To be honest, I've never liked school uniforms. The school uniforms I have owned are all simple in design, rough in cut, loose in fit, and coarse in fabric, and I can't tell how ugly they are when I wear them. In addition, our school uniform is a bright grass green color, and many students, including me, look blue and have no vitality at all. Of course, there are also people who look good in it, such as those who look good in everything, and Xingyuan is one of them.

The day before Xingyuan's funeral, I cried all night. No matter how much I rummaged through the cabinets, I couldn't find a decent outfit for such an important occasion. In the end, I decided to wear my school uniform. As Xingyuan's best friend, I should send her off for the last time with the most decent image......

Dressed early, I waited for the first light of dawn to appear, and then hurried out of the house and took the first bus to the cemetery. In the early morning, the air in the cemetery is fresh and cool, and it can be regarded as an excellent summer resort in the hot summer. As far as the eye can see, there is lush green, and if you look closely, you can also find a few small delicate flowers hidden in the large area of green. However, no matter how pleasant the scenery is, passers-by will not appreciate it, after all, it is a place full of sadness. I looked blankly at the vast cemetery, panicked and anxious. I can't find my way and I forgot to bring my phone, what should I do if I'm late...... Thinking of this, I couldn't help but whimper. There were very few passers-by around, and they all looked sad, so I really didn't dare to come forward to disturb them. In desperation, I had to run along the main road to find it. I ran helplessly for an unknown amount of time, sweat soaking through my clothes, and finally, in the midst of exhaustion, I found the familiar touch of green. The grass green of our school uniform is so bright that it is conspicuous enough even in the green. For the first time, I felt its kindness and beauty, and I felt the urge to sing a song for it.

"Classmate, wait for me!" I chased after him in one go, only to find that the classmate in the school uniform was very unfamiliar.

After the classmate looked back at me, he asked hesitantly, "You also went to Xian Xingyuan...... Yes? ”

"Well, I'm hers...... Classmate. At that time, the reason why I answered like this was because I was worried that she might also be a good friend of Xingyuan. It seems that having the dual identity of a classmate and friend can enhance my status in Xingyuan's heart. At least more important than her.

"Oh......" The man nodded nonchalantly, acquiescing to let me go with him.

When I arrived at my destination, I was amazed to find that the staff was still busy preparing various things. Good thing I wasn't late...... I secretly breathed a sigh of relief. As my tense nerves relaxed, I felt a strong sense of sleepiness coming over me. I gently stepped into the quiet mourning hall, found a dark corner and sat down, and began to look around. Outside the door of the mourning hall, wreaths with the names of the givers are attached to them, and dozens of white lilies decorated with lilac ribbons are stacked inside. The fragrance of flowers fills the spacious mourning hall, masking the scent of incense and candles. If it weren't for the photo of Xingyuan placed in front of the mourning hall that kept reminding people to come, I'm afraid everyone would have forgotten that this was a funeral...... I recognized at a glance that the photo was taken during a theatrical performance. At that time, Xingyuan was wearing that brand-new silver dress and smiling brightly. After stepping down, she invited me to take a group photo, which has been saved in my mobile phone...... Just as I was indulging in the memories, someone tapped me on the shoulder.

"Yin Ran, we're sitting over there, do you want to come over?"

"Oh...... Okay......" I glanced at Mei Fangxun in reluctance, and then let her pull me to the other side of the mourning hall. At that time, I was only thinking about Xingyuan's affairs, and I didn't notice the strangeness around me. For example, it was Mei Fangxun who came to me instead of the rest of the string orchestra, and they looked at me very strangely. But even if I noticed, what could I do? What happened next was not something I could change.

In the dimness, I heard them whispering.

"Shall we go and greet my uncle and aunt?"

"Don't you see they're busy? Don't bother them......"

"Or ...... I'm going to take Xingyuan's sister over and take care of it? ”

"Isn't there Xingyuan's grandmother?"

"How...... Don't you know? Mei Fangxun looked at them in surprise, and stopped talking.

"Know what?"

I came back to my senses and waited for Mei Fangxun's reply in a daze.

"Xingyuan's grandmother passed away not long ago...... It is said that the funeral will not be held again until a certain period of time, otherwise it will be unlucky, so it has been postponed to this day......"

"Ah......h

Why did Xingyuan's grandmother die suddenly? When was this? Why didn't Xingyuan tell us?

Someone has asked me this barrage of questions.

"It seems to be a sudden illness, just before the final exam...... I also only found out in the past few days......" Mei Fangxun replied softly.

"Xingyuan must not bear to let us worry about her, so she didn't tell us......" Yu Menghan let out a long sigh.

"She should tell us ......" Xin Tian couldn't help crying as she spoke.

Tell us, and then what? What else can we do other than say a few words of comfort? But...... But even so, I hope to be sad and cry with her, and I hope to be a force to support her...... You should have told me......

Wrong! Even if she hadn't told me, I should have guessed! I claimed to be her best friend, but I thought she was depressed and even alienated from us because she found out about what happened that night...... Maybe all the conjectures are my wishful thinking! It was my suspicion and weakness that kept me from having the courage to get to know her and care for her...... When Xingyuan needed me the most, I couldn't help anything, what kind of friend is this! Thinking of this, I almost choked with remorse.

No matter what standard is measured, Xingyuan is an impeccable person, and only such a person will be remembered by everyone when he dies. On this day, the entire mourning hall was filled with people who came to mourn Xingyuan, many of whom were from our school. From the principal and teachers, to the students of different classes, they all came to see off Xingyuan. Not only that, but the principal also specially prepared a few pages of elegiac words to express his deep regret and regret for Xingyuan's "premature departure", and called it "a huge loss for the school".

I listened groggily as the delegates came to the stage one after another to recite the elegy, and my consciousness gradually blurred.

"Let's go, let's go and see the remains......"

It wasn't until Mei Fangxun whispered in my ear that I realized that my classmates, who had blocked my way out, were glaring at me with annoyed eyes.

"Hmm......" I gathered my mind and followed Mei Fangxun forward.

At some point, Xingyuan's coffin was carried to her photo. It was a dark brown coffin, and the coffin was covered with white bellflowers. I stood in line quietly, silently observing the movements of the people in front of me. I've never been to a funeral and don't know what to do. When I found that some people had not moved in front of the coffin for a long time, I was both anxious and excited. There was no one to urge them to leave...... Can I just be like them? I have too many things to say to Xingyuan, so naturally I don't think about whether I have a misunderstanding about the ceremony. So, at the moment when it was my turn, I quickly rushed to Xingyuan's coffin and pressed my forehead to the glass, hoping to get closer to Xingyuan. Xingyuan, who was lying inside, was wearing a white gauze dress, her long black hair was draped on a white cushion, and she looked like a bride to be married. Maybe because of the makeup, her face is still ruddy, as if she is just asleep and will wake up in the next second.

"Xingyuan ......"

I heard the owner of that voice. Xingyuan, your groom is here, wake up...... I leaned on the coffin, calling out to Xingyuan in my heart, but I didn't get a response. I pressed my chest in severe pain, and I was overwhelmed with grief, but strangely, I couldn't shed a single tear. The gloomy glass was blurred by the breath I exhaled, and I looked up blankly, startled by the person opposite. I saw that the man had a pale face, sunken cheeks, and hollow eyes, like a miserable ghost. Is he Xu Yinyao? I almost didn't recognize him. In just half a month, how can a person change so much? As the main force of the basketball team, he has lost so much weight, if it weren't for Fang Zheng's strong support on the side, I'm afraid that a breeze would blow him to the ground. I looked at myself in the glass with a dead face, and I couldn't help laughing at myself: Am I not looking like I am not human? It's just that I haven't looked in the mirror for a long time, and I don't know it......

That day, the three of us stayed until the cemetery closed. In fact, the funeral was over at noon, but Xu Yinyao and I refused to leave. Xingyuan's parents didn't have a problem with us, so they had to sit in front of Xingyuan's tombstone with us in a daze. Later, Fang Zheng offered to send the two of us home, but considering that it was too late, I politely declined his offer. Walking alone on the dark road, I was not afraid at all, because my heart was full of sorrow, and there was no space to perceive other things......