"Speak quickly, we all have many ears pricked up to listen."

"Don't! It's not a big deal, you can't gossip about anything other than men! ”

"Nothing else is interesting."

A bunch of people were chattering and urging a girl in the dormitory to tell a story, or to be precise, to hear a story about the boys.

Xinghe didn't have the heart to talk about this, she was thinking about what she should do after graduation, what kind of work she should do to avoid the elimination of this society, she was planning to be like this in two years, but she still didn't have a very firm goal, she still chose to live a stable life after thinking about it.

She has no resources, no connections, doesn't want to fight her father, and doesn't want to take shortcuts.

Think that I haven't been in contact with my father for a long time, and if I don't get in touch, any feelings will fade.

The harm and influence brought by the original family, she thinks that she has been inferior all her life, she can't hold her head up, and her personality is inferior to the bones, and it is very difficult to live in any era and dynasty.

Sensitive heart, enjoy loneliness, love to stay alone in the room, close yourself, can talk to people very well, can be very good to observe words and feelings, unconsciously, there are two personalities in the body: sunny and cheerful, dark and closed.

With the face of different people, they will instinctively present different impressions.

"If I could, please let someone a few years older than me teach me how to grow, how to face the bottlenecks of different periods, and how to face the gossip and bad words of the outside world. And this person must have gone through the ordeal himself, walked through the haze, and worked hard to move towards the sun. ”

And the most suitable candidate is Brother Bing.

may have missed Chen Bei, and no matter who he met, he was not as amazing as he was at that time, and he always felt that something was almost something, but he couldn't say it.

When Xinghe was in his senior year, he was still very confused about graduation, after all, Brother Bing entered the society earlier than her.

It's impossible to have no feelings in the middle, as I get older, I understand more and more that it is possible to have a picture in the relationship, to figure his experience, to figure his blood, even if someone puts a gun to his head, he can still hold on without blinking.

She hasn't opened her heart to anyone for a long time, and after meeting Brother Bing, everything is logical, online dating appeared, and she met his family by the way.

The speed was beyond her control.

However, in the process of getting along with Brother Bing, there are indeed some uncomfortable things for Xinghe, he is relatively strong, probably because he has been a soldier, he can't notice some subtle changes in Xinghe's emotions, but Xinghe is too well disguised, she has been wearing a mask for a long time, she is used to acting, and she doesn't need anyone to suddenly discover her emotions, she just needs to be alone, digest and heal herself.

The creature of a man, can't get used to it, the better it is for him, the better it is for him, when he thinks you are cheap, easy to deceive, and has a feeling of licking a dog, when life does not revolve around him, and does not take care of all of him, he instead leans over with his face and asks for warmth, you are used to the state of mind that is at ease with what you encounter, he will follow your old path at this time, and please you in every possible way, which is really ironic, is this human nature or rules?

Loving yourself is the beginning of a lifelong romance, and love is just the icing on the cake, the galaxy does not make trouble, does not do, will not be coquettish, will not be pampered, has no desires, has no fear, even if Brother Bing leaves at this time, she can live a good life alone, and making herself happy is a lifelong event.

"Have you ever tried to have a few moments in a day where you feel like crying for no reason?"

In the past week, Galaxy has experienced another crash, a multi-day crash, and there is such a crash every year, also in May, starting in the second year of high school.

Xinghe In the course of seven days, she thought about dying three times, since she would die in the end, why not let the pain end early, what were she waiting for, and she was not waiting for anything.

She can fall asleep anywhere but in bed, but once she lies in bed, many things toss back and forth in her heart, and she can't get rid of it.

Is it too idle, isn't it, it's also in class every day, of course, the state of listening to the class is not good, almost all of it depends on distraction.

The biggest annoyance is that I don't have much money in my hand, and I am embarrassed to ask for it from my family, thinking that Brother Bing can wake up and help after paying his salary, but after waiting for a few days, there is really no movement.

Since Xinghe experienced Beisheng's inferiority complex, she never dared to mention money to any of her partners, it was a hurdle that she could never get over, she didn't want people to say that she valued material things and money, and she didn't want the people she liked to be pressured, and she was used to being "sensible" and couldn't change it.

Xinghe really had to open his mouth to him, but people said that the salary was paid, but it was gone, Xinghe's heart was dead at that time, and sure enough, the man's mouth was always deceiving, and he said something like "I'm sorry", "Can I ignore you?" ”

Oh, that's the tube! Mouth tube it!

The next day, Xinghe still opened his mouth to his father, and his father directly said that he would send him the card number, and Xinghe didn't care about replying in class at that time, and when she got out of class, she received a transfer message from her father.

Dad, after all, is Dad.

If you really want to help, ask what the extra is for! Claiming that he is old, how mature he is, well, he is indeed mature, thinking that this little girl is really easy to deceive, it didn't cost a penny to cheat, and it cost her hundreds of dollars.

Yes, Xinghe roughly calculated, if she didn't go out to play and didn't give him red envelopes, she would still have 500 yuan, and she could live in school for a month for this 500 yuan.

The two of them are persuading her to break up, so they should buy a lesson and grow wise.

In the future, I will no longer be stupid, I will no longer be soft-hearted, and I will no longer be cheap.

Xinghe was unwilling in the end, she wanted to recover the money and break up, or change something of equivalent value and come back and break up. Anyway, she suffered a big loss.

Her past, her future, has never been her alone.

Since I didn't think about having something with him, there is no fantasy, no extravagance, this is to protect myself, after all, there is only half a life, and half a heart must not die like this.

It's really not hypocrisy, the last straw that crushes the camel is always a trivial matter, don't know the suffering of others, don't persuade others to be kind. If it were him, he might not be alive.

Xinghe still wants to struggle for a few years before getting married, she wants to buy a house of her own, give herself a home, let herself have some savings, and have the confidence to marry again.

Or die alone.

After all, it takes a lot of courage to start a new family, and she is worried that her husband in the future will divorce, remarry, divorce, and remarry like her father.

She doesn't want her children to spend their whole lives healing their childhood.

She didn't want to have children.