Yes, if you think about it, my stepmother treats me really well, never favors one over the other, and even in order to please me, sometimes the fourth sister doesn't have things, I also have.

But at that time, my mind was blinded, my mind was not clear, and I was confused for many years.

At that time, my self was bent on going my own way, and I felt that my family only loved and valued my fourth sister and didn't take me to heart, so I desperately wanted to make myself happy again.

Everyone knows what happened later, my father who did not hesitate to be injured said the words of father-daughter relationship, and finally married into the Jin Palace, as a side concubine.

Yes, I did, concubine.

I don't like to hear the word concubine, but it is true that I am the concubine of my beloved.

It's ridiculous to say it now, even if I become the wife of King Jin at that time, I will continue to be a string, just like my stepmother Cui.

Not only that, but the first princess left a daughter, and I will also become a stepmother.

But at that time, there was love and water, where did you want to get this?

I also had a long and sweet time with King Jin, even if he later became the princess, I was the most favored woman in the palace.

Princess Li Lingxi was born in the Rongguo Mansion, she is arrogant and domineering, and she loves to make things difficult for me, especially after the King of Jin accompanied the army to the west.

But I could bear it then.

At that time, the crown prince had a broken arm and was crippled, gave up the position of prince, and crowned King Chen, and King Jin was the most likely person in the court to become the next crown prince.

King Jin and I both thought that after the military achievements of the Western Expedition, and then returning to the dynasty, the position of the crown prince would be regarded as something in the bag, looking forward to such a beautiful future, what kind of hardship could not be endured?

But after King Jin left, I found out that I was pregnant.

I knew that the princess had no children and would not let me go, so I bowed my head and asked my mother's family for help.

They did help me, but I still had a miscarriage.

It was the hand of the princess.

I hated it very much, but I couldn't tell all this to the king of Jin far to the west, for I was afraid that he would be distracted by me.

Break your teeth and swallow your stomach.

When King Jin comes back, everything will be fine, I kept telling myself that at that time.

But it all seemed to have started to go in a bad direction since I lost the child.

The army came to report that the king of Jin had been captured, and later said that he had been rescued, but he was assassinated on the way back to Beijing, and was not only seriously injured, but also disfigured his face.

At that moment, I felt like I had been struck by lightning.

There is almost no difference between the disfigurement of the face and the broken arm of King Chen, and the monarch on the throne must not be disabled and have scars on his face.

In the confusion, I learned that all this was done by the Seven Princes, and the Seven Princes were also given death by the emperor because of this incident.

I should have been happy to get my revenge, but when King Jin came back, looking at the indelible horrific scars on his face, my heart sank to the bottom again.

Sure enough, the emperor set up the son of King Chen as the grandson, and my husband, King Jin, finally lost the qualification to chase that position.

But he is unwilling, and I know his unwillingness.

It's just that I can't do anything but silently comfort and take care of me.

During that time, my friendship must have touched him very much, and he was with me almost day and night, like an ordinary couple.

How good, the coldness in my heart was melted by his heat, and I thought that it would be good to have two more children with a pair of rich idlers.

But it backfired, and when the palace was surrounded by the forbidden army, I was in unprecedented panic, but in my crying, he was still taken away.

The following days were very difficult, I was completely out of touch with the outside world, and I lived like a year, in a trance.

Until that day, my worst fears happened.

The king of Jin attempted rebellion and committed suicide in prison.

At that moment, I only felt that all the strength in my body was drained in an instant, leaving only a limp shell, crying dazedly.

But then someone came to me, and he told me that the last words of King Jin were to beg me to live well, take care of his daughter, take his daughter away, live incognito, and live a good life.

This is undoubtedly the spiritual pillar that supports me to force myself to be strong.

Years later, when I look back on the situation, if I hadn't said that, I would have died a long time ago.

The Jin Wangfu is gone, the King of Jin is gone, and I, the concubine of the King of Jin, are naturally gone.

I changed my name and surname, and with the young county lord, I was sent to Jiangnan and settled in a place called Qingrong County.

A two-entry house with a small garden has already been arranged here, which is beautiful and elegant, and has the beauty of a water town.

But when I first came here, I didn't have the heart to appreciate it.

Survival is not worried, although it can't be the same as before, but after the gold and silver jewelry in his hand is pawned and sold, it can be regarded as the belongings of ordinary rich and noble families.

My father sent two maids to serve me, which gave me a lot of comfort.

But this is the case, I couldn't help this after all, I fell seriously ill, and I almost died.

I was groggy for more than a month, had nightmares and couldn't sleep, and I couldn't eat or drink.

watched a lot of Langzhong, and later bluntly said that he would prepare for the future.

The little county lord panicked, although she didn't like me much, but the relationship in the house was harmonious in the past, and now I am the only one who is familiar with me, so I am naturally reluctant.

She stayed by my side day and night, and one night, when I woke up, I saw her holding one of my hands with tears on her face, and she fell asleep on the edge of the bed.

At that moment, looking at her face, I thought of King Jin, remembered his entrustment, and finally decided not to break my word.

Heart disease still needs heart medicine, and after that night, my illness slowly improved.

After raising for half a year, he was finally cured.

Except for the people in this small quadrangular mansion, probably no one else knows that I have been through this.

After recovering from my illness, in order to support my family, I spent money to buy a farmstead with two shops, and took care of it carefully.

It's not difficult for me, after all, I've learned how to handle the feed since I was a child, so slowly, life is getting better.

I renamed myself Shuyi, which means Shuxin.

Naturally, the little county lord can't call her former name, and after I asked her opinion, I also gave her a new name, with my surname, called Shu Nuo.

A promise, this is what I promised King Jin, take care of his daughter.

I don't know if it's because it's far away from Bianjing and those disputes, or maybe it's the small bridges and flowing water in the south of the Yangtze River that can make people's impetuous hearts settle down.

Year after year, I seemed to forget everything I had done in the past, and slowly became an authentic Jiangnan woman.

After Shu Nuo grew up, he also persuaded me to remarry, after all, I am young and beautiful, and many people do like me, and even come to the door to propose marriage, but I refused.

I'm afraid I won't be willing to approach anyone's house in this life, so it's good to make my own decisions and live a lifetime.

As for the news coming out of the capital, listen to it and laugh at it.

I've planned to recruit a reliable son-in-law for Shu Nuo in the future, so I can just tease my grandson and take care of my old age.

After tossing for so many years, I am really tired.

The only thing I can't do is my father, I just hope that when I go to Huangquan in a hundred years, he will come to pick me up.

At that time, I will definitely kowtow to him and beg him to forgive me for my mistakes back then.