As time went by, at first, I would go to City C when I was resting, and I would meet briefly and always come in a hurry and go back in a hurry. Slowly, I don't know when the words of the two people began to become less and less, and the time spent together was precious, but it often disturbed the world of the two of us because of various things at work.

Lin Qianqian is also very busy in C City, two people together, but also busy with their own lives, I often sit in front of the computer for a day, and she is also constantly answering the phone in the company. The two of them drifted apart, and then I went to City C only a few times, sometimes I couldn't go once a month. I had no time to take care of our relationship, and finally one day she broke out.

She lost her temper at me on the phone that day, and I was also very angry, and the two of us didn't contact each other for a few days. Why can't work and love be both, I wondered, but I didn't think about it deeply. After reconciling, I didn't let this relationship be the same as it was at the beginning, one day I called her on the video, her expression was unnatural, and I seemed to hear a young man's voice on the other end of the video.

"What are you doing?" I asked. "I didn't do anything, just stay at home, and I'm going to go out to do something later." Lin Qianqian said. "Then why is there a man's voice?" I asked, suppressing the anger in my heart. "There's a man's voice there, you heard it wrong, it's a voice on TV." She said. After a few more casual conversations, she said she was going to get busy. I'm starting to wonder if there was a third person in the relationship that caused us to grow colder and colder.

I began to study her circle of friends like a detective and began to follow her daily timeline to prove my suspicions. I started to get more and more suspicious, and when I was on video with her, I asked her to show me my surroundings and ask her to send me the location. The number of quarrels also increased, and Lin Qianqian could no longer stand my endless distrust. "Why do you do this to me, why don't you trust me, I'm like I'm doing a task every day, tell you what I'm doing, go out and get together with my girlfriends, I'm going to shoot a video for you, and I'm going to send you a location when I get home, I seem to be monitored by you to spend every day, I can't stand this constraint." Lin Qianqian cried on the phone.

"Then you tell me, you obviously didn't get home at 12 o'clock last night, why did you tell me that you were already home, let me rest early." I say. "I'm almost home, and when it's too late, I want you to stop waiting for me and go to bed early." She said. "yes, did a man on the other side of the phone whisper that he called you?" I asked. "That's the manager in my company, they sent me back, he also knows you, he knows that you are my boyfriend, so he casually asked, is there anything unreasonable?" She said angrily. "Oh, it's very reasonable, you haven't come home at night, and you're with other men, and you let me go to bed early, it's really reasonable." I yelled. "Why do you think of me so much, I didn't do anything to be sorry for you." She said.

I didn't give her a chance to quibble any longer, I hung up the phone directly, I slammed my fist on the table, thinking that the evidence was already conclusive, and I was still arguing, fooling me like a fool? She must have changed her mind, otherwise why would we be like this, frequent quarrels, suspicions and suspicions, so that the emotional rift gradually expanded. Gradually I stopped focusing on arguing with her every day, and I began to participate in various activities and parties after work, and often got drunk. Sometimes when she calls, I deliberately let her hear the voice of the woman next to her.

Until that day, she hysterically asked me if I didn't love her anymore, and I asked her if she was worthy of my love? "You're always living in your own world, have you ever taken my feelings into account? Have you thought about me? I want to have a good chat with you after every busy day, and I want to try to maintain our relationship, but what about you? Lin Qianqian roared angrily on the phone. Maybe it was a momentary impulse, or maybe it was an emotion that had been suppressed for too long, that made me say that. "Since you can't stand such feelings, then let's break up, and I'll give you back your freedom." I say. There was no sound on the other end of the phone, and after dozens of seconds, he hung up.

After more than five years of affection, it was broken, there was no room for maneuver, and in the end, we forgot the sweetness of the past, and we forgot every promise before, leaving only hatred and the mean and hurtful words that we said to each other. Why did people who once loved each other so much become such a situation where they are now in such a situation where they do not get along with each other. Is there only hatred left in the end of love? The soul that has lost its love is like a fallen leaf in autumn, let the wind blow up, and there is no longer a root.

Memories are both happy and painful, and over the years, I have regretted and regretted that if I hadn't said that day, if I could have gone to her and had an open talk with her about my problems. Could it be another result, but all these thoughts were in vain, and I didn't let go of the knot in my heart. I won't let go of my dignity to get back together with her, after all, I have always thought that I am not wrong, and I have not been able to let go of her after many years, after all, I really love her very much. How can it be so easy to say that you can let go.

The pain from the depths of my body made it difficult for me to tell whether it was in my heart or my stomach. I should go, I was afraid that if the symptoms were more serious in a few days, how would I hide it from my parents and lie that the company would let me go back. My mother was still so reluctant, and while packing my luggage, she told me to eat well, not to work too hard, and to take care of myself outside. My mother was worried, on the way to see me off, she bought me buns and water, and a big bag of food for me to eat on the way, how hungry would I be on the four-hour journey?

I carefully looked at my mother and father's faces as they grew older day by day, and the guilt and reluctance in my heart were hard to describe in words. I didn't look back, I turned my back and waved goodbye, tears filling my eyes and falling quietly. During this time, I seemed to cry too many times, draining all my tears for the first 27 years. I also want to provide for them in their old age, but now I can't do it anymore, I can't imagine the scene of the white-haired people sending the black-haired people, and I can't imagine the scene when they learn that I am gone. The past can't be traced, and if I can do it again, don't let them worry about me so much in the first place. Goodbye parents, my son is not angry, let you down, this parting will be forever, if there is an afterlife, I will repay the debt to you.

The high-speed train slowly accelerated away from this small city, looking at the station that was gradually moving away, I walked away in a gray way, reluctant to give up my parents at home, and reluctant to give up my life that was about to end. I have no fear of death, it's not that I look down on life and death, it's just that I have complied with the destiny of heaven, and I know that these facts that have long been impossible to change are considered life and death, but I still can't let go of my life. Although it is not as radiant as the main character on TV, nor does it have the ups and downs of a successful business tycoon. Some of these bits and pieces are bland, but it is still my unique life, everything I have experienced.

"I came to you today, I happened to be going to the branch to deal with some things, by the way, come to see you, didn't you say a few days ago that you were going on a business trip? I've been waiting for you for days, and you haven't come. Wang Zihan said on the phone. I'm still on the high-speed rail, if you arrive first, you can go directly to your home and wait for me, and I will send you the password on WeChat in a while. "I said." Are you on the high-speed rail? Where have you been, when will you arrive, do you need me to come and pick you up? Wang Zihan said with a smile. Pick up the fart, I'll go back to my hometown, I'll be there at five o'clock, you can wait for me at home when you arrive first. I said. When I hung up the phone, a wave of sleepiness hit me and made me fall asleep.

When I got home, I saw this thing lying on the sofa and sleeping on the ground, I went up and gave him a kick in the buttocks, Wang Zihan scolded and looked at me and said, "I didn't sleep all night last night, can't you let me sleep for a while?" "Sleep after eating, you, you are almost on the ground." After that, I'll see if there's anything else to eat in the fridge, and I'm going to make something to eat. "Let's go out and eat, I'll have a treat." Wang Zihan stood up and patted his head and said. "I don't want to go out and I'm too tired, I'll do whatever I want at home, let's make do with some food." I said as I washed the vegetables.

A burst of pain made me unable to stand for an instant, beads of sweat rolled down my forehead, Wang Zihan squatted down to help me, anxiously asking me what was wrong. The pain in my abdomen prevented me from making any sounds, and in a daze I saw him on the phone, I was being carried on a stretcher, and I was losing consciousness under the flashing of red and blue lights.

When I woke up, I looked into his angry and grief-stricken eyes and tilted my head back to look at the ceiling. "How long have you been diagnosed with this disease, and why don't you treat it? Why don't you tell me, will I only know after you're gone? Wang Zihan said sadly. What is treated? Spend money to live for a few more months? I said flatly. I have contacted my friends at the Capital Hospital, as long as you cooperate with the treatment, it will be no problem to live for a few more years. Wang Zihan said. How many more years to live? And then what? I said. He bowed his head in silence, and I couldn't see his face clearly, only to see a crystal drop of water falling onto his pants.

"It's not that I haven't thought about treatment, I've already asked the doctor, and the treatment is nothing more than a few more months of torture, and I don't want to be in the hospital every day in the end of my life, counting down how many days I can live, and I don't want to stand in front of my bed full of family and friends and let them watch me leave." I say. "You didn't tell anyone? You are ready to leave quietly like this, and after letting everyone know the truth, you will regret it, why are you so selfish, have you considered the feelings of your family? Have you considered your friends' feelings? Wang Zihan said sadly. I didn't say anything, just shook my head slightly.

Wang Zihan went to the doctor to get a few bottles of medicine and helped me out of the hospital, his persuasion had no effect on me, I breathed the air outside the hospital, and sighed that it was so sweet, I would smile heartily. "I still prefer the sweet smell of fireworks outside to the smell of death everywhere in the hospital." I said to him with a smile. He didn't answer me, he just helped me into the back of the car and stared out the window. "Let's go eat, I'm a little hungry." I say. "Go back to your house first, I'll buy some food and make you some light meals." Wang Zihan said. "Then I'm feasting, and I can taste Manager Wang's craftsmanship, can you cook? How I don't know. Wang Zihan continued to remain silent. He called the company to ask for leave, and he was ready to stay with me all the time. "Why are you taking leave, you are busy with your going, I will look for you in a few days." I say. "Where are you going to find me in a few days? Will I be able to see you in a few days? He said.

A table of vegetarian dishes makes me ashamed. "I said Manager Wang, you won't be like this, I'm dying, you don't give me a whole bit of meat to eat, you feed the rabbits, it's all vegetables, there is no oil and water at all." I was dissatisfied. "The doctor said that you eat too much meat and don't digest it, and it's better to eat more vegetables." Wang Zihan came over with soup. As soon as I opened the lid, it was vegetable soup again, and I really took him. "Yes, Manager Wang, you really look like a virtuous little lady, you think really thoughtfully." I said with a smile. "Can you please stop flamboyant and eat your meal." He said. Don't say that this guy's cooking is really good, although there is no meat, it makes me eat with relish, but I don't eat a lot, I'm afraid that I can't digest it if I eat too much, and I'll die faster.

I think now that he knows, I'm still in a good mood, at least I don't have to die silently alone, at least with this guy's character, I will definitely accompany me until the last day, after all, having a friend with me can really help me share a lot of lonely emotions. He ran to the balcony and poked his head out to smoke. I laughed and scolded him to sit on the couch and smoke. "Hey, hey, Manager Wang, are you stupid, I'm not lung cancer, don't fall down, come and smoke, get me one too." I say. This guy seemed to suddenly realize, three steps turned into two steps, sat on the sofa, and skimmed me a cigarette. "Didn't you smoke when you went to school? I haven't taught you in four years, what's the matter, now self-taught? I teased with a smile. After work, I am under a lot of pressure, and you know that I don't like to drink, so I smoke when I am alone to relieve the depression and stress in my heart. Wang Zihan explained. What's next for you, what do you want to do? He asked.

"Next, I haven't thought about it, I've already seen it, and I was going to see you at the second stop, but you came by yourself, so I don't know what to do next." I leaned back on the couch and exhaled a smoke ring and said. Wang Zihan hesitated for a moment, but still asked me tentatively, "What about Lin Qianqian, aren't you going to see each other?" He looked at me. I didn't know how to answer him for a while, and the deep thoughts in my heart made me want to see her too, but I didn't know if she still hated me, and I didn't know what it would be like to meet her. What if she doesn't want to see me, turns me away, and breaks her last thoughts, it's better not to see me.

Let's talk about it in a few days, I don't know how to face her now, I don't know how she is now, what if she has a boyfriend now, or if she gets married, how embarrassing it will be and cause some unnecessary misunderstandings. Oh, yes, you can't tell her I'm sick. I looked at Wang Zihan and said solemnly. After all, I want to see you, it's better to see you early than late, if you want to go, I'll accompany you, even if you have a meal with friends, I don't think Lin Qianqian will refuse, what are you afraid of? Wang Zihan said.

What am I afraid of, I just regret that we didn't have a good ending at the beginning, even if it was a peaceful breakup, instead of ending the five-year relationship like an enemy. Love gave birth to hatred in the end, and I ended the relationship without even seeing the last side, and I was actually very unwilling in my heart. It's just that what courage do I have to face her, and what to do to face the person I once loved the most. Am I just a dying person to win her forgiveness with the fact that I am about to die?