This nest, which has been lonely for a long time, has become lively because of Wang Zihan's arrival.

Looking at the sun outside on the balcony in the morning, I closed my eyes and enjoyed greedily, I really don't understand why I used to feel that life was meaningless, now as long as I can open my eyes every morning, I feel full of vitality.

I looked at Wang Zihan, he was like a piece of wood, sitting on the sofa, expressionless, and I wondered if he was a robot for a while. "I want to buy a car, go on a trip, and see the world." I looked at him and said.

"Buying a car? Going on a trip? Wang Zihan looked at me in surprise and said.

"Or else? Stay here, you look at me, I look at you, waiting to die? When I was in high school, I was busy studying, I was busy falling in love in college, and I was busy with life when I went to work, and I didn't have time to take a good look at the world, so I had to leave something behind. I looked out the window and said.

"Okay, what car do you want to buy? I'll call you and ask. He said. What car? Second-hand cars, buddy doesn't have much money in his pocket, don't exceed 50,000 yuan. I said. After that, he started calling.

I looked at myself in the mirror, I had lost a lot of weight recently, and my cheeks on both sides had sunken a little, so that this face, which was not round enough, looked more and more angular, and these eyes were still so dark and bright, and I couldn't see the slightest sign of being tortured by illness. I can't help but sigh, buddy is still so handsome.

Wang Zihan's friend here asked him to wait for news, and we went out to repair the Longines watch that was no longer working.

When I hung up the phone with Lin Qianqian, I was very angry and took off the watch she gave me and slammed it on the ground, shattering our five-year relationship and breaking the last memory of our youth. The watch lay quietly on the ground for many days, and I didn't want to look at it during that time, because I was afraid that the memories would come to my mind in an instant, so I didn't go home much for those days.

After a few days, I picked it up again and carefully put it in the box, all these years, it was like that forgotten time, never seen the light of day again, and I didn't know that it was lying in that black box, lonely or not lonely.

I looked down at the repaired watch, put it back on familiarly, and muttered, "Old friend, you have been born again, continue to be with me." ”

"Let's go, let's go to the university." I say. Although I have never left the city since I worked, I used to live in the place every day, as if it was blocked by my world, and I never entered that door again, as if I never had the idea of looking at it again. When you have always owned a thing, you don't care about its existence, if one day it will disappear, or it has disappeared, you will suddenly remember how important it was to you, but you were used to its existence at that time, and you didn't cherish it too much, and people are the same.

The original undignified gate has now been rebuilt into a very grand school gate, and the banner welcoming new students on the gate is hung in the most conspicuous position, and it is another school season. The osmanthus trees on both sides of the main road still stood there, with lush branches and leaves, and the breeze carried a few wisps of floral fragrance to my nose. The students were strolling under the trees, not in a hurry to go there, and Wang Zihan and I were also walking slowly side by side.

I saw many new students who were just as excited and curious as we were back then, carrying their luggage and walking towards the campus. After their parents sent their children to the dormitory, they kept telling them something downstairs, and the children also nodded perfunctorily, eager for their parents to leave after they finished telling them, so as to enjoy the free life that was about to begin. "We were like this at the beginning, at that time, I thought that my parents should go back quickly, I can be free, and I will no longer be controlled by my family, what do I want." I said to Wang Zihan with a smile.

"I'm okay, it's just that I thought at that time that such a big university, why didn't there be an elevator in the dormitory building, and I went up to the sixth floor with my luggage, and I was sweating profusely when I was tired." Wang Zihan said.

Sitting on the big rock by the lake, watching the lonely ducks swimming in the water, the calm lake water did not have a ripple. The willow branches of the lake dragged on the water of the lake, and the trees that were rotten in the branches and leaves of the lake were soaked in the water, and they fluttered in the wind.

"Anyway, at that time, you studied so hard every day, I couldn't figure it out before, I went to college, why did you still study so hard, you didn't fall in love, and you didn't fool around with us, now look at your income is calculated according to your annual salary, mine is 8,000 yuan a month, hahaha, knowledge creates wealth." I say.

"At that time, I was able to go to university, which was not easy for my family conditions, and if my uncle hadn't finally made up the tuition fees for me, I guess I wouldn't even know what the university door was like in my life. So I studied hard, I didn't dare to live up to the expectations of the whole family, at that time I had a poor monthly living expenses, you invited me to dinner every day, in fact, I also wanted to invite you once, every time I looked at the few crumpled money in my pocket, I couldn't speak. Sometimes you ask me to go out to play, I want to go too, and you don't mention money, I know that as long as I go out with you, you won't let me pay a penny, but I still restrain the desire in my heart, I don't want to owe you so much anymore, I only have one good friend in the four years of college. After speaking, Wang Zihan picked up a small stone and floated on the lake, setting off ripples.

"Hahaha, where did I think so much at that time, I just wanted to take you out to play more, I'm afraid that you will be buried in books all day long and become a fool." I laughed and said. I also picked up a stone and threw it into the lake, but it was not as far as Wang Zihan threw it.

"Lu Wei, I still want to persuade you to accept treatment, you can live one more day, for me, I can have one more day of friends, even if you live for a few more years, you have to attend my wedding, you said that you want to introduce me to a beautiful girlfriend and then attend my wedding, and block the wine for me." Wang Zihan looked me squarely into the eyes, and his pleading tone even had a hint of crying.

I didn't dare to look him in the eyes anymore, and I bowed my head and said nothing. A moment later, a couple walked past us, snuggling up to each other, and seeing my direct gaze, the girl looked a little shy and gently nudged the boy. Looking at their backs under the tree, growing up is like this, everything has to be experienced one by one, experiencing shy and hazy love, experiencing simple friendship without asking for returns, but also experiencing the so-called marriage of the right family, and the social life full of interests.

The flower of youth blooms every year, when each petal falls on the dust, it can no longer go back to its most beautiful moment, no crying, no complaining, let the soil stain the body, the rain desperately washes the dust on the petals, but it still can't let it return to the original beauty. Only in the dream world did it see its own bloom again, smell the fragrance of the flowers it released, and shed crystal teardrops, commemorating the glorious days that had passed.

I looked at the lake and said calmly, "Zihan, I don't want to live like that, there is the fear of death every day, and it is full of all kinds of pipes, like a doll at the mercy of others." I'm going to lose my life, I've lost everything, my dreams, my family, my lovers, my friends, and I don't want to lose my freedom anymore. Would you like to see me in such pain? I'm happy every day now, really, I still have some things to look forward to, as long as I can open my eyes and see the world every day, I'm already very satisfied. I had to do something before I left, and I couldn't just spend it in a hospital bed. ”

Wang Zihan hesitated for a moment as if he had made up his mind and said, "Okay, I'll accompany you, I'll accompany you for the last crazy time, anyway, my previous days were either studying or working, and I have never been really happy a few times, only the days with you make my world full of joy." ”

I stood up and patted my buttocks, put one arm around his neck and said with a smile, "The day I leave, will you cry so much, remember to burn more money for my buddy, I have a big hand." ”

Wang Zihan didn't answer, we continued to wander around the school aimlessly, and when we saw the former teaching building, we both walked inside at the same time and picked an empty classroom. I sat in a familiar and unfamiliar classroom, looking at the podium in front of me, and familiar scenes appeared in front of me, listening carefully, sleeping, eating snacks secretly, playing games on the table, and a few people whispering. On New Year's Day that year, several talented classmates performed for us on the podium, which attracted bursts of laughter. I still remember when I was holding Lin Qianqian's hand under the table, and she leaned against me, with tears in her eyes.

These scenes flashed in front of my eyes like a movie, I stood up and wrote a few words on the blackboard, and walked around in a chic manner, Wang Zihan looked at these words in a daze. I walked over and patted him on the shoulder and said, "Let's go, follow my buddy for a while." ”

We were eating a familiar meal in the cafeteria when his cell phone rang. "Okay, thank you, even if I rent it for nothing, I'll give you back the original appearance when the time comes." He said into the phone.

"My colleague in my branch has a Mercedes-Benz E260, and he doesn't need it in the short term, saying that he will lend it to me first, so you don't have to buy any second-hand cars." He said.

"Yes, Manager Wang, you are so good at talking, let's go and pick up the car?" I say. We took a taxi to find his colleague, the car had already driven out, took the keys and said a few polite words, and we got in the car and drove off into the distance.

Before leaving, I returned the house that I had rented for many years, and the landlord was surprised that I was going to leave suddenly, and I lied that I was going to my hometown to develop, and I couldn't get along here. The landlord was enthusiastic about introducing me to another job, but I politely declined. I told him that I was going to go out and have a good time first, and I asked him to help me send some things back to my hometown next month. I picked up a few clothes and threw them in the car, so I didn't need the rest.

Wang Zihan drove the car and asked me, "Where are you going next?" ”。“ Go to XZ, go to the closest place to the sky, I have long wanted to go and have never had time to go, but now I finally have time to see it. I said.

We drove to Chengdu, the twilight gave birth to a faint pink, the mountains overlapped, reflecting the last color of the sky, the world was so beautiful, I lowered the window and let the wind touch my face, and on the car was David Bowie's Heroes.

I， I wish you could swim，

I wish you could swim,

Like the dolphins， like dolphins can swim，

Swim around like a dolphin like a dolphin,

Though nothing， nothing will keep us together，

Although there is nothing that can keep me together for the rest of my life,

We can beat them， for ever and ever，

But we can defeat them once and for all,

Oh we can be Heroes， just for one day，

Oh, we'll be heroes, even if it's just for a day.

I looked at Wang Zihan with a smile, singing along with the music, I am very happy at this moment, my life will be forever frozen one day in the future, but at this moment I am still living in the present, I am free, worry-free, and I have something to look forward to. I put my hand out the window, and in this moment, I was no longer a patient who was about to die, I was full of energy, I seemed to see the bright starlight, looking at everything in front of me, listening to music, riding in the wind, with my best friend.

I remembered the last line of the movie Wallflower Boy. "I dare say that in this moment, we have infinity".

I also imitated the scene in the movie, sticking my head out a little and screaming loudly, Wang Zihan looked at me like an alien, his eyes were big and small, maybe moved by my happy atmosphere, and he followed me screaming in the car. Screams and laughter along the way even drowned out the sound of the music. We wantonly vent the dissatisfaction that has been suppressed in our hearts for too long, like two children, without scruples.