After leaving No. 4 Middle School, Xiao Yi returned to No. 7 Middle School, he found the original homeroom teacher and arranged it into the review class, the old environment, and many of his original classmates, there was no problem of adaptation.

When his friend Deng Shui saw him, the first sentence was: "Why are you so haggard?" Xiao Yi smiled bitterly and said, "I don't adapt to the soil and water." He didn't want to tell anyone what had happened in the past three months, it was a thorn in his heart. Many years later, the TV series "Three Lives, Three Worlds and Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms" was broadcast, and the scene of mortal Su Su being forced to jump off Zhuxiantai made Xiao Yi feel the same way, if he regarded the three months in the fourth middle school as a love disaster, he could still feel better, but if it was specific to one of the links, he would still be heartbroken......

Xiao Yi, who returned to the seventh middle school, was sober-minded, he repeatedly went through every detail of what happened in the fourth middle school countless times, he wanted to know what he was wrong, he could make Liu Yun so decisive, and resolutely stood with the other party, after repeated consideration, he thought that he did not make a mistake from motives to behavior, it was Liu Yun who chose to believe in others or said that he had already lost his position in her mind, and there was no need to blame himself for this feeling that he wanted to recover but was unable to recover, is also glad that he did not kneel down to apologize at that time and preserved his last dignity; He really felt that in his most difficult and helpless time, his parents stood firmly behind him, and he was obsessed with feelings over the years, ignoring and discarding a lot of beautiful things, life is not only love, there are too many things that need to be paid attention to, maintained and pursued.

Xiao Yi, who has figured it out, is in a much better mood, he feels like he has been reborn, he has become enlightened, he can see the essence of people and things more through phenomena, and at the same time he has become sensitive and suspicious, insecure, no longer easily trusts anyone, emotionally he is no longer the pure big boy, and the once self-righteous "love supremacy" has been completely overthrown in his heart......

But he still wrote a letter to Liu Yun, a letter that he could be moved to cry after reading it, he wanted to give himself an explanation, and also give the other party an explanation, he wanted to tell Liu Yun that she underestimated his feelings for her, he was not a person who could afford to let go, no matter what the reason, no matter what choice she had, so many years of affection, she could get together and disperse, she shouldn't treat him like this, treat a person who once loved her more than everything.

I originally wanted to hand over the letter to Liu Yun when I got something in the fourth middle school, but in the end I didn't send it out, and on the way back, I tore up the letter, looking at the letter paper floating in the wind, he felt that their relationship was over, and he had lost nothing, and there was no way back, only self-improvement, only success in the college entrance examination, was his only way out.

No one could control his mind anymore, he felt more relaxed than ever, his eyes stared at the blue sky, he took a deep breath of fresh air, and slowly exhaled into the air......

With despair of this relationship and firmness in his goals, Xiao Yi always urged himself, motivated himself, devoted himself to his studies, and his grades rose steadily, and finally stood out in the college entrance examination and was admitted to the school of his choice. During this period, Li Jian came to him once and told him one thing, saying that Liu Yun was not actually in a relationship with Liu Xing, etc., but he didn't want to mention it anymore, this incident hurt him too deeply, too deeply......

There were also two good girls in the class who showed a good impression of Xiao Yi, he completely understood, but he only saw it in his eyes and heard it in his ears, but he couldn't get into his heart, and he didn't respond, there was a meaning of "once the sea was difficult to water, except that Wushan is not a cloud", more because he didn't want to touch his feelings anymore, and the wound in his heart had not yet scarred.

Entering the gate of the university, everything is new, especially the first semester of the freshman year, which is busy and fulfilling, so that Xiao Yi has no time to think about all kinds of emotions for a while. When he went home during the winter vacation, he inadvertently learned where Liu Yun was, and she went back to No. 4 Middle School to resume classes.

In the next semester, there was a repeater in the class, who was a bit business-minded, and often contracted the cinema to show all-night movies on weekends. Once, seeing a romance film, which aroused Xiao Yi's emotional resonance, he sat in the movie theater and cried, he realized that he still did not come out of the past, as long as it involves feelings, Liu Yun's figure lingers, he thinks that although the relationship between the two people does not exist and is actually dead, there should also be a real end, which is an explanation of his youth and persistence, so that he can really let go and start a new life.

He wrote a letter to Liu Yun, the general content of the letter is that he was self-inflicted in the past, and he didn't want to care about the hurt anymore, and the past was like a cloud of smoke, and he hoped that Liu Yun could return the two purses and letters he had made, or destroy them, which could be regarded as a formal breakup...... This is equivalent to counting the first breakup, and drawing a real end to the relationship between the two.

After the letter was sent, he received a reply from Liu Yun not long after.

Although more than a year had passed since the incident, he felt that he had calmed down, and when he saw Liu Yun's words and letters, he still felt an inexplicable excitement. He picked a noon time to go to the classroom to open the letter, and when the letter was opened, he was very familiar with Liu Yun's style, clean and sharp:

...... You only know that you are hurt, am I not? You only listen to other people's words, I don't know if you misunderstood me? Is it just my fault that the emotional matter is my fault? Your words are full of sad things, is there only these between us, and there are no good memories? I remember you said twice, is it really not worth mentioning to you that the beauty of the past is really not worth mentioning in you? You coldly proposed to break up, okay, I'll fulfill you, I'll burn all those things, you can rest assured to fulfill your dreams, I won't be your shackle......

Before the letter was finished, Xiao Yi had tears in his eyes, in this year, he had established a line of defense for himself, wrapped himself, no one could touch his emotions, he calmly observed and analyzed the people and things around him, and could make accurate judgments, but at this time the line of defense was all broken. Liu Yun said his pain points, he only remembered that heartbroken day in his heart, they still have a lot of good memories, the feeling of first love, innocent feelings, and Liu Yun's all kinds of together, which filled his mind for a while, in his opinion, Liu Yun is like a breakup letter, which is clearly a cry to him and reluctance to the feelings he once had.

After reading the letter, Xiao Yi fell into deep thought, he didn't want to pay attention to any misunderstanding, misunderstanding and hurting his feelings were two different things, what he was most distressed about was Liu Yun's approach and attitude towards him at that time, but from the letter, she seemed to have something unspeakable, guessing whether she would have considered him at that time, in order to protect him or motivate him, if that was the case, it would be too hasty to propose to break up, and he decided to go back to her.

Xiao Yi wrote a long letter, changing his attitude last time, apologizing for his indifferent words, but also insisting on his principles and ideas for the affairs of the fourth middle school, which is the premise and bottom line of the two of them, and the letter agreed to go directly to her home one day during the summer vacation. In order not to disturb her, who was facing the college entrance examination, the letter was deliberately sent late, and he wanted Liu Yun to receive it after the college entrance examination.

During the summer vacation, Xiao Yi found the small leather book written in junior high school, most of the records on it were the feelings between the two in junior high school and his lovesickness, he wanted to show it to Liu Yun, wanting her to really understand his original feelings for her. On the day of the appointment, I mustered up the courage to come to Liu Yun's house, although this location has long been familiar, but it is the first time to enter the door, and I have to face Liu Yun's parents.

After all, he was young, and he was still nervous when he entered the door, so he said hello to Liu Yun's parents and went directly to Liu Yun, which was not very polite.

Liu Yun was surprised when she saw Xiao Yilai, it turned out that she hadn't received Xiao Yi's letter yet, she didn't know the purpose of his coming, there were many people in the family, Liu Yun took Xiao Yi out of the house.

After talking for a few sentences, Liu Yun fully understood that the breakup had become a continuation relationship.

Xiao Yi smiled: "Fortunately, I didn't make an appointment outside, otherwise it might cause a misunderstanding."

Liu Yun glanced at him, and said angrily: "You were so stupid at the time, you would listen to other people's nonsense, obviously misunderstood and believed you to be true." ”

"Who told you to have that attitude towards me at that time, can I not be serious?" Xiao Yat was not convinced.

"You deserve it, if you don't mess with me, can I do that?" Liu Yun pretended to be angry and pouted again.

The two flirted for a while, and the reunion after a long absence, the joy of seeing each other for the first time temporarily threw all the troubles and unhappiness out of the clouds, and returned to the good times they had together. They chatted outside for a while, and Liu Yun said go home, there should be no one at home.

Liu Yun's mother was chilling outside the gate, the two returned home, looked at each other, and couldn't hold back any longer, Xiao Yi hugged Liu Yun and kissed him unpassionately, Liu Yun responded positively to him, more than a year and a half of parting, missing, and tears were all integrated into this deep long kiss......

Suddenly, I heard Liu Yun's mother calling her name outside the door, saying that she poured water? Boil some tea eggs for your classmates to taste.

The two quickly separated, Liu Yun tidied up his clothes, his face was flushed, he didn't dare to breathe, he exhaled slowly, Xiao Yi looked at it and wanted to laugh in his heart, seeing her scared, it was really cute.

They chatted for a while, Xiao Yi left his little leather book to Liu Yun, and said that he would go back first, and accompany her when he volunteered, Liu Yun nodded happily.

It is difficult to grasp the college entrance examination for liberal arts students, and many students who usually have good grades will also encounter Waterloo in the college entrance examination, and Liu Yun's college entrance examination results are not ideal.

On the day of volunteering, Xiao Yi waited for Liu Yun at the agreed place, Liu Yun arrived a little late, wearing elegant and decent, white dress and long skirt, dressed as a lady, different from the previous image, which made people feel excited. But her face was average, saying that she didn't do well in the exam, and there was basically no hope for this result to apply for volunteering, Xiao Yi didn't say much, and kept comforting her, Liu Yun decided not to go to school, and the two began to go back.

Under the willow trees by the river, they sat down. Liu Yun's mood was still a little low, Xiao Yi knew that the college entrance examination was a major event in life, and it was not comfortable to put it on anyone, but he didn't know how to say it, so he kept coaxing her, and kissed her distressed from time to time. After a while, Liu Yun's mood gradually improved, Xiao Yi dared to laugh with her, the two would talk about the past, when they talked about the fourth middle school, Xiao Yi's heart was on fire, he really couldn't hold it down, this thorn always pierced him, and it hurt his heart to move, but he was afraid that he would quarrel with Liu Yun because of this, so he intercepted the topic and wanted to let himself slowly digest it. Liu Yun saw that he was unhappy, so he didn't say anything more, and kept following him.

It was close to noon, Xiao Yi wanted to take her to dinner, she said that she couldn't eat, so she wanted to drink some water, but the rural commissary did not sell water, so they could only buy a bottle of sweet red wine to quench their thirst, and then found a shade to continue to sit down and talk.

The corn in the fields was lush and green, some of them were already more than a man tall, and the wind blew and made a swishing sound. Although it was the hottest time of the day, the breeze in the fields did not make people feel so hot, and there were only two of them in the open fields.

Liu Yun always looked like he had something on his mind, and he stopped talking, but he drank a few big sips of wine. Xiao Yi thought it was the reason for the college entrance examination, so he hugged her, Liu Yun lay in his arms, let him kiss and caress him, very obedient...... Tired of sitting, they exchanged a bit, Xiao Yi lay on Liu Yun's lap, Liu Yun gently stroked his face and said, "Do you see that I have changed?" ”

"It's changed, it's better for me than before." Xiao Yi thought of the pain of lovesickness and sadness in the past, and he was very satisfied at this moment.

Liu Yun didn't reply again, lowered her head and kissed him, Xiao Yi saw tears in her eyes.

Liu Yun took out Xiao Yi's leather book and said, "I want this, can you give it to me?" ”

Xiao Yi agreed, and said with a smile: "The above things were originally meant to be told to you, but we didn't have much chance to be together at that time, and I was stupid." He felt that this book was sent late, and if he gave it to her when he graduated from junior high school, there might not be some misunderstandings later, and the relationship between the two would not be so tortuous.

Liu Yun happily accepted, and the two sat for a while, the sun was about to set, and they had to go home.

Approaching the location of the breakup, Xiao Yi asked Liu Yun what his next plan was?

"At the end of August, I may go to Beijing or Jinan," Liu said.

Xiao Yi thought for a while and said, "If you go to Beijing, write to me, and call me when you go to Jinan." gave Liu Yun the phone number of the dormitory and told her not to forget.

Liu Yun agreed, and the two went home separately.

Through these two contacts, the relationship between the two has been restored, but time flies, they are both twenty-one years old, no longer the teenagers they once were, and they have reached the age where they can talk about marriage in the countryside, but the two are in different situations and have very different ideas. In Xiao Yi's opinion, his freshman year has just ended, the future is still far away, and he is still a lover, and he doesn't think so much about the prospects of the two, not to mention that the thorn in the fourth middle school is still there, reminding him that he can no longer devote himself as fully as before, but to leave room for feelings, he is afraid and can't afford to hurt. For Liu Yun, who is about to enter the society, she knows that the two of them love each other, and she also understands that Xiao Yi is still in school, but marriage and love are two concepts, she thinks more about the result, and her expectations for the future are more urgent, how will the two go forward in the future?