Because he was happy today, Chen Xu made two more dishes, Lin Zhiyuan looked at the four dishes on the table and said, "It seems that I am in a good mood today!" Chen Xu nodded, "Yes, I've been in a good mood lately." I have a house, I have a job, I have family, I have friends. Life is like this, what more can a husband ask for? After eating, Lin Zhiyuan took the initiative to help wash the dishes, because he came to eat once a week, and he was embarrassed to do nothing.

Chen Xu helped Lin Zhiyuan make a cup of tea. Lin Zhiyuan leaned back on the sofa comfortably, remembered Chen Xu's words before the meal, and said, "It's good to be young, it's so easy to be satisfied." Chen Xu retorted: "What does this have to do with age? My brother said that happiness is a kind of ability, and I think happiness does not depend on how much you have. People are not happy, often not because they have less, but because they want more. People who don't have money are not necessarily unhappy. ”

Lin Zhiyuan didn't want to argue, so he said, "It's good if you're happy." Chen Xu looked at him, "You want the wind to be windy, you want the rain to be rainy, what else is not satisfied, people have to be content." Lin Zhiyuan smiled bitterly and said: "I remembered a sentence in "One Hundred Years of Solitude": 'All the splendor in life will eventually be repaid with loneliness'. So, I'm alone now and I deserve it! But I don't want to accept my fate, I want to struggle. So in order to have a meal with you once in a while, I beg you cheekily. ”

Chen Xu listened to his words, was stunned for a moment, and said for a long time: "You can't admit it like that." The book "One Hundred Years of Solitude", although it is quite famous, I can't read it. I remember Mr. Lin once said to me, 'What was taken from here in the winter will be returned to you in the spring.'" She said to me, this is what a foreign poet said, and I don't really care who said it, but what it gives me encouragement and what I believe is the most important thing. I don't know if Mr. Lin has also said this to you, and now I will give it to you. ”

Lin Zhiyuan drank tea silently, and Chen Xu refilled the water for him. Lin Zhiyuan drank three cups of tea in a row before he spoke again, "Chen Xu, sometimes I'm jealous of you. Chen Xu was surprised, "What are you jealous of me?" Lin Zhiyuan sighed, "To be exact, there are many elements of envy!" You and my mother have been together for so long, and you believe every word she says unconditionally. I was cowardly when I was younger, and I felt that my mother had done so much for me, and I couldn't bear it, and I always wanted to run away. I thought I was self-reliant enough and good enough to let my mother pursue her new life and not want it to backfire. 'The son wants to raise but does not wait' is the most cruel thing. Chen Xu, I am very grateful to you, in those six years, you have rekindled my mother's hope, she not only saved you, but also saved her own beliefs and ideals. Now, she has a spirit in the sky, and she should be able to be relieved, because she has done it, because you have also done it. And a person like me, who deserves to live the rest of my life in endless remorse and torment, I don't deserve happiness and joy. ”

Regarding Lin Pei's death, Chen Xu once resented Lin Zhiyuan very much. Now listening to Lin Zhiyuan's words, her feelings are very complicated. Lin Zhiyuan is Mr. Lin's only flesh and blood, and she must very much want him to be happy. So Chen Xu cheered up and comforted him, "Teacher Lin must want you to be happy." Your happiness is her greatest wish. Lin Zhiyuan stopped talking, but sat for a while. before leaving silently.

Regarding Lin Zhiyuan's life experience, Lin Pei only told people twice: once when Lin Zhiyuan finished the high school entrance examination, he forced his mother to ask where his father was. Lin Pei felt that his son had grown up and was ready to learn the truth, and he could tell him. As a result, after telling him, Lin Zhiyuan still couldn't accept it, so he always avoided his mother; The second time was when Lin Zhiyuan injured the leader and was arrested in the detention center, Lin Pei looked for help everywhere. Because Li Na's mother gave an ultimatum, threatening Li Na to kill the child in her belly and no longer marry Lin Zhiyuan. Lin Pei returned home exhausted that day, and Chen Xu stayed with her. _____At the end of the 70s, Lin Feng caught up with the last batch of people to go to the countryside, but his mother was reluctant to let him suffer after graduating from junior high school, so Lin Pei, who was half-brother, had to replace his younger brother in the countryside.

When Lin Pei got there, he found that there were already educated youths who were doing everything possible to return to the city. With the departure of everyone, there are fewer and fewer people who know the youth. Since Lin Pei was the last to go, he had to wait until the last batch left. In the end, only she and another young man, Wu Jianguo, were left in the entire educated youth point. Wu Jianguo's family composition is not good, and he has no hope of returning to the city, so the forgotten man and woman in the Zhiqing Point came together. Since Lin Pei graduated from high school and worked as a teacher in the village's primary school, the two of them felt that since there was no hope of returning to the city, it was better to simply take root in the countryside. Because Lin Pei's mother had passed away a long time ago, her stepmother ignored her, and her father didn't care much about her. Lin Pei and Wu Jianguo decided to organize a family in the countryside, because many of the educated youths in the educated youth point could not arrange jobs when they returned to the city, and it was not easy to be unemployed at home. Just when the two were about to get married, they were strongly opposed by Lin Pei's father, first of all, he felt that Wu Jianguo's family composition was not good, and he was afraid that he would be implicated in the future when there was any movement; The second point is that once you get married, you can't go back to the city. He asked Lin Pei to be patient a little longer, but it really didn't work, and when he retired in two years, let Lin Pei take over his shift and return to the city.

But the father's opposition did not stop the two young men from getting closer and closer. Lin Pei couldn't get the household registration book and couldn't register his marriage. The surrounding villagers said to Lin Pei: "As long as you hold a ceremony, you will be married, and most rural people do this." Everyone will admit that you are husband and wife. Besides, when the two of you have a child, your father won't object, and won't it be the same if you register when the time comes? The two of them thought so. Witnessed by the surrounding villagers, Lin Pei and Wu Jianguo held a simple marriage ceremony and settled down in Zhiqing Point. Soon after, Lin Pei became pregnant. Just when the two of them were looking forward to a better life, misfortune happened. On the way to Wu Jianguo to buy canned food for Lin Pei in the supply and marketing cooperative, he met a few little hooligans molesting a teenage girl, Wu Jianguo roared when he saw the injustice, and several little hooligans pointed the finger at him, and under the beating of several people, Wu Jianguo was injured, and he resisted desperately. At this point, the little girl took the opportunity to escape.

Someone called the police to report that there had been a fight, so both parties were arrested and taken to the detention center. Lin Pei thought that it was at best a mutual assault incident, and he would release it if he found out the facts. Unexpectedly, only two days later, I received a notice from the detention center, saying that Wu Jianguo committed suicide in fear of crime. Lin Pei's tears were about to drain, she didn't believe that Wu Jianguo, who was full of longing for a new life, could commit suicide, but no one paid attention to her. Lin Pei, who was about to give birth, had no choice but to bury Wu Jianguo silently.

Father Lin rushed over to visit Lin Pei when he heard the news and wanted to bring her home, on the premise that the child must be killed. Lin Pei's attitude was very resolute, and he said that he would keep this child anyway. In Father Lin's opinion, if he didn't register, he was unmarried, and he gave birth to such a child without marriage, and Father Lin really couldn't accept it. He was so angry that he almost fainted, and cut off relations with her in a fit of rage. Lin Pei was the last group to return to the city, it was very difficult for her to make a living with her children, her father hated her for being disobedient, and when he retired, he did not let Lin Pei take over, but gave the opportunity to his son Lin Feng. In order to feed his children, Lin Pei looked for all kinds of work to do, and when he couldn't eat, he went to sell blood more than once. Later, she was admitted to the normal school. When I take my children to school, I put them in a farmer's house near the school, and I save part of the school's stipend, plus the money from selling blood, and give it to the family who cares for the child. Three years later, she graduated and was assigned a job to take the child to herself. Lin Pei is very fond of Lin Zhiyuan, although Lin Zhiyuan does not have a father, but he is optimistic and cheerful, and it is better to study sports well. During this period, some people also pursued Lin Pei, but she refused. Because Lin Zhiyuan studied in his mother's class when he was a child, no one questioned his life experience. It wasn't until he was in junior high school that he encountered such a problem. At the end of the high school entrance examination, Lin Pei couldn't explain what he asked, and he couldn't make it up, so he told him the truth of the matter. Lin Zhiyuan couldn't accept it from his heart, so he slowly alienated his mother, simply went to live in high school, and rarely went home when he was in college.

Lin Zhiyuan is as upright, kind and heroic as his father, he studied law when he was in college, and after graduation, he was admitted to the Longcheng Court, but he didn't expect to be brushed down because of unqualified political trials, the reason is his father. This night, Chen Xu and Lin Zhiyuan both remembered this past.