June 28, 2005, fine.

After eating lunch early, Yan Xin carried the fishing rod he made to the small river outside the village to fish.

On a summer afternoon, the temperature was very high, and although he was sitting under the shade of a big poplar tree by the river, he felt quite hot, and he was very depressed, thinking:

"Why hasn't that guy come yet?"

"It's so hot, doesn't he know it's hard to wait for someone?"

It looks like he's fishing, but in fact he's waiting for someone.

Wait for a short-lived person.

Yan Xin is a reborn person, who returned to 2005 from the future more than ten years later, and returned to the summer of his eighteen-year-old.

If the world is still running according to the trajectory in his memory, then, on the afternoon of this day, there will be a teenager who failed the college entrance examination and committed suicide by jumping into the river here.

He wanted to stop it from happening.

The young man's name is Feng Chen, and he is his classmate from elementary school to junior high school, but the friendship between the two is very average, and they can only be regarded as acquaintances, not very good friends.

But this Feng Chen has a younger sister named Feng Xi.

In Yan Xin's memory of the future, it was a woman who had been entangled with him for several years, his wife, and later became his ex-wife.

It was a not-so-pleasant memory.

It's not that Feng Xi is bad, Yan Xin thinks that this woman is not easy, after getting married, he took care of his father who was sick in bed for several years, and gave his father a lot of hardships and grievances, and he has always felt guilty about this woman.

It is precisely because of this sense of guilt that he will wait here on this hot day, waiting for the appearance of the short-lived ghost who he should have called his eldest brother in his previous life.

Sure that he was reborn and returned to 2005, Yan Xin was still very happy at that time, feeling that with memories of the next ten years, he would live better than in his previous life.

There is also a chance to make up for some regrets when you think about it.

originally wanted to go out to work immediately, but suddenly remembered that Feng Xi's brother Feng Chen committed suicide by jumping into the river on June 28, so he changed his mind and rescued this short-lived ghost first.

It's not bad for a few days.

In the previous life, the married life with Feng Xi was not happy, and in this life, he didn't want to have any more involvement with Feng Xi, especially the pair of fathers-in-law and mothers-in-law.

But he still hopes that this woman, who has been his wife for several years, can live a little happier.

Rescue Feng Chen, Feng Xi does not need to bear the burden of providing for his parents alone in this life.

Even if she bears half of it with her brother, she will be much less stressed, and she won't have to live so hard.

He heard Feng Xi say that Feng Chen committed suicide by jumping into the river on this day.

The exact time is not known.

I only knew that we were still eating together at noon, and I seemed to be in a very depressed mood, and I didn't see anyone in his room in the afternoon, and I saw a suicide note.

Then he called many people to look for him, and only found his slippers under a big poplar tree by the river, knowing that he was jumping into the river here.

It was only in the evening that he was scooped up, but by that time he was no longer saved.

And Yan Xin is sitting under the big poplar tree now, and there are no slippers under the tree, which means that Feng Chen has not jumped into the river yet.

In order to avoid being in time, Yan Xin finished lunch at half past eleven today, and it was not yet twelve o'clock when he came here.

didn't know Feng Chen's specific time for jumping into the river, so he could only wait like this.

It was really unpleasant to stay here on a hot day, even if he knew that he was saving a life and a family's happiness, he was still unhappy.

I don't know how long I waited before I heard footsteps coming this way.

When I poked my head out from behind the tree, I saw a boy of eighteen or nineteen years old, walking like a walking corpse walking towards the big poplar tree.

Looking at each other, both of them were stunned.

Yan Xin looked at this face, compared it with Feng Chen in his memory, and finally matched it.

This is his classmate Feng Chen from elementary school to junior high school.

Yan Xin's grades in the high school entrance examination were not good, and he studied in the second middle school, while Feng Chen was admitted to the first middle school, so the two did not study together in high school.

Feng Chen recognized Yan Xin and asked, "Yan Xin, what are you doing here?" ”

He was also quite depressed.

I made up my mind to commit suicide by jumping into the river, but there was a man here by the river.

He remembered that this guy named Yan Xin knew how to water.

And there are people on the other side of the embankment, and it is not a problem to shout more than a dozen people to save their lives.

If you jump down at this time, there is a high probability that you will not be able to die.

It wouldn't be like suicide, it would be a performance.

Yan Xin raised the thin bamboo pole in his hand and said, "I'm fishing here, what about you?" What are you here for? ”

Feng Chen said depressedly: "Don't do anything, I'm in a bad mood, come here and sit down." ”

"What's wrong?" Yan Xin asked knowingly.

Feng Chen squatted down, holding his head in his hands, and sighed:

"If you don't do well in the college entrance examination, you won't be able to go to university."

Yan Xin disagreed: "If you can't go to college, you can't go to college, how big is this?" I didn't do well either. ”

Feng Chen glanced at him and thought to himself, "Can I compare with you?" You are a student in No. 2 and I am a student in No. 1 Middle School. ”

The difference in teaching quality between No. 2 Middle School and No. 1 Middle School is too great, and Yan Xin's scumbag from No. 2 Middle School dares to compare with the outstanding students of his No. 1 Middle School, which makes him feel a little ashamed.

But the fact is that both of them did not do well in the exam.

It made him feel even more humiliated.

I still couldn't help but defend myself, and said: "Originally, I shouldn't have this score, I was able to score more than 500 points in several simulations, but the pressure was too great during the college entrance examination, and I lost sleep for several nights in a row, and as a result, my head was buzzing in the examination room......"

As he spoke, he began to cry:

"I could have been admitted to university...... That's not my real strength......"

This is what makes him feel the most aggrieved.

If you just didn't do well in the exam, you wouldn't be so unthinkable.

When Yan Xin heard him say this, he also had some sympathy, and said: "Then study for another year, take the exam again next year, and strive to be admitted to a good university." ”

Feng Chen was even more sad: "My dad said...... My dad said that I didn't do well because I was stupid and couldn't pass the exam for another year, so he wouldn't let me repeat it...... He also looked down on me......"

This Yan Xin can understand.

They are all from the countryside, and the conditions of the Feng family are not very good, and they still have to provide for Feng Chen and Feng Xi, the brother and sister, to study, and their family already owes some debts.

Feng Chen was able to be admitted to university, had a bright future as collateral, and could borrow money for him to study.

Now that the exam is poor, it is not so easy to borrow money if you repeat it.

Even if his father supported him to repeat his studies, he wouldn't be able to make so much money.

It's useless to call him stupid, it's useless to say that he is repeating, and he is just looking for a reason not to repeat to cover up his incompetence.

However, Yan Xin can understand that it is because he has lived for more than ten years, knows the hardships of life, and knows that a penny can really suffocate a hero.

Feng Chen was just a child who grew up under the protection of his parents, he didn't know anything about the hardships of life, he was in a very bad mood when he failed the college entrance examination, and he was so denied by his father that he couldn't think about it all of a sudden.

Looking at this young man squatting on the ground and crying, Yan Xin sighed in his heart: "This is still too well protected......"

said: "Then what are you going to do in the future?" ”

"I don't know what to do...... I feel like it's boring to be alive......" Feng Chen replied sullenly with his head buried in his head.

Yan Xin smiled: "You won't think about committing suicide, right?" ”

Feng Chen did not answer.

Yan Xin smiled again and said, "You came to the river, you don't want to jump into the river, right?" ”

Feng Chen heard the mockery and glanced up at him:

"Do you look down on me?"

"Well, sort of." Yan Xin replied honestly.

"Why do you look down on me?" Feng Chen was unhappy.

"It's just that you want to commit suicide," Yan Xin said, "It's such a big person, if you suffer a little setback, you will find death and life, and if you fail the exam, you will commit suicide if you don't repeat it, which can make people look at it." ”

Feng Chen said: "Even if I want to commit suicide, it's my own business......"

"Bullshit your own business! You're sending your whole family to hell! ”

Maybe thinking of the things in his previous life, Yan Xin was a little excited, pointed at him and said:

"You only know that you have to repeat your studies, you have to go to university, have you ever wondered where the money for your studies will come from? How many people do your parents have to whisper to you to satisfy your desire to repeat? And, do you think you'll be able to borrow money if you keep your voice down? ”

"You only know that you want to realize your dreams, but you don't want to think about your family's ability to bear it, even if you sacrifice your whole family, it may not be able to achieve it. You are typical of selfishness and inhumanity! ”

"Your parents raised you so big, for you to study, you owe a lot of debt, you are quite free, pat your ass and jump into the river, there is no more trouble, have you ever thought about your parents? What will they think? ”

"I worked so hard to raise you so much just to make you commit suicide?"

"How are they going to bear the pain of losing their son?"

"When the time comes, your mother will accuse your father of forcing you to death by not agreeing to your restudy, and your father will live in regret for the rest of his life."

"You're going to say they deserve it, well, I'm not going to argue with you."

"But what about your sister?"

"Your parents have a son and a daughter, and without you as a son, the responsibility of providing for the elderly is placed on your sister. You are free and easy now, but your sister will be harmed by you for the rest of her life! ”

"When she gets married in the future, she will have to harm another family."

"A man, when he encounters something that he has no responsibility at all, he wants to evade responsibility, he wants to throw the burden on others, and he wants people to look up to you?"

"Phew!"

The more Yan Xin spoke, the more excited he became, and Feng Chen was stunned.

I didn't expect to be despised by a scumbag.

And this scumbag still despises him in the way of telling him the great truth of life.

What made him feel even more humiliated was that he suddenly felt that this scumbag was right.

It's a bit irresponsible to just die.

He looked at Yan Xin blankly, trying to find out the point of rebuttal, but found that he couldn't find it.

After a while, he said, "Okay, I admit you have a point, but that's also my family's business, why are you so excited?" ”

This made Yan Xin stop - you can't say that I am another family that was affected by your sister, right?

He was stunned for a moment and said, "Is this the point?" Why am I excited, is this something you need to focus on? Isn't the point that you shouldn't kill yourself? I can't grasp the key points, no wonder you did so badly in the exam! ”

"You have a point, but, but I've already written a suicide note......"

Feng Chen covered his face with both hands,

"You said that the atmosphere has reached this point, if I don't jump, will I be laughed at? Will people say that I faked suicide to force my dad to let me repeat it? ”

"Forehead ......"

Yan Xin, who had lived for more than thirty years in his previous life, didn't think it was a big deal, but he also knew that it was normal for a teenager to worry about this.

So he said: "Then you go back early, and before they find the suicide note, tear up the so-called suicide note, won't it be fine?" ”

"Oh."

Feng Chen nodded, stood up and prepared to go home.

Suddenly, I heard a cry from the other side of the embankment:

"Chenchen!"

"Chenchen, where are you?"

"Don't you think about it!"

Feng Chen looked at Yan Xin and was anxious:

"It's too late, they've already seen the suicide note I left......"

Yan Xin had some accidents - he came over so quickly, why did this eldest brother still die in his last life?

Looking at the anxious Feng Chen, he said tentatively:

"Why don't you jump?"

"Huh?"

Feng Chen looked at him in surprise and thought, "Actually let me jump, why is this person so bad?" ”

Yan Xin added: "Then I'll save you." ”

Feng Chen: "Oh. ”