【Nanzhi III】(Asking for a commuter pass)
Jiang Yuebai looked at the pill in his hand and sighed suddenly.
She probably knew why Anan was trapped in such a dream, just like she was at the beginning, she had too many regrets in her heart, and wanted to ask for a chance to go back to the past to make up for everything.
Jiang Yuebai already understood that there was no point in making up for the past.
It is the regrets and mistakes of the past, the pain and hardship, that have created the irreplaceable self today.
Both she and Anan should go back and hug their childhood selves and say to themselves, don't blame you, you've done a good job.
Anan still doesn't understand this truth, and he can't let go of her in the past.
Jiang Yuebai's heart was a little sour, Anan had always been her own listener, but she rarely showed her heart.
In Jiang Yuebai's memory, Anan will always be a mature person with clear goals, perseverance and bravery, clear mind, and indomitable in everything.
But maturity, isn't it in exchange for the lesson of blood and tears?
Anan has never complained about everything she has encountered, but not complaining does not mean that those negative emotions do not exist, she relies on strong willpower to suppress them in the depths of her heart.
Just like when she avenged the murder of her father, she could wait for Elder Taishang to help, but she still chose the most extreme approach.
She doesn't want to cause trouble to anyone, she can let others owe her, but she doesn't want to owe others at all, she is afraid of trouble, she is afraid that she will not be able to pay it, and she is afraid that she will pay the price she is not willing to pay.
At this point, Anan is not mature, and her heart is also very closed, a bit like Yunshang, another form of fear of others.
So Anan has lived for so many years, and in the upper realm, except for these young companions of Tianyan Sect, he has few friends at all later.
It was these emotions that she suppressed that finally turned into this dream, so that Anan could not escape.
Anan thought it was self-help, but in fact he was deeply trapped in it and couldn't extricate himself.
The more perfect the dream, the more difficult it is to accept reality, and it will endlessly magnify the pain of reality.
As a demon, Anan still has a demon, and this demon is herself, because only she knows her own flaws and knows how to pierce her heart.
Jiang Yuebai closed her eyes slightly and felt that at the end of the dream, Anan won the kendo as she wished, in this dream, she probably didn't realize the oath she made back then.
If you don't reach the pinnacle of swordsmanship, you won't be demonized.
The first few dreams, in the end, Yumeng tried his best to interrupt, so that Anan did not go to the end, even Yumeng knew that once Anan achieved her vow in the dream, that was when she was completely demonized.
Anan will not fall into the devil, Jiang Yuebai is sure of this, if it really comes to that moment, Anan will definitely not hesitate to lose the foundation and forcibly cut the vain.
It's better to be blocked!
Jiang Yuebai looked at the Ascending Immortal Steps, took the pill, and decided to be a bad guy in Anan's dream!
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On the Immortal Steps, after the illusion retreated, Lu Nanzhi immediately turned her head to look for Jiang Yuebai, she remembered the first few times, as long as she told her, Jiang Yuebai would appear at the position of the ninety-ninth step, enter the inner door with her, and live together.
Lu Nanzhi's eyes crossed one person after another behind her, and when she saw Jiang Yuebai, her pupils shook in disbelief.
Eighty-one order, why is she still in the eighty-first order?
Isn't that her dream? Why didn't she come as she wanted?
Thinking of what happened to Jiang Yuebai later, Lu Nanzhi suddenly panicked and tried to forcibly change the dream, and everything around him began to become illusory and unreal.
Xie Jingshan and Shen Huaixi behind her flashed all over the stairs, and the others were the same, allowing her will to change.
Only Jiang Yuebai stood on the eighty-first step without moving, and she couldn't move a single inch despite her best efforts.
What's wrong with this dream?
Lu Nanzhi's heart trembled terribly, and she didn't realize that her emotional loss of control had made her different from before.
At this time, everyone's eyes were full of flowers, and when they fixed their eyes again, they had already appeared in the square inside the mountain gate, and Hong Tao began to explain the rules of Tianyan Sect and began to distribute tokens.
Lu Nanzhi was the first to receive the token, and before she could do anything, Lu Yinghuai, the true monarch of their Lu clan in the Tianyan Sect, appeared in front of her and forcibly took her away.
On the edge of the silent and uninhabited woods, Lu Yinghuai's face sank like water, and he handed a letter to Lu Nanzhi.
Lu Nanzhi's face was full of puzzlement, and when he took the letter and looked at it, he was shocked.
His father was injured by the Fang family's people, and the Lu family had to give her to the Fang family, and her mother and her brothers and sisters all complained about her in their hearts, asking her to marry the Fang family's people, otherwise his father's position as the patriarch would not be kept.
"Why?!"
The little Lu Nanzhi trembled uncontrollably.
Lu Yinghuai didn't explain anything, only said, "Don't worry, before you build the foundation and become an adult, the marriage contract is just a marriage contract, the Fang clan will not force you to come to the door, as long as you marry well at that time, you are in the Fang clan, your father's patriarchal position, no one can move." ”
Lu Nanzhi clenched the letter paper suddenly, his eyes were red, but he was holding back tears vigorously, his face was stubborn and unwilling.
Why?
Even in her dreams, would Heavenly Dao be so cruel to her?
Later, Lu Nanzhi found that this dream was completely out of her control, and everything was returning to the beginning.
No matter what she tried, nothing could change.
Xiaobai still did miscellaneous labor and was taken to Huaxi Valley, she asked Xie Jingshan to help get the longevity pill, find the Taishang elder, find the sect master's mother-in-law, and explain Lin Xiangtian's despicability.
But all this led to the outbreak of everything in advance.
Tao Fengnian's longevity pill was snatched away by Jia Xiuchun's younger brother, a big war broke out, and they all died together, Xiaobai was seriously injured and almost died, Lin Xiangtian fled with Jia Xiuchun before the law enforcement hall came to the door.
Xiaobai was implicated, but she was still punished to the Yinshan mine, and she was also dragged and could not be rescued in time.
She asked Xie Jingshan for help, but only got the news that Xiaobai was missing in the Yinshan mine.
Lu Nanzhi, like every time he was defeated and bullied when he was a child, he hid in a place where no one could find him, hugged his knees, and cried helplessly.
The first few times she felt good dreams, suddenly became terrifying.
There are no demons and monsters, no bloody horror, but it is this feeling of knowing what will happen in front of her, but she can't do anything about it, the most terrifying, especially the upcoming event, the one she didn't dare to tell anyone.
It was so terrifying that she wanted to escape, but she couldn't.
Everyone thinks that she Lu Nanzhi is a clear-minded, resolute and brave person, and even indifferent and ruthless.
But she was also afraid, and there were times when she was helpless.
She can't solve everything on her own, she has no way, she is forced to rely on herself.
She also wants someone to protect her, someone to plan for her, and someone to help her solve all difficulties.
"Dad, mother, brother, sister...... Why don't you all help me? ”
Lu Nanzhi muttered, and his ears were full of cold words from his childhood.
"Ah Zhi, sooner or later you have to marry the Fang clan, what's the use of learning these ways of killing, it's better to learn from your mother and how to survive in the back house."
"Lu Nanzhi, you are surnamed Lu, but you are not destined to become a member of the Lu family, don't think that your father is the patriarch, we are afraid of you, and hand over the things."
"Okay, Dad knows, Dad still has a lot of things to deal with, and it's not a big deal, you go down first."
"Go aside, Sister is very busy, bear with me."
"Brother is not available, what are you crying about, useless things."
Others said that she was favored by heaven, and she was born as the daughter of the patriarch of the Lu clan, and as soon as she was born, she was born with a natural water spirit body that others couldn't ask for.
Only Lu Nanzhi knew that as soon as she was born, she was abandoned by everyone, just because of this damn water spirit body.
Mature, strong, and resolute, these are not born with her, they are all for the sake of living with dignity, and they are forced, with blood and tears, layer by layer of armor on their bodies.
"Anan ......"
Lu Nanzhi, who was crying until he almost collapsed, suddenly heard a familiar voice, turned his head in disbelief, and saw Jiang Yuebai, who had a soft smile on his face, standing in the dark woods.
The white dress, like a beam of light, went straight to the bottom of her heart.
Today there is still a shift to end Nanzhi Fanwai, it will be a little later, don't be impatient.