool me? Hurry up, don't grind and chirp. "Huh? Who used to be drunk and didn't go home and squatted on the ground with my thighs and sang conquest, but now I haven't seen it for a few years, and it's become a hydrogen balloon? Floated? If I hadn't drunk cephalosporin today, I'd definitely let you squat and sing the conquest for me again tonight. "Hahaha, spare you once tonight, Ming'er buddy will make a game, and he will come out as a big and small king." Zhang Zhi finished the wine in the cup in one gulp and burped with satisfaction.

Zhang Zhi was my best fox friend in college, and the two of them went to the Internet café to play games after studying at night, and I was addicted to smoking thanks to him. At first I just smoked, but I didn't have an addiction until I met this guy.

Zhang Zhi took out all kinds of good cigarettes from his father every day to share with me, today Dazhongjiu, tomorrow Huazi, and the day after tomorrow two boxes of 1916 dumped on my hands. Slowly cultivated my addiction to smoking, and one day we didn't want to go to math class, so we skipped class, mixed into other classes and went to the playground to take physical education class, and he flicked off the cigarette butt when he smoked in the corner, and we smokers all knew that it would be bad luck for the cigarette butt to pop off. We both stared at each other with big eyes and chuckled in our hearts, this thing was stunned for a few seconds, picked up the lighter and reconnected it, and patted his chest and swore to me, telling me that it was okay, it was okay, and it would be okay to renew it.

As a result, we skipped class and were told by the math teacher that we had been standing in the hallway for a day, and I blamed him for all the bad luck. But this product also has his strengths, and he really hasn't lost in a fight, and I've always been a dog-headed military advisor, and he acts as a gold medal fighter.

In the past, black Internet cafes were relatively chaotic, because the management system of Internet cafes was not very strict at that time, only that kind of black Internet cafes did not require ID cards to access the Internet. It's also messy in the black Internet café, and it's common to get into fights, and one day we ran to play games as usual, and after a while, he had a stomachache and went to the toilet. I had to watch the movie first and wait for him to come out and then play together.

There were two young men who killed Matt in the Internet café, and a cool and crazy hairstyle was not outrageous, and a cheap suit with a pair of cloth shoes really made it difficult for me to understand this style, and I tried my best not to let myself laugh out loud. The two of them walked around the Internet café and didn't look like they were here to surf the Internet, and when they saw me watching a movie here alone, they walked towards me.

I withdrew my gaze and pretended to look at it with relish. One of them patted me on the shoulder and said, "Brother, come out with us, I have something to tell you." I pretended not to hear clearly, slowly took off my headphones and pretended to be puzzled and asked, "What's wrong, big brother, what's the matter?" He repeated again, "You have something to tell you when you come out," and I walked unhurriedly towards the staircase, one in front of me and the other behind me, and when they reached the staircase, they blocked me at the corner of the staircase, and this was the beginning of the main topic.

"Brothers, my brothers have been short of money recently, borrow some money, more or less sincerely, you can inquire about my plane in this piece, borrowing some money is considered a protection fee, and it is good to report my name if you have something to do in the future." The big guy with cloth shoes said proudly. I pretended to be very scared and trembled and said, "It turns out that you are Brother Airplane, I have admired the name for a long time, I have heard your story, did you fight five at a time on Dongguan Road last month, it has been spread all over our school, I have long wanted to mix with you." Brother Plane was almost grinning behind his ears after hearing this, "You will be my little brother in the future, my eldest brother has been short of money recently, and he needs some money to carry out activities, so he will not borrow you in vain, and he will take you to see the world in the future." ”

Just when he thought I was going to hand over the money in my pocket, a tall black figure appeared in front of them and kicked the brother next to him to the ground. Brother Airplane didn't seem to understand what was going on, so he climbed to the ground with his good brother, Zhang Zhi didn't say a word from beginning to end, and punched Brother Airplane on the head, face, and bridge of his nose. I squatted down and looked at Brother Airplane, and said with a handful of nosebleeds and tears: "I'm sorry, Brother Airplane, I already have a big brother, this is my big brother, Brother Black Bear." ”

After that, Zhang Zhi and I pretended to be casual and slowly went downstairs. As soon as we got downstairs, we looked at each other for a few seconds and said "Run!" at the same time. Without looking back, they ran wildly all the way, and after running a long distance, they looked back and saw that no one was chasing them, so they gasped for breath, looked at each other and smiled.