One Saturday, Chen Xu refused the invitation to go to Zhang Dawei's house for dinner, saying that he would accompany his grandmother more. On the way, she finally mustered up the courage to call Wu Sixian.

When Wu Sixian picked up the phone, Chen Xu's voice choked and shouted "Grandma". When Wu Sixian heard Chen Xu's voice, he was also very excited, "Xiao Xu, are you doing well?" Chen Xu suddenly couldn't suppress his feelings, and said with a crying voice: "Grandma, I'm fine." I'm sorry, I haven't called you in a long time, I don't have the face to call you. But I miss you so much. Wu Sixian said: "Silly boy, I really like you, not just because you are Yidao's girlfriend." Even if you and Yidao can't be together, grandma and grandma won't like it less. How are you now? The work is going well, right? Got a boyfriend? ”

Chen Xu briefly talked about his work situation, and also said that he was trying to socialize with a male classmate. Wu Sixian didn't blame her, but said: "Xiao Xu, you don't have to feel any psychological burden, and don't feel sorry for anyone, just follow your heart." But are you sure you know what you want? ”

After hanging up the phone, Chen Xu's ears kept lingering with Wu Sixian's words, before Chen Xu thought that he knew what he wanted, he just wanted a stable and peaceful life, and once thought that Zhang Dawei was the person who could bring him this kind of life. But in fact, I have been to Zhang Dawei's house several times, and I never feel that this is the life I want. She even thought that if Zhang's mother was a man, Chen Xu would be willing to live with her, work so actively, and love life so much. It's a pity that the two men in this family are not like that. Chen Xu felt that he had changed, in the past, he could leave the provincial capital very decisively and leave Han Yidao, but now in the face of Zhang Dawei, who has no feelings, he can't make up his mind.

Chen Xu looked down on herself for being so indecisive, and she often remembered those helpless pictures: when she was outside the courtroom, Zhou Feng threw her down; remembered the appearance of Chen Zhigang in a security guard uniform driving himself and his grandmother; I will also remember when she came home during the winter vacation of the first year of junior high school, her grandmother ignored her, and she had nowhere to go but to wander the streets. Because of this, Chen Xu couldn't make up his mind to break up with Zhang Dawei, Zhang's mother regarded Chen Xu as a beam of light shining into the house, Chen Xu saw that this family life was not easy, her first thought was not to escape, but to change. She didn't even care much about whether she had feelings or passion with Zhang Dawei, but she just felt that if Zhang Dawei could get rid of some bad problems, it would be tolerable, and she didn't dare to tell her grandmother her true thoughts, nor did she dare to tell Liu Jingsheng.

Chen Xu has been in a lot of pain recently, she knows that Zhang Dawei is not her lover, but he is deeply stuck in the mud.

The car arrived, and Chen Xu got off listlessly. When I got home, I was surprised to find that Chen Zhihua was also at home. Seeing Chen Zhihua, Chen Xu was expressionless, neither angry nor resentful. Chen Zhihua said a little embarrassed: "Chen Xu is back." Chen Xu nodded and did not speak. Chen Zhihua saw that Chen Xu was unwilling to deal with her, so he left under the pretext of having something.

Grandma told her naggingly, "Your aunt's life is not going well, Wang Yu and his daughter-in-law don't go to work, don't make money, don't watch the children, and the two of them eat and chew at home every day." Your aunt and your uncle are tired and thankless. Wang Yu, that kid wasn't good when he was studying, how much did you worry about? When I was in school, I went to an Internet café to engage in a target, and if people didn't fight, they would be useless at any time! ”

Chen Xu was silent again, if he really married into Zhang Dawei's family, he couldn't imagine that he and Zhang Dawei's mother worked hard to change the living conditions of the family, but Zhang Dawei and his father sat there and enjoyed it. Is that kind of life really going to get better and better? If you have children in the future, the burden will increase, and life will only get worse and worse.

Liu Jiaxin's grandmother came to visit the door again, and asked Chen Xu gossips, "Is there a partner?" Chen Xu nodded.

Grandma Liu immediately came to her senses, "What does the man do?" Chen Xu regretted that he had told the truth, if there was no object, would it be simpler? Now I have to bite the bullet and say: "He has no job for the time being, and he graduated with me and is preparing for the exam." As a result, Liu Jiaxin's grandmother came to the scene with a slight, "Then what if he can't pass the exam?" I know that there are many people who have been taking the test, but there are people who have been taking the test for many years in a row, and they have not been admitted until they are overage. Chen Xu sighed: "Then there is no way, let's find another job!" Liu Jiaxin's grandmother looked at Chen Xu and said, "Is their family rich?" If you have money, it doesn't matter if you have a job or not? If you don't have a job and you don't have money, you won't work. Chen Xu didn't want to talk about this topic. So I went to wash my grandmother's clothes. The two old ladies were still chattering about the object.

After Chen Xu called Wu Sixian today, he was not in a good mood, what Grandma Wu said was very right, but it is difficult for him to ride a tiger now, how to say if he breaks up? Say it's because you don't love? I didn't love it originally; Say it's because Zhang Dawei doesn't want to forge ahead? But Zhang Dawei is learning, regardless of the real or fake; Say that two people don't feel it? It felt ethereal. It's really annoying, if she wants to break up with Zhang Dawei, she always wants a reasonable reason, and she doesn't want to hurt their self-esteem.

Chen Xu had already made up his mind and broke up with Zhang Dawei when he went back, but it often backfired. At this moment, Zhang's mother had an accident, and when she was cleaning the corridor, she accidentally stepped on the air and fell down because she was wiping the stairs in retreat, and broke her arm, and the insurance company paid some medical expenses. Chen Xu felt that it was not appropriate to propose to break up at this time, so she bought fruits and nutritional products and went to visit Zhang Dawei's mother. Just in time for Zhang's father to complain to his wife, "You said that you too, you have to be paid for doing some work, so how can you still throw yourself down?" What now? Zhang Dawei's mother had a plaster cast on her arm, she was not sad and sad, nor did she feel cold because of her husband's words, but said optimistically: "It's okay, I can do it with one arm." ”

Zhang Dawei finally said something a little warm at this time, "Mom, your arm is like this, don't do it yet." Unexpectedly, Zhang's mother said persistently: "No, if I don't do it now, someone will replace me, and when the time comes, when I get better, this job will be gone." Chen Xu also persuaded: "Auntie, you better heal your injuries first!" Zhang's mother insisted: "It's okay, don't worry, I'm healing fast, besides, it's not a problem for me to stay at home all the time, I'm a cheap person, I can't stay." Chen Xu turned his face to look at Zhang Dawei, "Then what should I do?" Otherwise, you can help your aunt clean first, and then go by yourself when your aunt is well. Without waiting for Zhang Dawei to reply, Zhang's mother told him to speak for him quickly, "Oh, don't need him!" Let him study hard at home. Study is important, when you are admitted to the job, you can earn thousands of dollars a month like you, so do I still need to sweep the corridors? I'll just get a lighter job then. ”

Chen Xu sighed, but he still couldn't bear it after all. When Zhang's mother was cleaning the corridor with one arm, Chen Xu accompanied her when she was free. After Chen Xu finished eating after work, he accompanied Zhang's mother to do the cleaning of the corridor, and did it at nine o'clock every night, because Zhang's mother did one arm slowly during the day, so Chen Xu accompanied him to work overtime, and then took the bus back to the unit after finishing it. Chen Xu's idea was that when Zhang's mother's arm was good, he would mention breaking up by himself, otherwise it would be even worse.

On the weekends of the past two weeks, Chen Xu called his grandmother and told her that she couldn't go back, that she had work to do here, and that she actually went to help Zhang's mother work during the day on Saturdays and Sundays. One day, Zhang's mother wiped the handrail of the stairs with a rag with her uninjured hand, and Chen Xu was mopping the floor with a mop. Suddenly, a person walked down from upstairs, and Chen Xu hurriedly hid to the side to make way. Unexpectedly, the man stood on the steps and looked down condescendingly, motionless. Chen Xu saw that there was no movement for a long time, and when he looked up, he saw that the road was really narrow, and it turned out to be Yan Donglin. He saw Chen Xu standing against the wall with a mop in his hand, his hair already wet with sweat and knotted. He couldn't help but ask, "What are you doing here?" Chen Xu didn't know how to answer for a while.

Mother Zhang saw the tall Yan Donglin asking, she quickly asked, "Who are you?" Do you know us Chen Xu? Yan Donglin heard her say "We Chen Xu" and thought that this was Chen Xu's mother, so his attitude was a little slower and said: "I am Chen Xu's colleague, auntie, your arms are injured, why are you still doing this?" Zhang's mother said: "How can a poor person be so squeamish. Chen Xu didn't want to say too much, so he said to him: "Yan Donglin, are you going out?" Go over and don't delay our work. Yan Donglin stretched out his hand to take the mop in Chen Xu's hand, but Chen Xuduo dodged it and said, "No need, I'll do it myself." ”

Mother Zhang suddenly understood, it turned out that Yan Donglin was the one who had thoughts about Chen Xu, and she hurriedly said: "Chen Xu, let's hurry up and go back after finishing this!" David hasn't eaten at home yet, otherwise you give this to me, and you go back and cook something for him. Yan Donglin was not stupid, he finally understood the relationship between them, Yan Donglin snorted coldly and walked out. When Chen Xu finished his work and came down with a bucket and mop, he did see that Yan Donglin did not leave, but sat in the car and did not move. Chen Xu helped Zhang's mother put the tools back into the property and was about to leave. Yan Donglin drove to catch up with her, Chen Xu said goodbye to Zhang's mother, and walked towards the outside of the community. Yan Donglin drove and followed her, and Chen Xu finally couldn't bear to stop, "What are you going to do?" Yan Donglin said sarcastically: "Is this the life you want?" ”

Chen Xu stiffened his neck and said, "It doesn't matter to you what kind of life I choose." Yan Donglin sneered, "Are you the Holy Mother?" Are you going to help the poor? How much energy do you have? Can you bring such a family to a happy road? Originally, it didn't matter to me what kind of choice you made! But that day, it was obviously because I said a few radical words and beat the man named Dawei that you agreed to be with him in anger. I think it's foolish for you to be angry with me like that, and you don't have to prove to me that you can do well. Because from now on, it really doesn't matter to me what you do! From now on, we will be colleagues in one unit, that's all! I won't say a word to you until I have to, because I don't want to talk to idiots. That's it, you can do it yourself, if you don't want to cry stupidly, find a way to get out of the sea of suffering as soon as possible! ”