When we were children, we always thought that liking, falling in love, and getting married were all the same thing. The more we grow up, the more we will find that the people we like may not be able to be together, and if we are together, we may not be able to enter into marriage.

After returning to school, Xiao Yat's life is business as usual. At that time, Lu Songxian's version of "Smiling Proud Jianghu" was playing on TV, and the students went to the classroom every day to watch it, which was also Xiao Yi's favorite Jin Yong martial arts novel. In the past, he liked the love between Guo Jing and Huang Rong in "Shooting the Condor", liked Guo Jing's loyalty and diligence and Huang Rong's eccentricity, and felt that complementary love could stay together for a lifetime. Looking back on his emotional past, although he has experienced a long period of time but no fruitful feelings, he has tasted the ups and downs and love-hate separation, but he still believes that there will still be true love in the world, not just a fast-food relationship that comes and goes in a hurry full of benefits, and he will also meet the girl who can make him tempted and fall in love with him......

On the National Day of his junior year, Xiao Yat wanted to participate in an event and did not go home. At noon on September 30, the phone rang in the dormitory, and the roommate said that Xiao Yi was looking for you and was a beautiful woman, and then handed him the phone with a smile.

Xiao Yat took the phone and asked who it was? The other person replied, "It's me." The familiar voice that I haven't seen for a long time is Liu Yun. The two asked at the same time, "Are you okay?" Then he said "um" one after another. Liu Yun said that you are going home on National Day? Xiao Yi said that she couldn't go back, feeling that she seemed to have something to say, so she continued to ask, are you here? Liu Yun said yes. There has been no contact for nearly a year, and the two still have a feeling and tacit understanding that they have never separated.

In the evening, when it had just rained and was cloudy, the two met at a bus stop near the school. Liu Yun got off the bus, holding an umbrella in one hand and a plastic bag in the other.

"Here you go" Liu Yun handed the plastic bag to Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi asked "What is it", and suddenly fell to the ground without catching it, "It's a banana", Liu Yun said that the two looked at each other and laughed. Xiao Yi found that Liu Yun was wearing a big checkered shirt, her hair was long, but she was still so delicate and beautiful, they all seemed to have forgotten what had happened before, and they were more like two long-lost lovers, who had been in love for seven years, and they had long been branded in each other's hearts.

They walked into the campus together. Liu Yun said: "I really don't want to come to the university", Xiao Yi knew that this was the pain of the college entrance examination, smiled and then introduced the situation on campus to her, the two walked to the playground, then the rain fell again, and the two hid under the shed of the viewing platform to find a place to sit.

Liu Yun said: "After you left last time, I quit my original job and worked in a shoe store near your school gate for a few months, wanting to see you, but I never met you."

"Why didn't you contact me? I don't usually go to the store," Xiao Yi blamed her.

"I'm embarrassed to contact you". Liu Yun replied.

"Alas!" Xiao Yi sighed, this is a common problem between the two, and it can't be changed for many years.

"In the past six months, a lot of things have happened...... Liu Yun couldn't stop crying before he finished speaking.

Xiao Yi looked at her like this, at a loss for a while, after all, it was his beloved, Xiao Yi took her in his arms in distress, lowered his head and kissed her teary eyes, and then the two kissed affectionately......

Xiao Yi asked Liu Yun what happened? Liu Yun said that when he went to his brother-in-law's army, someone fell in love with her, and then he didn't continue, but asked him: "What is the relationship between the two of us?" ”

Xiao Yi couldn't answer, yes, what does it matter?

Or Liu Yun said: "This is a lover, you are the same when I get married?" Will you always be my extramarital lover? ”

Xiao Yi still couldn't answer, he hadn't thought about this, he didn't know where the two of them would develop in the future, and he didn't know why Liu Yun said that, so he didn't ask.

The two chatted for a while, the rain stopped, Liu Yun said I should go back, and the two got up and walked out. Xiao Yi said don't go back at night, stay in our guest house. Liu Yun was unwilling, but her attitude was not very resolute, Xiao Yi saw her like this, and firmly said Let's live here, it's so late, I'll leave tomorrow morning, and then pulled her into the school guest house.

The guest house is very simple, just one room, a few bunk beds, Xiao Yi went back to the dormitory to get something, then locked the door, turned off the lights, there were a lot of mosquitoes on rainy days, and the two fed mosquitoes all night......

Liu Yun forgot to take the umbrella when he left early the next morning, which contributed to their next meeting, and in Xiao Yi's heart, the two resumed their relationship as lovers.

When Liu Yun came to get the umbrella, Xiao Yi sent her to take the bus, and the two walked all the way, Liu Yun said, "What will we do in the future?" ”

Xiao Yi knew that she was asking about marriage, and said: "I don't have anything here, it's my mother's ......" The last time I went home, in a small talk, my mother talked about Xiao Yi's future to find a partner, although she didn't know that the two were in contact again in college, but the words revealed their dissatisfaction with Liu Yun, so that Xiao Yi didn't dare to mention him and Liu Yun at all.

Liu Yun heard the meaning of the words, and turned to half-jokingly said, "Let's elope, right?" ”

If these words were placed before the incident in the fourth middle school, Xiao Yi would not say a word, and chose to be with Liu Yun without hesitation, even if the two of them wandered the world, he could fight for her, but now he is no longer the original Xiao Yi, no longer the ignorant teenager, he has concerns, there are considerations from family obstruction, there are considerations from his own uncertain future, and there are considerations from Liu Yun, the first two can still work hard to solve it, but the last one he is really not sure, Although there is no problem with the relationship between the two now, but the matter of the fourth middle school has not passed in his heart, for so many years, the two have been separated and united, and they have been divided, either they have lost contact or are in the cold war, and they have also made people take advantage of loopholes to set up sets, he is afraid, he once lost half his life because of his injury, and he does not dare to look like what will happen to him when such a situation occurs again in the future, and he feels that he can no longer afford to be hurt. What he wants is not an insecure relationship, but a peaceful and peaceful life between the two of them, but he can't say what he thinks, and he can't give her an answer.

Liu Yun saw that he didn't speak, and muttered to himself: "It's impossible for you, you have your own career." ”

In the days to come, Liu Yun never asked anything like that again, maybe she already had an answer in her heart, or she didn't want to see Xiao Yi anxious about this matter anymore, the two were still like lovers, like the half a year when they first came to Jinan......

Liu Yun signed up for the self-study exam, Xiao Yi accompanied her, they were basically together all day that day, they walked a lot, that was Xiao Yi's most dreamed day, to be able to go on with Liu Yun all the time, there are endless words...... In the botanical garden, Xiao Yi went to the bathroom and came back and got lost, and couldn't find Liu Yun, anxiously he walked back to the garden gate and searched all the way according to his memory to find it, he used to hold her hand tightly, and said worriedly I thought I couldn't find you...... The two climbed Hero Mountain together, maybe Liu Yun was tired after a day of walking, and was a little out of breath, Xiao Yi laughed at her body so weak, how could she climb Mount Tai with him in the future...... In the end, Xiao Yi took the bus back, and Liu Yun watched him get on the bus and go away, his eyes were still as affectionate and reluctant as back then......

Before the winter vacation, the two agreed to let Liu Yun go to school to find him one day after the New Year, she agreed, but in the end she did not go to the appointment, the young and vigorous Xiao Yi was very annoyed, and said a few words to Liu Yun on the phone, Liu Yun hung up the phone directly, and the two never contacted each other again, which made Xiao Yi more determined in his idea, how could they be together?

In the half year of internship in the field, Xiao Yi spent most of his time on public examinations and internships, fulfilling and busy, but when he was idle at night, he would think of Liu Yun, think of some of the past, and add a little melancholy at the end......

In the blink of an eye, Xiao Yat graduated from university, and his work unit was also settled, Xiao Yat was about to leave Jinan, where he had lived for three years, and set off to work in other cities.

"It's me," Xiao Yat said.

"Oh, are you okay?" Liu Yun asked.

Xiao Yi didn't answer her greeting, and said directly: "I'm graduating and leaving." ”

"Where are you going?" Liu Yun asked.

"Don't go back to your hometown, go to a far away place." Xiao Yat didn't say where to go.

"Is it because I won't go back to my hometown?"

"It's not. I want to meet you before I leave. ”

Liu Yun paused and said, "Forget it, it's still gone!" ”

"Why, don't you want to see each other for the last time?" Xiao Yi felt that Liu Yun was a little unkind, anxious and a little disappointed.

"I, I'm engaged." Liu Yun was a little hesitant.

This is what Xiao Yi didn't expect, he only knew that he had just graduated, and he never thought of the age of the two, they were already twenty-three years old, nothing for men, and for girls they got married early in the countryside at this age, Liu Yun didn't wait for him anymore, probably knowing that the two would not have any more results. In the past six months, Xiao Yi thought that it might be difficult for him and Liu Yun to continue, but he didn't expect that the two of them really had no future. After a little hesitation, he was afraid that Liu Yun would misunderstand, so he said: "I just want to meet and talk, I can control myself" In fact, it was just a matter of talking, he didn't dare to guarantee what would happen if he saw Liu Yun.

"It's still gone," Liu Yun continued: "I can't control myself."

Xiao Yi was speechless, he was a little annoyed, he felt that Liu Yun was perfunctory to him, and he only understood it after many years, Liu Yun's words contained love for him and helplessness for reality, but he didn't understand it at that time.

"Then take care!" Xiao Yi, who was angry, hung up the phone without saying goodbye, he wondered if they could see each other again, and they should never see each other again in the future......

Young people always don't know how to cherish, and they will feel that losing someone is not a big deal, even if they lose each other, they will have other possibilities, and they can meet better people. It wasn't until the year of confusion that Xiao Yi looked back on the past and realized how much Liu Yun loved him during that time in Jinan, and accompanied him one journey after another, but it was her own concerns that lost her original tolerance and patience, so she chose to leave. In fact, whenever he was faced with an emotional choice, Liu Yun had looked for Xiao Yi and wanted to find hope from him, but at that time he didn't know it, thinking that in every choice, Liu Yun left him behind......

This is probably the catastrophe of the world, lovers who have been in love for many years but have not come together, in fact, what they have lost is not just one person, but a period of time, but their entire life.

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This situation can be recalled, but it was already clear at the time!