Chapter7（TheEnd）

At the beginning of February, clear the bar, drink by yourself.

Yes, I'm back.

In the months after leaving, Xiao Chu's life and I were not harmonious.

It's hard to find a new job, on the one hand, I am no longer young, and on the other hand, I am not familiar with the new city.

Xiao Chu, my wife, even though we live under one roof, we still get together less and leave more,

She often works overtime, and the topics we talk about are often her work, but I'm not interested.

Finally, in January, the original house was not sold, and I proposed to her that I wanted to return to the original city.

We talked late at night that day and she didn't want me back.

I was very persistent, and in the end, she asked me to think clearly, if I go back, no matter what the consequences will be, let me bear it myself.

I thought about it for another three days, just like I did when I decided to leave home and go with Xiao Chu.

Eventually, I came back,

There is a saying that Lin Meow is right, the most terrible thing is to do what is reasonable in the eyes of others, but he doesn't want to do it.

Perhaps, in the first place, I shouldn't have married for the sake of getting married.

Do I really love Xiao Chu, or is it just to find someone to live and give an explanation to my parents.

Am I really happy in this life?

The answer was no, so I came back.

Xiao Chu's meaning between the lines, I understand, she can't stand the long-distance marriage, if it continues, she wants to divorce.

Returning to the familiar city, with a full of depression, I didn't look for Lin Meow, and drank sullen wine alone.

In early March, Xiao Chu and I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to handle the divorce.

The day of the wedding was her birthday, and the day of the divorce was my birthday.

Xiao Chu said that she chose this day to let me always remember that I ruined this marriage because I didn't cherish it.

I didn't say anything, I just divorced her according to the date.

Xiao Chu didn't want anything, she could have a house or a car herself.

In this regard, Xiao Chu is indeed very charming, but unfortunately, there is something missing between us.

At six o'clock in the evening, I was drinking alone at home, and Lin Meow sent a WeChat message.

"Happy birthday."

I held down the voice and asked Lin Meow what he was doing, if he could drink together.

Lin Meow asked me if I was back, didn't Xiao Chu come back with me.

I still sent a voice message, saying that I came back by myself, let's talk about it in detail when we meet.

Lin Meow said okay.

Eight o'clock, let's clear.

I ordered a Cuba Liberty, and Lin Meow ordered a light green cocktail herself, I don't know what the name was.

"What's the matter, did you quarrel with Xiao Chu?" Lin Meow asked me.

I didn't speak, I just touched the glass with Lin Meow, drank all the wine in one go, and then called the waiter to order another glass.

"Don't drink like that, what's wrong with you?" Lin Meow was a little anxious.

"Lin Meow, today, my birthday, do you know?" I poked my index finger in my chest.

"I know." Lin Meow nodded, looking confused.

At this time, the second cup was served, I picked it up and took another sip, and Lin Meow snatched the cup.

"What's wrong with you, don't drink here in the light, you want to be a demon and find your wife, I'll leave if you don't speak." Lin Meow stood up.

"She divorced me, just today." I whispered.

Lin Meow's half-turned body stopped, stood there staring at me with wide eyes, and finally slowly turned around and sat down again.

"How can this be... Lin Meow said softly in an unbelievable tone.

I couldn't help it, I covered my face with my hands, lowered my head, and under the influence of alcohol, I couldn't suppress my sadness for a while.

Crying.

"Lin Meow, why do you say I'm such a failure." I covered my face and muttered.

Lin Meow sat down next to me and patted me on the back.

I wiped my tears away with my hands, sat up again, leaned my head back on the couch, and drank the wine from my glass in another gulp.

I just wanted to raise my hand and call the waiter to come over, but Lin Meow opened his mouth first, "Waiter, this table has five cups of Long Island Iced Tea." ”

I looked at Lin Meow and didn't speak.

"You're in a bad mood, I'll drink with you, you can't drink this wine, the degree is too low, when you're drunk, you won't cover your face and cry, just cry out and vent."

I still didn't speak, just nodded.

When the wine came, I took out the straw and took a sip, and the music playing at this time was Zhou Chuanxiong's "Dusk".

Music, alcohol, divorce, unemployment, meow, these all make me want to cry.

I drank all the Long Island iced tea.

Lin Meow handed me the cup she hadn't drunk.

I took another sip and leaned my head back on the couch and cried.

"Tell me, what the hell is going on." Lin Meow also took a sip of wine and asked me.

"At the beginning, I shouldn't have gotten married for the sake of getting married, Lin Meow, let me tell you the truth, I don't like Xiao Chu that much, but when I'm old, I can't bear to let my parents worry about me, so I married her, I'm sorry for her." With that, I took another sip of wine.

"Yes, I don't cherish it, because I never cherished it." After saying that, I burst into tears again.

"At first, you made me cherish it, my parents made me cherish it, I quit my job and left the city I loved, but I was not happy at all. Lin Meow, do you understand? You can't get it.." I took another big sip of wine.

"Leaving here, I have nothing, I can't find a suitable job there, I don't know friends, I don't have you."

"Xiao Chu is busy every day, and we can't say a few words all day long."

"Lin Meow, I miss you very much, I want to drink with you, I want to listen to you." I closed my eyes and said, I couldn't see Lin Meow's expression.

Lin Meow took a tissue and wiped the tears from my face.

"Lin Meow, don't worry, I didn't betray Xiao Chu, I came back because I didn't like that kind of life, not because of you."

I looked at Lin Meow and said.

Lin Meow nodded and said softly, "Don't think too much." ”

After saying that, I closed my eyes again, "Don't worry, Lin Meow, we will always be strangers, and I won't cross the line." ”

I heard Lin Meow sigh.

After that, I didn't say anything more, and slowly finished the wine that Lin Meow ordered for me, she drank one glass, and I drank four glasses.

The bar is open 24 hours a day, I fell asleep on the sofa when I was drunk, and Lin Meow also sat opposite me all night.

At about four o'clock in the morning, before the sky was bright, I saw Lin Meow sitting opposite me looking at his phone.

"Gee, what time is it?" I'm a little guilty.

"I'm awake." Lin Meow put away her phone and looked at me.

"Well, let's go, I'll send you back, go back to sleep." I stood up and went to pay.

Lin Meow also stood up, and I sent her to the door of the elevator at home.

"Will you go back yourself?" Lin Meow asked me.

"It's okay, I'll call a taxi. You go up. I said.

"It's time to send a WeChat." Lin Meow pressed the elevator after speaking.

"I'm home, Lin Meow, I'm really sorry to let you stay with me for so long as a little girl. I'll treat you to dinner tomorrow. ”

"It's okay, tomorrow you go to your previous company to have a look, the work is important."

"Leave the work down and invite me again." Lin Meow replied.

"Okay." I replied.

At the end of March, clear it.

"Congratulations, Lin, you're back in the job you like." Lin Meow raised his glass at me.

"No, my previous position has been replaced, but after all, I have been working for a long time, and I have certain resources and contacts in my hands, so although I still work there, my position has changed."

"Is there a big change, for the better or for the worse?" Lin Meow asked me.

"It should be considered good, compared to before, I have been promoted." I said with a smile.

"Haha, no Ji Tailai." Lin Meow raised his glass.

I smiled and picked up my glass and touched it.

"Lin Meow, that night, I..."

"Your reaction that night was human, it's over, forget about it." Lin Meow interrupted me.

I nodded emphatically, "Okay." ”

"How are you doing, are you ready for graduate school?" I asked.

Lin Meow shrugged, "Well, but I don't want to put too much pressure on myself, just find something to do for myself, I've already started studying." ”

"Good thing, where are you going to take the exam, what major?" I asked.

"I won't say anything about the exam, if I can't pass the exam, it's embarrassing, I plan to take the English major, English and American literature, I like it, but the graduate students who take the English exam have to learn one or two foreign languages." Lin Meow said.

"What two outside?" I asked.

"It's just another little language." Lin Meow took a sip of wine and said.

"I've already decided, choose French for the second foreign language." Lin Meow said calmly.

"Learn on your own?" I asked.

Lin Meow nodded, "So I think it should be quite difficult, and I may not be able to get in." ”

"How do you know?" I say.

"If you pass the exam, I'll treat you to dinner." I said with a smile.

Lin Meow also smiled.

At the beginning of April, in the evening, cloudy, clear bar.

Lin Meow didn't seem to have rested well, yawning again and again.

"Didn't you sleep well yesterday?" I asked.

Lin Meow yawned and nodded.

"I didn't lock up Kabu yesterday."

"He always made noises all night, and then he came and bit my hand and woke me up."

"Why don't you lock him up?" I asked with a smile.

"I see that other people's cats on the Internet sleep with their owners at night, and Ah Jin used to sleep with me, but Ah Jin is not as good as Kabu." Lin Meow yawned again after speaking.

"How's it going?" I asked.

"I'm learning slowly, it's going to be slow." Lin Meow said.

"It's okay, didn't you say before that you think the result of what you do is the most important thing, in fact, this sentence is true, but it is also divided into things, such as your graduate school entrance examination, you just go to experience the process carefully, don't think too much about anything else, because thinking about it is useless, it can't help you."

Lin Meow smiled.

"Have you watched "Every Day is a Good Day"?" Lin Meow asked me.

I shook my head.

"I think you can check it out, you should like it."

"It's about experiencing every moment and living every moment." Lin Meow took a sip of wine and said.

I smiled and nodded.

Lin Meow also smiled.

I don't know if it's because of Lin Meow's sleepy eyes that caused me to have a delusion, but when Lin Meow smiled at me, his eyes were more gentle than before.

Maybe I'm single again, or maybe it's out of sympathy for me, Lin Meow is less cold and more gentle than last year.

In the warm and cold season, there are very few swimmers, and I also figured out the time when there are fewer people in the pool, and Lin Meow seems to be too.

So, at noon on a weekend, when there were only 5 people in the pool, Lin Meow and I met again.

This time, Lin Meow recognized me and greeted me.

We had one lane at a time, and across the lanes, we talked for a long time about swimming techniques.

Lin Meow really likes to swim, she can swim from noon to night, and of course, she will take a break halfway.

"Actually, I used to swim for two hours in one breath like those who exercised, and then left." Lin Meow said to me in the interval after swimming.

"But now I want to correct my posture, so I just swim, stop, and think about which movement is wrong when I just swam just now."

"So even though I've been here for a long time, I haven't really swam much."

I nodded and didn't speak.

Lin Meow is indeed a persistent person, which I saw when she was working overtime to learn coffee.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, I went out of the pool first, took a shower and went to the sofa downstairs to rest and wait for Lin Meow.

We said okay, she came out at six o'clock, I sent her home, and then we went for a drink together.

In the gym there is "Ideal Lent".

I suddenly loved this life.

I like the life of Lin Meow every day.

At the end of April, it's almost time for the holidays.

I asked Lin Meow if she wanted to travel.

Lin Meow said that he wanted to go to a place with a sea.

At the beginning of May, I drove Lin Meow to a coastal city in the province.

In the evening, Lin Meow pulled up his trouser legs and waded in the water on the beach.

I sat on the beach and watched her.

At this moment, my heart is extremely determined, and I am in love with her.

I called out to Lin Meow, and Lin Meow looked back at me, she picked up a lot of shells, came over and handed them to me.

We only stayed for two days and went back, and Lin Meow was not worried about Kabu

。

This is the first time I've traveled with Lin Meow.

Although the distance is very short, the time is short.

But it made my heart beat hard.

I think what Lin Meow said is right, in the past, I didn't like her so much, at that time, marriage was more important to me, but now I suddenly feel that I have become very fond of Lin Meow.

It bothered me because I didn't dare to express it, but every time I saw her, it got stronger.

People are really strange, and the subconscious thoughts of people who are sincere are to avoid them.

So, for the next more than half a month, I didn't contact Lin Meow.

Time can dilute everything, so let's dilute my feelings a little.

Speaking of which, and Lin Meow realize that now, every time I look for Lin Meow, Lin Meow has never looked for me, and now I am no longer looking for her, she should not be looking for me.

By the way, this year is also the seventh year we have known each other, has Lin Meow changed, of course she has changed, at that time, what did she ask me, I can't remember.

At the end of June, Lin Meow sent me a WeChat message.

"Lin, how are you doing?"

I looked at the screen and didn't reply.

I haven't contacted Lin Meow for more than half a month, not only did not dilute my feelings for her, but made the memories of the past clearer and clearer.

I remember, seven years ago, what I said to Lin Meow was that she was still young at that time, there were still many people who had not been encountered, there were many things that had not been experienced, and there were still many changes waiting for her, she said, seven years, a person's cells have been metabolized once, at that time, let me tell her that she has not changed.

On the 30th, Lin Meow's birthday, I still called Lin Meow.

Lin Meow didn't answer.

I went to the bar near her house, which was also near her university, and wanted to drink by myself.

As soon as I entered, I saw Lin Meow, and in an instant, time seemed to go back to seven years ago, when I first met her, it was also her birthday.

She turned her back to the door and didn't see me, so I told the waiter to give Lin Meow a cup of Tequira Sunrise.

The waiter brought the wine over, Lin Meow turned around and saw me, unlike the day I first met, she didn't let the waiter pass the word, but smiled at me, and then beckoned me to come over.

"I called you, but you didn't answer." I sat down and said.

"I didn't have my phone with me." Lin Meow said.

"You're still paying with cash these days?" I asked.

Lin Meow smiled, noncommittal.

"Happy birthday, Lin Meow, I hope you will be happy every day in the future." My tone is sincere,

Lin Meow looked at me and smiled, "Thank you." ”

She didn't ask me why I didn't contact her, just drank quietly.

"I was hospitalized some time ago, so I didn't contact you." I panicked.

"I sent you WeChat." Lin Meow said lightly.

"Ah, ah, I see it." I hastened to say.

Lin Meow smiled and was silent for a while.

"Lin, actually, I understood very early on that I am a very small existence, I can't change anything, I can't control anything, the only thing I can control is myself."

"At first, you didn't contact me, I didn't know why, and I didn't want to guess, the only thing I could do was not to make myself too sad."

"Lin Meow..."I felt a little guilty.

"So, no matter what your reason is, it doesn't matter, because you haven't done anything wrong, and you are not obligated to stay with me all the time, let alone lie and comfort me when you feel unwilling." Lin Meow's tone was still calm.

"I don't!" I was a little anxious, and the volume was much higher.

Lin Meow tilted her head, her eyes turned to look at me, as if she was looking and thinking.

Finally, she smiled, "Thank you for coming to spend my birthday with me." ”

Lin Meow raised his glass at me.

I was speechless for a moment, and my whole body was like a wilted eggplant.

After a while, Lin Meow said that she was going home, and when I sent her to the elevator, she didn't say anything, she pressed the elevator directly, looked at the ground, and went upstairs.

After that, I asked Lin Meow to drink with him, but Lin Meow refused on the grounds that he wanted to study.

Until the end of July, I went swimming every day, trying to catch Lin Meow, but Lin Meow seemed to know that I was looking for her, yes, during the time I went, she never appeared.

Finally, I took a week off and went to the pool early every morning, but in the afternoon of the next day, I saw Lin Meow come in.

I didn't call her, and when she swam a kilometer to rest, I swam to the lane next to her and greeted her.

Lin Meow didn't speak, just nodded.

"Lin Meow, are you angry?" I asked.

Lin Meow didn't speak.

She swam to the edge of the pool, out of the pool, to the lounge area, and slowly lay down on the deck chair.

I hurried ashore and sat down on the chaise longue next to her.

"Lin Meow, I'm sorry, don't be angry."

Lin Meow also sat up, she faced me, "Lin, you didn't do anything wrong, but you can lose contact without a sound, and make up such a clumsy lie to deceive me, it doesn't matter, that's your freedom, but I also have my freedom, my freedom is, after you do this, I won't contact you." Lin Meow's tone was calm, but fast.

I smiled.

"What are you laughing at, is it funny, that's what you said, I'm a very important friend to you?"

I regained my serious expression.

"I'm sorry, it's me who didn't do it."

"Although I haven't contacted you before, but before that, I also told you the reason and reason before I didn't contact you."

"But what's wrong with you, did you have a girlfriend again, or did I make you angry and don't know it?"

Lin Meow looked at me and asked.

I bowed my head.

"You swim first, I'll wait for you downstairs, drink together in the evening, and then we'll talk about it then."

With that, I got up and went to the locker room.

Late, six o'clock, clear bar, outside seats, a little cloudy.

"Say it." As soon as Lin Meow sat down, he threw me these two words.

I ordered a bottle of Bush.

"Have some wine first." I say.

I drank half of the bottle in one go, and the strength of the wine was very fast.

Lin Meow looked at me and didn't drink.

"Lin, what do you mean, you remind me of that graduate student ex-boyfriend, he just took me to the beach once, and we separated."

"What's so hard for you to say, is it because you're married again or are you and Xiao Chu..."

"Lin Meow, I love you." I interrupted Lin Meow.

Lin Meow swallowed back the unfinished words.

"Lin Meow, listen to me."

"I know, I'm older than you, and I've been married." I took another big sip of wine.

"During this time, I didn't contact you, I just wanted to suppress this emotion, but it didn't work at all."

"I also know, I said that I won't cross the line, but I'm sorry Lin Meow, I'm really in love with you."

"Even if you don't want to get married, you don't want to have children, I love you." I looked at the tail ring on Lin Meow's little thumb.

I picked up the bottle, only to find that there was no more wine.

"I'm sorry, Lin Meow, I don't know, will this ruin our original relationship."

"This is the seventh year we've known each other, do you remember what we said seven years ago?"

"Actually, seven years ago, when I first met you, I liked you very much, but now, this liking has slowly turned into love."

"You said at the time, seven years later, I'll tell you if you've changed."

"But now, I want to ask you, can you accept my love?"

I felt some moistness in my eye circles.

Lin Meow looked at me with a somewhat overwhelmed expression.

That day, Lin Meow only said, "I want to think about it." ”

After that, she got up and left.

We never saw each other again.

I occasionally send WeChat messages to Lin Meow, and Lin Meow is in a normal tone.

It's as if nothing has happened.

Until the second year, in late January.

Lin Meow had nothing to do after finishing her graduate school exams, and planned to go abroad to Bali to bury her mother at sea.

We met at a coffee shop to see her off.

"Are you going to Bali?" I asked.

"Well, my mother died in the winter, and at that time, she told me that she was cold and I wanted to take her to a warm place." Lin Meow said a little sadly.

"Lin Meow, do you know, I've been in the habit of writing a diary in the past few years, and the things we talked about between us have also been written down, I think I still have to tell you, I want to write your story into a book, I hope you don't mind, okay."

Maybe it was because I saw that my tone was cautious and a little nervous, Lin Meow didn't speak, just smiled lightly, and she picked up the cup and took a sip of coffee.

"Lin, you don't have to be so nervous, tell you the story, then it's yours."

"Thank you." I laughed a little too.

"Lin Meow, I always feel that a story will only attract people who can resonate with him, and the people who resonate must be similar people. I've known you for so long, you're a kind girl, I think, if there are more people in this world who are soft and kind in heart, there will definitely be more people who like to read what I write, sometimes, a story, is a world. “

"Yes, then I'd rather hope that there are fewer people who like to watch, and there are too many regrets and sadness in my life. I hope that no one understands my sadness, and other people still think that these things are inexplicable, and then go and live a happy life, so that the world can be better. Lin Meow said with a smile.

"The last time we met, do you remember what you said?" Lin Meow asked me.

I nodded.

"To this day, I still think the same way I did that day." I said firmly.

"I'll give you an answer when I get back."

My heart was a little sour, but I couldn't speak for a while, so I had to pick up the cup and wish Lin Meow a smooth journey.

Unexpectedly, Lin Meow sent me a WeChat message when she was in transit, and due to the serious trend of unknown pneumonia, she decided to cancel the flight and come back.

I bought a plane ticket to pick her up.

On the plane, my palms were slightly sweaty.

Lin Meow said she would give me an answer.

How will she answer in a moment?

"Seven Years" 2013~2019, end.

The story never really ends, and there is always an ending after the ending.

Thanks to those who passed by to watch, we are destined to see you again.