Yuan Jiu made up his mind to give up his artistic dream and turned to business, but he actually experienced a long time of struggle and hesitation. The person who really contributed to him gritting his teeth and making this decision was actually Su Feng.

Yuan Jiu still remembers that when he first saw this stunned boy, he was inexplicably attracted. He admired the unruly energy in him, and the energy that he seemed to never run out. Every day after school, Yuan Jiu either saw him leading the children to play ball in the yard, or a group of people riding bicycles speeding by, his leadership ability, and the courage to not be afraid of anything, made Yuan Jiu envious and jealous.

When we first met, although he was one year older than Su Feng, Su Feng never called him brother, and every time we met, he always raised his chin and said "hey", even if he said hello. Yuan Jiu was annoyed by this at first, and protested a few times, but he was ignored by Su Feng, so he made up his mind that he would not deal with him in the future, but who would have thought that Jiang Fangfang would pull him into his social circle later.

At that time, Jiang Fangfang's personality was completely a tomboy, and she didn't like to talk much, and she looked like a cool girl outside. However, after she knew that Su Feng liked to play electric, she asked her father to equip a brand new electric at home. Sure enough, because of the attraction of the game, Su Feng often finds excuses to come and visit the door, and after coming and going, the three of them get acquainted.

At that time, Yuan Jiu was still a weak art student, sensitive and fragile, and playing games was not his strong point, many times he sat on the side and silently watched the two people play heartily on the screen, which was difficult to solve. Su Feng would jump up and high-five him when he won, and occasionally comfort Jiang Fangfang, who was crying and sad after losing the game, that time was a rare moment of warmth in Yuan Jiu's memory.

Since he was a child, his parents have been busy making a living, he has lived with his grandmother most of the time, and after school, he was boarded at his uncle's house, so he has long been accustomed to observing words and feelings. It was at that time that he found out that his cousin liked Su Feng.

When he first learned about this secret, he was a little surprised, but then he also wanted to confess, and it turned out that this was the reason why his cousin tried his best to get his uncle to buy all the new games on the market.

Yuan Jiu's feelings for Su Feng have always been complicated, he enjoys watching him play ball or play games quietly, but if Su Feng slaps him or bumps him because of excitement, he will be very repulsed. This kind of rejection was something he had never felt before, this secret had always been pressed in his heart, and it had become a nightmare for him after a long time, which was manifested in his attitude towards Su Feng getting worse and worse, especially when he saw the girls who were always surrounded by courtesy, this feeling of disgust became even stronger.

Jiang Fangfang saw his overreaction as a support for her righteousness, that is, during that time, her cousin, who had no sense of existence in her eyes, gradually became the confider of her heart. Yuan Jiu pretended to listen indifferently to Jiang Fangfang's description of his vague emotions, while secretly despising his own undercurrents that could not be put on the stage, in order to restrain his undeserved distractions, he even used a knife to cut his thighs one by one when he was alone, watching the blood gurgling out, he almost didn't feel the pain, only felt that the secret that was going to explode himself was finally relieved, and now the scars on his thighs are all evidence of that period of youth and restlessness. Fortunately, no one was aware of this secret except himself, including Su Feng himself.